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Reason of my abscence
I'm going to be honest. I've been heavily depressed since february, and spiraling down. I've already taken actions such as beginning medication and therapy, yet I'm still in the process of becoming better. I'm sorry and good luck with your studies.
Things I would have wanted to know before starting the IB
Lovelies! I'm back. Hi. For the ones that are new or simply don't know me, my name is Paula and I'm currently on the summer vacations before senior year. One year ago I was very excited about the IB, which made me numb and have fake expectations... so, here are some things I (me, only me) would had wanted to know.
It's all a matter of discipline and choosing things you enjoy: the IB is hard, it will always be hard BUT, it can be enjoyable if you actually pick classes that you like. Example, I chose Glopol because i'm a MUN kid and I FUCKING HATE IT. Even if i'm getting good grades, just entering the class is a struggle. Instead, Biology and Chem are my babes. They are soooo hard but I actually enjoy studying them and that makes me more disciplined.
CAS/TOK CAN BE AN EASY SEVEN IF YOU WORK FOR IT. And that's a fact. I've had 7 on the three trimesters of TOK and CAS just because I've put effort in my things. Then it's an easy boost for my average.
More than one science at a time is hard, but it is possible. I'm taking both Bio and Chem in HL and everyone told me I was going to die; but i'm still here so... it's just a matter of truly liking it and doing your work. Plus, biology is a matter of studying a lot and for ME, writing your notes a thousands time.
MEGA STUDY TIP, USE YOUR PARENTS. I've always struggled memorizing but since I started "teaching" my parents what i've learned, i've learned and memorized way faster. Thanks mom, thanks dad!
Don't go into Math AA if you don't like math. It's so obvious but I regret my pick everyday... please don't do AA for ego like me.
4 or below is normal, don't cry yourself for it. If you pick a hard course you're going to have a hard time in some topics. That's normal, so instead of punishing for it prepare for the next and be better <3
It's not much, I just wanted to reflect some more, so thank you guys for being that comfy space <3
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hey guys! so, things to do today 🌺
finish the historical context for that MUN guide
past papers in chemistry
revise math (quadratic functions)
Sharing my schedule for next week with you! I have to study this much because I have 6 exams when I come back (4 on chemistry...) so wish me luck!
Spring Break Study Plan
March 24th Watch the glopol documentaries Finish copying the Spanish analysis
March 25th Finish planning the English Paper 2 Continue the guide for my friend's MUN (introduction to topic, and historical context)
March 26th Continue the guide for my friend (the rest of things) Begin the engagement activity
March 27th Finish the MUN guide
I’m so mad that a t4 bacteriophage actually looks like that and that it’s appearance isn’t made up
this is how they look in all the models
this is how they actually look
like they really fucking look like that. in real life
viruses are literally such bullshit they have the nerve to look like this and they aren’t even ALIVE
I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THE SHITTY AND ARBITRARY DEFINITION OF LIFE THAT MAKES VIRUSES NOT ALIVE. FUCK YOU THEY ARE ALIVE
Things are heating up in the virus fandom
thats called a fever
and generally its pretty bad for all parties involved.
oh yeah someone has most likely mentioned this but btw the “actual image” is actually an illustration for a scientific animation by a company called XVIVO. electron microscope images aren’t that detailed unfortunately :( but YES if you look at electron microscope images they really REALLY are a bunch of icosahedrons w a neck and legs. the distinction between life and not-life is so weird, but I suppose the current definition is *fine* and viruses are kinda failcringe w this being alive thing. did you know there are viruses that hijack other, larger viruses’ replication cycles? one of the best things ive learned is that once you get past the rigid understandings of the world around you that were given to help you understand basic concepts, the world becomes infinitely weirder but better. nothing is really so simple auauauuauauauauau anyways i am sitting in bio class ignoring classwork and yet i cannot escape bio please help me
Remember
BIOLOGY 1A PAPER ON FRIDAY

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this week's schedule 🐚💨
wednesday 🥝
review for global politics
review for biology
upload my Spanish works for the folder ⭕️
finish English IO
thursday 🍓
review for biology
review English IO
friday 🥭
write tok essay
things on my mind
study organic chemistry
biology, viruses
presentation global politics
IO english
things on my mind
write a script for a video of my MUN (done)
write my TOK essay (done)
print my notes for the open notebook glopol exam
finish my imath (done)
assign delegates for the MUN (done)
Spanish presentation (done)
Monday february 19
so today im feeling so bad that im going to rant. I did a mock test for the national exam and i was the only one that never received the result. Today my chem teacher aka my father came and asked me if I'm okay, if my house if stable etc and i was like yeah why. And he told me that I FAILED THE EXAM. I was like wtf, and asked to see the results and i got 11% on bio and 33% on chem. Such results are absolutely incoherent because i have 7 in both classes which i take in HL.
I went and asked my bio teacher what the hell was going on and she told me that she didn't put the grade up (because these results are the 15% of final grades) because there was no way that I failed everything when I got a 7 in all my classes. So now, I had to write an email asking for a re-evaluation because if this is not a mistake, then i'm failing ALL MY CLASSES for this trimester.
I'm overwhelmed, I want to disappear and yet i can't. I just need this to be a mistake.
🎧 - not strong enough by boygenius
THINGS I NEED TO DO FOR THIS WEEK
monday -TOK essay -chem internal -study for bio
TUESDAY - chem internal - finish spanish l drive folder - meeting at 6.30 -study for bio
WEDNESDAY -prepare glopol exam
THURSDAY -prepare for MUN
Vladimir Nabokov, Letters to Véra
he's so me

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it pisses me how i will always be inferior to that guy in the eyes of my chem professor (I LITERALLY HAVE BETTER GRADES THAN HIM)
Sorry for breaking under the pressure of studies and crying. That wasn't very overachieving-model-student of me.