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HOW TO LOSE AN IDOL IN 10 SHOWS โ martin edwards.
SYNOPSIS. ever since martinโs debut, heโs been touted as a master of fanservice, but he's got something to prove: that his flirting does work on anyone. meanwhile, you desperately want to turn your internship at stereo into a full-time job. the best way to do that is by writing something so eye-catching to the point where your boss will have no choice but to keep you on: an article on dating and losing an idol. so when martin spots you at their comeback showcase, the scene is set. heโs going to make you fall in love with him in 10 shows. you're going to make him dump you in that same timeframe. youโve got your agenda. heโs got his. game on.ย
or alternatively, the question: โDoes Martin know how to flirt??โ is answered.ย
GENRE. crack, fluff, angst, idol! martin, inspired by 'how to lose a guy in 10 days'
WORD COUNT. 20.2k (I'M SORRY I CAN'T HELP IT)
WARNINGS. swearing, mentions of drinking (james is drunk), questionable journalism practices for plot (as a journalist, i do NOT endorse what y/n is doing), reader is the same age as martin and is implied to be shorter
AUTHOR'S NOTE. yes this was inspired by seonghyeon's weverse reply. Does Martin know how to flirt?? enjoy this cheeky long fic as a gift to u all bcos i'm going to be working a bit so may b a bit more ia :p really loved this and i don't want to keep u guys waiting so i'm dropping it with no teaser. i hope yall like this!! <3
feedback and reblogs are much appreciated! <3
โEom Seonghyeon, what the hell is this?โย
Martin Edwards storms into his dorm room, holding his phone up. His brows are furrowed in mock anger as Seonghyeon peers at his screen from his spot on the bed.ย
โWait, I canโt read it. Iโm also too lazy to get up. Can you read it to me?โ Seonghyeonโs buried under his blankets, head resting on his pillow as he squints at Martinโs screen.
Keonho, whoโs lazily sprawled across his own bed, looks up from his phone to listen in on the conversation. Knowing him, Keonhoโs probably watching some funny dog videos or going through his album of Cookie photos.ย
โWhat the hell do you mean by โdoes Martin know how to flirt?โ I have to find out that you think I have zero game from a Weverse reply?โ he exclaims, exasperated. Seonghyeon and Keonho both explode into a fit of laughter, and Martin simply stands there, unamused.ย
Seonghyeonโs words ring heavy in Martinโs ears โ look, although Martin hadnโt dated before, he does think he can flirt. Heโs seen the discourse online.
Sure, was it a little corny sometimes? Yeahโฆ a little.ย But most of the fans were eating it up, and Martin was more than happy to oblige if it meant that he would be making a little bit more money. Money didnโt fall from trees, and those clothes that Martinโs been eyeing for ages werenโt going to pay for themselves.ย
โWhat?โ Seonghyeon asks, laughing as he hugs his pillow a little tighter. โCome on, the fanservice barely counts. I know everyoneโs been saying that youโre a fanservice king, but they're all basically in love with you anyways!โย
โUs,โ Keonho pipes up. โTheyโre not only in love with Martin hyung. Also, youโre right โ Martin, do you really know how to flirt?โย
Martin narrows his eyes at Keonho. โI think I know what youโre insinuating, and I donโt like it.โย
Seonghyeon and Keonhoโs loud laughter somehow summon both James and Juhoon in the room, and Martinโs already preparing himself to become the laughing stock for the next 30 minutes. The life of a leader, he thinks. It's truly so difficult.ย
It also wasnโt like Martin didnโt want love. He wanted it more than anything โ he just didnโt exactly have the time for it right now, like most idols. He had so much to do every single day, from dance practices, to music shows, to producing music. Martin Edwards, despite having so much love to give, simply didnโt have time to do so.ย
โJames hyung, Juhoon hyung โ do you think Martin can flirt?โย
James snorts. Juhoon makes a noise thatโs a mix of a strangled laugh and a cough. At their reactions, Keonho laughs so hard his pillow falls right off his bed.ย
Martin groans, turning his phone off and shoving it back into the pocket of his sweatpants.ย
โI rest my case,โ Seonghyeon says, grinning triumphantly.ย
โI can flirt!โ Martin says, defensively. He doesnโt know why heโs arguing so passionately for this โ it wasnโt even that big of a deal.ย "Trust me, my flirting works on anyone."
He crosses his arms, letting out a deep breath as Seonghyeon lets out another laugh. He knows that the younger boy isnโt being malicious โ they were just teasing each other like usual.ย
"Anyone is a bit brave, Martin." Juhoon jokes. Martin rolls his eyes.
โOkay, Mr. Confident. Letโs see if you can make someone โ a non-fan, by the way โ fall for you before promotions end here in Korea,โ James says, jokingly. But Martin can see the gears turning in Keonhoโs head before that shit-eating smirk spreads across his lips.ย
โJames hyung, youโre a genius!โ Keonho says, jumping up from his bed. โThatโs 10 shows. Martin, if you get a girl to fall in love with you in 10 shows, weโll officially say that you can flirt.โย
Martin furrows his brows. โThatโs all I get out of it?โ he frowns. โSeems like a pretty bad trade-off for something so risky, considering that weโreโฆ idols?โย
โFine. Weโll say that you can flirt, and Seonghyeon will pay for all your clothes the next time you buy something.โ Keonho says, and Seonghyeon suddenly gets up from his bed. He looks at Keonho, shaking his head.ย
โMe? Youโre the one doing the bargaining, you pay!โ Seonghyeon protests, and Keonho rolls his eyes.ย
โOkay, new proposal. We all pay for your next shopping haul and we say that you can flirt. Weโll all chip in an equal amount so itโs fair, and so Hyeon can stop complaining,โ Keonho grumbles. Seonghyeon sighs, nodding as he gives in to Keonhoโs bargain.ย
โWorks for me,โ James replies, putting his hands up. โI for one, donโt think Iโm gonna lose any money.โย
โOh, donโt be so confident,โ Martin scoffs. Wow, his friends really had zero belief in him. It really made him all the more determined to prove them wrong. โYou guys are so losing your money.โย
Keonho looks at Juhoon, eyes sparkling with mischief. โJuhoon hyungโฆ youโre the only one left,โ he says in a sing-song voice. โCome on, itโs not even going to be that hard. It's easy money, let's go.โย
โ10 shows is still technically a lot, you know. Itโs three weeks,โ Juhoon hums, thinking it through. โThree weeksโฆ well, Martin needs all the help he can get. Yeah, whatever โ Iโm in.โ
โJuhoon!โ Martin exclaims.ย
The boy looks at him, shrugging. โIโm sorry! Iโm just too curious to see how this will pan out โ we need a little bit of excitement in our lives! Performing is exciting enough, but this is like a whole new level. Iโm going to be entertained for weeks.โย
Juhoon drags the last word out, and Martin sighs. The air is thick with anticipation as the four of them look at Martin expectantly.ย
Honestly, getting all his clothes paid for by his friends wasnโt exactly a bad trade-off. Heโs just going to make sure to throw in a couple more expensive things in there for some payback before he officially starts the bet. And the girl would surely understand that dating an idol was difficult, and if it ended a little earlierโฆ that was sort of to be expected, right? In three weeks he would be going to New York City anyways. No harm, no foul?ย
โFine,โ Martin groans in exasperation, giving in. โLetโs see where this goes.โย
Keonho pumps a fist in the air triumphantly, and Martin rolls his eyes. โOkay, and if you donโt get a girl to fall in love with you in 10 showsโฆ you pay for our clothes. And publicly say that youโre shit at flirting and have zero game.โย
โOne piece of expensive clothing each. Youโre four people, Iโm one. If I paid for all of your clothes, I think Iโd probably go broke.โ Martin shoots back. Keonho shrugs, seemingly deeming it reasonable enough.ย
โItโs a deal,โ Keonho says, holding his hand out for Martin to shake. Martin does, albeit a little reluctantly. What the hell did he just get himself into?ย
The room erupts into cheers so loud Martin thinks heโs suddenly transported back to MAMA.ย
Seonghyeonโs already immediately searching for a new pair of shoes that he wants to buy. James has rushed back into his room to grab his phone to go on Gentle Monster to see which pair of glasses will suit him. Juhoonโs already pulling up photos of this jacket that heโs been talking about for ages. Keonho makes it a big show out of telling Martin the price of this bracelet that he wants.ย
At their antics, thereโs a fire lit up in the pit of Martinโs stomach.ย
He was going to win this bet. Even if it was stupid.ย
Your internship at Stereo is about to come to an end.ย
Youโre distraught. Most people would love for their internships to end โ no more shitty coffee from the 10-year old dispenser that someone brought in as an โoffice giftโ, no more tapping away at a dim-lit cubicle, and no more measly half-assed articles to write that are assigned haphazardly. But youโre not most people.ย
Being a journalist at Stereo is your dream job. You get to write about the music that you love, review new albums, and you get exclusive perks and invites to music award shows every single week. Youโve been interning at Stereo for one and a half months now, and in just two weeks, youโre just going to be a high schooler in your final year.ย
Youโve heard stories of Jisoo, your boss, giving an offer for a full-time job to interns before. You desperately want to be one of those people.ย
Youโve heard her complaints behind closed doors about how Stereoโs latest content was becoming a little drab and boring, and that Stereo wasn't getting enough clicks online anymore. The most reads the publication had gotten recently was a review on Taylor Swiftโs new album, but come on โ it was Taylor Swift.ย
You needed to find a way to write the most eye-catching, niche and exclusive article that the music world had ever seen. That way, Jisoo had to give you the job.ย
Yoonchae, another intern who youโve befriended, rolls her chair over so sheโs sitting next to you. She taps her nails on your desk to get your attention. โSoโฆ last two weeks. How are you feeling?โย
Yoonchae started around the same time as you, but unlike you, Yoonchae wanted to get the hell out. She was tired of writing the weekly โSongs You Need To Knowโ article. โIโm a gatekeeper,โ she had said. โI donโt want people discovering the artists I like!โย
โStressed,โ you sigh, taking a sip out of your mug. โIโm trying to rack my brain to figure out how to write something soโฆ fresh, I guess. Something that no other publication will be able to write.โย
Yoonchae raises a brow. โI donโt know why youโre so obsessed with keeping this job, (Name). What weโve been writing really isnโt that interesting, is it? I just had to review some album from a rookie group that I donโt think anyoneโs heard of yet,โ Her voice drops low into a whisper. โIt was like nails on a chalkboard. I threw away that pair of company-provided earphones because the memories of listening to it were so traumatic.โ
You look at Yoonchae like sheโs insane before diverting your eyes back to your laptop screen. Youโve just finished a review on ILLITโs new album โ you skim through your article, making sure that thereโs no spelling mistakes or other errors before sending it to Lily, the in-house copy editor.ย
โI love it though,โ you say honestly. โI love music, I love writing about it โ plus, Stereoโs the best place to get off the ground running if you want to work in this industry. I was at ILLITโs comeback showcase literally last week โ do you know how many people would die to have this opportunity?โ
โI have to get that job offer from Jisoo.โ Your voice is laced with determination, and despite Yoonchae not understanding why in the world youโd want to stay, she gives you a nod in support.ย
In the cubicle across, you hear a loud noise from another intern โ you canโt tell if itโs a screech or a wail, or something in between. You and Yoonchaeโs eyes snap towards the direction of the noise. Itโs Yuna, and she looks towards you two with absolutely zero shame on her face, even if the entire office was startled by the sound.ย
โItโs my favourite idol! Heโs dating someone! How could he?โ Sheโs saying it like itโs the end of the world.
Youโre looking at Yuna like sheโs insane. You canโt tell if sheโs being serious or not, and you blink at her. โUmโฆ are you okay?โย
Suddenly, her demeanour changes, and she smiles brightly at you. โYeah! I was literally just being dramatic, I couldnโt care less,โ she says, and you let out a sigh of relief. You didnโt really want to be working with someone who was so incredibly parasocial over some guy who barely knew her. โItโs just crazy how he even has the time with how busy his schedules are.โย
You hear the sound of heels clacking on the marble floor, and your eyes widen. It must be Jisoo.ย
โWas that you?โ Jisoo asks, pointing at you. โThe one who screeched?โย
โOh,โ you stammer. โNo, Jisoo โ it was Yuna.โ You felt bad for throwing her under the bus, but you werenโt going to lie to Jisoo and take the fall. Jisoo's eyes divert towards Yuna, who gulps.ย
โWhat happened?โ she asks. Jisoo doesnโt sound like she really cares. She does have better things to be doing than partaking in conversations with interns who she probably wonโt remember the names of in two weeks.ย
โOh, just someโฆ idolโฆ dating,โ Yuna says, acting like she doesnโt care at all. Itโs hard for her to pretend that she doesnโt when a photo of said idol in question is in a picture frame sitting on her desk. โMaybe we should report on it briefly, or somethingโฆโย
Jisoo takes in a sharp breath, sucking her teeth. You can hear the disapproval just from the noise, as if sheโs already prepared to get rid of you three. โAlright. Get back to work.โย
You turn your head quickly back to your laptop, not wanting to be berated by Jisoo. The disapproving tone was already enough, and you feel embarrassed under her gaze. You click onto your calendar to see what youโve got going on next week. Youโve got two comeback showcases to attend with Yoonchae โ IVE and CORTIS, along with a couple of music shows. You pencil them in your notebook, along with the words โremind Yoonchae to bring the camera!โย
โYou know,โ Yoonchae hums. โSpeaking of dating idols, I do wanna know what it must be like to date one. Itโs like Yuna said โ theyโve always got so much going on, how would they have the time? Hey, maybe you should write an article on this.โ Her words arenโt meant to be serious, but you take it as such.ย
You can hear your pulse in your ears as your brain processes what Yoonchae has said. Sheโs tapping away at her laptop like she hadnโt just pitched the most amazing idea in the world.ย
โWait,โ you pipe up, dropping your pencil on the desk. It clanks to the ground, and you donโt even bother picking it up. Your eyes snapping up from your notebook to look at her. โYouโre onto something.โย
Yoonchaeโs idea, if put into action, would give you an inside scoop that no journalist had ever had access to before โ even if you were cordially invited to the shows and showcases of every group on the planet. Everybody wanted to know what it was like to date an idol, there was no doubt about that.ย
If you turned this into a piece, you knew it would tick all the boxes. Exclusive? Check. Daring? Check. Eye-catching? Check. Three big fat checks. It was perfect.ย ย
Thisโฆ this was exactly the pitch that would land you a full-time job at Stereo. For someone who said they hated working in the news publishing industry, Yoonchae had just given you a golden ticket to a full-time job at Stereo. Youโre just upset that you hadnโt come up with it first.
โWhat itโs like to date an idol,โ you hum under your breath as you brainstorm, drumming your fingers on your desk. โSure, it may be gossipy and scandalous, but Jisoo was saying that weโre not getting enough clicks, right? And afterโฆ I donโt know. 10 shows, maybe? I could justโฆ dump him. Or find a way for him to dump me.โย
You say that so casually, and you wince when youโve realised what youโve said. Youโve never been one to be a heartbreaker, or one to get into casual relationships with an ulterior motive, but you really wanted this job.ย
Finding someone to even be able to โdateโ for this article would probably be difficult. And once you got them to fall in love with you, getting them to dump you would likely be easy. Idols barely had time for relationships anyways, right? You wouldnโt necessarily be heartbroken at the prospect of losing him, because you had a job to do, and he wouldnโt really care that much. No harm, no foul.ย
You thought she had gone back to her office by now. Your head snaps to look at her, fear evident in your eyes until her words register in your brain. Jisoo had just said the idea was brilliant. Your heart is beating so incredibly fast you think it might jump out of your chest.ย
โWrite it,โ Jisoo says, and her lips quirk up into a smile. Itโs like she can see the thousands, if not millions of views that your piece will bring in to Stereo already.ย
โIf you can, of course. Youโve got two weeks left here, but Iโm more than happy to extend your internship if you need more time to work on the article. And if it goes wellโฆโ she trails off, and you swear that if you could read her mind right now, youโre sure sheโs about to say something along the lines of: you have a place here permanently.ย
You look at her, bright-eyed and with determination. โOf course, Jisoo. Iโll get right to it,โ you stammer. Jisoo nods at you approvingly before she walks back to her office, heels clicking on the floor with a certain enthusiasm that wasnโt there before. Sheโs excited about your article. Your boss โ the one who was notoriously difficult to appease, was happy with an article pitch of yours. Well, Yoonchae gave you the idea, but technically, youโd be the one to flesh it out.ย
Yoonchae looks at you, eyes wide with a look of bewilderment. โWhatโฆ what have you gotten yourself into?โ she asks, her tone laced with disbelief. She wheels her chair over to you, grabbing onto your shoulders and shaking you.ย
โHowโฆ How the hell are you going to go bag an idol in the two weeks that we have here? Are you crazy?โ she hisses, and the realisation of how difficult your task was actually sinks in. Thinking about it was fine and seemed easy enough, but nowโฆ now you actually had to do something.ย
โIโฆ Iโm going to figure something out, Yoonchae,โ you say. โI have to.โย
You wanted this job. You were going to make it work.ย
Jisoo would get that article, and it's going to be the best article that sheโs ever read in her life.ย
The CORTIS comeback showcase is buzzing with people.ย
You scan your media pass at the entrance and wait at the side before Yoonchae comes through. Youโve got your notebook, pens and laptops in your bag, and the two of you head towards your designated seats at the front.ย
The plastic chairs are arranged in an orderly fashion, with yours and Yoonchaeโs names printed out on paper and stuck to the chair to tell you where you both will be sitting. Much to your delight, you two are seated in the front row.ย
When the two of you sit down, you pull out your laptop, setting it on top of your lap. Itโs been three days since you told Jisoo that youโd be writing that article, and as the days have gone by, you think you mightโve been a little too confident.
Music Bank was at the end of the week, and you think that you probably have your best shot there, but waiting was making you incredibly nervous. You didnโt want Jisoo to scrap the idea before you even started.ย
โSoโฆ found an idol to date yet?โ Yoonchae almost reads your mind, and you groan as you open up your notes app. You click to the note titled โCORTIS comebackโ, and all the questions that you have prepared pop up right in front of you.ย
โNo, I havenโt,โ you sigh, tapping your foot on the ground. โThank you for reminding me, Yoonchae.โย
Yoonchae smiles with amusement, as if sheโs somewhat entertained by the predicament that youโve put yourself into. You groan as you think about the article once again, and you scan through your options. You really could only take your pick from some 4th gen groups and the 5th gen groups.ย
This assignment was way easier in your head. The dating and dumping part was easy. The part where you had to get an idol to want to get to know you enough to move on to the dating stage was the hard bit.ย
Backstage, Martin peeks behind the curtains to get a good glimpse of the crowd. Although their new album just released today, Keonho just had to remind him of the bet as they were getting dressed.ย
Now, Martin has to actually find someone to make them fall hopelessly in love with him. Keonho had been ever so gracious to say that the comeback showcase didnโt technically count as a show, so in reality, Martin kind of had 11 shows. One more show couldnโt possibly make much of a difference, but 11 was a little less daunting than 10.ย
So now, he's searching amongst the crowd to see if he can find someone who he thinks would help him win the bet.
Keonho joins him, and it's like he can read Martin's mind, because he instinctively does the same. โOkay, letโs see. Which girlโฆโ he hums. His eyes are scanning the crowd with hawk-like concentration.ย
โOkay, what about her?โ Keonho says, motioning towards a brunette girl sitting in the second row.ย
โNo,โ Martin replies quickly, shaking his head. โLooks like sheโd ghost me, but tell all her friends that we dated for a month.โย
โHard to argue with that,โ Keonho replies. Seonghyeon catches wind of whatโs going on and decides to join the two of them. Seonghyeonโs eyes land on a girl sitting not far away from the brunette, and sheโs got dyed pink hair. He tilts his chin towards her.ย
โHer?โ Seonghyeon proposes.
โNope,โ Martin says. โFeel like sheโd ask me if I can give her BTSโ phone number. Which I also wish I had.โ
โFine,โ Keonho says, and his eyes land on Yoonchae. โWhat about her?โ He gestures towards her, but Martinโs eyes land on you.ย
Youโre typing away at your laptop with determined focus, and Martin doesnโt know why he finds it so intriguing. Youโve got one earphone in your ear, the other dangling as you talk to Yoonchae. Youโre wearing a striped zip-up jacket and jeans โ youโre not trying to be noticed at all, but it makes you stand out even more to Martin. Youโre sitting in the front row with a media pass around your neck, so Martin knows that youโre definitely not a fan.ย
That checks the box.ย
For him to actually win the bet, he shouldโve made it easy for himself. But thereโs something about you that makes Martin want to actually get to know you better. And truthfully, he did like a challenge.
Keonho notices how Martinโs gone silent. Heโs looking in the direction that Keonho had originally pointed towards, but he sees that Martinโs looking at you, rather than Yoonchae. โAh,โ Keonho hums. โThe one sitting next to herโs caught your eye.โย
โSure,โ Martin replies casually. โYou could say that. You said any non-fan, right? She fits the bill.โย
โAlright, Martin hyung,โ Keonho grins in amusement. โ10 shows. Itโs all youโve got to make her fall in love with you.โย
โThat's all I need,โ Martin replies.ย
Martin prays heโs right.
The comeback showcase goes well.ย
You enjoy the music a lot โ you liked CORTISโ debut album anyways, so you werenโt really surprised that they had released something good again. Their stage presence was always insane from the videos youโve watched online, and witnessing it in person was no different.ย
However, you did seem to notice one of the membersโ โ Martinโs โ eyes on you a little too often. You also had a hunch that perhaps they had talked about you, because whenever there was someone asking a question from your direction, Keonho would elbow Martin with a knowing smirk on his lips.ย
โSo, what was that?โ Eight out of ten?โ Yoonchae asks you as she begins to pack up her things. The fans have been told to leave by now, and the only people really left are media and industry professionals. You look at what youโve written down, and youโve practically given five stars to all of the songs. The lowest is a 4.5, and youโd like to think that you have a pretty high bar for greatness.ย
โI meanโฆ nine?โ you hum. โThereโs always room for improvement, right?โย
โHigh praises,โ you hear a voice thatโs not Yoonchae interrupting your conversation. Itโs also a voice that youโve heard far too many times tonight. You turn to look at the stranger, and you meet eyes with none other than the Martin Edwards. โIt means a lot. Thank you.โย
Yoonchae opens and closes her mouth like a fish, stunned at Martinโs sudden presence. But then she remembers something the same time you do โ the article. She purposely moves to stand behind him, mouthing at you: โheโs the one!โ
You know Martin Edwards is exactly who he thinks he is. 6 '3, gorgeous dyed blonde hair, impeccable music-making skills and the coolest fashion sense in the industry right now. If you hadnโt seen more of him on your social media, youโd be genuinely a little intimidated by him.
But you know that heโs a sweet guy. Heโs also a little bit of a goofball too โ loud, likes making his friends laugh, and often gives in to a little too much of his fansโ requests. The fan call videos were certainly something, and youโre really wondering how much he gets paid to tell someone else โI love you, youโre my girlfriend.โย
Heโs still in his clothes from the showcase โ silver jewellery hangs around his neck, with three rings on each finger. You observe his features for perhaps maybe a little too long, and his lips curl up in the slightest hint of a smirk.ย ย
Yoonchae clears her throat, giving you a wink. โSo, Iโm gonna go grab something for us at the convenience store nearby. (Name), Iโll be back in about 15 minutes.โย
Before you can protest, sheโs already darted off. You curse under your breath before looking back at Martin, whoโs eyeing you with a mischievous glint in his eye. You canโt quite place your finger on why that is, but maybe he caught you staring.ย
โSoโฆ (Name),โ he says. His voice is smooth, and his name rolls off your tongue like heโs testing the waters. Thereโs a certain cadence in his tone that sends butterflies straight to your stomach. โIโm glad you liked the album. We worked hard on it.โย
โIโm sure you did,โ you beam. โDo you go thanking every member of the media after the showcase?โย
Martinโs airy laughter rings through the air, and his smile grows even wider. โOh, no,โ he says breezily, waving you off. โJust the pretty ones.โย
Youโre knocked off your feet for just a split second. Was Martin Edwards flirting with you? And was itโฆ dare you sayโฆ working?ย
And suddenly, the article doesnโt feel so difficult anymore. With Martin Edwards standing right in front of you, you realise that you have the perfect candidate.ย
His group was still new on the scene, but everybody wanted to get to know CORTIS just a little bit better. Your article would do that. Even if fans said that Martin was practically an open book, the boy standing in front of you now wasnโt necessarily the one you saw on stage mere minutes ago.ย
Sure, he was still confident and assured. But there was the slightest difference in the way he carried himself โ a little less guarded, a little lessโฆ idol-like. Perhaps it was the flirting, honestly.ย
You come to your senses, quirking a brow at him. โOh, so you think Iโm pretty?โย
The air is electric, and usually youโd be nervous, but just this once, you think that itโs perfect. Martinโs grin somehow grows wider before he nods.ย
โI do,โ he hums. โThought I said that before. And if my eyes didnโt deceive me just before your friend scurried offโฆ you mightโve been staring at my face for just a smidge too long.โย
Your cheeks heat up. โIโฆ I was not!โย
Martin lets out another laugh, clearly amused at how flustered you were. โIโm just teasing,โ he replies. โRegardless, itโs not often I see someone working in the media thatโs around the same age as us. And as Iโm saying this, Iโm hoping that youโre in your last year of high school.โ
You nod at his words. โI am,โ you reply. โSame age as you.โย
โPerfect,โ he grins. โIโm glad I was right, or I wouldโve embarrassed myself coming up to you.โย
โRight,โ you chuckle. โSoโฆ any other pretty members of the media you want to thank?โ you look around, and the exhibition hall is just about empty. Martin shakes his head, pulling his phone out of his pocket.ย
โNope,โ he says, popping the โpโ sound. โJust you.โย
โWay to make a girl feel special, Edwards,โ you quip. Martin ignores how his heart flutters when you simply just call him by his last name. โWhat's the phone for? A selfie? Just a reminder that you're the idol there."
"You're funny," Martin replies. There's sincerity in his tone. "But, I was hoping that perhaps I could get your number.โย
You look at him, your lips curling up into a smile. โAh, youโve beat me to it,โ you pout, jutting out your bottom lip. โI was hoping that Iโd be the one to make that move.โย
Your words are awfully confident, making you sound completely unfazed at Martinโs flirtatious words. But inside, youโre internally screaming. Youโre trying to hide your nerves, and Martinโs gaze on you is not helping as your thumb carefully presses the keys on the screen.
โThere we go,โ you say, pressing the โsaveโ button. โYou should text me. Iโd love to hear from you.โย
โYou would?โ Martin asks, almost in disbelief. He canโt believe how well the flirting is going. Keonho, Juhoon, James and Seonghyeon would so be losing their money.ย
โOf course,โ you beam. Your eyes tilt towards the exit, and you see Yoonchae standing there. Sheโs not hurrying you, but you know that itโs time to go. โListen, Iโve got to head back home, butโฆ yeah. Text me, and letโs hang out.โย
โAre you asking me out?โ Martin says, a coy smile on his lips.ย
โMaybe I am,โ you reply. Your eyes dart back to Yoonchae again, and a sudden wave of boldness makes you inch closer to him, pressing a chaste kiss to Martinโs cheek. You watch as his cheeks flush bright pink, and you canโt help but feel satisfied with yourself. Got him, you think. โIโll see you around, Edwards.โย
Before Martin can say anything, youโve already rushed off. He instinctively brings a hand to his cheek, and he smiles triumphantly.ย
โOh, youโre already falling in love with me,โ he says to himself, a wide grin on his lips.ย
Meanwhile, as youโre darting off to the car, a similar expression graces your lips.ย โIโm gonna make you wish you were dead,โ you whisper.
Conversation with Martin is surprisingly easy.ย
He texts you as soon as he gets back to the dorm, and you reply just as quickly. You shoot off flirtatious messages every other second like a seasoned professional, and Martin replies with just as much enthusiasm. You just know heโs probably cheesing behind the screen. You donโt notice how youโre grinning at your phone like an idiot, though.
Martin is incredibly flirtatious, like youโve seen online. You really thought it was all just fan service, but it turns out, Martin did really act that way. Youโve earned a new nickname now, thanks to him โ pretty.ย
Minutes turn into hours, and sure enough, the two of you found yourself talking to each other until four in the morning. Itโs not until you remind him that heโs got a schedule tomorrow and that youโve got work, and then you two say goodnight.ย
Martin gives you recommendations of his favourite songs, and you rate them just like you usually do for Stereo. You find that your music taste is surprisingly similar, and Martin just tells you that โperhaps itโs a sign that weโre meant to be.โ You smile a little too wide at that response, and your heart flutters in the slightest way. You reply with a โI think soโ, and Martin beams seeing those words on his screen.ย
You didnโt think that it was that easy to get Martin Edwards to fall in love with you, but honestly at this point, you think that youโve got him absolutely whipped.ย
For three days, you and Martin talk non-stop. Whenever youโve got a break, and heโs got a break, the two of you are talking about anything remotely that interests you. Bailey, another colleague of yours, tells you that you seem awfully invested in this considering that itโs just an article assignment.ย
On the fourth day, you head into work and find that thereโs a tray of iced coffees on your desk. Yoonchae looks at you with a knowing grin as you pick up the sticky note, and sure enough, itโs Martinโs handwriting.ย
Hi, pretty. For you and the team. โ Edwards.
You fail to hide the smile thatโs unconsciously crept up on your lips. When Yoonchae points it out, you just tell her to shut up. This was all for the article, you remind yourself. You werenโt really in love with Martin Edwards. You hand out the coffees, and when you give one to Jisoo, she raises an eyebrow.ย
โDid you bring this in?โ she asks, and you shake your head.ย
โMartin from CORTIS did,โ you say. Thereโs a coy lilt in your tone, and Jisoo seems to remember the article. She smiles at you proudly, and gives you a pat on the shoulder before taking a sip of the coffee.ย
โGood work,โ she beams. โCanโt wait to see the article.โย
She then walks off, heels clicking on the floor. Yoonchae clears her throat to catch your attention, and you look at her, taking a sip of the coffee that Martin had bought you.ย
โSoโฆ whatโs the plan to get him to dump you? Becauseโฆ getting him whipped seemed pretty fucking easy. Like, this is three-month relationship stuff.โ she says, gesturing to the coffee on her own table.ย Bailey, who's curiosity is piqued at the sound of Yoonchae's words, rolls her chair over to you to join in the conversation.
โIโm going to be entirely too much, too overbearing and too clingy to the point where he has to break up with me,โ you say. Your plan is absolutely fool-proof. โTheyโre heading to New York in three weeks. Letโs get this done in the 10 shows they have in Korea.โย
Bailey hums, nodding at your words. โOkay, but likeโฆ do you have any specifics?โย
โCalm down,โ you reply. โI donโt have to move that fast. Weโve known each other only for four days. No sane person is going to ask someone to be their girlfriend in four days.โย
โYou have three weeks, (Name) โ you better hurry upโฆโ Yoonchae replies, her voice trailing off. โMaybe just a date? Tonight? You know how theyโve got to basically be in the middle of the night though, right โ because cameras are everywhere. Your sleep schedule is going to be fucked when youโre dating Martin.โย
โWell, you didnโt have to put so much emphasis on the โfuckedโ,โ you raise an eyebrow. โBut yeah, a date sounds good. Iโll text him now.โย
you | 7:32am
thanks for the coffee, edwards
it was really sweet of you
can i thank you with a date?ย
martin edwards | 7:33amย
ah, i was waiting for that text from you
of course!ย
tomorrow? after youโre done with work?
you | 7:34amย
sounds like a plan
wear something nice
martin edwards | 7:34am
i always do
gonna step it up to impress you though
canโt wait to see you, pretty
Yoonchae peers over your shoulder. โDonโt they have to go to Inkigayo tomorrow? How will you two have time to actuallyโฆ go on a date?โ
โShoot, youโre right,โ you reply. You quickly type out a message to Martin, your fingers flying over the screen.ย
you | 7:35am
you have inkigayo
martin edwards | 7:35amย
ah. right
date at inkigayo? you could be my plus one
youโll be there anyways right? as media?
you | 7:36amย
first date at inkigayo is highly unorthodoxย
iโm in, though
only because itโs youย
martin edwards | 7:37am
i feel so specialย
sneaking around is gonna be awfully romantic
iโve got dance practice now and iโm sure youโve got work
talk soon prettyย
โWellโฆ first date at Inkigayo,โ you say, almost in disbelief. So this was what it was like to date an idol โ music show dates, late-night dates, probably getting blown off because dance practice takes precedence. You note that down in your notebook, because youโre sure that itโll be of use to you later. โThatโs settled.โย
โI suppose it is,โ Yoonchae says. Sheโs still in disbelief at the entire interaction โ she was peering over your shoulder the entire time. โAlso, you should probably change his contact name to something other than his full name. Itโs not that romantic.โย
โIโฆ โChae, heโs not my real boyfriend,โ you say, pointedly. โHeck, he hasnโt even asked me to be his girlfriend. Which actually reminds me, I have to get on that.โ You do take her advice though, and change his name simply to โEdwardsโ with an orange heart emoji. Itโs plausible enough, considering that you do call him exclusively by his last name.ย
โI must sayโฆ this is going surprisingly well,โ Bailey hums. โEven though I know itโs really new. Justโฆ donโt go falling in love with him, or something. That would ruin the entire thing.โย
You laugh, dismissing Bailey's words as if they were ludicrous. โDonโt worry,โ you hum, your tone laced with a little too much confidence.
โIโm not going to actually fall in love with Martin Edwards.โย
For someone whoโs allegedly not invested in this โrelationshipโ at all, you do spend an awfully long time picking out your outfit for Inkigayo tonight.ย
CORTIS had a reputation for being incredibly fashionable โ if you were going to be introduced as โMartin Edwardsโ talking stage and to-be girlfriendโ tonight, you had to at least look the part.ย
You opt for something so outrageously Martin-esque to the point where you look like you could genuinely be the sixth member of CORTIS. So much so, that any random staff member would probably think that you pulled it out of his closet.ย
Members of the media were supposed to be unassuming, trying to avoid the public eye at all costs โ but just for today, you were going to break that rule. Just based off of your outfit alone, you wanted it to be glaringly obvious that you were talking to Martin.ย
You pull on these black, chunky boots that you havenโt worn in forever (you even have to blow the dust off of them) lacing them up with a smile on your lips. Martin Edwards was so going to freak out when he saw you. You could just envision it.ย
Yoonchae looks at you oddly when you jump into the car โ this was certainly not your style at all. โOkay, Martinโs girl. You might as well just dye your hair blonde too,โ she quips. Usually youโd tell her to shut up, but that was exactly the reaction you were looking for.
edwards ๐งก | 6:23pm
let me know when youโre here
weโre in dressing room 103
you | 6:24pm
im on my way
see you ๐งก๐งก๐งก
โYou go find Martin,โ Yoonchae tells you, a playful smile on her lips. โIโll tell you where weโre seated for tonightโs performancesโฆ if youโll even be joining me here.โ
You laugh, waving goodbye to her before you go off and find dressing room 103. You see a bunch of staff members at Inkigayo give you odd looks. They saw you here last week too, and you most certainly were not dressed like this. A girl youโve made conversation with a couple of times โ her name was Yoojung โ mouths โMartin fan?โ at you, and you simply give her a wide grin before disappearing down the corridor.ย
You knock on dressing room 103, tapping your foot on the floor. Your mind runs through the plan โ too overbearing, too clingy, too boisterous. Youโre going to make Martin go insane.ย
Martin opens the door, since he was expecting you anyways. But what he did not expect was for you to be dressed in clothes that seemed like they were pulled from his closet. He looks you up and down, mouth opening and closing as if heโs about to speak โ but all the words he has to say become strangled in his throat.ย
โHey,โ you say, trying to sound casual. You want him to think that no, this outfit did not take me forever.ย
โYou lookโฆโ Martin stutters.ย
Time to pack on the dramatics, you think. โGorgeous? Stunning? Beautiful?โ you ask, batting your eyelashes at him. โTell me something I donโt know, Edwards.โย
Martinโs brain almost short-circuits. Heโs still at a complete loss of words, and for a split second he thinks that Seonghyeon may be right โ does he even know how to flirt? Heโs trying to rack his brain for a compliment, or anything that makes it known that he thinks you look good.ย
Keonho clears his throat, and it brings Martin back to his senses โ the bet. Time for him to make you fall hopelessly in love and make you weak in the knees, he thinks. He instantly puts a smile on his lips. โYeah,โ he replies. โAll of those things.โย
โNext time though, if you wanted to dress like me, you shouldโve just said so,โ he adds. He hopes Seonghyeonโs listening โ he was about to deliver a masterclass in flirting. โJust wear my actual clothes instead.โย
Your heart flutters a little too much at those words, and for a brief second, Martin thinks that he can see your confidence falter ever so slightly. Bingo, he thinks. Another win.ย
โOh, so thatโs an invitation for me to just wear all your clothes, isnโt it?โ you ask. โMoving fast, Edwards.โ You peek behind him to see the other four boys watching the two of you talk with curiosity. Keonhoโs eyes are practically sparkling.ย
You raise your voice a little before you say your next sentence. โMind you, you still havenโt asked me to be your girlfriend.โ
You donโt know which member it is that hollers loudly hearing your words. Martin turns around so fast you think heโs going to snap his neck. He glares at the four of them, before diverting his attention back to you.ย
This was going exceptionally well. Four days in, and you already wanted to be his girlfriend. Anyone who said that he didnโt have game was going to regret it.ย
โRight,โ he says, dragging out the word as a smile plays on his lips. โLet me introduce you to the members first, and then weโll talk about that, pretty.โย
He opens the door a little wider to actually let you into the dressing room, and the four of them blink at you, stunned when they see your outfit. Your outfit was almost a carbon-copy of something that they think theyโve seen Martin wear before. Was it a little tacky to dress almost identical to your talking stage? Probably. But their reactions were golden, and you hope to God that Martinโs cheeks are heating up in embarrassment.ย
โGuys, this is (Name),โ Martin says, introducing you. You beam at the four of them just before lacing your fingers with Martin. The action comes out of nowhere, and Martin freezes for a split second before he closes his hand around yours.ย Your hand is warm, and Martin doesn't know why having your hand in his just feels oddly... right.
You swear Juhoonโs eyes pop out of his skull. Seonghyeonโs jaw practically drops. James puts his glasses back on to make sure that his eyes arenโt deceiving him. Keonho shrieks before falling to the floor dramatically.ย
โIโm hisโฆโ your voice trails off. Suddenly, an idea pops into your brain. What did anyone in a talking stage hate the most?ย
The dreaded โwhat are we?โ question.ย
Martin would hate it even more if you asked that question right in front of his friends. It was perfect.
A devious grin threatens to creep up onto your lips before you turn to Martin. โWhat are we, exactly?โย
Seonghyeon chokes on his water while Juhoon has to suppress a laugh. Martin canโt believe you asked that question in front of everyone โ you were impatient, alright. He was actually going to ask you to be his girlfriend, but in private. But considering your outfit choice today, perhaps you were someone who wanted to make your affection for him known. He knows that he should feel embarrassed, but surprisingly, he doesnโt.ย
Four days is awfully fast to ask someone to be their girlfriend, but Martin wanted to win this bet. Badly.ย
And the first step to actually make it known to his friends that he was going to win, was to loudly announce that you were his girlfriend. Martin canโt wait for Keonho to pay for those Rick Owens shoes that heโs been eyeing for ages.ย
โSheโs my girlfriend.โ he says, a coy smile tugging at his lips.
The room practically explodes with questions, shouts and what you think are cheers. You werenโt exactly expecting this reaction from Martin, but itโs more than welcomed, considering the predicament that youโve gotten yourself into. The first half of your job was done โ youโve gotten the idol. Now you just needed him to dump you.ย
But for some odd reason, him telling everyone in the room that you were his girlfriend makes your chest tighten ever so slightly. You ignore the feeling, telling yourself that itโs just nerves. Youโll ease more into the role of annoying girlfriend as the days go on.ย
You look at him, tilting your head with a small smile on your lips. โDidnโt even ask me,โ you whisper in his ear. You hear Martin let out a light laugh amidst the chaos that those three words had created.ย
โIsnโt that what you were hinting at me to do when you arrived at the door?โ he replies, voice matching yours. Touchรฉ, you think.ย
โWell,โ you say, turning to face him. โThatโs true. And Iโm happy you did.โ Your eyes quickly divert towards the four boys sitting on the couch โ theyโre still going on and on about how Martin actually has a girlfriend. Theyโre saying it as if theyโre in disbelief that heโs actually with you.ย
Believe it, you think. To really sell it, you dramatically plant a kiss on Martinโs cheek. Youโre thanking yourself that you decided to wear lipstick that wasnโt transfer-proof today, and you can practically hear Keonhoโs gasp. When you pull away, there it is โ a glaringly obvious stain of your lips on the side of his cheek.ย
โOops,โ you say, but Martin can tell youโre not really sorry about it at all. You bring a hand up to wipe the stain off, and Martin just shakes his head, gently clutching your wrist as if to tell you to leave it.ย
โIโll just use some makeup remover,โ he replies, calmly. Youโre surprised that Martinโs face isnโt heating up with embarrassment โ maybe you just had to be even more dramatic than you already were. In fact, he was smiling like an idiot in love. Was he crazy? โThanks for the good luck kiss, girlfriend.โย
Itโs official. All Martin has to do is get you to stay with him until the end of the tenth show. All you have to do is get him to dump you before the tenth show.ย
And as you squeeze Martinโs hand a little tighter before planting another overly obnoxious kiss on his cheek, youโre almost certain that youโre going to get that full-time job.ย
Over the next week, Martin realises that first impressions are deceiving.ย
Youโre not who he thought youโd be when he first saw you at the comeback showcase โ rather, youโre the complete opposite. Loud, boisterous, unrestrained. Youโre overly sweet and romantic in a way that Martin thought only existed in rom-coms. Itโs nice to be showered in love and affection, and Martin โ despite his better judgment โ allows his heart to flutter whenever you lean a little closer, or when his name rolls off your tongue like honey over the phone.ย
You send him texts almost every single second now that you two are officially a couple (can he even call you his actual girlfriend when this was all a bet?). You also show up at almost every performance of theirs throughout the week.ย
The members and the staff all get used to your presence rather quickly โ itโs not surprising, considering that whenever youโre there, your presence somehow commands the entire room. Everyoneโs eyes are on you, and he doesnโt know if he loves or hates the extra attention that you bring with you. In addition, Martin doesnโt even know how you have the time to basically cling to him like glue when youโve got a full-time job.ย
His phone pings again, and he already knows who itโs from. Itโs you, sending him twenty messages in a row โ each text is one word, and Martin would usually get a little frustrated, but it was you. He doesnโt think he can bring himself to actually get mad at you, which is the crazy part considering that this was all a bet.ย
You send him four selfies of yourself sitting in the front row of the same exhibition centre where you guys had met. Heโs admiring how pretty you look until he realises the article of clothing that youโre wearing is awfully familiar. Itโs then when it hits him โ youโre wearing his striped red and black zip-up hoodie.ย
The one that he precisely wanted to wear today.ย
Martin knows that the zip-up basically swallows you, because heโs seen you in his other clothes before. His heart does a flip at the thought. Itโs just a bet, he reminds himself.ย
You look pretty, he tells you. You respond almost immediately.
I know, is your response. Martin doesnโt realise how hard heโs grinning at his screen right now.ย
Is that my jacket? he asks you.ย
Your response? Itโs mine now.ย
His nostrils flare slightly at the fact that youโve just claimed his favourite zip-up hoodie, but he relents and lets you have it anyway. You did look good in it, he had to admit.ย
You practically demand his attention at all times, which is a little impossible considering his job. More often than not, whenever heโs practicing with the rest of the members, his phone would be buzzing so much to the point where it fell off the bench. Keonho only looks at him teasingly before Martin quickly shoots back a response to you, telling you that heโs got dance practice.ย
You donโt seem to care, and you continue spamming him anyways. Despite this, Martin canโt seem to push you away. Or mute your contact.ย
Youโre sitting in the exhibition centre, confused as to why Martin hasnโt gone batshit crazy over the fact that youโve taken his favourite zip-up without any warning. Keonho had warned you about how Martin didnโt like sharing his clothes. Perhaps you just had to take it a little further, then.ย
So, a day later, Martin opens the door to his dorm to find you standing there. You hadnโt announced that you were coming, and Martin assumed that you had work anyways. What he didnโt know was that youโd asked Jisoo for some time off today to work on the article โ it was going well, you had told her. At those words, Jisoo nodded, giving you time off without a single thought.ย
โHi?โ Martin asks, stunned at the sight of you at his doorstep.ย
โI thought youโd be a little happier to see me,โ you pout, and Martin shakes his head.ย
โNo, no!โ he says hastily. โI was just surprised to see you. Come on in,โ he opens the door a little wider for you. You kick your shoes off at the door, and Martin winces a little when you just leave them there instead of putting it on the shoe rack. He decides to do it for you, like any good boyfriend would โ placing your shoes next to a pair of his own sneakers.ย
โThank you, โTinnie.โ you beam, pressing a kiss to his cheek. Even though thereโs nobody else there right now, you make it a big show and exaggerate every motion. You deliberately say โmwahโ when you pull away, admiring the lipstick print on Martinโs cheek.ย
Oddly, Martin doesnโt wipe it off. Maybe heโs insane. Or maybe heโs just insanely whipped like Yoonchae said.ย
โTinnie is a new one,โ he hums. โFinally moved on from calling me Edwards?โ
You shake your head, bounding down the corridor like itโs your place rather than his. Martin follows you like a lost puppy. โNope,โ you reply, popping the โpโ. โJust trying out something new. But, I wanted to grab some clothes.โย
Martin furrows his brows. โYou want to go shopping?โ he asks. โSure, Iโll just go grab my coat.โย
You hold a hand out to stop him. โNo, I want to wear some of your clothes,โ you say like itโs the most casual thing in the world. Itโs totally not like you two have only been dating for a week. โIf thatโs alright with you, of course?โย
Martin canโt say no to you. Not when he remembers how nice you looked in his striped zip-up. He nods reluctantly, and you squeal, dragging him towards his closet.ย
Youโre raiding Martinโs closet like itโs a department store sale. Youโre grabbing hanger after hanger and asking him to hold onto them for you, and Martin can barely keep up. In five minutes, heโs somehow holding five of his own hoodies and three of his t-shirts, while youโre trying on another one of his zip-ups.ย
Youโre twirling around in it, looking at your own reflection in the mirror. You look at Martin for his approval, and he nods, giving you a thumbs up. โLooks great on you, pretty.โย
You really should be used to the compliments that Martin dishes out, but your cheeks heat up ever so slightly. Baileyโs voice rings in your head โ donโt fall in love with him. You canโt believe you have to remind yourself.ย
Seonghyeon walks in to grab a jacket, and heโs stunned at the scene. Martinโs got hoodies and shirts and jumpers draped over him as you pull out something else from his side of the closet.ย
โWhat theโฆโ he says, and Martin turns to look at him.ย
โHi,โ Martin says. He can barely see. Thereโs a hoodie over his head, and he canโt bring his arm up to pull it off. โ(Name) wanted some of my clothes.โ Seonghyeon, whoโs ever so kind, pulls the hoodie off Martinโs head.ย
โOkay,โ Seonghyeon giggles. โHave fun, you lovebirds.โ Before he leaves, he mouths at Martin, 10 shows. Though your presence is awfully over-the-top, Seonghyeon doesnโt quite mind having you around. It was rather funny to witness yours and Martinโs dynamic.ย
You take four more pieces of his clothing, and Martin helps you fold them all up neatly before placing them into a bag. โThere you go,โ he says, snaking an arm around your waist to pull you closer. โHappy?โย
โVery,โ you giggle. You do feel a little guilty for stealing half his closet. โThank you, โTin. Do you want to watch a movie? Iโll let you pick, since Iโve taken so many of your clothes.โ Though it was for an article, you werenโt a monster. You donโt realise how instinctively, youโve leaned into his touch.ย
Martin nods, grinning as he kisses your temple like heโs done this a million times before. Itโs getting awfully easy for him to slip into the role of your boyfriend. โSure,โ he hums. โWe can watch something on my laptop.โย
You curl up next to him on his bed, your head resting on his chest and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind playing on his laptop. Martin presses a kiss to the top of your head, his arms wrapped around you.ย
This domesticity feels a little too natural. A little too real โ like you two are actually two teenagers in love.
The slightest twinge of guilt pangs at your heart. You don't know it, but when the thought of the bet flashes through Martin's head, that same feeling strikes him in the chest too.
Martinโs eyes leave the screen for a split second to look at you, and he pushes the thought of the bet to the back of his head.ย
His closet may be a little bit more empty now, but his heart feels the slightest bit more full.
โI think Martin is a lunatic.โ you confess to Yoonchae at work one day.ย
CORTIS had five more shows left in Korea before they were due to leave for New York City, and any logical person would have already broken up with you at this point.
But for some strange reason, Martin stayed. Not even just stayed โ pulled you closer, even. He flirted with you more. Peppered your face with kisses. Proudly showed you off to his friends.ย
Heโs either insane, or he loves crazy girls. You donโt know which is worse.ย
What you didn't know, of course, was that Martin was practically clinging on to this relationship for dear life. 10 shows, he reminds himself. He needed a girl to stay with him for three full weeks and to somehow put up with his insanely hectic schedule. Martin half-expected to barely see you, but you somehow managed to find a way to sneak into his life more often than not. It was welcomed, of course โ he could show his friends that yes, he could flirt, and yes, an idol was able to date.
You were acting batshit crazy, and he still wanted you to be his girlfriend. Martin still hasn't dumped your ass, and that was absolutely shocking.
Idols were always busy, so you decided to do the very thing that all busy people hated: you spammed Martin all day.ย
You sent him stupid TikToks, telling him to reply to each and every single one. You called him at random hours, sent him voice messages, and practically demanded his attention every single second.ย
The crazy thing was, Martin would reply to every TikTok. Heโd always pick up. Heโd reply to every single voice message with his own, and you hated how you always smiled hearing his voice and his loud laugh through your headphones.ย
You showed up unannounced to so many performances to the point where his manager would only sigh, and reluctantly let you in. Youโve embarrassed him by showering him with affection in front of quite literally everyone. You heard how Keonho tried โ and failed โ to hide a shriek when you made a big show of calling Martin โbabyโ five minutes before they were due to head on stage.ย
One night at his dorm, youโd even spent one whole hour asking the most basic questions about music production, forcing him to overexplain like he was teaching a toddler. You knew all the answers to the questions, but youโd asked them anyway just to rile him up.ย
Martin thinks that for someone whoโs working at Stereo, you should know. But regardless, he explains it all to you patiently, smiling like heโs glad that his girlfriend is actually interested in what he does โ much to your dismay.ย
Martin didnโt even bat an eye when you purposely stole all of his favourite clothes from his closet a few days ago. Youโre sitting at your desk in the Stereo office, wearing Martinโs hoodie that is outrageously large on you. Youโre shocked that he didnโt protest more, especially when you grabbed one of the expensive ones. Instead, he smiled, told you that you looked gorgeous, folded it up neatly and then gave it to you.ย
You also realise that you donโt hate the affection that he showers you with. It feels quite nice, actually โ to be cared for by Martin Edwards.ย
But, this was truly not going well for your article.ย
โWhy is that?โ Yoonchae asks. โBecause he hasnโt dumped you?โย
โYes!โ you exclaim, as if it was the obvious answer. โHeโs staying! Which is the crazy part! Idols donโt have time for this clingy, over-the-top nonsense, do they? So itโs either heโs insane, or he loves crazy girls.โย
โThereโs another obvious answer,โ Bailey chimes in, a smile playing on her lips. โHe just likes you.โย
Baileyโs words hit you like a truck, and you ignore how your heart jumps at the thought. Martin Edwards likes you? You hate to say it, but that was trulyโฆ not implausible. But if Martin actually liked you โ with all your craziness โ surely, he had to be just the slightest bit insane.ย
โIโฆโ your cheeks heat up. โOkay.โ you grumble, eyes diverting back to your laptop screen. You need to figure out a way to drive Martin absolutely up the wall โ he had a strong resolve, there was no doubt about it. Something about music seemed right.ย
Your eyes sparkle with delight when you remember that Martin said that he was going to be working on some music tonight in his studio. Something about recording some adlibs and some lines for their next album. Even while promoting music that was released recently, Martin was always working on something new. It was honestly incredibly admirable.ย
So, you find yourself slumped on a chair next to Martin at 9:30 at night, watching as he works on a new song. Thereโs a microphone in front of his lips as he clips sections together with silent precision. His brows are furrowed in concentration, and you deem it the perfect time to enact your plan.ย
โTinnie,โ you say, dragging out his name. He hums, acknowledging you, but his eyes donโt leave the screen. You nudge him gently, and he glances towards you. Thereโs a soft look in his eye, and a small smile graces his lips. โWhat do you think about this dog?โย
You show him a picture of this random white poodle that came up on your For You page. He squints at it, nodding. โItโs cute, baby. Why?โ he asks, before his eyes divert back to his screen again.ย
โI want a dog,โ you say. โLetโs get a dog.โย
That catches Martinโs attention. โYou wantโฆ us to get a dog?โ he asks, in complete disbelief. You nod, and Martinโs eyes bug out of his skull. He canโt believe what youโve just said. A dog was a big relationship commitment, right?ย
Martin could barely take care of himself sometimes โ how was he going to take care of a dog? And who was going to pay for the dog? Heโd made enough money from the song royalties, but still. The proposal was a little insane.ย
โThatโs really sweet, baby โ but weโve only been dating for like a week,โ he hums, hand gently caressing your shoulder. โAnd I donโt know how weโd even take care of it โ would it live at your house? It canโt live in our dorm, you know.โย
You pout at his words.ย
โIโm sorry. We canโฆ go to a dog cafe, or something. Iโll take you sometime next week,โ Martin looks at you sympathetically. Just give me a few minutes to work on this song, is that alright? I have to record some bits tonight, and then we can watch a movie.โย
You nod, letting out a small sigh. Martin thinks itโs because he lightly rejected your proposal for you two to get a dog. In reality, it was really because you canโt seem to figure out a way to get Martin to actually dump you. What normal person asks their boyfriend of one week to get a dog with them?ย
Martin glances at you before he pulls up the lyrics of the song on his phone. He taps the record button, and just as heโs about to sing into the microphone, your voice cuts through the air.ย
โTinnie,โ you pipe up, and Martin pauses the recording. He really wanted to get this song finished by tonight. You see the slightest hint of frustration on his face, and you do feel bad โ but despite all your past attempts to get him to drive you away, nothing else seemed to work.ย
โHmm?โ he asks.ย
โDo you have any drinks?โ you ask, and Martin nods, rolling his chair back so he can open the mini-fridge under the desk. He pulls out a can of Coke โ he knows your favourite โ cracking it open for you before sliding it over to you.ย
โThank you, Tinnie,โ you beam. Martin thinks that seeing your smile is worth it, even if he did have to pause recording for a bit. Even if you sometimes did have awfully bad timing, heโs realising that heโs grown accustomed to your antics. โIโll be quiet now.โย
โOkay,โ he replies. โThank you. Iโll be quick.โ
You take a loud, dramatic sip of your drink just as Martin presses record. He pauses it again before turning to you, and this time, frustration is evident on his features.ย
Guilt washes over you, and you realise that honestly, you didnโt really want Martin to get so mad at you to the point where he ended things. He looks tired, and you know itโs probably from a mix of hectic promotions, working on music and dealing with your incredibly annoying ass.ย
Martin was too sweet for his own good, and youโre suddenly re-evaluating every little thing. You didnโt like seeing him upset, and you certainly didnโt want him to be upset at you.
You look at him sheepishly. โSorry.โ you wince, and Martin shakes his head, waving it off.ย
โItโs okay.โ he sighs, but exasperation is evident in his tone. He huffs, pressing the record button again.
This time, you donโt interrupt โ and now you know why everyone in the industry calls him a musical genius. Martinโs working like a seasoned professional, putting in clips of his voice here and there. He presses play on the section that he was just working on, nodding in silent approval when heโs satisfied.ย
You realise that you donโt want to drive him incredibly insane to the point where he canโt bear to see your face anymore. The article wasnโt going to write itself, but writing it meant that you had to hurt Martin. And looking at him now, and thinking about all of the times he had put up with you, you really didnโt want to hurt him. But you needed a way out.
The guilt is eating you alive as you sit there, making sure to quietly sip your drink. You think about every single moment youโve shared with him for the last week, the flirting, the affection, the laughter โ you donโt really want to let that go either. What were you going to do? This wasnโt supposed to be that complicated. You didnโt intend to actually catch feelingsโย
Oh.ย
Shit.
You might have feelings for him.ย
Everything clicks into place right then and there. You like Martin Edwards. You make sure to say those words in your head so you donโt interrupt him, but those words settle in your chest like they actually belong there.ย
Fuck. You did the one thing Bailey told you not to do.ย
โHey,โ he says softly, snapping you out of your thoughts. You look up at him, and Martin doesnโt know why youโre looking at him a little differently. Your gaze is soft, warm, and filled with what Martin thinks โ and he doesnโt realise, but hopes โ might be love. He doesnโt think heโs seen this look in your eye before. โIโm done.โย
โOkay,โ you say. Your voice is quieter than itโs ever been before. Martinโs slightly startled at the change. โTin, Iโm sorry.โย
Martin furrows his brows. โWhat for?โย
Everything, you want to say. โInterrupting you when you were working,โ is what you say instead. Martin shakes his head, pulling you close in a hug.ย
โItโs okay,โ he replies. He presses a kiss to your cheek to comfort you, and you hate how much it works. โDonโt worry about it, baby.โย
You smile, albeit a little stiffly. โMovie?โ you ask, pretending that everything is fine. Martin nods, gesturing to the couch situated at the back of the studio.ย
You sit down on the couch, and Martin plops right down next to you, giving you a bright smile as he places his laptop on his lap. โWhatโd you wanna watch?โ he asks, and you shrug, resting your cheek on his shoulder.ย
โYou pick,โ you reply, and Martin nods. You lace your fingers with his, and he randomly clicks on a movie that he thinks Keonho had offhandedly mentioned was good before. He presses play before glancing at you to make sure youโre okay.ย
Martin squeezes your hand a little tighter, just to let you know that heโs here. You hate that heโs far too good to you.ย
You gulp, trying to ignore how the guilt is eating you alive.ย
Then, you take a deep breath before pressing a chaste kiss to his shoulder, slipping into the role that you think youโve gotten too good at playing.ย
You have to end it with Martin.ย
Itโs what you realise is best for the both of you. You get your article, and he gets to rid himself of an annoying, overbearing girlfriend. You head into work with a little less enthusiasm, and Yoonchae can immediately tell.ย
โWhatโs wrong?โ Yoonchae asks, as you let out another loud sigh. Martinโs face is everywhere on your Instagram, and you hate that your lips instinctively tug into a smile at the sight of him. You were in love, damn it.ย
โNothing,โ you reply. โThe articleโs justโฆ a little harder than I thought.โ You werenโt necessarily lying. Every word you typed out felt wrong. The bitter taste of guilt in the back of your mouth reminds you that you were technically a horrible person for inflicting psychological warfare on Martin Edwards, who couldnโt possibly hurt a fly.ย
โOh?โ Yoonchae asks, surprised. โI thought it was going well with Martin.โย
โIt is,โ you mutter under your breath. โA little too well. He wonโt end it with me. So I think Iโm going to have to do it.โย
Bailey quirks a brow. โOh, really? How are you going to do it?โย
โI donโt know,โ you reply. โMaybe come up with some lame excuse saying that he doesnโt have time for us anymore, and itโs breaking my heart.โ Bailey nods, giving you a look that indicates that itโs not that bad of an idea.ย
You knew that Martinโs schedule was packed today โ he had two variety shows to film and then Music Bank later. If anything, today was the perfect day to spam him and then complain about how you got no response. Then, you could use that as an excuse to break up.ย
It was better to get it done early on before you both got too invested. Your heart does, however, twist at the thought of letting go. But it was for the better, you remind yourself. And you had an article to write.ย
So, after one whole day of no responses from Martin like youโd planned, you find yourself standing outside the CORTIS dorm, rehearsing your words. You take a deep breath, telling yourself that you could do this. You could play the clingy, overbearing girlfriend role to perfection โ this was the last time that you had to, hopefully.ย
You knock, and you hear Martinโs voice. You fail to stop the smile spreading across your lips.ย
When he opens the door, he instantly beams when he sees you. โHi, baby!โ He moves to wrap his arms around you in a hug, and for a split second, you nearly let him โ until you remember that youโre going to break up with him.ย
โI canโt believe you,โ You slip into your role, sniffling to show how heartbroken you were. โI sent you messages all day and you didnโt reply to me! Itโs like I donโt matter to you anymore.โย
Martin steps back in horror. Shit. Did he mess up? Well, not really, he thinks. He was far too busy โ he barely had time to even check his phone all day, but seeing you heartbroken in front of his doorstep makes his stomach twist.
โNo, no,โ he says, reaching out to pull you into a hug in an attempt to comfort you, and you push him away. โBaby, Iโm so sorry โ I was really busy all day, and I didnโt have time to check my phone. The guys and I just got home, and I was going to text you, believe me!โย
โI donโt know what to believe anymore,โ you say. Your words are absolutely ridiculous, and you know it. โI think we need to break up.โย
Saying those words makes your heart sink. You hated it. You didnโt want to let Martin Edwards go.
Martinโs heart drops. The rest of the members can hear everything, and all of their eyes widen. Martin had not a single clue of what to do. He didnโt reply for one day and you wanted to break up? This was ridiculous โ he turns to Juhoon, whoโs shaking his head as if to say: donโt ask me!ย
He then looks at Keonho, whoโs reminding him: 10 shows.
10 shows. Heโs got a week left until he hits 10 shows. Shit. If you ended it with him right now, he would lose the bet.ย
Asides from that, Martin found that he genuinely did care for you. He didnโt want you to hate him over his schedule being far too packed. He had to find a way to reason with you so youโd stay โ not just for the bet, he tells himself.ย
Seonghyeonโs watching this as if itโs the best episode of television heโs seen in his life. Martin Edwards, begging for his overdramatic, overly clingy girlfriend to stay with him. This was gold.ย
What did couples do when their relationship was in trouble? Martin racks his brain for ideas.ย
Heโd apologised already. What about gifts? He could get you those. Couples counselling?ย
โWhat?โ you pipe up. Itโs only then when Martin realises that heโs said โcouples counsellingโ out loud. His eyes widen with panic, before he pretends like thatโs what he intended all along.ย
โYes!โ he says. โLetโs do couples counselling. Please, letโs fix this, baby.โ Desperation is evident in his tone, and youโre so shocked at his proposal to the point where you donโt quite know what to say.ย
โIโฆโ you stammer out. You look at Martin, and you realise that you really canโt say no to him. Fuck, you think.
Youโd have to find a fucking couples counsellor. Or someone who could pretend to be one. Maybe you could just get Yoonchae or Bailey to say that the two of you werenโt meant to be, and then that could be your excuse to end it.ย
Yes, that would work, you think.ย
โOkay,โ you sigh, reluctantly. You suppose that you were in this predicament for a little longer. "I'm picking the therapist."
Martin lets out a loud exhale in relief. He's unbelievably happy that you've decided to give your relationship another chance, despite all this being a bet. A little voice in the back of his mind tells him that he seems to care more about you than the bet now. Even if you did, at times, drive him a little crazy.
He pulls you closer to him in a hug, and this time, you let him.ย
The smell of blackberries and cedar envelopes you in a comforting embrace, and you allow yourself to melt in his arms. โIโm sorry,โ he whispers against your hair. He presses a soft kiss to your cheek and itโs all just too genuine โ you feel awful.ย
Your heart twists with guilt at how genuine he sounds in his apology.ย
He holds you a little closer, and all you know is that you donโt deserve Martin Edwards at all.ย
One day later, you find yourself in Baileyโs apartment โ or rather, Dr. Sokโs apartment. You didnโt even have to beg or bribe Bailey to pretend to be a fake therapist for you and Martin โ she had said yes immediately, and with a little too much enthusiasm. Bailey wanted to witness whatever the hell you two had going on firsthand.ย
โItโs going to be good,โ she says, tapping her fingers together mischievously. Sheโs talking about it as if your couplesโ counselling appointment is going to be the best movie sheโs seen in years.ย
Martinโs sitting beside you as he taps his foot nervously on the floor. This was insane. He feels a little too out of place here. Why did he agree to coupleโs counselling for a relationship that had only just reached the two week mark?ย
Despite Baileyโs living room looking very much not like a therapistsโ office, she comes up with some lame excuse saying that her actual office (which doesnโt exist) is going under some construction. She peers at the two of you through her blue light glasses, leaning forward as she holds a clipboard in your hands.ย
โSo, (Name), Martin. Tell me whatโs going wrong in your relationship,โ Bailey says. You take a deep breath before slipping back into the role of annoying, overbearing girlfriend.ย
โHe doesnโt have time for us and this relationship!โ you huff, crossing your arms. Martin gives you a pained look, sighing. โHeโs not taking us seriously anymore.โ You sniffle a little for good measure to really sell the fact that youโre heartbroken.ย
โIโฆ I have a lot to do, baby โ you know this,โ he pleads โIโm trying my best to make as much time for you as I can, Iโm sorry.โ You watch as Bailey writes something down on her clipboard. Sheโs never met Martin before, but she could immediately tell that he harboured a lot of affection for you.ย
Sheโs starting to realise that maybe you were right in thinking that Martin was a lunatic โ sheโd heard about all the antics youโve pulled, and yet, Martin was still grovelling and wanted you to stay?ย
โItโs like you care more about being an idol than me,โ you say โ as the words leave your mouth, you realise how unreasonable it was. Perfect. You needed Martin to dump your ass. The longer you stayed in this โrelationshipโ, the harder you knew you were going to fall. You were already in deep, and you needed to get out before this article left you completely heartbroken.
โIโฆโ Martinโs at a complete loss for words. โI can balance my work and our relationship, baby. Please.โย
Bailey hums, tapping her pencil on the side of her clipboard as an idea pops up in her brain. You watch as her eyes light up in that way youโve seen before โ you just know this is going to be bad. Youโre praying to God that youโre wrong.ย
โI know,โ she says, leaning forward with a glint in your eye. โI think you two need an opportunity to spend a little bit more time together, away from all the idol life. Maybe then, youโll see your relationship with clearer eyes.โย
Your eyes widen in horror. Oh no.ย
Martin leans forward, suddenly curious. Double oh no.ย ย
โWhat may that be?โ he asks โ heโs genuinely invested in keeping this relationship, Bailey thinks. It was more clear than ever to her that Martin genuinely liked you, despite how you acted insane.
โWhenโs the next time you have a day off?โ Bailey asks.ย
โTuesday. Iโm heading back to my parentsโ house to spend some time with them before we head off to New York,โ Martin says. โOh!โ he looks at you, eyes gleaming with delight. Your heart sinks. Whatever idea Martin had, you knew it was going to be bad for you.ย
โYou can come with me,โ he beams. โRight? Is that a good idea, Dr. Sok?โย
Bailey is surprisingly shocked at Martinโs willingness to introduce you to his family only two weeks into your relationship. But she had to admit, it was a brilliant idea. She plasters a smile on her face to hide her shock, and nods in satisfaction.ย
โItโs brilliant, Martin,โ Bailey grins. She turns towards you, whoโs got a look of horror on your face. โ(Name), you should go meet Martinโs parents. After all, you said he wasnโt taking this relationship seriously. What couldnโt be more serious than meeting the parents?โย
You fail to come up with a coherent response. Fuck, you think. You shouldโve asked Yoonchae to be the fake therapist.ย
Martinโs looking at you expectantly, and you can tell just based on his gaze alone that he wants you to come. Your gaze softens, and you realise that youโre in way too deep. Youโre in love. Shit.ย
โFine,โ you huff. โLetโs do it.โย
Martin beams, so bright that it could rival the sun. The corner of your lips pull upward into a smile at the sight, and he laces his hands with yours. You hate how it feels right.ย
โPerfect.โ he says.ย
To you, this was anything but.ย
Tuesday rolls around much faster than you thought.ย
You put much more effort into your outfit to meet Martin's parents. Youโve practically been living in Martinโs clothes for the past few weeks, and as much as you knew that he liked it, you still had to make a good impression on his parents. Showing up in Martinโs oversized hoodie and a pair of sweats wasnโt going to cut it.ย
You opt for something simple, a little more similar to what you wore at the comeback showcase. You arrive at the CORTIS dorm wearing a striped shirt and a pair of jeans. Seonghyeon greets you at the door, and the boy points at what youโre wearing, and then what heโs wearing.ย
โOh,โ he says. โWhy are we matching?โย
You let out a little laugh. โDonโt bring it up,โ you reply. โTin wouldnโt like it.โย
If Martin notices that youโre somehow dressed like Seonghyeon, he doesnโt make any mention of it. He holds your hand as the company car drives the two of you to his parentsโ place, and the two of you share earphones, listening to Martinโs music.ย
You gulp. This was not what you had planned when you first decided that you were going to write the article. You didnโt think that youโd have to go this far โ you had already accidentally fallen in love with the subject of your article, and now you were meeting his parents. This wasโฆ simply great.ย
When the two of you arrive, itโs like Martin can sense your nerves. He looks at you, his gaze soft and gentle like usual. โDonโt worry,โ he beams. โTheyโre going to love you.โย
You donโt know if you love or hate the idea of Martinโs family loving you. On one hand, it was nice to get his parentsโ approval โ on the other, this relationship was practically completely fake. Or at least it started that way, until your real feelings got involved.ย
Martinโs mother answers the door, and when she spots you, she pulls you in for a hug. Youโre slightly stunned at how affectionate she is, but itโs awfully kind of her, and you return the gesture nevertheless. โYou must be (Name),โ she beams. โMartinโs been going on and on about you.โย
โYou have?โ you ask, turning to Martin. His cheeks heat up and he shrugs, trying to hide his embarrassment.ย
Martinโs father greets you once youโre inside, sitting down at the living room table. Heโs easy to talk to, much like Martin. He jokes around with you right off the bat, and your stomach twists with guilt. Your presence feels a little too foreign, as if you donโt belong โย because truly, you donโt.ย
Here you were, sitting at the Edwardsโ dining room table as if you were exactly who Martin said you were. His loving girlfriend who cared about him more than anything in the world.ย
The truth? All you were was a music journalist who was writing an article on how to lose an idol in 10 shows, and their son was the target. It was simply awful, and here you were, basking in the Edwardsโ familyโs praises like you deserved them. Like you deserved their son.ย
You didnโt. Martin Edwards was far too good to you, and for you.ย
You listen as his mother tells you stories about Martinโs childhood, such as how he composed a piece of music at the ripe age of 10 about the Spider-Man movie that heโd watched. His sister teases him lovingly, telling him that he shouldnโt have hid you for this long โ she doesnโt seem to know that you two have only been โdatingโ for two weeks. They treat you like family. You realise how much you adore all of them.
It makes the guilt thatโs been simmering in your stomach much, much worse.ย
When Martin tells the story of how you two met at the comeback showcase, his sisterโs eyes widen. โWait, I thought you guys have been dating for two months!โย
โNope,โ you chuckle nervously. His sister only hums, nodding. That reaction strikes genuine fear in your heart. Is she okay with it? Does she hate you? Martin seems to notice how anxious you are, and he gently caresses your hand with his thumb in an attempt to comfort you.ย
Martin beams as his family gushes over the new album, and you sit next to him, your fingers laced with his. You look at him, pride evident on your face as he talks about the songs, and Martinโs father realises that itโs only then when you relax your shoulders.ย
When Martinโs whisked away by his mother and sister, his father approaches you.ย
โ(Name),โ he says, pouring you a glass of water. โThank you for being so kind to Martin. And being there for him.โย
Your breath hitches in your throat. Martinโs father looks at you, handing you the glass. โItโs not an easy life for him to be an idol, especially since heโs so young,โ he hums. โIโm glad he has someone like you toโฆ you know. Keep him grounded amidst all the chaos.โย
Oh god. The guilt. You want to throw up. His dad was extending so much kindness to you because he genuinely believed that you loved his son.ย
And you did, but you had started everything with ulterior motives. Did it even matter now that you truly had feelings, when youโd approached Martin with zero intention of anything genuine?
But you plaster on a smile, something that youโve gotten a little too good at doing. โOf course,โ you say. You look out the window, seeing Martin and his sister laughing about something. Martinโs father recognises this look in your eye โ one of genuine affection for his son โ and he too, smiles. โIโm glad that I canโฆ be that for him.โย
โAnd really, he isโฆ absolutely amazing,โ you say. โI donโt think I deserve him.โ Itโs the most truthful thing you think youโve said all day.
The smile on his fatherโs lips grows a little wider. โFor what itโs worth, I think you two are perfect for each other. Even if this is all a little recent.โย
Perfect. Those words should make you feel relieved. But now that you have his fatherโs stamp of approval, it makes ending things much more difficult. How were you supposed to do that now?ย
Itโs then when it hits you. You couldnโt write the article anymore. You had to tell Jisoo that you couldnโt. Because youโve fallen for Martin Edwards. Hard.ย
Martin returns, seeing you and his father speaking to one another. He sneaks up behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist before pressing a kiss to your shoulder. You lean into his touch, even as the guilt from the past two weeks piles up and threatens to crush you like a boulder.ย
โPops, whatโd you say to her?โ he asks, hoping that his father hasnโt embarrassed him in front of you.ย
โOh, nothing bad, Martin. Donโt worry,โ he laughs. โDo show her around the house, though. Iโm sure sheโd love to see your room.โย
His father gives you a nod before going outside to find Martinโs mother and sister. Martin looks at you, and youโre standing there silently. โYou okay?โ he asks, and you nod, coming to your senses.ย
โOf course,โ you say. He smiles at the nickname before lacing your hand with his. He does it so casually now to the point where youโre not fazed by it at all. โSoโฆ are you going to show me your room?โย
He nods, leading you down the corridor. Itโs the first room on the right.ย
โTada,โ he says, flicking on the light switch. Your eyes immediately dart to the plane drawn on the wall, and Martin notices.ย
โMy dad painted that for me when I was little,โ he says, and your eyes flick back to look at him.ย
โHeโs really good at painting,โ you say, and Martin beams. Your eyes wander across the entire room, and the next object your eyes land on is a little Spider-Man figurine sitting on top of a cupboard. โYou really did like Spider-Man, didnโt you?โย
Martin chuckles, walking over to pick it up. โI did,โ he hums. He hands it over to you, before grabbing something else perched on top of the same cupboard. โI was a big Marvel fan. Case in point โ Thanosโ gauntlet.โย
He tries to put it on, but itโs clearly too small for him now, and you laugh. โYou try it,โ he says, handing it over to you.
You put it on, and it fits. โIf I snap my fingers, would we all turn to dust?โย
Martin bursts into a fit of laughter โ were you really that funny? But the sound of his laughter is infectious, and for a second you allow yourself to forget about that daunting thought of feeling like an intruder in your boyfriendโs own home.ย ย
You take off the gauntlet, handing it back to him so he can place it back in its original spot. He flops down on his bed, patting the empty space next to him. โCome,โ he says. โMy bed here is comfy. Much better than the dorm one, to be honest.โย
You lay down beside him, and to be fair, he was right. The mattress was slightly softer. Martin tugs at the corner of your shirt to get you to move slightly closer to him.ย
โYour room is cozy,โ you say as he wraps his arms around you. You turn to look at him, and heโs looking at you with so much sincerity and love. That feeling of guilt creeps up once again.ย
โI know,โ he hums. โListenโฆ Iโm happy that you decided to come meet my family. Iโm sorry about that day, by the way. I shouldโve probably told you that I was going to be busy.โ
You shake your head. You knew how unreasonable you were being. โItโs okay,โ you say. Looking into his eyes, everything feels far too real โ and instinctively, like youโve done a million times before, you brush his hair out of his eyes. โSorry for causing a scene. I was being overdramatic. Like usual.โย
Martin chuckles, his laugh light and airy. โDonโt worry.โย
Over the two weeks, Martin has found that he does care for you. Perhaps a little too much for something that was just a bet. But with you here in his home, things just felt right. His father seemed to love you, and outside in the garden, his mother and sister had both said that you were amazing.ย
Martin doesnโt know what to do โ was he supposed to tell you about the bet? Youโd surely break up with him for good once you found out.ย
But he looks at you, and he just canโt help but think about how pretty you are. Truthfully, his heart did skip a beat when he first saw you at their comeback showcase, and despite your overdramatic antics, Martin didโฆ want you to stay. That realisation settles in his chest, and he doesnโt know if he should be happy about it.ย
Heโs not in love with you, is he?ย
You look at Martin. Silence falls between the two of you, and itโs comforting, really. You look at him like heโs the most beautiful person in the world, and your breath hitches in your throat. Heโs too pretty. Too kind. Too good for you.ย
You donโt know when your eyes flick to his lips, but you realise that over the last two weeks, you two havenโt actually kissed. Heโs kissed your cheek far too many times, youโve done the same, but youโve never actually pressed your lips to his.ย
And the scary thing was, that you really, really wanted to.ย
You lean in a little closer, inching his face closer to his. Martin suddenly seems to notice the proximity between you two, and he too, realises that he hasnโt actually kissed you on the lips before. For someone who his sister claimed to be โso in loveโ, he hadnโt even kissed his own girlfriend.ย
He wants to kiss you. Really, really badly.ย
Youโre the one who leans in first, pressing your lips to his. Itโs hesitant and slow, and Martinโs a little shocked at your tentativeness. For someone who was so dramatic, over the top and boisterous โ this was a little out of character.ย
Martin can hear his own pulse thundering in his ears as he kisses you back โ slow, gentle, like he means it. Yes, this was exactly what he had been missing this entire time. Everything feels right, and Martin completely forgets about the bet. At this moment, all of it was real.ย
His hand moves up to gently cup your cheek as the other finds your waist, and you kiss him a little harder, a little more insistent. As Martin melts into the kiss, heโs also simultaneously praying to God that heโs closed his bedroom door. The last thing he really wanted was his parents or sister catching him making out with his girlfriend โ he'd never hear the end of it.ย
But when your hands find his shirt to pull him impossibly closer, that thought leaves his mind completely as he allows you to kiss him senseless. Itโs fine if the doorโs open, he thinks. All he cares about is you, and how your lips feel on his. Heโs drunk on the feeling, almost โ he doesnโt think that he can go a day without kissing you now.ย
When you pull away for air, youโre beaming at him like an idiot in love. Because truthfully, thatโs what you were. The guilt thatโs been eating at you is completely forgotten, and all you really want to do is kiss him again.ย
โYou kissed me,โ Martin says, a little breathless and a little astonished that this was all real. You had kissed him. And he felt something. Something real, something genuine โ something that told him that it wasnโt a bet anymore, at least not to him.ย
Martin Edwards might really be in love with you.
It was horrifying and exhilarating at the same time. On one hand, Martin was thinking about what would happen if โ god forbid โ you found out that you were a bet. On the other, Martin just wanted to kiss you over, and over, and over again.ย
โIs it that hard to believe?โ your voice cuts through his thoughts, your breath hot against his lips. Your eyes flick down to his lips once again, stained with your lipstick. Martin doesnโt โ and wonโt โ wipe it off. โI think you better get used to it, Edwards.โย
And when Martin Edwards leans in again to press his lips against yours, he allows himself to be irrevocably and truly yours.
You tell Jisoo that you canโt write the article.ย
Sheโs disappointed, but simultaneously, not surprised at all. โI thought you mightโve caught feelings for that CORTIS boy,โ she hums, tapping her pencil on the desk. You donโt think youโre getting that full-time job now. โItโs okay. I knew it was too good to be true.โย
Ouch, you think. That stings.ย
But youโre honestly on too much of a high after that kiss in Martinโs house. With the weight of the article off your shoulders, you can actually date Martin without feeling completely guilty now. Sure, some of it still remained knowing that you started the relationship with ulterior motives, but it was slightly more of a clean slate than before.ย
Despite Jisoo's disappointment in you, she still does invite you, Yoonchae, Bailey and Yuna to this music awards show after-party. You immediately text Martin, asking him if heโs going to be there. He responds with a yes, and you beam.ย
I canโt wait to see you, he tells you. You smile at your phone, giddy and far too much in love.
โI knew this was going to happen!โ Bailey exclaims as you two get ready for the after-party in her apartment. โI told you, that Martin boy was so deeply in love โ he was practically looking at her with stars in her eyes when we were doing โcouples counselling.โ Honestly, Iโm surprised that you didnโt see it earlier!โย
You curl your lashes, coating them with mascara carefully. โI mean, I didnโt expect to actually fall for him.โย
โWe all saw it coming a mile away, (Name),โ Yoonchae laughs. โCome on, at the showcase you were gawking at him like he was your personal Prince Charming. The only thing Iโm surprised at was how persistent he was in staying. If I were him, I wouldโve broken up with you the second you humiliated me like that in front of all my friends.โย
You gasp at Yoonchaeโs words, and she simply shrugs, a smile playing on her lips. The rest of the time spent getting ready is filled with chatter about how you and Martin are going to cope with having eyes on you the entire night tonight. He couldnโt hold your hand like he usually did โ you now had to hide.ย
When you arrive at the after-party, you immediately send a text to Martin, asking where he is. You look around the room to search for him, and you see idols, industry professionals and journalists like you conversing with one another.ย
โHi,โ a voice all too familiar to you makes you turn around, and you see Martin standing there, in all his glory. Heโs wearing a crisp, sharp suit โ Dior, you assume, considering the brand deal โ and he looks absolutely perfect.ย
Your voice catches in your throat as youโre about to tell him he looks good, but rather a strangled noise escapes past your lips. You suppose you finally know what itโs like to actually be left speechless. You cover your mouth in embarrassment, and Martin simply laughs.ย
โHi,โ you breathe out, when youโre finally able to speak. โYou look really nice.โย
โAnd you do too,โ Martin replies, looking at you. Youโre wearing this stunning, satin yellow dress. In all honesty, Martin had grown accustomed to seeing you wearing his clothes, and seeing you in something like this made his heart race. A dainty necklace hangs around your neck, and Martin thinks that he mightโve just fallen in love all over again.ย
โThank you,โ you say. Youโre unsure how to actually speak to him knowing that there were always going to be eyes watching his every move. โSoโฆ you doing anything after this?โ is the only thing youโre able to come up with, and Martin chuckles.ย
โNo, I donโt happen to be,โ he replies, fixing the collar of his suit jacket. His voice drops low into a whisper, looking around carefully to make sure that nobody is listening. โCome to the dorm later for a movie date?โย
โOf course,โ you whisper back. You fail to hide the lovesick grin on your lips, and Martinโs practically fighting the urge to kiss you right now. You look irresistibly good, and Martin hates that every move of his is likely documented right now.ย
His manager approaches him, and he gives you a nod in acknowledgment. โMartin, weโre going to have to meet some members of the media. Please come with me โ Iโm sure the two of you will find time to talk later.โย
You nod, understanding that duty calls. Martin waves goodbye to you, and you wave back. You didnโt even realise how fast your heart was racing there. You find Bailey, Yoonchae and Yuna near the drinks, and you grab a glass of fruit punch and converse with them about some new album that Yoonchae reviewed recently.ย
Martin straightens up his suit jacket before he walks up to the rest of the members, who are already talking to someone. โHi, Iโm Martin, the leader of CORTIS. Apologies for being late,โ he says politely. โI had to catch up with a friend.โ Itโs a lie, but he couldnโt call you his girlfriend to everyone here.ย
โOh, donโt worry,โ the lady says, waving him off. She seems awfully drunk, and sheโs already taking another sip of the champagne in her glass. โWe were just talking about some of the articles that weโve been publishing about your group. You boys are some of the most exciting faces on the music scene.โย
โThank you.โ Martin beams.
โHer name is Jisoo,โ James whispers in Martinโs ear. โI think sheโs super drunk. Manager says that the rest of us are going to speak to some guy named John, but Jisoo really wanted to talk to you. Soโฆ weโll leave you guys to it?โย
Martin nods in agreement, but he doesnโt really want to speak with her. Sheโs incredibly drunk, and to be honest, Martin would much rather be talking to you right now.
โOh, and weโve got something much more than just about your albums,โ Jisoo pipes up. โWell, did. One of my interns โ talented girl โ was writing a piece about one of you.โ Jisoo's so drunk that she thinks that the five of them are still there, when itโs really only Martin whoโs left.ย
She searches around the room, and her eyes land on you. She points in your direction.ย
โAh, her. Over there,โ Jisoo says. โ(Name).โย
Martin immediately straightens up at the sound of your name. He leans in to hear Jisoo better, curiosity suddenly piqued. โWhat article may that be?โย
โOh, it was a little bit more fun. How to lose an idol in 10 shows, or something. Dating an idol, and then trying to get him to dump her in 10 shows or less. I was gonna give her that full-time job, honestly.โย
Martinโs heart drops.ย
An article?ย You... were writing an article on dating an idol?
It hits Martin right then and there. Thatโs why you were so adamant on breaking up over something so trivial โ he knew that you werenโt that unreasonable.ย
The next realisation hits Martin like a truck. Thatโs why you would act so ludicrous and over the top sometimes โ he had a feeling that it wasnโt really who you were. The night at the studio, the moments the two of you shared at his parentsโ house. That was the real you. But Martin didnโt really care, he told himself he loved you all the same.ย
But knowing that all of this was just for an article? It sends a knife through his heart.ย ย
You kissed him like you actually loved him that day at his parentsโ house. He thought you did. Did you love him? Did you even like him?ย
Jisoo is so drunk she doesnโt even seem to know the state of shock and distress that sheโs just put Martin through. His mouth suddenly runs dry, and he doesnโt know what to do โ all he knows is that he feels sick at the thought that perhaps none of it was real. His heart aches with betrayal, and he doesnโt think heโs ever felt this awful before.ย
His eyes are hot as he tries to blink back tears. โIโm sorry,โ he stutters, his voice cracking. โI have to go.โย
Jisoo's too drunk to notice as Martin pushes past her, trying desperately to find any corner away from the cameras.ย
When he finds a place secluded enough, covered by the black satin curtains, Martin finally lets a tear slip past his cheek.
This must be what heartbreak feels like, he thinks.
Youโre already starting to get a little bored at this after-party.ย
You know that Jisoo's practically drunk off her mind, and Baileyโs gone over to make sure that she doesnโt hurl on any of the guests. Yoonchae winces seeing Jisoo stumble on air, and Bailey sighs as she knows that sheโs going to be babysitting her all night.ย
You look at the crowd, trying to count how many idols you can see that arenโt completely drunk off their mind.ย
โ(Name)!โ James snaps you out of your little game โ you were at roughly 12 idols โ and you direct your attention to him. He beams, greeting you with a wide smile.ย
Heโs got a glass of champagne in his hands โ after all, he is the only one legally allowed to drink. You can tell that heโs slightly tipsy.ย
โHi, James,โ you say, smiling at him. โNice to see you againโฆ after seeing you yesterday night.โย
James laughs, a little louder than normal โ yeah, the alcohol was definitely kicking in. โThatโs funny. Yes, so nice to see you again. I know that our Martin was a bit late speaking to some important people because he was caught up with you,โ he says, wagging his finger at you. โItโs okay. No worries.โย
โOh,โ you say sheepishly. โSorry about that.โย
โNo worries,โ he says, trailing off. Thereโs a beat of silence that falls between the two of you before James seems to remember something. โOh! Oh! Donโt tell Martin. Wait, you two are dating for real, for real now. So you must know!โย
You look at James, confused. You donโt have a single idea in the world of what he was insinuating at.ย
โOur Martin can flirt, canโt he?โ James says, dragging out the word. โWe all thought he couldnโt, so he proved us wrong. Now we all have to pay for his next shopping spree. Bleh. Iโm going to be broke.โย
Your brows furrow, but thereโs a sinking feeling in your stomach โ you think you know what James is hinting at, but heโs tipsy, so heโs somewhat circling around the topic.ย
โJames, whatever do you mean?โย
โWe made a bet!โ he says, a little too gleefully. โSo like, Seonghyeon was saying that Martin couldnโt flirt, so we made a bet โ 10 shows to get a girl to fall in love with him with his flirting skills. And he had to make sure you stayed with him through those 10 shows.โย
He doesnโt know that those words had basically caused your personal apocalypse. You were a bet?ย
You look at James, betrayal evident on your features. Your chest pangs with pain so visceral, you think you might actually double over. You were just a bet to Martin, and the betrayal and pain from that realisation hits you like a tidal wave. Martin being awfully sweet to you, being too kind, being too understanding โ that was all a lie?ย
You feel like you donโt even know him. You stand there, stunned, and at your silence, James somehow seems to sober up.ย
โOh, shit โ you didnโt know,โ Jamesโ face contorts into one of horror, and he brings his hands to his lips. โOh my god, (Name) โ I did not mean a single word of what I said, I am so sorryโ!โย
You push past James, running for the exit. You feel so violently ill โ all you want to do is go back to your house and cry until youโve got no tears left. Youโre going to block Martin, and you never ever want to listen to a CORTIS song ever again.ย
You push past the gates, but then youโre stopped by a voice that is awfully familiar, but itโs the last person you want to hear from right now.ย
โSkipping town?โ Martin asks. His hands are shoved into his coat pockets. Of course he still looks devastatingly beautiful, and for a second you forget that this is the boy who had made a bet that youโd fall in love with him in 10 shows.
Congratulations, it worked, you think. Maybe he should win a prize for it after you get over your heartbreak.ย
You turn to look at him, brows furrowed in anger. โWhat do you want, Martin?โย
โWhat do I want?โ he asks, voice laced with disbelief. He steps closer towards you, and you realise that heโs angry too. You donโt know what for. โI want to know why Jisoo told me about an article that youโd pitched called: how to lose an idol in 10 shows. Yes, she was drunk. But you know that drunk words are sober thoughts. I could tell she wasn't lying.โย
Youโre stunned. Martin notices your expression, and his eyes narrow. โYeah,โ he replies, gritting his teeth. โSound familiar?โย
You gulp, and that guilt that you thought youโd rid yourself of comes back tenfold. But then you remember the bet. You, in similar fashion, grit your teeth and look at Martin with the same betrayal in your eyes.ย
โRight,โ you hum. โAnd I want to know a little bit more about this bet that James told me aboutโฆ perhaps something along the lines of you getting a girl to fall in love with him in 10 shows.โย
This time, Martinโs the one with the stunned look on his face. His breath stutters, and you cross your arms. โYeah,โ you tell him, using the same words he did mere seconds ago. โSound familiar?โย
โYou used me for an article,โ Martin exhales. The heartbreak in his tone is evident, and you hate knowing that youโve hurt him. But he hurt you too.ย
โI was just a bet to you,โ you gulp. Saying it out loud makes it more real. โI meant nothing to you, didnโt I?โย
โYou canโt be the one saying this to me,โ Martin says, pointing at you. โAre you serious?โย
โDead serious,โ you retort.ย
โYou wanted to lose an idol in 10 shows?โ Martin seethes, trying to ignore how it feels like his heart is quite literally breaking. โCongratulations. You just lost him.โย
You gulp, trying to fight the tears that are threatening to spill past your eyes. You take a deep breath, strengthening your resolve โ you were a bet to him anyways. It didnโt matter.ย
โNo, I didnโt.โ you say. Even those words feel like a lie. You did lose him, and you feel terrible. โBecause you canโt lose something you never had.โย
With that, you turn on your heel and leave. You only let the tears fall when you know that youโre far away enough, and you reel with the realisation that youโve probably just lost the first person that youโve ever truly loved. Because of some stupid job that you werenโt quite sure you wanted anymore.ย ย
You leave Martin hanging as he watches your figure disappear. He opens and closes his mouth as if he wants to say something, but youโre already too far gone. Itโs fine, Martin tells himself. It was just a bet. You were just a bet. You didnโt mean anything to him.ย
No, he canโt lie to himself. It hurts much more than the truth.ย
Martin stands there as the cool evening air tousles his hair. Itโs then when he finally allows himself to sob as he crumples to the floor โ despite it all, he doesnโt know why he once again, canโt bring himself to hate you.ย
Martin Edwards lost you, and you lost Martin Edwards.ย
Maybe after all of it, this was the outcome that you both deserved.
Martin feels absolutely awful.ย
The members all look at him sympathetically, and they all notice that Martinโs not really his usual self nowadays. Seonghyeon buys him that jacket that heโs wanted for ages. Juhoon breaks his bank account to get Martin three hoodies. Keonho finally buys him those Rick Owens shoes, and he doesnโt complain about it.ย
James, who feels the worst out of all of them for letting the news slip to you, buys him two pairs of expensive earrings and cashes in on an extra bracelet as if itโll cure the heartbreak.ย
"Well... I guess you can flirt," Seonghyeon says. He knows that it's really not helping Martin get over the heartbreak, but he's not quite sure what to say to make him feel better.
Sure, he could flirt. Hooray, Martin thinks. But he didn't really care about that anymore. Not when he just wanted to see you.
His life falls into the routine that he was so accustomed to before you barged into his life. Wake up, practice, make music, perform, repeat. Despite how much his stomach twists in anger at the thought that he was just an article to you, he misses your presence.ย
In those two short weeks, youโd changed his life in a way that he didnโt think was possible. His eyes always linger a little too long at the dressing room door, hoping youโll show up. He stocks up on Coke for the mini fridge in the studio just in case you swing by and want a can. He canโt even tell his parents that heโs not speaking to you anymore.ย
He messed up too. You werenโt the only one. The guilt eats at him every single day, and heโs immediately reminded of it when he wakes up. Martin Edwards, despite it all, still thinks that he loves you. That may be even more ludicrous than your antics.ย
He hears the doorbell ring, and Martin gets up from his seat at the couch to go answer the door. Heโs the designated one to do that now, because heโs always hoping that perhaps youโll show up.ย
He swings open the door, and he realises that itโs Yoonchae. He recognises her from the comeback showcase.ย
โHi,โ she gulps, a little hesitant. โMartin?โย
โYes?โ he asks. โHow did you findโโย
โIโm not a stalker,โ she says. Martin figured, considering that she was a friend of yours. โSorry, I had to get that out of the way. Butโฆ I think you might want to read this.โ Yoonchae hands Martin a stack of papers, and he furrows his brows, confused as to why.ย
Yoonchae looks at Martin, and she knows thatโs a devastated man if sheโs ever seen one. His hairโs messy, heโs got dark circles under his eyes, and thereโs just something heavy seeming to be weighing on his conscience.ย
โPlease,โ she says. Martin motions for her to come in, and Yoonchae sits down at the dining room table. Martin flicks open the page, and there it is โ the dreaded headline. How to Lose an Idol in 10 Shows. Your name is plastered right under it.ย
Martin doesnโt even want to read it. He feels sick already seeing the title. But curiosity kills the cat, and he reluctantly reads the words printed on the page, letting out a deep sigh.ย
Step one: Ask the dreaded question โ โWhat are we?โ in front of all of his friends.ย
He remembers that day. He also remembers the instantaneous shock that he felt hearing those words spill past your lips, and how it filled him with a sense of intrigue but also overconfidence that he was going to win this bet.ย
Step two: Be overly obnoxious โ yes, again, in front of all of his friends.ย
The over the top cheek kisses, the way youโd cling to him like a koala and the loud displays of affection โ yep, that tracks, Martin thinks. The crazy thing was that he didnโt mind at all.ย
Step three: Annoy him with text messages every single minute.ย
You did that. But Martin wasnโt annoyed, per se. He went through every single message, replying to them with equal enthusiasm. You always had something interesting to talk about โ it wasnโt just filler, so Martin didnโt quite mind. And it did bring him some much needed entertainment after busting his ass for a performance.ย
Step four: Steal all his favourite clothes.ย
Martin smiles, stupidly. The memory of you wearing his clothes and looking a little too good in them cuts through the anger and bitterness heโs been feeling for the past few days. The mention of those also makes him also remember that you havenโt given any of those clothes back.ย
Step five: Interrupt him at the studioโฆ
The next few words make Martinโs breath catch in his throat.ย
Despite my ridiculous antics, Martin Edwards somehow puts up with me and has the patience of a saint. I decide that heโs either a lunatic who loves crazy girls, but my colleague Bailey offers me something else: that he might genuinely like me. Itโs when Iโm halfway through step five I realise that Iโve fallen in way too deep.ย
Itโs the first time where he actually shows frustration with my insanity, and itโs the first time where I realise that I donโt want to hurt him. Because despite starting this with unfortunately ulterior motives, I think I may have fallen in love in the process.ย
My goal was to lose an idol in 10 shows. But after getting to know Martin Edwards โ the real Martin Edwards โ I didnโt want to lose him at all, and yet I have. Heโs admirable. Dependable. Too kind for his own good. I donโt even think I deserved him during those two weeks.ย
These two weeks have been riddled by mistakes. Starting this article, lying about my intentions, pretending that I was someone that I truly wasnโtโฆ but the biggest mistake of all?ย
Losing the love of my life.ย ย
His vision blurs as tears prick his eyes. He was the love of your life? The words hit him like a ton of bricks, and Martin almost forgets how to breathe. The weight of those words settles in his chest, and somehow, the anger dissipates and is replaced with disbelief. He was the love of your life.ย
The crazy thing is, Martin thinks you may be the love of his life too.ย
He looks at Yoonchae with a look of determination in his eyes that wasnโt quite there before.ย
โIโฆ is she at the office?โย
โNo,โ Yoonchae replies. โShe quit. I can give you her address, if you needโโย
โPlease,โ he says, desperation evident in his tone. He throws on a random pair of shoes as he practically shoves his phone into Yoonchaeโs hand so she can type in your address into his GPS app.ย
Martin runs out the door, Yoonchae trailing behind him and nearly failing to keep up. Juhoon asks him where the hell heโs going, but Martin doesnโt answer โ he has pressing matters to attend to right now. Yoonchae calls a car for the two of them to head to your place, and on the way, she tells him that she really wasnโt supposed to show him the article โ but she had to. She knew you were miserable too.ย
The ride to your place feels like forever, and Yoonchae tells him that sheโll just wait downstairs. He bounds up the staircase โ the lift was a waste of time, you lived on the third floor. Yoonchae thinks that he doesnโt even register her words.ย
Martin double checks the apartment unit that Yoonchae had given him, and he knocks, tapping his foot on the ground nervously.ย
You fling open your door, and youโre stunned to see Martin there.ย
Heโs almost speechless at the sight of your face โ he hadnโt seen you in so long, and Martin has missed you, devastatingly so.ย
โMartin?โ you say in disbelief. Youโve been dreaming about him so much for the past few days to the point where you really wouldnโt be surprised if he was a hallucination. โWhat are you doing here?โ
He holds up the article that Yoonchae had handed him less than an hour ago. You recognise it, and a mixture of guilt, shame and anxiety pangs in your chest โ so heโs read it. That sickly feeling that youโve grown accustomed to for the past week returns tenfold.ย
โThis article,โ he breathes out. โDid you mean it?โย
โWhat?โย
โDid you mean it?โ he asks. Heโs looking at you with desperation, practically pleading for you to say yes.ย
You blink back the tears in your eyes. A beat of silence falls between you two before you finally speak.
โI meant every word,โ you confess, your voice barely above a whisper.ย
Martin tries to hold back the smile thatโs threatening to creep up on his lips. โReally?โ he asks, and you nod.ย
โYes,โ you say, a little louder this time. โ And Iโm sorry about it all โ you meanโฆ so much more than an article to me.โย
Martin has another question. โAnd am I really the love of your life?โย
โYes,โ you exhale. โYou are. I told you, I meant every word.โย
Martin finally allows himself to breathe, his shoulders relaxing as he beams, wider than ever before. โAsk me the same question.โ he says, grinning. You look at his expression, a little confused but hopeful all the same.ย
โAm I the love of your life?โ you ask, your voice brimming with hope.ย
โYou are.โ Martin replies.ย
โOh,โ you reply softly, and you let a tear slip past your cheek. Youโre crying, but theyโre happy tears.ย
Martin reaches out to you, pulling him close to you. His hand finds your waist like it belongs there, and like nothing has changed in the last few days the two of you have been apart.ย
โI love you,โ you choke out. โUnbelievably so. Iโm sorry I lost you.โย
Martin leans in, inching his face closer to yours as he smiles.ย
โI love you too,โ he replies before he presses his lips to yours, and everything just feels right again. He pulls away for a split second to look into your eyes. โYouโre never going to lose me.โ he says, giggling before he pulls you in for another kiss.ย
And now, Martin Edwards is truly, irrevocably yours.
ยฉ martinflms 2026.
mini author's note: this was lowkey a challenge to write 20k in 2 days. i'm so glad i did and i hope you guys enjoyed <3
WHITE KEYS (& OTHER DEMOS) ; a martin edwards story ๐น ๐ ๐ฟ #MADE BY kaikai :p
ENTER DAWN. witnessing a sunrise in 6th grade with your late grandfather, you knew DAWN was going to be etched into your brain for the rest of your life. martin often joked how fitting it was that he orbited you, like how the planets orbited the sun. but ever since the breakup, you haven't worked on a track; and most your listeners are wondering if DAWN has already risen for the final time.
๏นซyncheerios. dated martin for barely over a year, been broken up nearly as long, but you can't shake the animosity that harbors in you the second someone mentions his name ๐น iroha's your ride or die. you single-handedly carried IDIOTS on your back when james was starting out, so now you force him to film your shit for free ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ
๏นซprojectd4wn. ironically, you're known for the kind of music people listen to at night ๐ฌ you've managed to keep your relationship and music separateโ never making anything together. just sat in the same rooms, headphones half-on, sharing silence or maybe a kiss, before mars found his own orbit.
and you refuse to admit you're on an indefinite hiatus... still, you get DMs begging you to come back and drop another beat, โdawn once again,โ or whatever the fuck that means ๐
๏นซir08ha. cousins with martin [audience collectively gasps] THE DRAMAAAAAA ๐ real discreet thoughโsheโs not obvious about it. tag-teaming with you to bully yufan ๐ด is actually the reason martin even had the balls to approach her โpretty friend with the headphonesโ (psst that's you)
she grew up with martin harassing her ears with whatever he was cooking like a loser in a dark room, and learnt real quick this WASNโT her direction ๐ญ๐ still, it never stopped martin from begging her to record some background vocals for $17โฆ no wait $25โฆ hold on, now $30โ price goes up the more he pisses her off ๐คทโโ๏ธ
that was until the fallout, when she found something flawed in martin; and a sister in you
๏นซpudd1ngdstroyer. real protective since the breakup, probably the first to pick sides in the friend group. pockets milked 24/7 by iroha and you for a sweet treat, but he doesn't seem to mind ๐ (too much ๐). martins on thin ice for himโ he don't fw the dude ๐๐
ironically, all the early content you filmed for him to practice his editing on was of you and martin, doing mundane tasks on a slow summer afternoon ๐ต although he'd never admit it to your face; if you two ever had a happy ending, he'd play the clips for you on an important event ๐ฅน๐ค
eventually, he picked up traction as a creator, and now people are starting to recognize the IDIOTS hovering in the corner on some organic visualizer films.
HOLY MOLY IM OBSESSED??? PULEASE GO READ RN AND LISTEN TO THE MUJSIC W IT BC THE MUSIC IS FIRE AND THE AURTHOR IS FIRE AND THE WIRITING IS FIRE AND YES YSE
As someone with a platform on this website, regardless of how small my platform may be, I feel compelled to speak about this. I write and consume mainly CORTIS content. I have been away for 5 days, one of these days being Juhoon's 18th birthday. Within minutes of logging back in, I have seen nsfw content involving Juhoon. This is both ethically and legally upsetting to me.
Juhoon has just turned 18. In almost minutes, other authors have received requests to write nsfw content about him. I have also seen authors post's containing this same content. He is barely an adult in most countries. I'd also like to mention that legal age for purchasing alchohol and tobacco, voting, and general adulthood is 19 in Korea. This would mean that Juhoon is still legally a minor in the context of his birthplace. I am not the type of person to judge the content that anyone consumes or produces. However, the rush to sexualize idols immediately after they become an adult is concerning. In my opinion, stanning an idol means you have at least some form of respect for them. It is completely disrespectful to push boundaries like this so soon. There are lines drawn for the protection of everyone in the world, these lines are consistently crossed by people especially within the kpop community. No matter how old you are, it is inappropriate and in my opinion, downright rude.
Another thing I'd like to mention is that your own age should not be used as an excuse for your actions. Whether you are a minor or not, you should not be sexualizing others who are so young. I am a minor too, and I can understand the difference between what is acceptable and what is not. I hope you will understand this too. To put it in perspective, let's imagine that you are an idol. How would you feel if immediately after you turned 18, people started posting explicit content surrounding you? This includes deepfakes, fanfiction, you name it. You would feel disgusted. Imagine your parents saw it. They would be horrified. Idols are people too. Their feelings, privacy, and boundaries deserve to be respected and it should be our job as fans to uphold that respect and not tolerate it when lines are crossed. Again, I am not one to judge the content you choose to consume and produce. However, I am asking you to think about it, ethically and morally, and make a decision to respect your idols.
Be kind with your content, think before you act and interact, and understand where the lines are drawn.
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I know I previously said I wouldn't be speaking about CORTIS, but after spending less than an hour on the app and already coming across smut tags, explicit content for Juhoon, post of people within the community speaking out, and even a now-deleted anon asking for Juhoon smut (only hours after he turned 18) on my inbox, I feel like it's important to share where I personally stand.
This isn't meant to attack anyone or start discourse. I'm speaking strictly from my own boundaries and the way I choose to engage with fandom spaces.
Even when someone has technically reached legal age, the immediate rush to sexualize them makes me deeply uncomfortable. Becoming legal does not automatically erase the fact that this person was a minor until very recently and has been publicly known and treated as such. For me, legality and ethical comfort are not the same thing, and I don't think it's wrong to acknowledge that difference.
This situation feels uncomfortably familiar to what happened with Ni-Ki. When he was still 17, explicit content was already circulating heavily, often justified with the same arguments: "he's basically 18," "he's mature," "he's older than me."
Watching those boundaries get pushed the moment people thought they could get away with it didn't suddenly become okay with time, it simply made the pattern clearer.
What makes this even more unsettling is that a noticeable amount of this content is being written and consumed by minors themselves, using age proximity as a shield. I've seen it in enhablr, onedoorblr, any I can see this is already happening here.
Age proximity doesn't change the fact that this is explicit sexual content involving someone who has only just crossed a legal line, nor does it address how quickly fandom spaces normalize sexualization the moment they technically can.
Now, this isn't about pretending these conversations don't exist, and it's not about shock value. It's about recognizing a pattern that keeps repeating with younger idols and asking whether legality alone should really be the only standard we rely on. And for me, it isn't.
Writing or engaging with nsfw content involving consenting adults does not cancel out the ability to question how quickly younger idols are sexualized the moment they turn 18. These are not contradictory positions to me, and I don't view them as the same issue.
Plus, I'm not telling anyone what they are or aren't allowed to write, people will do what they want regardless. This is simply me being transparent about the kind of content I won't engage with or support. Also, setting personal boundaries isn't an attack to anyone, and expressing discomfort isn't the same as passing judgment.
I'm sharing this because I've seen this cycle repeat way too many times, and honestly, it makes me uneasy thinking about Martin, Keonho, or Seonghyeon turning 18, especially knowing the kind of content already circulating elsewhere (and with the topic of the 200 idols and deepfakes, it's more than disturbing).
As we have seen, sometimes the issue isn't whether something is technically allowed, but it's how eager people are to cross the line the moment they think they can. And that discomfort is something I won't ignore.
Lots of love and thanks for reading this, and please understand that this comes from a place of care. I'm not asking anyone to agree with me, just to respect where I stand and why I've chosen to draw this line. This also means I won't be accepting or engaging with any CORTIS smut anons.
Let's please remember that fandom spaces work best when we allow room for different boundaries without immediately turning them into arguments, and I hope this can be received in that spirit. To all coer who are active there as writers, editors, and readers, please keep that space as respectful and peaceful as possible ๐ซ๐ฉท
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Synopsis: Martin meets a fan on a day off. Idol's can't have relationships with fans. Not even friendships. But he can't help but feel entranced by her.
Martin woke up around around 11. He lingered in bed for half an hour, scrolling aimlessly on his phone. The group had a rare day off and he planned to savor all the relaxation he could get. He finally rolled out of bed around 11:30, shrugging on a t-shirt and wandering into the kitchen. The dorm was a mess. Cups and bowls were scattered on the kitchen counter, neglected. He ignored it for now, opening the fridge for something to eat. They had virtually nothing. He groaned, looking over to the couch. Juhoon was sprawled out, attention focused on his phone.
"Juhoon." Martin said, causing the boy to look up from his phone.
"Hm?" He hummed in reply.
"Why is there nothing in the fridge?" Martin question. Juhoon simply shrugged looking back at his phone. Martin groaned, walking back to his room.
He shut the door behind him, looking in the mirror. He looked disheveled. His hair was spiked up in all directions from sleep. Talk about bedhead. He smoothed it down then fluffed it up again, running his hands through it until he was satisfied with how it looked. He rummaged around, searching for something to wear. If he was going out to get food, he may as well dress good. He finally settled on a grey t-shirt and black skinny jeans. He put on a belt and some accessories, assessing his outfit in the mirror. Content with his appearance, he slid on his headphones. He walked into the bathroom, brushing his teeth, putting on deodorant and cologne. He took a quick mirror picture, posting it before walking out of the building.
Martin walked to a nearby convenience store, grabbing a red bull and something to munch on. He then paid, leaving the store. He walked aimlessly for a bit, having nothing better to do. After a while of walking, he wandered into a clothing shop, deciding to look around. His eyes searched the racks of clothes looking for nothing in specific. He spotted what looked like a nice hoodie, reaching out to take it off of the rack. Unfortunately for him, another hand on the other side of the rack went to grab it at the same time. Their hands met and the other hand was withdrawn quickly.
"Oh! Sorry!" A feminine sounding voice said quickly. He grabbed the sweatshirt, circling around to the other side of the rack to see who it had been.
You had decided to go shopping. It was the weekend and you had nothing to do. You were looking around a store, trying to find something-anything, when a hoodie peaked your interest. Just as you went to grab it, another hand did the same, bumping yours on accident. You quickly retracted your hand, apologizing. The faceless hand grabbed the sweatshirt, walking around the rack and coming face to face with you. He was tall. Almost abnormally so. You made eye contact and you were quickly stunned. What were the chances that you would run into an idol, let alone your bias. You stared up at him for a moment in surprise, not knowing what to say. He stared at you, not saying anything either. As moments passed, the silence became increasingly awkward.
"I- um- sorry!" You stutter out, internally facepalming at how stupid you had sounded.
Martin flashed a grin at your rushed apology. "It's alright. Sorry for taking your hoodie. I guess we both just have impeccable style." He said, playing it cool. On the inside, he was anything but. When you first saw his face, your eyes flickered with recognition. He wondered if you were a fan. Asking would be weird, however, so he decided not to mention it. You were pretty, possibly the prettiest girl he'd ever seen. His eyes scanned your face, taking you in.
You felt your face heat up slightly, hoping it wasn't visible to him as he looked at you. "I guess so." You say in reply, laughing softly. "I hope this doesn't sound weird but I'm actually a huge fan of you." You say. His smile widens at that.
"Yeah? Nice to know our fans are so pretty." He says coolly. You feel your face heat up more. It was definitely visible now. You try to laugh it off with the pretense of it being fan service.
"Thank you." You say, barely getting the words out. A silence stretches between you two again. You speak up, trying to ignore the awkwardness. "How do you not get embarrassed doing fan service?" You ask.
Martin was a bit surprised at the compliment. He hadn't been doing fan service when he complimented you. He shrugs. "I do. I'm just good at hiding it, I guess. But this wasn't fan service." He said simply. He took in the way your face got impossibly redder. Cute.
You didn't know what to say to that. You just stared, obviously flustered. He had meant his compliment. Martin had called you pretty. And he wasn't even saying it just to be kind. He held the hoodie out to you. "You can have it. I think it'd look better on you." He says. You feel your heartbeat speed up as you take it from him.
"Thank you. It's really nice to meet you." You say, holding the hoodie close to your chest.
"It's nice to meet you too." He says, smiling. His smile could light up a room. It was unfair how handsome he was, even more so in person.
You don't know what else to say. The tension was increasing with each second that you stood in front of each other. The air between you was awkward. "I guess I'll go pay then." You say, stepping back. But before you could turn away, he spoke up again.
"Wait. Could I maybe get your number?" He asked, the words surprising even himself. What was he doing? This was completely unprofessional. He shouldn't have asked. But he had spoken before thinking and couldn't take it back now.
You were shocked to say the least. This had to be a dream, right? But it wasn't. Martin had just asked for your number. You nod, afraid that if you open your mouth you'll stutter something embarrassing. He takes out his phone, opening a new contact and handing it to you. You took it from him with shaking hands. You quickly typed in your number naming the contact 'yn'. You handed his phone back, your hands brushing as he took it.
"Thanks." He says, flashing that devastatingly handsome grin again.
"Yeah." You say, standing there for another moment before walking up to the register. You pay, glancing back at him before walking out of the store. He was still standing there, looking at you too.
Martin ran his hand through his hair as you left, looking down at the contact you had saved. "Yn." He muttered to himself. What was he thinking? He was sure this was the stupidest thing he had ever done. Stupider than that video of him singing Versace On The Floor, even. He walked out of the store a few minutes later, empty handed. As he walked back to the dorms, he couldn't get your face out of his head. He was in deep shit and he knew it.
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Synopsis: Martin meets a fan on a day off. Idol's can't have relationships with fans. Not even friendships. But he can't help but feel entranced by her.
Martin woke up around around 11. He lingered in bed for half an hour, scrolling aimlessly on his phone. The group had a rare day off and he planned to savor all the relaxation he could get. He finally rolled out of bed around 11:30, shrugging on a t-shirt and wandering into the kitchen. The dorm was a mess. Cups and bowls were scattered on the kitchen counter, neglected. He ignored it for now, opening the fridge for something to eat. They had virtually nothing. He groaned, looking over to the couch. Juhoon was sprawled out, attention focused on his phone.
"Juhoon." Martin said, causing the boy to look up from his phone.
"Hm?" He hummed in reply.
"Why is there nothing in the fridge?" Martin question. Juhoon simply shrugged looking back at his phone. Martin groaned, walking back to his room.
He shut the door behind him, looking in the mirror. He looked disheveled. His hair was spiked up in all directions from sleep. Talk about bedhead. He smoothed it down then fluffed it up again, running his hands through it until he was satisfied with how it looked. He rummaged around, searching for something to wear. If he was going out to get food, he may as well dress good. He finally settled on a grey t-shirt and black skinny jeans. He put on a belt and some accessories, assessing his outfit in the mirror. Content with his appearance, he slid on his headphones. He walked into the bathroom, brushing his teeth, putting on deodorant and cologne. He took a quick mirror picture, posting it before walking out of the building.
Martin walked to a nearby convenience store, grabbing a red bull and something to munch on. He then paid, leaving the store. He walked aimlessly for a bit, having nothing better to do. After a while of walking, he wandered into a clothing shop, deciding to look around. His eyes searched the racks of clothes looking for nothing in specific. He spotted what looked like a nice hoodie, reaching out to take it off of the rack. Unfortunately for him, another hand on the other side of the rack went to grab it at the same time. Their hands met and the other hand was withdrawn quickly.
"Oh! Sorry!" A feminine sounding voice said quickly. He grabbed the sweatshirt, circling around to the other side of the rack to see who it had been.
You had decided to go shopping. It was the weekend and you had nothing to do. You were looking around a store, trying to find something-anything, when a hoodie peaked your interest. Just as you went to grab it, another hand did the same, bumping yours on accident. You quickly retracted your hand, apologizing. The faceless hand grabbed the sweatshirt, walking around the rack and coming face to face with you. He was tall. Almost abnormally so. You made eye contact and you were quickly stunned. What were the chances that you would run into an idol, let alone your bias. You stared up at him for a moment in surprise, not knowing what to say. He stared at you, not saying anything either. As moments passed, the silence became increasingly awkward.
"I- um- sorry!" You stutter out, internally facepalming at how stupid you had sounded.
Martin flashed a grin at your rushed apology. "It's alright. Sorry for taking your hoodie. I guess we both just have impeccable style." He said, playing it cool. On the inside, he was anything but. When you first saw his face, your eyes flickered with recognition. He wondered if you were a fan. Asking would be weird, however, so he decided not to mention it. You were pretty, possibly the prettiest girl he'd ever seen. His eyes scanned your face, taking you in.
You felt your face heat up slightly, hoping it wasn't visible to him as he looked at you. "I guess so." You say in reply, laughing softly. "I hope this doesn't sound weird but I'm actually a huge fan of you." You say. His smile widens at that.
"Yeah? Nice to know our fans are so pretty." He says coolly. You feel your face heat up more. It was definitely visible now. You try to laugh it off with the pretense of it being fan service.
"Thank you." You say, barely getting the words out. A silence stretches between you two again. You speak up, trying to ignore the awkwardness. "How do you not get embarrassed doing fan service?" You ask.
Martin was a bit surprised at the compliment. He hadn't been doing fan service when he complimented you. He shrugs. "I do. I'm just good at hiding it, I guess. But this wasn't fan service." He said simply. He took in the way your face got impossibly redder. Cute.
You didn't know what to say to that. You just stared, obviously flustered. He had meant his compliment. Martin had called you pretty. And he wasn't even saying it just to be kind. He held the hoodie out to you. "You can have it. I think it'd look better on you." He says. You feel your heartbeat speed up as you take it from him.
"Thank you. It's really nice to meet you." You say, holding the hoodie close to your chest.
"It's nice to meet you too." He says, smiling. His smile could light up a room. It was unfair how handsome he was, even more so in person.
You don't know what else to say. The tension was increasing with each second that you stood in front of each other. The air between you was awkward. "I guess I'll go pay then." You say, stepping back. But before you could turn away, he spoke up again.
"Wait. Could I maybe get your number?" He asked, the words surprising even himself. What was he doing? This was completely unprofessional. He shouldn't have asked. But he had spoken before thinking and couldn't take it back now.
You were shocked to say the least. This had to be a dream, right? But it wasn't. Martin had just asked for your number. You nod, afraid that if you open your mouth you'll stutter something embarrassing. He takes out his phone, opening a new contact and handing it to you. You took it from him with shaking hands. You quickly typed in your number naming the contact 'yn'. You handed his phone back, your hands brushing as he took it.
"Thanks." He says, flashing that devastatingly handsome grin again.
"Yeah." You say, standing there for another moment before walking up to the register. You pay, glancing back at him before walking out of the store. He was still standing there, looking at you too.
Martin ran his hand through his hair as you left, looking down at the contact you had saved. "Yn." He muttered to himself. What was he thinking? He was sure this was the stupidest thing he had ever done. Stupider than that video of him singing Versace On The Floor, even. He walked out of the store a few minutes later, empty handed. As he walked back to the dorms, he couldn't get your face out of his head. He was in deep shit and he knew it.
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So we all know Juhoon is turning 18 very soon, if yall dare to post those sexual fics, i genuinely will come for yall donโt even play with me.
i did this for riki from enha and i will do it again, even if it means getting attacked in my dms, idc anymore, i will report every single one of you who will do it. Same goes for when Martin will turn 18.
plus a quick reminder, 18 is still a minor in korea, let that sink in.
Seeing ppl try to say cortis was being racist by the TikTok they made is literally making my head hurt. No they werenโt throwing up gang signs. No ski masks donโt immediately associate with black or Latino people. They were doing a yt video called โholiday break inโ they were dressed up as burglars. Automatically associating ski masks, sagging pants, hand gestures, criminal activites and โgang cultureโ with Black or Latino people as a group is a racist stereotype. The ppl accusing cortis of this are the actual ones being racist.
And people trying to use Kiss of Life or Tarzzan as a comparison but these situations are not the same at all. Let me tell you why.
Kiss of life stated before they even started the live was โnot to leave the fandomโ meaning they knew that what they were about to do for this live was wrong. Meanwhile it was for Julieโs birthday (the girl who said the n word) throughout the whole entire live they repeatedly mimicked stereotyped Black and Latino mannerisms.
Belle and natty flipping their hair, rolling their eyes and saying โwho that?โ โWho thatโ while belle is chewing on that fuck ass piece of gum in her mouth in the most dramatic way possible. Belle calling herself โlil Taco Bellโ??? And this was all for Julieโs birthday (the girl who said the n word btw) And Julie also saying โlil Taco Bell has been flirting with my man and thatโs not a bestie.โ And the other one wearing cornrows???๐ all of that was constant stereotyping.
And then thereโs tarzzan. Has worn cornrows and continues to stay wearing them, him saying the n word in a song the doesnโt have the n word in it, used the ninja emoji in place for the slur and then thereโs his stage name tarrzanโฆ dyk that the name literally translates to โwhite skinโ the novel which the name originates from introduces Tarzan as โthe killer of beasts and many black men" in the original text his first instinct upon seeing "civilized" Africans is to kill them. The whole story just reinforces the idea that Black people need a white savior. The name Tarzan taps into a long history of the dehumanization of Black people and using that name?? Idk if you guys are gonna call me to woke but oh well I think it seems pretty racist to me with the history around it.
These situations are not comparable. Calling Cortis racist for a burglary skit only works if you already associate crime aesthetics with Black or Latino people.
No one is picking and choosing. You are just racist.
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I hope you enjoyed! I've been making these instead of actually writing chapters for my fic but ykw its fine im having fun. This is my first time genuinely posting anything on tumblr so I hope people enjoy it. Please feel free to req things bc im genuinely horrid at coming up with ideas for anything.