I am all of me.

hey don't cry. on december 3, 1926, agatha christie went missing for eleven days and because the uk police didn't know what to do they recruited sir arthur conan doyle, creator of master detective sherlock holmes, but all he did was conduct a séance to try and contact her distressed spirit

you are not immune to inventing an arbitrary set of rules that only you have to adhere to

adhd is such a humiliating disease to have ones life ruined by

i cannot hate myself into a version of me i will love.

i cannot punish myself in any way that will unmake the past.

sometimes i really feel like i can "outsmart" being autistic and insane via my powers of reason and rationality. like sweetie that's like thinking the oregano in your pasta sauce can outsmart the basil. IT'S THE SAME FUCKING SAUCE!!!!!!

Stop doing it scared and start doing it scary. Invoke sheer eye-clawing terror into all those who have ever wronged you

don't be mean to yourself that's you

you live there

i think "turning into a pumpkin" is my new favorite way to articulate the state of things when I am at a function and very overstimulated and it feels like my brain is melting. it's like no i can't be a person anymore i have to leave i'm turning into the pumpkin. the time is up yeah i gotta go. yeah see u later. pumpkin time.