Whatever The Hell Me Want

me upon seeing my first in-person albino animal (this squirrel) in my neighbor's backyard this morning

This is because there are two parts to memories - their encoding and their recall. The encoding determines their availability, their recall determines their accessibility. The reason why trauma memory and childhood amnesia are different is in this distinction. Trauma memory is often encoded differently, bypassing to the limbic system where it is stored as intrinsic memory. It can’t be recalled because it was never encoded. Childhood amnesia, however, seems to indicate that the memories are encoded, but we lose access to them as we age. This is most likely due to the development of brain structures that fundamentally change our encoding and recall of memory as we get older.

Oh, but had the artisan who made me created me instead – a worthy woman... ...I would say "how lucky am I"

Father in heaven who did miracles for our ancestors with fire and water... ...Who would then transform me from a man to woman? Were I only to have merited this being so graced by goodness...

What shall I say? why cry or be bitter? If my father in heaven has decreed upon me and has maimed me with an immutable deformity then I do not wish to remove it. the sorrow of the impossible is a human pain that nothing will cure and for which no comfort can be found. So, I will bear and suffer until I die and wither in the ground. Since I have learned from our tradition that we bless both, the good and the bitter I will bless in a voice hushed and weak: blessed are you [HaShem] who has not made me a woman.

I'm not on TikTok anymore, but InFlowWithAlli has casual 1-3 minute movement moments and chats through them, it's nice. Reyna Cohan is on Tiktok and YouTube and has many short and long form videos, and I really love the one minute to feel less like shit videos on TikTok, not sure if they're on Shorts or anything.

And then this is really the guy of all time

Also, LOOK UP OLD WORK OUT VIDEOS ONLINE