I never pick the same song twice at karaoke I never take off my rain boots without thanking them first I don’t tell people I love them unless I plan on not seeing them again Once I chose my name & I’ve been running ever since Once I begged the door to open & the door made no answer So now I don’t bet more than what’s in my pocket I take pride in consistently beating every man in my life at poker I buy plants I know I won’t keep alive I refuse to look my pharmacist in the eye Once I was born with my fists in the air & I’ve been apologising ever since So now I don’t ask for favours I can’t repay I don’t visit my body without spending the next day in recovery I never forget my lip balm at home I own a dozen mouse traps just in case Once I wanted better & everything went downhill from there Once I believed in angels & lost a good penny in the crevice of that belief Once I forgave the war but not my father & Yes I have wanted something from the beginning of everything but it was only when I opened my mouth to ask for it that I realised it wasn’t touch