Yeah, so I feel like one of the scariest moments of my life just happened. So my friend was saying stuff like, I wanna dieā and the gen kind of gen z humor, but she was saying stuff like,Ā āwhat if I died right now,ā or,Ā āwhatās stopping meā and I was trying to boost her spirits a little, and show her how great she was, but she wouldnāt believe me, and I expected her to kind of deflect all of my compliments. It makes me sad that she can't see how beautiful she is. Anyway, she left off saying that she was kind an ass, just another statement not believing me, and after I typed out a paragraph about how great she was as I had beenĀ doing, and she didnāt see that text, or the next one, or the next two short ones. Then I went to her private dmās (we had been in a groupchat) and I send a bunch of love memes first, then I sent her a bunch of little texts because I was panickingĀ big time. I was thinking how if she really did commit suicide if I would find out that weekend, would my mo tell me, what would school be like, could I ever even recover, could I, how I wouldnāt stop crying for months, and just the thought of my life without her, I was so scared, she still wasn't responding, and I started to cry, not too hard or loud, but I was crying, think of life without her. I think that was my first ever true breakdown, gosh I was so terrified that something happened, that I would never get to hug her, or laugh with her, or that everything she wanted to do in the future wouldnāt happen. She responded 26 minutes later. She was okay, she apologized for scaring me, but we talked for a long time after that, I told her that If she was ever feeling like that again, if she was sad, if she was having a panic attack, I asked her to tell me, or at least our friends. At that moment, I feltĀ more scared than I ever had in my life. To anyone that sees this, I need you to know that I love you, and there are other people in your life that loveĀ you more than you could ever think someone could, there are people in your life where their world would crumble if you left it, that just the thought of you taking your life brings them to tears. If any of you need it, if you feel alone, if you need some to talk to, or maybe just to listen. Please talk to me, I need you to talk to me, or someone you know can help you, because I want, so badly to try to help you to feel better. Even if itās just a little bit. I love you so much, I want you to live, I need you to live, it can get better, just live for it, please.Ā