never enough

Major update I can't believe this is real she said she wants to be my girlfriend. Her and I have had a rough past week. I spiraled pretty hard because she had barely been talking to me and she still doesn't really but it made me feel like she likes others more than me. I happened to be talking to her today and she said she is ok with the title of girlfriend and us being girlfriends. I could scream right now I went from the lonliest girl in the world to the happiest girl in the world. I think she had a boyfriend before but I'm not sure what is going on with him. I don't get to talk to her a lot so I'm not sure when I would ask about him. Right now I could hardly care about that man I'm just excited she loved me. Sorry if anyone seen me post this twice I'm still figuring out how to use tumblr.

I wait around all day waiting for her to message me and she could hardly care about me. she knows how badly I depend on her and yet will go hours not responding to my messages. I can see she is online and playing games with her boyfriend but she can't spare a minute to message me. When she does message me it will be a couple words for a reply while I write whole paragraphs to her. I cry my eyes out every night and struggle to get out of bed for hours because my whole world revolves around her. She says that she knows I love her more than anyone else snd that she loves me too but then why does she let me suffer like this. everyday I feel myself getting closer to killing myself I just wish I could sleep in her arms forever. I don't know what to do anymore.