The Darkness is the Light that Guides Me

Today I shattered my favorite girls heart because all of our friends believed it was right, to the point where we both believed it. She fought so hard for me to take her back and i was so blind that I hurt her and also myself. I Will probably regret this decision for the fest of my life. I’ll always love her and I honestly don’t think I can forgive myself

I need to stop internalizing my feelings and stop worrying about everyone else besides myself.

I honestly should not feel this much for you

I cannot even listen to my favorite band without thinking of you. Why won't my thoughts of you fade. Maybe I haven't let you go yet.

I'm not jealous from a sex point of view, I'm jealous because I don't have someone to hold at night.

Sometimes I have to take a step back. I need to see if the words I say, or the actions I take will hurt or cause negative affects on anyone else. I am supposed to walk this earth to benefit others and make the world better for them. I too often take the route which only benefits me. No matter the cost, or the repercussions on other people.