I'm Happy Anxious

Do me a favor okay? Stop trying to go back to who you were before. Before you were raped, before you got sick before an eating disorder took over your life. stop trying to be who you were five, ten, twenty years ago. Before the mental illness took over, before he died, back before your parents split or you lost your best friend.

Just a friendly reminder that the brain of those who have suffered trauma is physically different than a “normal brain”. Trauma and abuse has a severe, long-term psychological and neurological effect. This is why you have difficulty concentrating, why you have trouble sleeping, why you can’t seem to stay focused, why you cry at the drop of the hat, why you’re not satisfied with yourself, why you think everything is your fault, why you think you’re toxic, why you’re full of regret and you don’t know why.

She is a tornado, ripping apart everyone and everything in her path because she doesn’t know how to keep her life from spinning. Storm chasers seek her beauty, though in the end it always ends up lethal. She destroyed me, leaving my mind a disaster area, and I don’t know that my heart can ever forgive nor forget as I struggle to pick up the pieces of what I once was.

we were born to solve the problems that those before us built and we are called selfish when we ask for help - we are so scared of being like the ones who raised us we are so scared of messing this up we just want to do good we went to do well we want to stop fighting in the wars other men built

compact communism

cherub amulet

juggalo poltergeist… 

Destroy the “good kid” narrative. Mike Brown deserved to live even if he wasn’t going to college, if he was aggressive and loud rather than shy, if he had a criminal record. 

It’s easy to love someone when they’re happy. What’s hard is loving someone when they’re crying on the bathroom floor at 2am because everything came crashing down at once.