Hi! I feel kind of terrified of starting this blog, but in my experience posting on Tumblr feels like shouting into the void (/pos) so I should be fine ๐
I made this sideblog to be able to externalise my daydreams. They've been with me as far as I remember, and my first memories are from when I was around 5-6. I really want to immortalise them in some way, and have always wanted to talk about them, because they are so so so dear to me, but I've always been scared to.
My daydreaming used to be maladaptive, now it's just immersive. Yet, I still feel the consequences of it having been maladaptive everyday.
A few useful information about the IRL me:
I'm currently 19
I go by Kai
I'm autistic and I have ADHD
I have dyslexia and tend to not see typos and therefore not correct them
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Cringe culture is dead, you have xenogenders? Me too! You're a therian? Same! You're a furry? Same here! Do you identify as non-human? Cool me as well! Do you use neopronouns? We're the same! Do you have a typing quirk and use "cringy" words? That's cool and same! You have a unique style(scene, emo, decora kei etc)? That's really cool! You still watch cartoons, play with toys and still play the same games that you grew up with? Because me too! You make "cringy" self-insert fanfics? That's fine! As long as what you're doing doesn't hurt you or anyone it's perfectly fine! Be yourself, screw assholes <3
Man it wasn't even the copypasta. I saw folks eviscerating the guy for daring to write YA stuff. Teen love for teens. And how that made him a pedophile. Like that's what's being talked about here. Not the cock monologue. It was the endless hate and vitriol like I remember distinctly my dash being flooded with "he's a grown man who writes stuff for kids. That's super sus of him" and him literally being called a pedophile and other such smears. Like the cock nonsense was the absolute least of what happened. Don't be a derisive dick. If you're referencing that then obviously you were around to see all the toxic bullshit too and you should know all of this
But oh noooo! It was obviously the goofy taste of balls post that did it! Because tumblr is good and always correct /s
It is particularly cruel to me that John Green was harassed essentially off of the internet in the way that he was because the poor man has OCD and is very open about it.
The way he was treated is horrible and disgusting for anyone at all, but John Green has for years and years (along with his brother Hank) tried to make the world a measurably better place while living with a horrific mental illness. A mental illness that makes something like being called a pedophile over and over again horrific in ways that unless you have OCD, or are very very close to someone who does, you will never understand because OCD targets whatever you value and makes your world a living hell over it.
And you know what? He still writes his novels, and he is still out here doing absolutely everything he can to make the world a measurably better place. The cock monologue was just the straw that broke the camel's back.
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Also if anyone did this to my brother I would never ever forgive anyone involved. Never. The fact that they are still engaging with the internet in the way they do, with vulnerability and kindness is remarkable.
The notes on this post are shit so just to be clear: if youโre following me and you think itโs funny to harass someone, or that it doesnโt count if the victim is above a certain age or if the harassment happens online, or that itโs worse to speak out against harassment than to harass someone, unfollow me because I donโt fucking want you to interact with me
On the positive side, hereโs two replies that are actually decent:
"Harassing someone non-stop for months, including graphic sexual harassment and disturbing baseless accusations of child abuse, is funny as long as I think the victim is annoying!" -a lot of people, apparently
My paraself's forever bestie, Viaris! He uses all pronouns (he/she/they mainly) and loves Taylor Swify, iced coffee and being dramatic. She's also a druid who had a complicated relationship with animals but is super attuned to plants.
Oh gee, you're right! Why didn't the people who can't even move their arms think of just making a painting? /s
And before anyone starts spouting some "art is more than just painting" spiel, you don't know what kind of art someone might need to make in order to express their vision. An artist may have a very specific idea in mind to create the perfect piece of graphic art, and using music, performance, etc. just won't cut it for them. AI is a tool that can help the disabled in so many ways. Not even just with art. Get off your high horse and accept that disabled people have different needs and, guess what, ABILITIES than you do. Fuck you, asshole.
you're fighting against a tool that makes art more accessible, and actively dismissing the notion that it could even possibly be doing that. this IS ableist. YOU are the tar pit in this situation.
Hi Iโm disabled Iโm crippled I have a disorder that makes my fingers suddenly dislocate while Iโm holding my pencil I have a spinal issue that makes it hard for me to bend over a desk half of the time I have leg issues that make it difficult for me to get around etc etc etc. I also have a bunch of other issues I donโt want to tell you about.
Iโm also in art college. And even if I wasnโt, Iโve been doing art for almost a decade now. Iโve been disabled the whole bloody time.
AI, isnโt art.
There are many disabled artists and we have adapted our own ways of dealing with how we create. Fuck you, we have been doing this forever.
Vincent Van Gogh had temporal lobe epilepsy; Henri Matisse became a wheelchair user after surgery for cancer; Michelangelo had osteoarthritis, limiting mobility and causing pain in his hands and feet.
Paul Smith had a severe case of cerebral palsy and created art using typewriters.
Peter Longstaff has no arms due to Thalidomide, and paints with his feet.
Frida Kahlo not only had polio that disabled her as a child, but of course as we all know was injured in a bus accident at the age of 18, which caused her lifelong pain and medical problems.
Fuck, you want a personal annecdote? I knew a girl (we have lost touch since) who was paralysed from the neck down and she painted with her mouth and there are other artists who do so too! And with eye tracking technology Iโm sure disabled artists will be getting more and more tools as the years pass. But we do NOT condone AI art. All that does is put us, real disabled artists, who exist and need support, out of jobs and commissions.
hi, another disabled person here for more personal anecdotes! here is an art piece i made entirely with my non dominant hand 1 week before my most recent shoulder surgery on that same arm. i also wear splint rings to keep my fingers from dislocating while painting (or playing bass guitar cause i do that too). i make most of my income off hand painted art despite having hand tremors, frequent wrist dislocations/subluxations, and migraines.
my friend and her wife also make their incomes off wig making, leatherwork, and digital collage prints. both have chronic pain as well.
our lines arent perfect because we have shaky hands but thats ok, make it a feature not a flaw in your art. fuck AI.
Anyone who thinks physically disabled people need to use art stealing AI to make our own art is the ableist, actually.
Mine isn't as drastic (yet) but I've been having to wear wrist braces and finger splints since childhood off and on because using my hands in a repetitive motions causes them to be in pretty excruciating pain.
What is my art medium of choice? Knitting. You know, that thing where you have to do a repetitive motion over and over again. I hold my needles a bit strange, I knit through the pain, I sometimes have to give up working on it for weeks at a time. But I will not stop because it's what makes my heart sing.
Disabled artists don't need your pity, we've been getting by, doing what makes us happy despite the pain and hardships for thousands of years, probably longer, I bet there were neolithic disabled artists.
No actual real artist wants or uses AI, including disabled artists. AI is for losers who are scared of the extremely important phase in art where you suck and want to skip it by stealing and not even in a cool "I'm emulating your style because I wanna learn from it" way.
Go suck at art for a couple years like the rest of us and stop talking over disabled artists.
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i cant stress this though but people have to relearn how to start creating for the joy of creation instead of creating for the sake of skill. art is supposed to be for fun and its up to You to indulge ur appetite for creation as sincerely and candidly as u can
it doesnt matter if ur art is "bad" or "unskilled." the point of art is not to be good at it. the point is to create because u can and because it feels good
Hi Kai! Welcome to the dreamer club, I was wondering if youโd be interested in having fellow dreamer friends? I hope your dayโs been well! - โ๏ธโ๏ธ
Hi, thank you!
I would very much be, yes! Feel free to message me or anything ^^
(as I reminder though, if I interact with anyone, I'll probably show up as my main @kaigweny ^^)
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โ Height: 1m81
โ Body Mods: none
โ Other: not pointy ears (genetic mutation, akin to albinism), orange eyes
โ โโโโโโโ Personality โโโโโ
โ Briefly: nerdy steampunk mechanic
โ Green Flags: will spend hours making you anything you need; will play games with you or let you hand out in his workshop if you're feeling down
โ Beige Flags: hates iced coffee; has a deep love for birds
โ Negative traits: gets engrossed in his work for unhealthy amounts of time;
โ MBTI: ENFP (-A) - Campaigner
โ Enneagram: 4w3 orย 7w6
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โ Favourite food: tomatoes with mozzarella and basilic
โ Most hated food: plain white bread
โ โโโโโโโ Quirks โโโโโโโโ
โ Quirkiness: can walk, but has difficulty doing so for a long time
โ โโโโโโโ Magic โโโโโโโโ
โ Species: elf
โ Magic's Origin: all elves have a connection to an element, usually earth or wind
โ Magic: controls fire
โ โโโโโโโ In World โโโโโโโ
โ Role in the Sanctuary: part of the Freakish Five; teach children sometimes; modified a lot of the tech in the Sanctuary; making tech and equipment for the Freakish Five
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โ โโโโโโโ Appearance โโโโ
โ Height: 1m66
โ Body Mods: ears piercings, belly button piercing, angel fangs piercing, nose piercing; a little lilly of the valley tattoo on her inner left forearm
โ Other: night blue eyes, fangs
โ โโโโโโโ Personality โโโโโ
โ Briefly: badass scholar, assignated driver
โ Green Flags: acts of services all around; helps people to stay hydrated
โ Beige Flags: tends to penguin pebble; assignated driver and mom friend of the friend group
โ Negative traits: passive aggressive af; finds it hard to communicate
โ MBTI: INTJ(-A) - Architect
โ Enneagram: Type w
โ โโโโโโโ Tastes โโโโโโโโ
โ Favourite food: sushi
โ Most hated food: pineapple on pizza
โ โโโโโโโ Quirks โโโโโโโโ
โ Quirkiness: wear rings, stims with her rings all the time; likes rock and classical music the most
โ โโโโโโโ Magic โโโโโโโโ
โ Species: vampire
โ Magic's Origin: vampires get control over an element
โ Magic: controls water
โ โโโโโโโ In World โโโโโโโ
โ Role in the Sanctuary: part of the Freakish Five; teaches the Sanctuary's children; helps with the cleaning
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โ โโโโโโโ Appearance โโโโ
โ Height: 1m97
โ Body Mods: nose piercing
โ Other: dark "blood orange" eyes; lots of scars
โ โโโโโโโ Personality โโโโโ
โ Briefly: she/her himbo
โ Green Flags: never judges; awesome hugs
โ Beige Flags: will try to pet any and all fuzzy creatures; likes ketchup too much
โ Negative traits: gets aggressive when lost/confused;
โ MBTI: IFSJ (-T) - Defender
โ Enneagram: Type 9w1
โ โโโโโโโ Tastes โโโโโโโโ
โ Favourite food: good hand-made hamburgers
โ Most hated food: mustard
โ โโโโโโโ Quirks โโโโโโโโ
โ Quirkiness: can fight with literally anything, very ticklish; she loves wood carving
โ โโโโโโโ Magic โโโโโโโโ
โ Species: human, has giant ancestry
โ Magic's Origin: giant ancestry
โ Magic: can increase her strenght, movement ability and agility, like the "rage" of barbarians in D&D
โ โโโโโโโ In World โโโโโโโ
โ Role in the Sanctuary: part of the Freakish Five; helps moving wood and other resources; helps cook, helps repair things
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