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One thing I really like about Beverly Engel's book It Wasn't Your Fault, which is about PTSD-induced toxic shame, is that quite a bit of it deals with people who haven't broken The Cycle of Abuse (TM) and have gone on to hurt others. That's a really underserved and vulnerable patient population, and statistically, it's also MASSIVE. I don't think I've read a single other self-help type book on PTSD and self-loathing that confronts the possibility that you're exactly as bad as you think you are.

I felt better that it so much as mentioned that children can react to abuse with ungovernable rage. Everybody likes the image of PTSD patients as internalizing everything and becoming doormats, which does happen, and often, but it's not the only narrative. Personally I've always hated my abusers and have always wanted everyone who so much as breathed wrong in my direction from ages 0 to 18 to burn eternally in hell. I *never* thought any of it was my fault and ever since I was a toddler I was willing to make it everybody else's problem, and it's really relieving to read a clinical perspective that acknowledges that abuse victims can act that way too.

idk man not to sound like a cartoon hippie but if your entirrrrre blog and dash is about how the world sucks and everyones bigoted i think you are going to give yorself brain worms

"ah but all of this is important and true and if i dont reblog all of this important stuff waga baga THE WORMS! THATS WORMS! THE BRAIN WORMS!

i do not think you are doing activism chief i think what you are doing is sitting in your room flagellating yourself expecting something to happen

Remember when Xbox was going to basically ban used games for the xbox one, and Playstation made fun of them with that video titled "how to share games on Playstation" and it was just one guy handing another a game disk? And now Playstation is getting rid of physical disks entirely

I'm gonna say it, I do think that even the laziest person imaginable should have a roof over their head, food in their stomach, and access to healthcare

“we live in an uncaring universe” yeah dude and I live in an uncaring house. and I shit in an uncaring toilet. but do you touch an uncaring lover? do you comfort an uncaring child? do you guide to sleep each night a cold and uncaring self?

please hurry up in reblogging this I wanna jorts it before someone puts it in one of those heartwarming tiktok slideshows

i was like 'what could jorts it possibly mean' but as with many things clicking the original post immediately clarified the situation

People get made fun of for being scared of aging but it comes from the very real fear of being discarded by society that’s why i always say the goal is not to never become old or disabled the future comes for us all the goal is better social policy

this post has more people in my inbox defending working for lockheed martin than you'd expect

it doesn't matter which country we're talking about here, if someone from any country in the world says "oh where i am from there is simply no racism", you not only shouldn't believe them, but you should actually never take them seriously about anything ever again.

hi I’m a doctor. You’ve written your symptoms down but I didn’t read them. You’ve told me your symptoms but I wasn’t really listening and added a bunch of wrong stuff into your permanent chart that will definitely muddy the issue further in the future. Anyway it seems like you’re getting a little too pressed about trying to explain your symptoms more accurately to me- cringe, you probably made them up. You’re just an anxious hypochondriac loser and it’s all in your head. I’m putting that in your chart. You’re begging me to refer you for some tests? Bc other providers won’t see you without a referral? You’ve clearly just been googling too much. It’s weird that you’ve spent the months I’ve been ignoring you trying to educate yourself on your symptoms and learning the names of specific tests. See previous note about anxiety and being a loser hypochondriac. Call me again when you’re dying and it’s too late to do anything, then maybe I’ll think about referring you or getting the tests you want. Ughhh FINEE I’ll refer you, just to get you out of my hair. That appointment will be in ten months. That provider will treat you exactly the same as me. Your chart is useless. None of your providers have compatible information portals so none of them are looking at all the information or previous test results. You will be waiting for appointments for the rest of your natural life. Loser.

@thisis--ableism I feel like more people need to see this one

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