hi kaikai, i js came across an ask from your blog about ivy. i hope shes getting better now. im sorry if this disturbs you for talking about others on someone else's blog. ik your circle of writers here are so kind and vv supportive to others. i hope all of you girls are doing fine :( its saddening to know on what has happened to cosmiho bcs thats too harsh... and im quite scared being in this space nowadays. i do write, i have few fics posted on my blog too. so when i read about all these, i somehow have lost my will to write and even to continue my wips anymore bcs of all those comments. ik that i dont have to feel affected or stuff, but it is scary... maybe this isnt my turf bcs my heart feels kinda weak whenever im here :( how i wish to stay strong js like you and many others who came back from their hiatus. pls always take care of yourself and your circle too, you girls are too precious for this world <333
i hope so too honestly anon ππΏ i usually keep details about my relationships with my mutuals private however I haven't actually heard from her in a while, just a little check in here and there. I do know she's just a bit sick and having time to herself so I hope that if she is going through something rough, she recovers well, and if she's staying positive, I hope she enjoys all her time π₯Ήπ
it doesn't disturb me at all thank you for being mindful!!! honestly anon, from a writer to another writerβ you sometimes get desensitized to all the bullshit. I usually keep it super happy and fluffy around here and very rarely do I get serious, but the truth of a community like this is there will always be negativity lurking. it can be anonymous people, it can be people you rarely know, it can be people you trust. can be your own friends. not everyone will see eye to eye and there will be some stuff that gets you down.
I had a really rough time when I was on hiatus because of the sheer audacity of the hate I received. it wasn't high in quantity at all but just the extent at which people go to; to taint something you see as innocent and not at all corruptβ just why? it's just disarming, it steals your voice and rebrands as something you're not. I'm just grateful nobody bought that hate and stood by me when it happened because how dare you? lol
it's natural to feel scared and afraid, I honestly don't judge you. in moments like this, I heavily encourage you to recognize that anything can possibly be used against you π that alone is something that can get anyone paranoid π but there's always positivity amongst it all, that's why I began writing in the first place.
I know what I was getting myself into because I've been around Tumblr since I was a kid, and I know the measures I'll take if I genuinely become the target of something and have my back against a wall. I'm pretty strong headed and i know my boundaries. sometimes, that's enough for me to stand my ground.
the fear of being accidentally caught in the crossfire of hate is a genuine concern and I understand where you're coming from. I'd, however, still encourage you to write. writing is art, your urge to create won't just disappear because some aspects of the community isn't welcoming. people only have the balls to say what they're saying because they want the attention and it's painfully obvious, don't let their craving get to you.
you're smart for recognizing that you're sensitive to harsh criticism; "criticism" and sometimes that blurs with blatant hate. I get it honestly, and the harsh truth to that is you need to take breaks and draw lines where your boundaries are. only you know what's best for you, and what your motivations areβ and if the urge to create is overpowering you, then maybe you can adjust yourself and let your art breathe π₯Ή turn off anons, block those who cross your boundaries and I MEAN BLOCK. straight up to the face because that's all you have on an app where everyone is unpredictable and anyone can spread negativity towards you.
I hope you seriously consider how you feel about being on this platform, because one of the major driving forces of us writers is our audience. there are always going to be a few rotten ones and there's ways to avoid them if they cross your boundaries, but that's only if you genuinely value staying on this platform.
if you genuinely believe you don't want to be part of a potentially unpredictable community, I think it's smart to limit your access. some people realize they don't like where they are after they are in that place, and that's an okay thing too.
don't let other writers' decisions cloud your own, because they aren't you and you have different boundaries. someone may leave to protect their mental, others may just simply turn anonymous off until they feel correct. some people will just log off and some people will take a temporary break. you aren't expected to behave the way others do, so I'd encourage you to revaluate how you feel and draw your boundaries there.
I hope you keep writing and share your work, because from the way you phrased your ask, you sound like a lovely soul π thank you for wishing me and my friends love and I hope you stay if you can to share the happy moments with us and the rest of those on Tumblr π happy writing!!
