Trying to figure this out

I am still not good with coloring or shading . So to not feel too bad, I made a simpler drawing that i wouldn't mind losing to my lack of coloring experience.

I am frustrated with people. Not individuals per say, as it’s not targeted. For the most part. I just find establishing, maintaining , nurturing relationships to be so uneasy and inconsistent. I have a hard time managing my connection with people and when they are not behaving or acting like their standard selves , I can get lost.

It’s easier when people don’t fluctuate ( despite that being extremely hypocritical for me to say ). I tend to be catastrophizing minor social errors or social responsibilities. My mood severely fluctuates on my perception of the connections I have. It makes me unreasonably sad , anxious or even angry.

I am so poor at properly gauging and handling social interactions .If I am use to someone being sad , I adapt to them being sad and try to assist that. But if they are something else , I don’t know how to interact , like the map I build of the relationship becomes incorrect and I am unsure where to go from there.