That bitch

Duh!!!! I am better than this. I need to refocus and start working harder.

He deleted our messages. I would sometimes go in them and reread them. He purposely went on the message chat and deleted the whole conversation. I don't even know what I am overthinking about but I am overthinking. I feel sad, like a bus hit me. I wish a bus would hit me. Jk but hmmm. At least I know he thought of me ayyyeeeee!! Change your mindset!

Well my thoughts about Ernie went away. The whole situation is disappointing. I want and need more. I will get more. I AM GETTING MORE!!!!!!

Remember how you used to beg him to not ignore you? Remember all the times you had to beg for him to stop being mean?

I saw a tarot reading video on tiktok the other day. I know, I know, I feel crazy. But it made me think of Ernie and I had a thought of him coming back. Dumb. But he has been on my mind lately. I think I miss him? Or maybe I just miss cuddling and having someone to pay attention to me. I am doing good right now. It's silly of me to have my hopes high and keep daydreaming of us getting back together. I hope he comes back to me! <3 jk but hmm. I have more things to work on before I date anyone else.

Dick. That is all I can think about while I am in class. What is wrong with me, please stop.

Why does it take being deathly sick to make you appreciate life. I miss being able to breathe. I do not miss my ex. Best believe once this is over, I am going to be on a whole other level. Bad bitch shit only

I suppose 2024 ended okay, considering the breakup and moving to a whole new place. After days on days of crying I believe I have finally processed most of it all. What is missing? Fully committing to this new life. When moving forward, it's best to not continue to look back. Stop looking back. You cannot change the past, what you can change is yourself. Am I scared of rejection? Perhaps it is something I must work on. #thefearoflookingstupidisholdingyouback #rawr #2025