Pick it up,

All day you’ll have good luck.

I remember you telling me this

when I was a kid...

I found a penny today.

This time however,

I didn’t think it would make me lucky.

I’m not even sure I believe in luck anymore.

This time I found myself wondering instead

what the year was and if it was from you.

I talked to you yesterday out loud.

It is the first time I’ve called you

by your first name.

I sure as hell didn’t have anyone consistently questioning my integrity.

I would cry back then of my own thoughts and insecurities but now I’ve learned to cry for yours. Nothing I say or feel means anything anymore

so I’ll just keep on keep on crying in the dark.

You ask me what’s wrong

you ask me if I’m okay

blind to the fact that you’re casting the stones this time around.

So baby here’s your answer.

Don’t worry I’m doing okay

I left home to find my own

I think you’d be happy to know

I’m still writing and singing songs

Mom I wish I could tell you the news

I never knew it could feel this way

I’ve met someone he’s got sweet eyes

He opens doors, pulls out my seat

and don’t make me cry all damn day

He’s not where I’m from but mom

I swear to you for me he is home.

I wish you knew I like him a lot

And I know you would too

It’s crazy I know but we even went and got ourselves matching tattoos

He’s got a smile that makes me forget

All the shit I’ve been through

And I just wish he had been given the chance to meet you

Hearts ripped out and left to rust

Nowhere to go but home

But I left home long ago

Now the road is all I know

Steel and iron

Hearts grown tired

The rust has remained

Leaving scars on the surface