adhd

i’ll just say it honestly. this isn’t meant to be a brag in any way, positive in any way, or make anyone feel bad about themselves in any way possible. i’m significantly underweight. i’m 92 pounds at 5’4”, exhausted 24/7, don’t work out enough in fear of losing the calories i try so hard to consume, overeat junk food in an attempt to gain any weight whatsoever, and so, so much more. i’m always trying to eat more and more, but with a combination of prescribed medications that reduce appetite as a side effect, a frankly horrible sleep schedule that means i often end up eating 2 meals a day because of how late i go to bed and get up in the morning, constant work and projects to do that occupy me so heavily i frequently forget to eat anything, a constant lack of high-calorie foods in the house that leads me to just grab random fruits and vegetables when i’m hungry, i haven’t been able to gain enough weight in years. but the reason i’m posting this isn’t all of that. the reason i’m posting this is the fact that i have to put that disclaimer at the start in the first place. i shouldn’t have to say that my health issue that’s significantly affecting my life isn’t meant to be a brag. i shouldn’t have to say that my problem that makes doctors sigh and shake their heads when i step on the scale at their office isn’t trying to make people feel bad about themselves. i shouldn’t have to feel bad for posting about the fact that i’m unhealthy. but i do. because this is the world that we live in. if you are someone who is insecure about your body and you have read this far, please understand that all this isn’t healthy. i know it’s probably self-explanatory from everything i’ve said above, but i constantly see videos from creators who are similarly underweight or similarly can’t eat enough with comments like “I wish I had your problem” repeated over and over. i can’t stress enough that the bodies you see on the internet aren’t what you should be trying to achieve. if you can’t see your ribcage when you inhale, that doesn’t mean you’re fat or overweight or anything like that, it means you’re healthy. if you can and you’re still trying to lose more weight, know that you’ve gone far enough already. you’ve reached your goals. now you need to take a step backwards and you’ve done it all the way. but most importantly, if you’ve been trying like me and you still can, don’t hate yourself for it. i’ve gotten over hating myself and my body for how it looks and its issues. your life will be so much better once you accept yours and let it work together with you.

I could easily cut my hair short, stop wearing makeup, go off to do voice training and masculinize the way I talk, get top surgery once I turn 18, stop wearing dresses, etc., but then I’m not me anymore. to be myself I can’t be myself. and there’s nothing I can do about it.

(also any other camp augusta folks on this platform?? 👀)

god, I love this show

and i couldn’t be more excited to see how it all ends

also please check out my other poll on his gender identity: https://www.tumblr.com/lgbtqiafrog/818565257761030144/ok-guys-please-help-what-do-you-headcanon-jaxs?source=share

also please check out my other poll on his sexuality: https://www.tumblr.com/lgbtqiafrog/818565646637006848/ok-guys-please-help-what-do-you-headcanon-jaxs?source=share

fuck

WTF