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private: yeah, i get it. i wouldn't do that either. it definitely spiraled on twitter there and it did afterwards as well. i know. i am the same way honestly. i know kook has his own grievances with jin hyung while yoongi hyung usually picks fight when he's in a situation that escalates too far like that. yeah, they are making up which i appreciate. plus all of us having a little time away from each other is helping as well i'm sure. thanks. i appreciate it. if you wanna hear how it started... um well it was cause jin hyung and jimin told us they were intimate together in napa. kook sees him as a hypocrate since hyung did give me a hard time when kook and i started dating. he called it bandcest and i get he was worried about the group but it still didn't feel good to hear. plus we couldn't be ourselves together due to us not wanting to set him off. yeah, i tend to do that a lot. i like making sure everyone else is doing well and tend to forget about myself which usually means keeping my emotions suppressed.

PRIVATE: ...what the actual fuck? forget k-dramas.. where do i subscribe to bts-drama? is it streaming live on weverse, or have you all moved to a different channel? also, i'm kidding... mostly. but jesus, mary, and joseph, what the hell? i can't begin to imagine how you must be feeling after all of that. from where i'm standing, it sounds like something that could've been dealt with a lot sooner if people had just been honest about what they were feeling and where they stood. we have a few people in our group who prefer men over women, and while we tease about it from time to time, there's always a certain level of respect behind it. he never should've spoken to you the way he did and i'm truly sorry he made you feel like who you love was somehow a problem. i'm glad you all managed to work through it and come to some sort of understanding, especially after taking some time apart. but you also have every right to be angry, v. that's beyond fucked up.

appreciate the honesty. how long does one have to be a trainee? is there a set timeline for it? i’m kind of amazed you went from priest to singer — that’s quite the switch up. seems to have worked in your favor though. i joined a drama class during my freshman year of high school and the love for acting grew from there.

you're welcome. that depends on a lot of things actually. it can take months or even years, depending on how your trainers view your progress. the majority of trainees never actually debut, so it can be pretty tedious. it was but i have faith it was the right move for me. also, looking back it might've been the white robes that made me gravitate toward the priest profession. that's cool, though. did you end up studying performing arts after high school?

i don't know about everything especially some of those but a lot of things. same but not for a few more months. this is the first real down time i have had in a few years. i'm writing and focusing on myself for once.

so from what i said before, what did you believe in? because if there was even one of those things you believed, we need to have a sit-down and talk about being gullible. not too shabby, though. glad to hear that you're focusing on yourself.

i can't with you right now, i.n.! i didn't and still don't have any expectations that what we did was serious or that there were any strings or that we were exclusive. but basic fucking human decency would be to, at the very least, shoot me a text. i know you've got a lot of numbers from thirsty bitches in your phone, but "life", "work" and "other priorities" shouldn't have kept you from using those little thumbs of yours to scroll through them and shoot a two word text, "we're done". or hell, if you were feeling spicy you could've even used a few more words such as, "i don't want to see you anymore". i wasn't expecting an "exit interview" or even a fucking call. we could've kept things civil, hell... even become friends despite having seen each other naked, but you went and fucked that up.

i think i'll survive that. so what you're basically describing here is a guide on how to dump someone? shit, zara, here i was under the impression that when something comes with "no strings attached," it usually means exactly that: no fucking strings attached. giving you some long explanation about why i stopped replying would imply there were feelings involved beyond what we actually had. and to be fair, you knew what my schedule looked like before we ever saw each other, as you so elegantly put it, "naked." and telling you that i had other priorities wasn't a lie, so i don't understand why you're so fucking pressed about it. here's a little tip: when you tell someone you don't want anything serious and that you're only interested in the physical part of things, stick to that. you don't get to set the rules and then get mad when someone actually plays by them.

i had to take a moment to just get over the fact of how unbelievably fucked up it is that you're reaching out after all this time only to ask me if i'm "okay". to answer your question, i am doing just peachy. successful world tour, good people around me, several hits out there and i look amazing, but did you expect anything else? maybe that i'd be curled up on the floor crying about the guy i was fucking ghosting me without explanation? funny how my song playing on the speaker is what it took for you to reach out after all this time and i still don't know why you ghosted.

....anyway, at least you're doing well career wise, so congratulations on that. but what the fuck did you expect, zara? there were never any strings attached. we weren't together, we weren't exclusive and i don't fucking remember signing some contract that required me to provide a detailed exit interview before moving on with my life. things stopped because life happened. work happened. other priorities happened.

Imagine being the police during The Purge? Shit would be so intense!! @limelightblvdstarters

"this is not a test. this is your emergency broadcast system announcing the commencement of the annual purge, sanctioned by the U.S. government. commencing at the siren, any and all crime, including murder, will be legal for 12 continuous hours. weapons of class 4 and lower have been authorized for use during the purge. all other weapons are restricted. police, fire and emergency medical services will be unavailable until tomorrow morning at 7 am. and, for the first time since its inception, no one has been granted special immunity from the purge. no citizen or group will be exempt. blessed be our new founding fathers and america, a nation reborn. may god be with you all."

private: yeah... i not surprised knowing that everyone say that. i mean i can vent a little. there wasn't really a winner per say. after two of the hyungs had their spat on twitter, yoongi hyung was a mess. he was upset and quiet which i never say before. i've heard that they are trying to make up which is something in the right direction. if you wanna hear me vent about the what caused it all, i could do so. i've been better. just trying to help keep the peace with everyone and make sure my boyfriend is good as well.

PRIVATE: dude, you won't catch me talking shit to one of my members. sure, there's playful banter but i would never disrespect my hyungs. that's not even just a cultural thing, it's basic human decency toward someone you work with and consider family. when they get annoyed or i can tell they're not in the best mood, i usually just give them space or let them cool off. at least they're making up, right? please do. if you ever feel like getting a second opinion from someone who's not directly involved in the drama, i'm all ears. i don't like the idea of you not feeling your best. can i ask you something, v? do you suppress a lot of anger just to keep the peace?

i certainly know that feeling all too well. you sound like a pretty smart guy to me. it's fun to dress up and pretend to be someone else even for a day. i think that's one reason i also enjoy acting. so what are you doing right ? tell me all your plans?

i sound smart? you know what, there might actually be some truth to that. from here on out, you should believe everything i tell you. the earth is flat. britney is not really britney, hashtag savebritney. we're all descendants of adam and eve, which means we're technically related, so what's up cousin? dreams are just visions from a past life. the watergate scandal never happened, and hitler still lives. my plans? work my ass off. what about you?