Whatever's on my mind

It all started with them.

Their opinions,

Their stares,

Their lies,

And their lives.

What does it take to be alive?

A heart,

A breath,

A sigh,

And a laugh.

But what am I then?

No body,

No face,

No name,

And no voice.

I am in your life.

A memory,

A shadow,

A breeze,

And just a touch away.

But you look at them.

Their love,

Their money,

Their acts,

And their damn smiles.

You look at them,

Don’t notice me.

I’m a mere dream!

A tale of happiness.

You want to be like them,

But you know

You’re different –

You cannot live like them,

Because they’re not you.

Thank you, my younger self. Thank you to all of the authors out there who impact young and old souls alike.

It’s a phrase not used often enough, I think. There are many moments when I consider saying it, but then it always feels wrong because what I mean with it is often misunderstood.

Sometimes I’m rooted in myself

like a tree, centre of the world

reaching deep in solid ground

steady in space

Sometimes I float away so far

discovering new galaxies

distant near places

deep in myself

I keep wandering

it’s so dark

it’s so bright

and I keep finding

Sometimes I don’t know where I am

lost in an endless ocean

of thoughts and deep space

just wandering

Sometimes I discover new wonders

hidden between rocks lies a gem

raw untouched til now

find a new self

I keep wandering

it’s so dark

it’s so bright

and I keep finding

Sometimes I’m lost in the darkness

floating in space, dancing in light

I must live my own self

I hide and seek

Sometimes I don’t know what to do

finding earth to grow a new me

building the construct

with foreign seeds

I keep wandering

it’s so dark

it’s so bright

and I keep drowning

I keep wandering

in the dark

in the light

keep finding courage

I keep wandering

on the land

in the sea

I want to shout your name

when dancing in the rain.

I want to corrupt your mind,

my temper's yours to bind.

I want to start a revolution;

we will write the new constitution.

I want you by my side

and we won't need to hide.

Someday it will be me and you

the world at our bare feet

marching to our own beat,

we will have everything and so much to do.

I want inside your head and heart

to know you all and every part.

I want to hold your hand

while with everyone we stand.

I want us to shine so bright

and for a future we will fight.

I want to end this life's sorrow

that we will live another morrow.

Someday it will be me and you

like in my dreams tonight

where I don't know you yet -