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Ive gotten comments on how to use/download:

Instructions on how to use: (im on mobile) click and hold the divider you want to download and a menh should pop up to save image, then it’ll be in your photos gallery. For non mobile devices google “how to download image for (insert device)” and done!

Basically made up of some iconic Disney Channel original movies and junk

The main picks I chose were Teen beach movies, Highschool musical, and ZOMBIES

I COULD do descendants but I wonder how the hell that dorms lore would work given….everything twst is about

YOI episodes on my personal google drive.

I have both the TV version and the Bluray version there.

TV version is in Japanese with subtitles.

Bluray is dual audio, English and Japanese. If you download it and use a media player that allows it, you can choose which audio to use, and if to show subtitles or not.

I was asked to create one with only English dub, so there's a BDrip folder where I removed the Japanese audio and it's just English.

for victor that idea is that of banquet yuuri

for yuuri it's childhood idol victor

they're both infatuated with a version of the other that's only conditionally present, short lived, made up or exaggerated. and the story makes a point to actively THWART the possibility of love at first sight. it keeps insisting that it's not love. not yet.

but it's not nothing. they are unquestionably drawn to each other. esp bc the other represents to them something they're yearning in themselves: yuuri is to victor connection, passion, and the feeling of aliveness that he'd become so numb to, so devoid of. victor represents a voice for self-validation, of acceptance from an opinion that seems to matter well above yuuri's own.

but just bc they want that doesn't mean they know how to get it or even accept it for what it is. they constantly miscalculate their moves and misunderstand and upset each other.

but they keep at it. and it grows into something more. the shift is so evident as they go through the motions of GPF. we see their relationship become one of easy familiarity. and you can tell what it is now, without them having to say it to each other or to us. they show us a love story just by building a special relationship and showing why it should matter.

rest stops on highways

trails by the highway just out of earshot of traffic

schools during breaks

those little beaches right next to ferry docks

your friends living room once everybody but you is asleep

the lighting section of home depot

A lot of these places are called liminal spaces - which means they are throughways from one space to the next. Places like rest stops, stairwells, trains, parking lots, waiting rooms, airports feel weird when you’re in them because their existence is not about themselves, but the things before and after them. They have no definitive place outside of their relationship to the spaces you are coming from and going to. Reality feels altered here because we’re not really supposed to be in them for a long time for think about them as their own entities, and when we do they seem odd and out of place.

The other spaces feel weird because our brains are hard-wired for context - we like things to belong to a certain place and time and when we experience those things outside of the context our brains have developed for them, our brains are like NOPE SHIT THIS ISN’T RIGHT GET OUT ABORT ABORT. Schools not in session, empty museums, being awake when other people are asleep - all these things and spaces feel weird because our brain is like “I already have a context for this space and this is not it so it must be dangerous.” Our rational understanding can sometimes override that immediate “danger” impulse but we’re still left with a feeling of wariness and unease. 

Cat: Meow.

Jade: So it was just a dog.

yes (as a joke)

yes (seriously)

no