happy belated birthday @madaboutasoiaf!! Â
i donât want a wife. Â i want to be a knight of the kingsguard.
how many times had he said it growing up? Â day in, day out, over and over againâa reaction to whenever daella asked who he would marry, her or rhae; a reaction to his cousins who all asked him what he could possibly want for himself since he was so far down in the line of succession that he couldnât hope for even his fatherâs seat, much less the throne; a justification as good as any to make people understand why he had to travel the seven kingdoms at dunkâs side. Â
heâd never been bookish like aemon, and he had no particular desire to join the faith, but he was quick and clever and not a bad hand with a sword and from what heâd been told that should be enough to earn him a white cloak.  i wonât be prince aemon the dragonknight, but itâs foolish to hope i would.  no one can be as good as prince aemon the dragonknight.  i just need to be better than most everyone else.
i want to be a knight of the kingsguard.
âyouâre young,â his father had told him when heâd declared he never wanted to marry. Â âlet yourself be young, but donât pretend you shall always be young. Â that is folly.â
but aegon had been convinced that heâd never wish to marry. Â his travels with dunk only solidified that he wanted to be a knight, for ser duncan was a true knight, and a good one. Â he did his best to serve, and thatâs what aegon wanted tooâto serve, to do his best, to protect those in need. Â he didnât need a wife for thatâhe needed spurs and a targaryen name, and he already had one of those.
he met her first when he was nine and she was very annoying. Â she always had her hands on her hips and was bossing him around and telling him he was stupid because thatâs not how things were done at raventree hall. Â theyâd argued, and dunk had laughed and said if sheâd been a boy theyâd have been wrestling in the dirt, but that you couldnât wrestle in the dirt with little girlsâmuch less noble little girls, especially if you were a targaryen pretending you werenât a targaryen.
itâs lord bloodravenâs blood. Â he was born of a blackwood, after all, heâd convinced himself heatedly when they were riding away from raventree hall. Â betha hadnât apologized for how sheâd treated himânot really. Â âforgive me, prince aegon, but you were being stupid,â sheâd said, arms crossed over her chest. Â but if it was lord bloodravenâs blood, that much aegon had not seen when betha blackwood had arrived at court, for lord bloodraven barely acknowledged her presence. Â
âlady betha.â aegon bowed slightly. Â âwelcome to court.â
âmy prince,â she said, and her voice was rich and musical and when she swept her skirts in a curtsey and smiled at him something was different. Â it was a cheeky smile, now. Â the smile of a woman who had known him for a stupid boy but had seen that heâd grown. Â âyou have hair now.â
aegon felt his lips part in surprise.  he had half a mind to parrot her words back to her, thatâs not how things are done in kingâs landing, but he couldnât quite bring himself to.  he doesnât like how things are done in kingâs landing, the way no one seems to care about anything but themselves.  he found himself blinking, for betha had caredâsheâd cared for the smallfolk, and cared that ser arlan whoâd knighted dunk was properly commemorated in pennytree even when no one else had.  instead he said, âi do.  iâve had hair these past five years.â
âit suits you,â she said smiling. Â âthough i was fond of your egghead.â
âin memory. Â easier to remember stupid egg than that iâd called prince aegon stupid. Â for you were stupid. Â very stupid.â Â she was smiling still, and her lips were quite pink and her head was cocked ever so slightly to the side, like a dogâs and aegon only noticed that he was doing it too when his hand rose unconsciously to his hair to pull at one of his curls.
âarenât we all stupid when weâre young?â let yourself be young, but donât pretend you shall always be young. Â that is folly. Â
âoh i never was,â betha replied airily. Â âyou were stupid enough for both of us. Â but that was what i liked about youâthat you were so very stupid.â
âyou liked something about me?â he asked. Â heâd meant it to sound dry, uncaring but it hadnât quite worked and her eyes flickered and the easy air that sheâd been speaking with seemed to slip. Â she seemed younger, suddenly, nervous.
âoh yes. Â yes, i think i did. Â you cared.â Â she looked about the hall. Â no one was paying attention to the two of them. Â no one ever paid attention to aegon except dunk. Â why should they? heâd never sit the throne, and would like as not never even marry. Â i want to be a knight of the kingsguard. Â why did it feel more like he was trying to convince himself now? Â
âiâm glad to see you,â betha said after a moment and she still looked young, and nervous.  âi know you may not believe me butâŚbut i donât know anyone at court except you and i fear not having a friend here.  melantha always described this place as more lonely than winterfell.â
aegon swallowed. Â he could name every person at court, and the members of their house, and who they were feuding with, but he was quite sure the only friend he had here was dunk. Â heâd never thought about it that way before.
âwell so long as you promise to stop calling me stupid, i might be convinced to show you how things are done in kingâs landing.â
betha rolled her eyes. Â âi knew iâd be a lost cause. Â you found the one thing i shall never be able to stop doing. Â itâs habit by now. Â i suppose it was too much to hope for a friend.â
and aegon laughed, and his laughter made betha laugh, and when she laughed her eyes sparkled.