My list of reasons to stay alive in no particular order (except loosely chronologically)
my next date with my girlfriend
Ren faire
pride month
hanging out with my friends irl
my girlfriends birthday
my academic trip this summer
my birthday
D&D
irl D&D
halloween/samhein
yule
mine and my gf's anniversary
holding on till another may for Vic Fuentes
moving in with my gf
throwing my online friend her first prom
meeting my online friend irl for the first time
starting T
getting top surgery
graduating
learning more languages
bookstores
all of the books I haven't read but have been meaning to
lazy weekends
cuddles
my cats (who else will scream back at them when they scream at night)
lilacs
witchcraft
warm baths with candles
cosplay, I haven't cosplayed all of the characters I want yet
Tea
painting
swimming
the chance to dress and present the way I want in like 1.3 years
AO3 I have to finish my Nevermore (webtoon) fanfic eventually
Nevermore(webtoon) I need to see how the doomed Yuri ends
Being called by my name in public (like at a Dr apt.) for the first time
finding a career/job that I like
making coffee and tea that I like
comfort foods
Trying wine for the first time
short crinolines
crystals
walking in the city, just roaming and stopping at places
holding hands with my gf and rubbing her hand with my thumb
leaning my head on my gf's shoulder
sleepy "I love you"'s with my gf
falling asleep in her arms for the first time
holding her close
going to senior prom in a suit-dress thingy
moving to a better state
experiencing daily gentleness and love
soft sunlight while reading under a tree
archery
starting martial arts again
voting for the first time
chocolate
kissing my gf
building myself a library
making breakfast
maybe going vegetarian
getting through mine and my gf's movie/show list
listening to all of my favorite songs and albums over and over again
seeing MCR live
seeing my favorite bands and artists live
MCR5
buying things from small businesses
nice smells
putting fruit stickers on my gf as a sign of affection
art
TMA book
seeing my nieces and nephews grow up
fantasy balls
conventions
love


















