Do you guys remember the devastatingly beautiful guy at school who used to be my friend and then found out I liked him and stopped talking to me? I'm friends with his ex now, she's in my class and she's really funny but
This dude is haunting my dreams. I'm serious. He's so painfully ethereal and I will never be able to get close to him again. Why did I have to be born so hideous, why couldn't I be one of those pretty, air headed cheerleaders so that he would like me. I have dreamed of him for a week now and every time I wake up I find myself both relieved and absolutely miserable.
I miss him, I miss him so much. I'm not sure he's a good person, there's a debate going on about him cheating but I don't care I wouldn't care being one of many. I want to exist in his world. I want to be.
Oh, I ache for a hug from him so badly. The sheer force which with my heart craves him can only be expressed as the never ending torture of love. I want to see him smile at me again, I need it. I want to be loved.
I want to melt my face and then remold it so maybe I will not be of such a terrifying visage. I want to be beautiful like him and then maybe he will talk to me again.
I miss your laugh. Please come back. I'm begging.
Come back and kiss me like you did her. Bite me and hug me and wrap those gorgeous hands around me and tell me that you love me PLEASE
Make out with me like I saw you make out with her. With overwhelming hunger and love, like you would die if you didn't. That was the most beautiful thing I ever saw and at the same time I wish I had never seen it so I would not wish it.
I want you to let me run my hands down your back absentnindedly like you let her do. I want to wear your hoodies, I want to smell like you. I want you to drag me away for kisses like you would drag her away. I want you to play volleyball and dedicate points to me. I want to wear shared jewelry with you and be able to proudly tell whoever asks what it's all about.
I want you to do whatever you wish to me. I want to dance with you at parties and be shown off to your friends. I want to help you study and I want to sneak off during class just to see you, even if the teacher won't let me in after, I don't care.
I miss you so much even if we were never anything