I feel like there are all of these different pieces that each represent some factor of being a person. and it isn't a universal set, meaning that not everyone has to have the same pieces at all times, there are many different ways to be a person with many different pieces to chose from. however there does seem to be some kind of a threshold, a minimal size of the set of pieces below which you kinda lose it. it's not that you're worthless and not a human when you have fewer pieces than that, it's just that you don't really feel like a person anymore.

A flawless relationship would be with someone who never expects anything from me at all. Never cares about anything I do. Never wants to know more than I share. Never complains about me not spending enough time with them or always doing my own thing.

been driving days to nm. grandmas on a call. shes saying how excited she is to see us, my family telling me how excited they are to see me. something crucial about this familial bond thing isnt clicking for me... or is absent

"how can you be asexual lol"

i feel like society needs to redifine what "love" and "enjoy" and similar words mean to accomodate a broader more inclusive definition . to include those who feel little or none at all because if you ask anyone what love means or whatever its always something like "its a feeling of happiness and care you get for someone and from being around them"

avolition is probably my strongest, worst symptom. yes i have complete and total emotionlessness 24/7 but its actually kind of nice, it is suffocating but very comforting. but avolition literally just makes you come across as a lazy selfish person who doesnt contribute to the basic tasks of being a literal adult. its humiliating and i feel like no one would understand unless you have it. youre just lazy and inconsiderate to them.

I think one of the funniest abortion stances I've heard was from my parents neighbor. He's a like, hard-core libertarian viking larper guy who is very tall and very fat and very bald.

Y'know I'm so glad someone reminded me of this. Because this was also discussed.