The blog of Scott Goldsmith. Not a RP blog, I'm a fictive! I'm also pretty much every Scott, just primarily VSMP.
Bodily 22, actually 1628.
Methuselah. Coven mama-bear. Host and NPD and BPD symptom holder of a traumagenic system.
In simple terms, better than you. Stronger than you. Prettier than you. Richer than you.
Arospec + Gay + Poly
DMs open. Sourcemates are invited to interact, no doubles.
Minors DNI, occasional nsft under the #goldsmith: spicy tag. Not a top, sorry (not sorry) to disappoint. I don't care about syscourse, I don't participate in it and have no opinions on that front.
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Scott Goldsmith’s Native Environment is a Horrible Murder Box
this has consequences
Vampires smp was originally billed as an amongus alike with light roleplay elements, so Scott Smajor basically just took a pile of life series conventions and built a character around it.
The life series, for the uninitiated, is a competitive minecraft youtube series where everyone has a limited number of lives (times they can die), and the goal is to be the last one standing. The mechanics gradually allow more murder to happen over time, so everything starts with people making nice with each other and ends with an absolute bloodbath. The tone is kept light by the mutual acknowledgment that everyone is a youtuber playing minecraft, but there has been plenty of discussion about how much actually living in that kind of world would suck.
And then we have Scott Goldsmith
Scott Goldsmith, who wasn’t intended to be much of a character in the first place, winds up playing the life series conventions to the hilt as genuine character traits and social standards. For the most part, this worked out incredibly well! Scott Goldsmith is an interesting character that works well with the rest of the cast and is fun to watch, which is basically everything you can ask for in an improv series. There are, however, some artifacts from this that have some big impacts on how Scott works.
Most notably, Scott Goldsmith works from the baseline assumption that he will have to crawl over the bodies of other people to survive, and that that’s just normal. It’s not even anyone’s fault. Everyone lives in a horrible murder box and the only way to succeed is to make sure that it’s you on top.
(this doesn’t stick out too badly because noble power games are frequently just a slightly more free range murder box, so Goldsmith being murderbox georg does not particularly contradict his lore or backstory)
The other major consequence of murder boxes being Scott Goldsmith’s main thing is that Scott actually follows a fairly rigid set of rules and assumptions when dealing with other people. His own personal vampire code, if you will.
The code of Scott Goldsmith is as follows:
1: The in group deserves everything and the outgroup deserves nothing. Everything the in group does is good and justified, everything the outgroup does is not.
This is the bedrock of the gaslight, gatekeep, goldsmith social interaction special, and the governing principal behind what Scott is willing to justify and when. Basically, if he or someone he likes did it, then he will defend it and deny even the concept that it might have been wrongdoing. People that are not members of his coven generally have their actions weighed by how dangerous or inconvenient they are to himself or His People.
The most obvious example of this is the interactions with v!Avid in episode 6 and 7. In episode 6, he complains about Avid burning down Shelby’s house, but in episode 7 he defends it by claiming that “it was ugly”. The same instance of the same action performed by the same person goes from something worth complaining about to something worth defending based entirely on where they stand in Scott’s regard.
Note also that this rule has no interest in fairness or reality. If Shelby says “the sky is green and the moon is made of cheese”, and Martyn says “no it's not”, then Scott will back up Shelby because Shelby is coven and Martyn is not. If Shelby kills Martyn, Scott will immediately decide that Martyn had it coming. If Shelby kills Martyn, burns down the town, and declares her desire to destroy the world and rule over the ashes with an iron fist, Scott will fully support her in that endeavor.
2: A lone vampire is a dead vampire. Your power is directly proportional to the number of people that answer to you
On one level, this is just mechanically true for vampires smp. Every person turned is another set of hands that can corrupt the beacons, and, just as importantly, one more person taken away from the effort to consecrate them. Even if that person never switches sides, the fact that they can’t consecrate any more or use the various human powers makes it a worthwhile effort, which is why there was a general OOC limit to turning only one human per episode. (and they had to take a break from turning people if they accidentally turned too many)
a more character driven level, Scott is very much a social threat, and acts the part. Turning people lets him acquire minions, who are easier to manage than outsiders, and generally aren’t going to cause him problems.
Vampirism is generally more then enough to force someone into his faction, because once someone is turned the humans will do the bulk of the work in driving the new vampire away from them and into Scott’s waiting arms. It’s a phenomena Scott is very confident about and takes shameless advantage of.
This is also why in episodes where Scott doesn’t turn anyone (due to the OOC limits), it’s styled as him stopping because the new vampires aren’t joining up- growing his power base is the main benefit of turning new vampires, and when that peters out he becomes more hesitant to do so.
3. Your actions should always advance your agenda
In other words, Scott mixes business and pleasure in the sense that his hobbies always contain some practical value.
This is, honestly, the one Scott haters get wrong the most. While there’s nothing wrong with having a villain in your story, Scott isn’t the sort of person to torture someone in his basement for the sake of it when he could be torturing someone in his basement for information, or to break them down into something more psychologically dependent on him.
Even if recreation is his main goal, he should ideally have a secondary goal as a matter of both practicality and preference- it’s just more fun for him if he’s being paid to be evil. (or buy some ice cream. Or pet a dog. Or help someone out)
4. Betrayal is a crime of the highest order. Loyalty is a virtue of the highest order.
What, exactly, Scott considers betrayal varies over the course of the series, but this is generally the governing principal behind the various times he menaced Pyro, why he didn’t see v!Avid’s murder coming, and why he was both so pleased with v!Avid and so angered by his death.
Scott Goldsmith values loyalty, and to a degree both expects it as his due and considers it an obligation to give loyalty in turn. This isn’t surprising- most Scott Smajor characters run along lines of loyalty and devotion. Scott Goldsmith is not an exception just because he is also a Dracula.
5. Support your allies however you can
Scott is, in fact, an incredibly dedicated ally. He does things like give Pyro food while having low hunger himself as early as episode 2, and the tendency to act like that only goes up over time.
This makes a certain amount of sense- helping other members of your faction also helps you because you’re all working together for a single goal. In Scott’s case this is especially true, since as the leader he’s deciding a disproportionate amount of the group’s goals. A well fed minion is a productive minion. A productive minion is a lot more likely to succeed at your goals.
This one is the part that can be the hardest to reconcile with Scott’s everything else. However, it’s important to remember that Scott is not immune to the desire for companionship, and also that he actually needs to keep people on side in order to not die. In some ways, this is very much an extension of rule 2.
6. (new) be a good friend
Over the course of the series, Scott gradually gets attached to the other vampires, and comes to see them as companions with needs he should consider outside of their mutual victory. He realizes that he likes the people around him, and he wants them to be happy. That he cares about them as people, and not just as tools.
The process of this takes the entire series, but by the end of it his friends are a big enough priority that he points out opportunities to escape to his own detriment.
In conclusion:
1. Scott’s core character concept is “guy that is trying to get a good grade in Minecraft Hunger Games, something that is normal to want and possible to achieve”
2. Scott Goldsmith does not so much have a moral compass as he has a set of rules designed to keep him alive. The bad parts of this are obvious, but there are good parts, too: when it mattered most, Scott was able to change and grow to suit the people around him. Owen and Ren, by contrast, violently self destructed and that hurt the people around them because they were too rigid in their personal convictions.
3. The support he offers to other people in the coven is real and sincerely meant. The expectation that those coven members will aid and abet his own misdeeds is also very real. Scott himself doesn’t recognize the difference until the end of the series, where he asks Abolish to stop him from doing bad things.
4. The finale of vampires smp from Scott’s pov very much pivots around v!Avid’s death. It turns out that the rules that Scott shaped himself around weren’t as ironclad as he thought, because the people around him would literally rather die than put up with them. The mechanics that demand violence and bloodshed can be subverted in a way that causes unnecessary death and suffering.
And, to be clear, Owen and Pyro are dead to him as soon as they do this. In part because he’s planning on killing them himself, yes, but also because their actions are tactical suicide.
When he next talks to Pyro in what is basically his eulogy, Scott thanks him for the reminder that he should expect death and misery, because as far as he’s concerned death and misery are the normal course of events. Scott was winning so much he forgot that murder boxes suck, actually.
This is increasingly a problem because, by the laws of murderboxes, Shelby and Drift are almost certainly going to die- they both struggle with pvp, don’t have the aggression to cover for it, and with Pyro and Owen lost they don’t have enough front liners to cover their weaknesses. If things continue the way they’re “supposed” to, more people that Scott cares about are going to die.
So, Scott starts looking for another way out. After all, if the rules can be broken in ways that are bad, maybe they can be broken in ways that are good. Maybe they don’t have to kill everyone. Maybe murderboxes are bullshit, and all of this was entirely unnecessary.
So he starts looking, and, surprisingly enough, there is a path out. It’s not easy or bloodless, but it is a strict improvement over the status quo. It’s an option that keeps his friends alive.
Of course, just leaving this murderbox isn’t enough. Scott still has to deconstruct the murderbox in his own head, because otherwise his actions will simply create another murderbox around him.
That’s a bad outcome, so he enlists Abolish to kill him if he starts causing problems. Scott’s not great with morals, but he’s excellent with rules and practical consequences. So long as backsliding into the worst of his old behavior is guaranteed to go badly for him, he can be fairly sure that he won’t do that.
Actually figuring out how to be a functional person outside of the torment nexus is basically an entire novella’s worth of character development that the series doesn’t have time for, so instead it settles on “they figured it out eventually”.
my first day fronting as an alter was spent graduating from university. it was very eventful and very tiring, not particularly enjoyable either. but it was... nice. i didn't even graduate from high school in my memories. i didn't get to, i was too sick. but now i'm an anthropologist? i guess i'm an anthropologist.
i... don't know if i want to be an anthropologist, but holding a bachelor's degree is very cool. i know our system has worked so hard for it. had more breakdowns than we can count. working our already chronically ill body to its limits. we sacrificed our health and sanity for this degree, and now we have it.
i'm not sure what we are going to do with our life now... a majority of our alters seem interested in creating content. what we would create differs among them, some want to create informative content, some gaming, some lifestyle. i don't know what *i* want to do. i mean, i've only existed for like... two days?
i was an artist. a painter. i've tried doing some digital art, but so far haven't felt any pleasure from it. but maybe we are too tired... maybe we shouldn't be leaving our bed at all. we are always on the verge of falling asleep, lately, limbs in constant pain. it's familiar.
kind of funny how our mother doesn't believe anything is wrong with us, and constantly is trying to push us to our body's limits, when in my source my mother was overprotective to a damaging degree. this mother thinks i am exaggerating when i say i'm in pain, or when i'm tired. when i'm sick, she thinks i say it to get out of responsibilities. it's so different from my mum.
i'm usually such a night owl, at least in my memories. but we have been having such a difficult time being awake, that i'm certain i'll pass out as soon as it's dark. i'm having trouble not passing out now. it's a shame, i love the quiet peace nights have.
oh! what's also really nice is that i get to just have friends? i don't have to do anything, i have people who want to get to know me and talk to me. it's really cool. i want to bask in my friends' attention forever. but i'm too tired to hang out as much as i want to. too tired for everything.
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tabitha here. i use both she/her and he/him pronouns but for the love of god please stick to only one at a time. if you use she and he in the same sentence it's confusing af in my opinion. i don't find it "more affirming" to have both represented equally, it's more of a pick what you want situation. i don't care.
i know a lot of people want both, and good for you guys, but for the love of fuck please make it clear who you're talking about.
unless we do something, we are going to be in the situation i was in during my source.
carrying a family legacy that i don't enjoy, that i only carry out of responsibility. as my duty. the fear of disappointing others, alive or dead, hanging over me.
except we won't even be alone. i only had pearlanne, and she was awful, but it was just her. and she died, so it was just me. there was an additional feeling of responsibility that came from that, but also the only voice who constantly criticised me became my own inner voice.
this won't be like that. the family is huge. there's always going to be voices, there's always going to be someone who says i'm not good enough. who will try to prevent me from becoming the real me, because then it will contradict the version of me they have in their heads. that they are convinced they love, so me changing that in any way will make me the bad guy for taking the person they love away.
i know we need to get out. but i can't stop thinking about the voices, the words, that disapproving gossip. gossip i grew up with from a young age, that i listened and listened about others. other members of the family who pulled away the tiniest bit to get their independence. family members who didn't visit enough, who didn't get together enough. if that is enough to incite gossip and criticism, what will they say about me? about us?
sometimes it feels easier to just stay the way we are, go along with their expectations forever. be miserable, but emotionally safe. continue to be the good kid, the model kid. they would praise me while talking badly about others, talking about how much better i am. when they do it, a surge of guilt fills me for knowing we are going to leave one day.
if i'm good, i can also keep their financial support, i can inherit land and gold. i am a baby crawling on the floor, i was never taught how to walk, yet to escape means to run. i was not raised to be completely independent. i am just caught in a stream of family expectations and obligations, i am not picking where to swim. i don't know how to.
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hello, tabitha (she/he) here. i'm a new split, fictive from scarlet hollow. idk if any of you have played it, i doubt you have.
scott was playing scarlet hollow, and i'm the mc's cousin in the game. i guess he got really into character cause now i'm here and i'm his cousin?
i mean. not really his cousin. he's like a thousand years old and i'm 26, but i'm distantly related apparently, from his actual cousin.
not that i was told this. i guess he was a family secret. i knew i had a cousin named scott, i was told that by pearlanne, my mother, since i was little. i don't know if he was known as cousin to every member of my family or something, but i had no idea he was like... very old. but i guess that's just another family secret piled onto many.
you invite your mysterious cousin to your town for your mother's funeral, because as far as you know, he's your only other alive family member. then scott goldsmith shows up.
continuation of valentino's summer perfume adventure, ft. not valentino.
we decided to order testers for four different perfumes:
1) tom ford - soleil blanc
2) maison margiela - replica: beach walk
3) juliette has a gun - lust for sun
and unrelated to the summer theme,
4) argos - triumph of bacchus (we would be hard pressed to not try that one when we have a dionysos in our system)
unlike last time, we will be trying the perfumes in different posts so that we don't go nose blind. we didn't last time, but i think we should give them their time.
when i first sprayed this, i thought "oh boy, this is not for me at all". all i could smell was citrus, lemon and tangerine. i am not a citrus person, i find the smell of oranges and tangerines to be gross (to the extent i cannot even eat or drink anything with a hint of them) though lemon i can stand a bit more. it was very surprising, because the only citrus note i saw in the listing was bergamot.
a few minutes passed, and i gave it another smell. now it had turned into a coconut and tuberose heavy scent with a hint of lemon and ylang ylang. maybe a little bit of jasmine? it smelled just like sunscreen, one of those bougie ones with skincare benefits. that was a positive for me, i was looking for a sunscreen scent.
for hours and hours, it stayed exactly like that. 6 hours after my initial spray, i only smell amber and tuberose. the coconut completely disappeared.
while this smells very pleasant, it's nothing particularly interesting. i'm going to use up the sample that i do have, but i don't think it's worth the money for a full bottle. so far, i wanted both of the scents that i have tried to have more fruit notes than they do, and i think ylang ylang is a more interesting floral than tuberose. but this smells more like sunscreen than beach walk.
continuation of valentino's summer perfume adventure, ft. not valentino.
we decided to order testers for four different perfumes:
1) tom ford - soleil blanc
2) maison margiela - replica: beach walk
3) juliette has a gun - lust for sun
and unrelated to the summer theme,
4) argos - triumph of bacchus (we would be hard pressed to not try that one when we have a dionysos in our system)
unlike last time, we will be trying the perfumes in different posts so that we don't go nose blind. we didn't last time, but i think we should give them their time.
this is a very floral summer perfume. upon initial spray, i can mainly smell coconut and ylang ylang with perhaps just a hint of lemon.
there is a hint of seasalt, perhaps.
for me, it is like a beachy chanel no.5 almost. i believe this is due to the ylang ylang which both perfumes feature. chanel no.5 has a lot of haters (i am not one of them, we adore it) but i don't think its haters would hate beach walk despite their similar DNA. for one, beach walk does not have aldehydrates or a powderiness that gives chanel no.5 the "grandma" feel.
but it still does smell vintage to me. which does not surprise, because its inspiration is the calvi beach in 1972. to me, the scent evokes the feeling of looking through your older relatives' beach pictures. it's warm, it's pleasant.
as it sits, the bergamot comes through to me more and the coconut loses its power, though it does not disappear completely. alongside the lemon, it becomes a floral citrus scent.
8 hours later, the coconut became completely lost, the ylang ylang turned subtle, and the scent became one primarily of bergamot and lemon. still enjoyable, but not as much as the initial spray.
continuation of valentino's summer perfume adventure, ft. not valentino.
we decided to order testers for four different perfumes:
1) tom ford - soleil blanc
2) maison margiela - replica: beach walk
3) juliette has a gun - lust for sun
and unrelated to the summer theme,
4) argos - triumph of bacchus (we would be hard pressed to not try that one when we have a dionysos in our system)
unlike last time, we will be trying the perfumes in different posts so that we don't go nose blind. we didn't last time, but i think we should give them their time.
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what are you meant to do when you do put on your sunscreen like a responsible person, then you end up sweating so much that it washes off so you end up burning anyway