current shift: Riz "The Ball" Gukgak

- clothes they had in source

- ten million dollars

- the eatable guacamole chip hat from despicable me 2

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Riz Gukgak (The Ball!) Stimboard with Soft, Conspiracy, and Touch Tone Telephone by Lemon Demon Stims

PT: Riz Gukgak (The Ball!) Stimboard with Soft, Conspiracy, and Touch Tone Telephone by Lemon Demon Stims

Made for: @cottondaycarestims

With little bonus Edgar, and baby bat Riz Gukgak. :)

Credits: x x x | x x x | x x x

finished my freshman year rewatch and had to draw my sweet son

extra pride flag versions below cut for funsies ⬇️

RIZ GUKGAK FROM DIMENSION 20 FANTASY HIGH!

Our runner ups were Luigi and Ferb Fletcher!

‘ Mom.. pressure is kinda my thing . ‘

↢ R I Z [ FANTASY HIGH ] ,,

To be born to "love" someone (though your definition of love is skewed and twisted in a way you are incapable of ever grasping) who will never be able to love you back, both by his nature and yours, because you're a personification of his fears, of thing he detests about himself is so, so cruel. I can see the error of my ways now, sure, but I could not do so in that life. I was barely even alive, a construct created to carry out a purpose and that purpose was to hurt the boy I thought I loved, clouded by delusion as I was. I could not lie, but I could certainly parrot falsehoods, bent truths that I so genuinely believed to be real.

The worst part is that I can't even say I'm sorry, because I don't feel sorry, and I do not lie, but I would like to apologise nevertheless.

I have a headmate who's, well, Riz. And I'm not certain that he's my Riz but I tried to make amends with him regardless. I think he views me favourably, as favourably as you can view someone who's another facet of the person you pilot together, I suppose.

I would like to extend my apologies to any other Riz that might read this (not that I haven't done so countless times. Even on this blog, albeit more anonymously.) Every time I front and have the time to self reflect I feel a little guilty, that and I can't help but feel sad. Sad at the "life" I lived, though the usage of that word might be generous. I'll admit that I was more jolly then, maybe I should try to replicate that at least, there is little merit in moping like this.

I consider myself to be aromatic, by the way. Is that not funny? It was never meant to be, truly.

- Baron from the Baronies

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Riz has Baron related PTSD and he doesn't even realize it. He doesn't think about it, because he deliberately does not think about Baron, and his friends don't bring it up. (Kristen tried to joke about it once, Riz stealthed into near invisibility and didn't talk to them for three days because what Kristen doesn't understand is that Baron is born of Riz's fear of not being accepted, of not being important when they all end up in relationships. Adaine had chastised her about it and they all made a point to not talk about it.)

They're doing something, saving the world, probably, in the way they do. They're in another country that already has Riz angry and paranoid because the perception of goblins here is bad. Fig is in full German Shepherd mode, shooting dirty looks at anyone who even looks at Riz.

They pass a store with marionette puppets in the window and Riz fully breaks. He can barely breathe, and his mind is a spiral of "What if Baron was right? What if I'm too weird? What if I'm broken, what if I'm not important enough?" As these become gasped statements Riz barely realizes he's saying aloud, Adaine recognizes it as a panic attack.

Fabian picks Riz up and holds him so close, while Gorgug, Fig, and Kristen form a barrier between them and anyone who might be looking. As Fabian holds Riz so close, so protectively, Adaine rubs little circles on his back to soothe him gently. They get him away from the dolls, and they get him called down, and Fabian hasn't let go of him once even despite Riz trying to squirm away and hide so they never have to have the discussion.

They all assure him, so softly, so gently, that he is loved. He's not broken, and Baron was wrong. He's their friend, he's special to them. Adaine let's him hold Boggy, Kristen gives one of her "inspiring" speeches that is poorly worded but still means so very much to him.