The Healthy Contrarian

Good mornings from hellos, then good nights

There's no other way to say this : you miss loves

You've once given and received, that you've let go of

That you've been dismissed from, that's died

From the times you were then, younger, brighter, beginner

First times, second times, several times in-love times;

You mourn your old selves and their once-hearts.

Timeless, the word, 'miss' and missing

No other way to put it, you long for times then

But you're here in this moment remembering

And though the ache is there, so is the wondering

What is, for me, next? And giddily too, who?

Controversial or not let me just say -

Ilya would one hundred percent be snarky towards Rose. Even after it all. At least for a VERY long while. Because he is selfish regarding Shane's love and experience. He wouldn't want to share, and as much as he'd like to not 'own' Shane by technicality, it's still what he wants ultimately.

Shane would initially be very very somewhat hostile to Svetlana. But, but, the moment he understands she was only ever Ilya's reprieve and safe space before admittedly 'him' and the love was legit genuine but not coveted, he'd also end up being the best of friends with Svetlana in their fierce love for and overprotectiveness of Ilya. And Rose too by extension. Shane would have girl besties and Hayden (and possibly J.J) because believe it or not their personalities complement one another.

But Ilya? He'd stay 'hating' (though not really, more like still staying jealous of) Rose and would take a long time to be warm with her BECAUSE she's the realized fear he could've lost Shane had Shane also been into women. He's Rose and Rozy but most def the opposite of Rose Landry, at least in his mind.

Which I believe is why it's important that Ilya has a new team soon. 😁

But it makes me want to believe the world is a good place

even if only at times.

And even if it's just for this moment ..