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pile one

three of swords, the high priestess, eight of cups, ten of wands, justice, & the world

Hello my angels, welcome to your pile one ♡ Before we start with the reading. I have to be honest there is some heaviness to this pile. But, don’t be scared, just know what you are manifesting is whole different life from the one you have lived up to now.

I feel a sense of overwhelming intensity in this pile, it’s like a solar eclipse. It’s full of transformation energy just flowing. Some would describe you as someone who never stays the same. You are like night and day. Someone who is constantly evolving, growing, and learning.

Like how during a solar eclipse the moon veils over the sun, you have struggled through some dark times. Moments where you felt numbed by the pain, lost, and silenced. You carried burdens that weren’t yours, had people use and betray you with their words and actions.

You have come a long way pile one, give yourself some grace. You gained immense strength and resilience from what you have gone through. And, I am here to tell you, it will get better.

As you grow to release the past and embrace your true self, you step closer to your manifestation. This is about purging the old identity and breaking out of the metal cage that once had kept you locked.

I see many of you going inward, doing deep inner work, spending time alone in your thoughts, and reflecting. When you learn to trust your inner world and self more, you come to realize that it’s not desire that is important but you.

This next chapter of your life you are manifesting full freedom. Freedom from the past. Freedom from repeating cycles. Freedom from being weighed down.

You’re not just manifesting a better life, you’re manifesting a completely new self.

𑣲⋆｡˚ Thank you so much pile one for tuning into your reading! 𐔌՞ ܸ.ˬ.ܸ՞𐦯

pile two

page of wands, six of wands, king of swords, the lovers, knight of cups & the devil

Hello my angels, welcome to your pile two ♡ theres this rush of excitement I feel in my chest.

You’re embodying this irresistible, confident energy that is playful and flirty that says “I am chosen.” Perhaps, you are new to the concept of manifestation, or if not, I am seeing someone who is looking for a bit of an adventure. You could be going out more and trying new things during this time.

Even if you feel more introverted, I am noticing a lot of people being magnetized to your energy. You’re like a beacon of light. Many find you mesmerizing, in the sense that you are authentic. Some of you are really funny too, you say something and it just instantly lightens the mood of the room.

I believe a part of what you are manifesting my pile twos is being seen and recognized through love. I just feel this is about someone who use to be more closed off and then changed how they want to be perceived. As open as you are to connecting with others and experiencing new things, you are decisive about who you let in. I am hearing strong boundaries and expectations. Many of you could relate to the saying “treat others how you want to be treated.”

Also, do some of you have a crush? Or manifesting love? Because earlier, I felt this light rush in my chest and now I am picking up on someone specific. I see someone who is cool headed, ambitious, witty, and incredibly kind. If we are talking physical traits based on what I see in the cards, they could have long or short brown hair, blue eyes, and a well built body. Someone who takes care of their appearance and dresses nice. They think before they speak, but when they do—they’re so smooth with their words.

But, I do have to address the devil in the room. There’s an undeniable intensity to this connection, one that feels passionate and potent. At the same time, this energy is about you staying grounded in your worth. You are not losing yourself in this connection. You are being invited to experience the depth of love you desire while holding your standards and boundaries.

𑣲⋆｡˚ Thank you so much pile two for tuning into your reading! 𐔌՞ ܸ.ˬ.ܸ՞𐦯

pile three

six of wands, seven of cups, queen of wands rx., nine of swords rx., & ace of wands

Hello my angels, welcome to your pile three ♡ i am feeling very vibrant and imaginative with this pile. There is something so calming about your energy. I feel this sense of warmth. Your potential is very bright pile three. I see someone who is full of ideas and thoughts and loves to daydream. Some of you may really enjoy visualizing, listening to subliminals, or even writing.

For my pile threes, I feel like you are manifesting a life where you are truly seen and recognized for who you are. There is a strong desire here to step into the spotlight in some form. Whether that’s creatively, socially, or even on a larger scale. I am thinking content creation, fashion/beauty, acting/performing, songwriting, storytelling, or creating art that is personal and speaks to the collective. Theres this energy where you are meant to share something meaningful out into the world.

And, the possibilities are endless for you, but at times you may question yourself or feel unsure about fully owning this version of you. I see someone who has one foot out the door and the other inside. It’s almost like you can see the potential, but are still learning to believe it’s meant for you. Thats where I can see the daydreaming clouding the clarity too. You have a lot that you want to do, but struggle sticking to one idea. It’s like a computer with many tabs open. You may relate to the feeling of often being overwhelmed by your mind.

The beautiful part of this, is that I see you shedding that doubt and indecision, and stepping into a new version of yourself where your confidence and passion lead the way. People will drawn to what you share and say because you have that spark in you that is unique. It doesn’t matter if what you want to do has been done before. People will gravitate towards you because your work has your soul in it.

𑣲⋆｡˚ Thank you so much pile three for tuning into your reading! 𐔌՞ ܸ.ˬ.ܸ՞𐦯

₊˚⊹♡ hello angels,, how are you all doing? i am back with another pac! this one honestly took me a little longer than expected, but i took my time with the messages…as always thank you for all the love and support…

i’ll be back with more messages for you soon ૮ ․ ․ ྀིა . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖

❀ ⋆.˚ Q: which pile did you resonate with? I’d love to hear your thoughts ˚⟡˖ ࣪

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The Elements

Fire

The symbol of fire. Funnily enough this is also the symbol for legitimate fires too. The reason why the symbol for fire is an upwards pointing triangle, helps to show the elements desire for growth, to climb, and to be bold. It shows the fire signs spirit, and need to go big or go home.

Water

An upside down triangle. Water has the quality to want to stay grounded. Rain falls from the sky, the ocean delves to the deepest depths of the world. Water follows that mentality. It's true desire is to float below it all, and the upside down triangle helps to communicate that.

Air

A triangle with a line through its peak. Like fire, there is a desire to want to grow, and ascend- but the line through it communicates that it is too much like water to do so. It keeps the air signs on the ground, and communicates their focus for communication, and desire for social contact.

Earth

An upside down triangle with a line through its peak. This shows Earth desire to be rooted, and connected to the ground- to people, however the line through it represent that it has too much of a fire aspect to fully commit. They want better things for themselves that stops their full descent.

The Modalities

In all my years of research. I have not found one single source that actually explains these glyphs. Not one. Not in any of the books i've read, not on any website- nothing. Nada.

So what you are about to read is my full personal interpretation based on what I do know.

Cardinal

As you can see it's an open triangle facing up with a dot in where the center line would be. This is similar to the element of fire which works with this modality. Fire is the symbol of drive, and passion. Cardinal signs are the start of each season, and they drive the beginning of those seasons forward. They are the trendsetters, the starters, the ambition. I suppose the dot in the center represents the spirit within the sign. Showing that the spirit is moving up and out, showing the desire and passion that these signs tend to carry.

Fixed

A full square with a line through the center. Fixed signs are some of the most stable and reliable of the zodiac. They don't change their opinions easily. So to have the spirit fully contained as a line, shows their unwillingness for change. The shape is closed, showing their resistance to changing their minds once they're set. Fixed signs are strong in their beliefs and motives, and I think the square here communicates that idea well.

Mutable

Finally, we have our mutable signs. The ending of the seasons. These signs are open to change, and have more of a go with the flow mentality. So to have a half-sphere with the circle of spirit below it helps to communicate their willingness for change. However, one of the key components of these signs in particular is that they are more prone to nervous energy, and can even fear that change if in an unhealthy mindset. So to show the circle of spirit as restricted- not fully closed off- helps to communicate that idea that in the end, while they may need to be ready for change, they might not be fully accepting of it.

Other Planets and Placements

There are other planets and placements that I decided not to get fully into in some of my mainstream lesson, as they aren't tracked widely, and they rarely change from person to person, however.

I know some people are curious about them, and dependent on different aspects it can help to shape a person's personality, so I will outline those symbols here and write about them all another time, when main series start finishing up so to speak. For now I'm going to focus on the main ones, and further expand if someone were to request it.

Asteroids, Comets, & Dwarf Planets

Chiron

With Chiron, you have a broken cross of matter, and an arrow of ambition of the circle of vitality. Chiron as a planetary object (comet), when placed with the right sun or moon combination (conjunct), can indicate someone who is a healer. With the arrow of ambition being pointed at the broken cross, it can show that their ambitions are above the materials of the world, and that they strive for helping others through their own need, and not because of what it could bring them financially. They want to help, and that's that.

Ceres

Ceres shows us a scythe, with a crescent and the cross of matter through it. This dwarf planet takes on the aspect of a feminine healer, versus Chiron. It's associated with childbearing and fertility. So not only are you reaping your fruits, but you are bringing life into the material plane, and helping to fully realize it.

Pallas (Athena)

Pallas takes on the shape of the spear, which is in direct agreement with its namesake, Athena the Goddess of Wisdom and War. It can be described as a circle of vitality over the cross of matter (like Venus), however- this is done with the arrows that are present in Mars (signifying aggressive nature). Like both of those planetary aspects, someone with a prominent Pallas may be more argumentative, have social awareness, and be gifted in the arts. based on where strong aspects are to Pallas it might show where you spark the most enjoyment in learning and craft.

Vesta

Vesta's symbol depicts her alter. Vesta in mythos was the goddess of the hearth. She like Virgo is virginal and the sign itself looks into transcendence of the self past sex. When looking at the glyph itself one of the things that I see is the arrow of ambition that is noted in the sign Scorpio, along with the curves of the flame that are representative of not only the moon but in the glyph of Virgo. This can indicate desires of the mind above the desires of the flesh.

Juno

Juno is an asteroid that dictates marriage, and that's in large part to her mythos. The symbol itself resembles a scepter, breaking it down it almost looks like the circle of vitality made out of arrows over the cross of matter. This can indicate a need for looking with and bringing that to the material plane.

Lilith

There are different types of Lilith in astrology. Yet, they all carry the same symbol, and have similar messages. Lilith looks at the darker part of our desires, deep secrets that we don't recognize ourselves. You can see the crescent and cross in the symbol speaking to the internal desires that we wish to make material.

Important Points

North and South Node

The north and south node are mirror opposites of each other. The North Node recognizes what a person is destined for, what they will eventually grow into. Whereas the Southern Node dictates what that person needs to let go of. Looking at their symbols, the north node is a crescent faced up, and connected by two circles. This can symbolizers how the person will eventually grow into themselves. Whereas the opposite is true of the Southern node, showing how we can be weighed down by the mental aspects of life, and the need to let go.

Midheaven, Imum Coeli, and Descendant

These three are the other constants in someone's chart. The ascendant is how you are viewed from the get go- how you handle problems. The Midheaven (or Medium Coli) is the career path you may feel most comfortable taking on. The Imum Coeli relates to familial situations in growing up. Finally, the Descendant (versus the ascendant or rising), this is what you seek out in other people.

Wrap Up: Other Glyphs - Symbols

That's a wrap on the symbols for now. There's many different symbols associated with astrology, and they can be interpreted in many different ways. So when you look at these glyphs take it with a grain of salt, and take what resonates.

Stay groovy, and I'll catch you on the flip,

Cosmic Sage

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CARDS — 2 of cups, 3 of cups, page of cups, 6 of pentacles rx, the devil + knight of swords.

pile one you are a VERY giving person, soooo giving to the point that you can almost get lost in it. people take advantage of your kindness and generosity and use it as a way to control/manipulate you. i feel like your love holds no bounds (whether it be a romantic relationship or your friends) you treat the connection like it's divine. you treat connections with so much care, compassion, love and warmth. you pour so much of yourself into connections with your family, friends, etc. because you really value people in general. on the flip side, that’s also simultaneously draining you because people know the lengths you’re willing to go to keep them happy, to keep the connection going and to essentially keep the ball rolling in their court. not everyone has your best interest at heart — not everyone has the best intentions when it comes to your heart. i feel like people (especially lovers) try to hang things over your head by guilt tripping and/or gaslighting and love-bombing you; to keep you coming back & keep you on a chain. i don't think you get too caught up in the material aspect of things and what someone can necessarily do for you on a materialistic level, but more so you see things from a genuine + pure perspective in love. you give it so effortlessly — your cup overflows and you share that with other people. however, some of the people that you keep around you operate from a more materialistic/money-driven mindset so they don’t value the actual connection as much as you do. for them it boils down to what you do for them, what you can do for them and what YOUR energy attracts that makes them want to stay in your orbit.

i also picked up that these people put you in an energy of pursuit/chase so that you’re taken out of your natural energetic frequency. that page of cups energy: you're a very sensitive soul. you’re innocent at heart. you’re someone that emits pure love from the heart. people try to make you feel like you need to chase them – they make you feel like you need to do things to gain their love, trust and their attention when you actually don’t need to do that at all. this causes you mental distress, anxiety, doubt, confusion and pressures you to make hasty decisions and jump into situations that are ultimately not good for you and do not benefit you. your spirit guides want you to know that it’s okay to operate from that page of cups energy, and not feel guilt or shame for that! some of you that picked this pile might not have experienced a romantic commitment yet and/or haven’t experienced what you’re experiencing right now in terms of this constant flow of attention, friendships, romantic suitors, etc. it’s becoming a consistent flow in your life — a major theme. so it makes sense that this might feel new and foreign to you. however, your spirit guides want you to understand that it’s okay to not have all the answers and not know what you’re doing. 111 on the clock. it’s okay to lead with your heart. you are divinely protected, pile one. you DO NOT have to feel like you need to do anything for anyone’s approval or do things to keep anyone’s presence in your life, because if they want to be there for you, they will be for there for you — without a catch or without making you feel like you need to chase them. without dangling shining things in front of your face to make you come to them. people try to prey upon your innocence, but you’re so enriched in your own orbit that you’re protected in more ways than you even realize. you’re a dreamer at heart. very child-like, spiritual, psychic, an admirer of all things.

you see the beauty in the mundane and the extraordinary alike. this is why you create such rich, valuable and expansive experiences and connections. however, it also does boil down to being able to decipher which energies are operating on that same higher frequency as you are and that are contributing to your enlightenment and your growth vs the ones that try to drag you down and pull you into something you ultimately don’t want for yourself. it's about taking the time out to truly evaluate and reevaluate what exactly it is that YOU WANT in connection, and not letting fear or anxiety waver you. you don’t need to get too caught up in the games people try to play with you. continue operating on that frequency of communicating what it is that you desire like “hey i want this for myself/my soul” engage with more of the things that bring you joy and happiness. you don’t have to count yourself out or doubt the decisions and moves that you’re currently making. do not keep yourself in that state of mind where you feel like you need to make yourself small, be quiet or feel as though you don’t have the power/the energy/the presence to communicate what exactly it is that you want.

take the time out to keep your nervous system calm and really look at situations from a calm and centered standpoint, instead of the erratic whirlwind energy that people try to put you in. some people try to put you in a state of confusion and make you doubt what it is that you desire to keep a sense of control over you. ultimately, it just circles right back to the main point of coming back to yourself and being your own judge at the end of the day, because you have so much expansion coming into your life that you have to be able to decipher and sift through what it is that you truly want – because the abundance that awaits you is very jupiter-esque. it’s a lot and you could get lost in it if you’re not paying attention so don’t get lost in it, pile one. come down into yourself – come into self. put yourself in a peaceful environment if you have to…meditate, take a walk, etc. do whatever it is you need to do to ground you in your own inner stillness/inner guide so that you can really listen to what God and your spirit guides are trying to show and tell you in terms of the people and energies that you’re interacting with. the signs are there and you know it, but you try to overthink the answer that you already know is the TRUTH.

you might have prominent 7h/libra placements. i’m getting libra sun/jupiter/venus vibes. your spirit guides don’t want you to get caught up in that state of confusion that other people try to put you in – especially with the sag/jupiter energy that is either currently or about to enter your life. things could be happening very fast and you could be meeting and forming connections with people very quickly + traveling soon. you’re definitely meant to meet the right kind of people – you’re meant to connect with people on a higher level. however, this message keeps coming out loud and clear that you have to be very mindful of who you connect with and who you could potentially reconnect with. everything that glitters isn’t gold and just keep in mind that even when something might look very appealing or like it would make sense, doesn’t mean that it’s for you. you are going to find a genuine romantic partner that does check off a lot of your boxes – and it will make sense with them and it will look right but in the path towards that person it’s also about recognizing the difference of what is good for you on a soul level vs what others may perceive to be right for you from an external/societal standpoint if that makes sense? i.e. it could be the hottest person that presents themselves to you and you’re like ooooooo i want that and then you engage with them and you’re like oof wait…i actually don’t want that at all lol. you need to do some throat chakra remedies! EXPRESS, pile one.

you need to make it clear what you do and don’t want, because i feel like it gets lost in translation especially with the romantic partners you attract. these people can’t read your mind. they’re not connected to you on that HIGHER frequency - so that tells you right there that it may not be for you because they’re not in tune with where exactly you’re at in your spiritual journey, but you also have to be the one to explicitly say “hey this actually isn’t working for me…this is what i want” while also telling yourself that you don’t have to settle for this when you could have something better. if you don’t speak your truth to not only yourself but the ones you’re attracting, it’s going to put you in a state of regret. feeling like like you should’ve said this or you should’ve done that — to clear that fog of confusion you have to speak your truth. say exactly what it is that you want and not settle for people/situations that you feel are familiar. just because you’re familiar with someone or something doesn’t mean that it’s right/good for you. ultimately you know what the truth is, you know where you’re going and you know what suits you. don’t get too caught up in the blunder and mental chaos that not only other people but YOURSELF tries to inflict upon your psyche. CLEAR, CANCEL AND RELEASE the confusion from out of your life.

ADDITIONAL MESSAGES —

higher by tems, marilyn monroe, self sabotage, swati, love without tragedy by rihanna, burning blue by mariah the scientist, dhanistha, spread thin by mariah the scientist. you have a pattern of people pleasing tendencies when it comes to the connections around you (friends/family/lovers).

CARDS — 8 of pentacles, the hierophant, 4 of wands, 8 of swords, 4 of swords, the tower rx, 10 of cups, temperance.

pile two you need to stop over-compensating because you're more than qualified to genuinely be loved. time and time again you try to show up and try to morph into someone that's more digestible for people. it's almost like you downplay yourself in a sense. this also bleeds into the love you have for your craft/passions — it's very specific. you're beyond talented at what you do and you love the grind. you prefer quality over quantity. you don't need to have a lot of romantic connections or connections in general to feel fulfilled — in your opinion. at the end of the day, your guides want you to understand that everyone needs somebody when it's all said and done. not solely in a romantic relationship sense, more so that everyone needs someone to turn to and lean on in certain instances. your soul has felt so conditioned to keep powering through alone. you feel like you don't need people and that essentially you can do it all on you're own...there's some sort of hyper-independence here.

this is not to say that you can't do it on your own, but your spirit guides want you to understand that you can also ask for help. you can ask your spirit guides for help, you can ask the divine for help and you can ask for more. free of charge. you don't have to settle for less or water yourself down because you have the knowledge, power, connections and resources at your will more than you think you do to qualify for what it is that you want; the love that you want. to connect with the people and opportunities and the spaces that you want to be in. you have the power to access all of it, but you have to stop overcompensating and dimming yourself in a way that's ultimately working against you. you are a very hard-worker! to the point that it almost isolates you and deprives you from real love. it's like you feel trapped. i'm not certain if you know how to express your emotions fluently or if you know to express love in a "traditional" way. you might have an earth (capricorn, virgo, taurus) venus or prominent 6H placements. prominent gemini placement as well.

there's this strong energy of over-thinking, but in the mental chaos there's a method to your madness. love might not be conveyed in the ways that most people (especially romantic partners) would like because the way you give love might be unconventional or foreign to them. their needs vs yours. you have a very specific way that you want to be loved and i don't think you've fully experienced/felt it yet. you do know how to show up for people in the ways that they want, but it's just in a different way. if that makes sense? you might've felt like you've constantly hit a wall because of that...because essentially your watering down your own needs in the process of that. you're not truly being who you are in these romantic connections you attract, and that's why you're hitting a wall there.

you're not honoring who you are at the core because you're trying to play this traditional role, but you're really not that person. you're very unique. very one of one. it's hard for me to explain it, but you know what i'm talking about. you're very custom-made and not everybody can receive you because you're good by yourself and not a lot of people can stand on their own; but you can. i feel like that's where the fear and confusion comes in because because you start to feel isolated, lonely, misunderstood, outcasted and essentially pressured to be someone that you're not. people get it misconstrued with you. you might look one way but behind the physical appearance is something else. i'm being drawn to rohini (taurus) nakshatra. some of you might have a more conservative/traditional look to you where people put you in a box and think you're the ultimate marriage material/arm candy/trophy wife but whole time you're like um fuck being a trad!wife or "traditional" partner who stays home all day. you don't want that for yourself, you want to be an entrepreneur and build your own business and pave your own way. ardra (gemini) nakshatra energy. mad scientist vibes. you don't want anyone to take credit for the legacy and success you are cultivating for yourself because YOU made this happen from the ground up.

again, this is where you internally waver because you're not being seen for who you truly are and that's why the relationships you've been in didn't work out because you're resisting and they're resisting change. which is you...you're the change. you're not what they expected and that throws them off. even when you try to force it, its like you can't delay the inevitable. you can't avoid it because your true self is going to come out regardless — your soul is going to shine through no matter what. your guides want you to know that you will get to that place of finding someone that emotionally pours into you. someone that is not caught up in the physical/lust aspect when it comes to you. you don't fit into a box. your person/this love is going to feel so fulfilling on so many levels; i can't even fully put it into words. you might move somewhere else and/or move with this person but you need this. your soul needs this. it's like rejuvenation to your soul. you could marry this person and/or even have a family (if you want that) with them. ultimately this is what your soul needs because this is what it's felt deprived of. you've had your walls up subconsciously because you're not being who you authentically are in the relationships that you find yourself in.

you have very deep childhood wounds that stems from your family. that pressure of being someone that you're not was put upon you by your family. you could experience a lot of envy from family members for being who you are (some of you that picked this pile might be LGBTQ+) and for being the unique soul that you are. for being so good at what you do effortlessly. people perceive you in this way, but they don't even realize how hard you've worked to get to this point or how much you've put into being who it is that you are. sustaining what it is that you've created for yourself. their projections have made you feel insecure and very unsure of yourself and that's just an optical illusions to break you down. certain triggers from the external world are tactics to try to "humble" you and put you in an energy of doubt and lack so that you're not operating from your highest frequency/your soul. it's done to take you out of your essence and this is very...heavy. this is done in ways you haven't even fully recognized yet, but you're slowly starting to realize.

whoever you are — you can be your quirky self. you can be your silly self. you can be your imaginative self. you can be profound. you can be emotional. show that side of you because someone is going to come into your life and see you for who you truly are and love every imperfection and aspect of your soul. they're not going to fall in love with the facade that you've created in your mind, no. the image that you put on for the public does not resonate with them. your true authentic self is what they will fall in love with first. you or this person may have a pisces moon. yin and yang energy. this person is going to pour into you in ways you never knew you needed to be nourished in. you're learning how to not take on the burdens that people try to mentally inflict upon you. you don't have to accept that. you can be who you are at the core and still attract the things that you want.

ADDITIONAL MESSAGES —

check pile 1 if you also felt drawn to it, vibes don’t lie by leon thomas, get well soon by ariana grande, prominent gemini placements, hasta, teyana taylor vibe, art by tyla, jyeshtha, while we’re young by jhené aiko, heart chakra remedies, pretty little birds by sza ft. isaiah rashad, chart ruler in jupiter or in pisces sign.

CARDS — the sun, 10 of swords, the hermit, page of cups, page of wands, 8 of cups.

you carry such a bright light inside of you, pile 3. a sun-like aura surrounds you to the point people can't ignore it even if they tried. people can't help but be drawn to you. these people are almost vampiric in a sense that they need your warmth, vitality and presence in their life. they feel the difference in the room when you're there vs when you're not. you make a huge impact on peoples lives. i feel like people (especially romantic partners) try to take advantage of that —they can see and feel that you operate on this high frequency. it's like a drug to them. people around you try to take you out of that frequency/siphon your energy for themselves and try to use it against you because they know that you are a kind + radiant soul. no act, no gimmicks. these people try to backstab, betray and make an enemy out of you from a place of jealousy. you have the power to see through the veil and this evokes a lot of negative reactions/emotions from people.

it might wholeheartedly astonish you, but this seriously causes people to operate on a lower vibration to try to knock you off your "high horse" is what i'm picking up. they try to exhaust you, break you down and bring you down to their level but you refuse. even if in the moment you do feel hurt, angry, embarrassed or disrespected, you still come back to yourself. do not allow others to think that have the power to take your out of your body — out of your natural essence. you need to acknowledge when too much is too much. you have to learn how to not over-give and how to keep some things to yourself and for yourself, because you operate on such a sun-like frequency that nothing phases you. or at least that's how people perceive you, which then makes them feel like they need to knock you down a peg to make you feel something. sometimes this might work — sometimes people might take you to that place of feeling like "damn...okay" and make you retreat inwards and dim your light.

however, i feel like you have a sanctuary within your own soul. even when people trigger you like that, you still look at it from an optimistic perspective like "how can i grow from this? how can i transmute this energy?" it's interesting because you don't even really make it so much about the person. you still give them grace/the benefit of the doubt. instead, you turn to yourself to make sure that you're not falling into that trap of negativity that they want you to get caught up in. you might feel bothered by it momentarily — but you're very solution based in a way that honors your feelings and then you pivot. you're very reflective and introspective. you may have prominent 1H/aries/mars placements in your chart. even in the face of adversity, you're always resilient.

you have a very youthful energy that triggers a lot of people. you understand that a lot of people do not have the luxury of walking around on cloud 9 and looking at life from an optimistic point of view. a lot of people in the external world operate from a lower vibration, and you don't so when it comes to love you have to be able to wield your own power and not put it in the hands of someone else. there's nothing wrong with instilling boundaries and letting people know that they cannot just trample upon your emotional boundaries. you have to communicate what exactly it is that you feel instead of being passive or avoidant. you might be very good at ghosting or abruptly walking away, you'd rather do that than face the emotional aspect of it head on. i know that it's easier to retreat inward and deal with it internally (it's good that you can even do this because many don't) but if you don't say things out loud people (especially romantically) will try to overstep and not respect you or your emotions.

if something doesn't sit right with you — say it. everyone has a limit. you need to allow yourself to tell people what doesn't align with you. you like to deal with things in your own way which is fine, but it doesn't always leave things settled. once you say what you mean and mean what you say then — BOOM — it's settled you can walk away peacefully. however, when you don't fully close those cycles out, then you're going to go through a loop of repetition. like "why do people keep doing this to me?" or "why do people keep saying this to me?" — that's because you're basically allowing that. the ball is in your court, pile 3. what you say...goes. your guides want you to know that you have the power to do this. you don't have to be passive aggressive, complacent or feel remorseful. life is coming from you, not at you. so you need to get more in touch with your emotions and start conveying them in a way that makes people realize that they can't play with you like that. you might be young or just getting into adulthood or you may just have child-like personality, that makes people not want to respect you or your boundaries but that's why you have to stop being so passive about it and advocate for yourself. you might not have fully experienced a romantic commitment yet, you may have had more fleeting crushes/flings, but in speaking your truth/your emotions you will start to see a change in who it is that you attract.

you take a very unbothered approach to conflict. you don't allow others to fully see how you truly feel. you're known to be a very happy and sweet person, to the point that people don't see you as a threat; which makes them think they can play with you. instead of rocking the boat you see the best in people even when you need to see the situation for what it truly is and subconsciously you're making a blockage for yourself. you don't fully trust people, so it's like you don't want them to think that you're vulnerable enough to give them the reaction that they want — that's what is hindering you. honestly, fuck other people's opinions but this isn't about that. this is about you being an inspiration to yourself. it's about you respecting yourself enough to speak your truth unapologetically. don't spare other people at the expanse of yourself. taurus/2H vibes. you have a very sexy, cool, calm energy about you that helps you finagle situations to your advantage. you might have a very active root/sacral chakra. don't be so passive. refine how you communicate your needs and boundaries. with that taurus energy, people might think they can be sexually crude towards you because of how you look.

i feel like you have some new romance coming in though - you could meet this person while you're traveling/at a museum/exhibit of some sort. somewhere with nice scenery. this is going to be a wish fulfillment. something that you've always wanted to do/experience on a romantic level. it's like a rom-com scene in a movie when you meet them. like you're unlocking a new storyline/chapter lol. you're moving towards this very soon, pile 3.

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