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❝    what  have  you  ever  done  to  earn  it?   ❞         she  instantly  shoots  back,         voice  shaky  yet  STERN,      something  she’s  perfected  in  most  arguments  with  her  father.          ❝     how  am  i  supposed  to  believe  that?        with  no  proof,       no  contact,       no  nothing!     i  couldn’t!       i  saw  you  hiding  a  body,    ❞        she  reminded  him.         ❝    and  i  hadn’t  spoken  to  mom  in  months.        i'm  not  CRAZY  for  wondering.    ❞          she  wouldn’t  stop  reminding  him  of  that.       eyes  look  up  at  the  ceiling,      her  head  shaking  slowly.         ❝    you  have  to  say  that.      you’re  the  mayor.     it’s  your  job.       but  i’m  not  random  citizens  of  this  town      ------      i’m  your  daughter.      DON’T   lie  to  me.    ❞        she  knows  better  than  him,       she’s  seen  all  of  this  first  hand.          ❝     don’t  you  get  it?       MURDER  is  the  normal  here.   ❞ 

❝   he  made  you  feel  good.       he  made  you  feel  normal,    ❞         she  notes,      mostly  out  of  her  own  experience.      it’s  how  ash  always  made  her  feel,      as  if  she  was  always  such  an  EMPTY  GIRL  yet  whenever  ash  was  around,      she  finally  felt  whole  again.         he  could  fill   the  void,       yet  when  he  was  GONE,      she  felt  like  nothing  again       (     she  felt  helpless.    )        and  maybe  that’s  the  same  way  for  hailey,     she  can  understand  that.         she  knows  what  it’s  like  to  try  to  hold  on  so  tightly  to  the  one  good  thing  you’ve  got,     even  if  logic  tells  you  it’s  wrong.         ❝    you’re  not    -----      you’re  not  the  only  one.       it’s  happening  to  all  of  us.       hailey,      you’re  not  alone,    ❞         she  reminds  her,     eyes  shooting  back  up  at  her.       ❝    so  don’t  .    .    .         don’t  leave  us  here  without  you.       we  can’t  go  through  it  together  if  you’re  not  here.    ❞          it’s  her  way  of  saying  PLEASE  DON’T  GO,       I  DON’T  WANT  TO  DO  THIS  WITHOUT  YOU.       she  never  imagined  having  a  friend  like  hailey,     but  now  that  she  has  her,      she  can’t  let  go.          her  head  falls  back,      a  sigh  leaving  her  lips.        ❝    they’re  tormenting  us  online  too.       we  can’t  escape  that.      they’ll  just    -----      ❞       find  us  again.       she  doesn’t  want  to  say  it  out  loud.        ❝    i  wish  it  could,    ❞        she  speaks  softly.         ❝   it  has  to.   ❞  

❝    ----    it’s fine.   ❞         every time he’s harsh with nolan,      he always wants to reel it back in immediately.       he knows that nolan is probably just as lost as him      (     even MORE so    )          and if he knows how difficult it is for him to get through this,      he can’t imagine what nolan’s feeling like either.      they have to stick together;      tearing nolan down will do him no good.      he can’t help but wonder if nolan NEEDS to talk about it   -----    sometimes gabe feels like he should stop bottling it up,      worried that it might combust later in a disastrous way,      yet he can’t force himself to do that.     it’s too daunting,     the thought of actually reliving all the things they’ve been forced to do.      head tilts up,     eyes looking back at him as he realizes what nolan is doing  - ----   at least from what he’s seeing.      and gabe cares whether or not nolan lives,   too.         ❝   dude,    we’re not going to.      not if we stick with them.      that’s what they’re doing  -----   right?    keeping us alive?    ❞       RIGHT? 

❝     GOOD QUESTION.      i’m the better option.   ❞        but insecurites have reminded him that he’s clearly not,       not if liam has beat him out and he can’t seem to work around it,     even when liam’s absent.        ❝   kind’ve ironic to me.      captain doesn’t show up to practice,      but coach praises him anyway.       you and finnstock got some secret deal worked out or what?    ❞       it’s what he tells himself to convince himself it’s not his fault he’s not captain like he always should have been    (    his mother’s voice rings in his ears.    )    

                                           mouth  dropped  slightly,       but  she  soon  shook  her  head.        ❝    there’s  more  than  even  i understand  yet,      but    ——    i  don’t  know  if  we’re  all  just  BLIND.       more  like     .    .   .       hesitant  to  believe  in  something,       i  guess.       i  know i  was when  i  first  found  out.     ❞         she  had  punched  liam  in  the  face  as  soon  as  his  eyes  glowed,      but  it  wasn’t  just  because  of  that.        he  just  told  her  that  HER  eyes  glowed  too     ———      she  was  terrified,       but  looking  back  on  it,      should  she  really  be  that  surprised?        the  things  her  sister  had  dealt  with  before,     it  shouldn’t  have  been  so  shocking.       mouth  fell  open  with  a  laugh,       her  eyes  rolling  back  at  her.        ❝     if  i  knew  you  were  so  STUBBORN,      maybe  i  wouldn’t  have  tried  to  save  your  life  so  hard,    ❞       she  taunted,      head  moving  in  a  mocking  manner.       of  course,      she  still  would  have,     because  that  was  just  who  she  was.       ❝     a  friend,    ❞       she  noted,     lips  pursing  together  in  a  small  grin.       ❝     sounds  like  we  could  BOTH  use  one.   ❞         she  had  her  own  friends  too,      but  it  was  nice  to  hang  out  with  people  OUTSIDE  of  the  pack,      if  only  to  remind  herself  that  she  was  still  a  normal  teenager in  some  way.         ❝   FINE,    you  win.      we  can  look  out for  each  other.   ❞        that  wasn’t  the  worst  thing.         ❝      are  you  REALLY  questioning  me  right  now?      just  shut  up  and  let  me  keep  you  alive,    ❞     she  teased  with  a  playful  laugh.

he  offers  a  glare,        trying  to  make  it  obvious  she’s  pushing  a  line.       normally  he  didn’t  mind  talking  about  elisia       (       sometimes,      he  felt  like  she  was  the  only  good  thing  about  his  life.     )       but  now,      lives  were  at  stake  if  he  talked  ABOUT  her  or  TO  HER.         if  it  was  his  own,      it  might  be  different   -----    he  might  risk  it.        but  this  is  about  elisia  too.           ❝     seriously,     jensen,      i’m  not  talking  about  this.    ❞            he  wishes  there’s  a  way  to  give  her  a  hint,        to  tell  her  that  it’s  NOT  HIS  CHOICE.        if  it  was  up  to  him,      he’d  be  with  her  now.        if  only  he  could  show  her  that  it’s  king  cobra  leading  his  every  move  for  him  now,      then  they  could  all  save  each  other  the  heartbreak.        ❝    elisia  doesn’t  need  anyone.        if  you  haven’t  noticed,       that  girl’s  stronger  than  most.    ❞       spoken  from  a  place  of  admiration,       almost  making  it  quite  obvious  his  love  for  the  girl  is  still  so  strong.           ❝    definitely  not  me.      she’s  got  you  two,        you’ve  been  good  to  her.      just    -----     keep  doing  that.       keep  being  good  to  her.        please.   ❞      voice  cracks,      because  he  knows  she’s  right.      SHE  NEEDS  HIM,      AND  HE  CAN’T  BE  THERE,      because  the  only  way  to  protect  her  now  is  to  stay  far  away.      

❝    YEAH,      and  i  usually  have  it  for  you  right  away.       just  like  i  did  the  LAST  time  you  asked  me.    ❞         which  was too  recent,     in  tiny’s  eyes.         ❝    come  on,      you  don’t  have  to  do  that.       i’m  just  saying,      man.      maybe  you  should    ——-     COOL  IT.      for  just  a few  days,      shouldn’t  be  a  big  deal.   ❞          this  wasn’t  like  theo;      he  wanted  to  make  him  see  that.       ❝    you  know  i  work  my  ass  off  just  to  justify  giving  you  a  discount  because you’re  my  bro.      but  MY  BRO  doesn’t  rely  on  this  crap,      so  what  gives?    ❞