✨Harry Potter Imagines✨

As always, the train ride went by pretty quickly since you and your friends had a lot to catch up on.  You were in the middle of a conversation about the upcoming exams at the end of the year when it happened. All of a sudden, the train stopped and the temperature sank rapidly. You could see your breath like a cloud in the air.

“Guys, what´s happening?”, you asked scared.

“I have no idea”, Anna answered, her voice shaking, “Can you see through the window?”

You looked through the glass that had started to freeze, making it hard to see anything. As you got closer, you were able to spot a dark silhouette moving past the window as if it was flying.

“I think somebody´s out there”, you whispered and got up to open the department door.

You stuck your head through the door to see if anyone else was seeing what you were seeing. You looked on your right where you somebody else doing the same. You tried to catch their eye as they were looking in your direction but it seemed as if they were somehow looking through you. Slowly you turned around to see what they were looking at and then you saw it: at the other end of the corridor stood something so terrifying, you knew immediately what it was.

“There are Dementors, just stay calm”, you whispered again as you closed the door behind you. Your friends looked at you with fear in their eyes.

“I think I know why they´re here”, Talia mumbled, “I bet they are looking for that Death Eater that escaped from Azkaban.”

You nodded in agreement. But a Death Eater on this train? That almost scared you more than the Dementors. You felt it coming closer to you, the sadness, the cold, the loss of hope. But just when you were so scared that you almost couldn´t stand up anymore, a bright light appeared in the corridor behind you.

 “I just want to know who did it!”, Anna sighed as you left the train. She, much like everybody else, hadn´t stopped talking about it. Understandably so, a dementor on the train isn´t something that happens every day.

“I guess you´re not the only one, no one I asked seems to know who performed that Patronus”, you stated, “but I would really like to know who is capable of that”.

You took a carriage up to the castle and looked around you. Faces of students everywhere looked worried, especially the younger ones.

“At least we´ll see that new teacher now, hopefully, that´ll distract us a bit”, Anna chuckled.

 You arrived in the Great Hall along with everybody and sat down at the end of the Hufflepuff table with your friends. It was so crowded that you couldn´t even see the teacher´s table.

“I just want to see him!”, Anna said impatiently. And then, as if her call had been heard, Dumbledore started his yearly speech.

First, he explained the reason for the dementors on the train and Talia was right, it was because of the escaped Death Eater, Sirius Black. Apparently, I was possible that he was at the castle or at least would be at some point. Everybody looked uneasy and you, too, felt uncomfortable hearing that a serial killer might be knocking on the door sometime soon. Then, Dumbledore went on and talked about everything he usually does but then, finally, he came to the topic you and your friends had been waiting for:

“Due to Professor Lockhart's accident last year, I am introducing the new teacher for Defence against the dark arts: everybody welcome Professor Lupin”, he announced as he took a step back from the podium and the new mysterious teacher began to stand up so that you could now see him.

Your mouth opened out of shock, you couldn´t believe it. The other girls around you exchanged suggestive glances but you didn´t even notice. It was him. The stranger from the train station. The hot guy you flirted with. The one you told you´d surely see again and you were right. It was him. Oh fuck.

Even though it wasn´t that warm, the sun was shining with all its power, blinding you as you crossed the street. You looked back once more to your mother, standing on the other side of the road and waving you goodbye. It was the first of June and you were about to enter the train station and catch the train that would shortly arrive at Platform 9 ¾. It was going to be your last year at Hogwarts and you were excited to see all your friends again and even though you wouldn´t admit it to them, you were excited for classes as well.

You leaned against the doors that belonged to King´s Cross train station to open them, carrying a suitcase in either hand. Making your way to the platform you raised your head to check if you could see anyone you knew, ignoring the people in front of you.

You thought you had spotted your friend Talia when suddenly, your fast pace was interrupted by someone. Not paying attention, you had run into somebody and, of course, dropped your suitcase. You quickly took a step back and they turned around: in front of you stood a man, older than you but still not old. His hair was brown in soft short curls and it looked messy, yet effortless. You immediately took notice of how handsome he was.

“I´m sorry, I didn´t really pay attention”, you quickly excused yourself as you went down on your knees to get your suitcase.

“Don´t worry, happens to all of us at some point”, the stranger chuckled as he, too, reached to grab it, “I got it”.

“Thanks”, you smiled and got up again.

“I´m Remus by the way”, the man said and gave you your belongings.

You were about to answer when you caught a glance at the clock hanging from the ceiling: you only had five minutes until the train was about to take off.

“Well then, Remus. I really need to catch my train but we´ll see each other another time, I´m sure”

Running towards your platform, you could hear him yelling after you: “You didn´t tell me your name”

“I´m sorry”, were your last words as you kept running and he was out of sight.

You smiled to yourself. You didn´t think you´d see this attractive stranger again and really, it was a shame but you had never felt so mysterious and it was fun.

 Finally, you had found the compartment your friends were in and you let yourself fall into the seat after greeting them.

“How come you´re so late, Y/N? We were almost worried you´d miss the train”, your friend Anna asked.

“Well, funny story actually, I was already running kind of late and then I bumped into this really hot guy at the station which distracted me a little of course”, you laughed.

“Speaking of hot guys”, Talia raised her voice, “I heard the new Defence Against the Dark Arts teacher is pretty hot too”, she smirked.

“Where did you hear that?”, you asked curiously.

“Some of the Ravenclaw girls were talking about it on the platform, I forgot the name they said but it started with ´L´ I think”

“I guess we´ll have to see”, you answered, “but it´s not like that´s going to matter anyway. I doubt a teacher will start something with a student”.

“I know but at least we´ll have something nice to look at”, Talia giggled.

Sirius and Y/n meet for their tutoring lesson which, well, doesn´t go too well

part 1

part 2

You looked at your watch as you leaned against the desk in the empty classroom. It was already dark outside and you could see the stars through the windows.

8:00 pm. Of course, he was late.

Right now, you found yourself in a situation you had never thought possible: Waiting for Sirius Black in an empty room. Even worse, he was making you wait for him and you did. How ironic.

You waited five more minutes while becoming progressively angrier. Who did he think he was? You couldn´t believe it. But just as you were about to get up and leave, the door opened and in he walked.

Sirius Black was standing in the doorway, his hair in messy, loose black curls and his white shirt was barely tugged in his trousers but he still looked so effortlessly handsome.

“You sure have some nerve to show up late. Believe it or not but I have better things to do than wait for you”, you said calmly while raising your chin

“No need to get mad, I´m here now”, he smirked.

You let out an annoyed sigh.

“Let´s get this over with”.

 You tried and tried but it just wouldn´t work out. With every failed attempt, your patience lessened and you become more frustrated. Sirius didn´t really know how to help either, he wasn´t a teacher after all.

“Forget it, I guess I just can´t perform a Patronus”, you gave up as you sank into a chair.

“Come on, just think about something that makes you happy. It´s not that hard”

“Wow, thanks for the advice, Black. I´m sure it´s not hard for you but not everybody has a perfect life”, you snapped.

Strangely to you, Sirius reacted differently than you had expected. He looked confused and maybe even a bit sad. Just for that small moment, his facade faded.

“Trust me, my life is far from perfect”, he laughed slightly but you knew it wasn´t a real laugh.

“Oh is it? All I know about you is that you come from a famous pureblood family, everybody seems to love you, not to mention all those girls constantly begging for your attention and that you walk around Hogwarts like you´re the king of this castle”, all that frustration made you insensible.

The black haired boy now looked even more confused than before but his eyes had lost the sparkle they usually had and the cocky smile in the corner of his mouth had disappeared. You knew you said something wrong.

“I think we´re done here. I don´t know what I can do to help you anymore”, he said quietly while still not looking you in the eye and walked out of the room.

 The next day you had avoided to even acknowledge Sirius. It wasn´t just sheer embarrassment, but it definitely was part of it. You were embarrassed that Sirius Black had walked out on you. He walked out on you like one of those girls that desperately try to flirt with him that he isn´t interested in. But on the other hand, you felt bad. You had seen the sadness in his eyes. You didn´t know what exactly hurt him if it even was your fault but, even though you hated to admit it, you felt empathy for him. That empathy wasn´t a very prominent feeling after all, because what you also felt was anger. He was supposed to help you and you still couldn´t perform a Patronus. Everything he did was watch you fail and you hated showing weakness, especially in front of him.

You didn´t really pay attention in class and just let your mind wander off. You couldn´t get the encounter from yesterday out of your head. Why did he behave like that? You were so lost in your thoughts that you didn´t even hear Slughorn call your name the first two times.

“Miss Y/L/N? Can you hear me?”

You jumped up in your seat as you realized he was talking to you.

“Yes, I´m sorry. What were you saying?”

“I asked”, he said loudly, “If you would be so kind so come to me after the lesson, and Mister Black as well”.

Oh great.

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Instinctively, you returned the kiss and closed your eyes. His hands now wandered off to your waist. Your mind completely blacked out, your senses went crazy and you let your body decide what it wanted to do next. Although your legs felt so weak that you wondered why you could still stand, you moved even closer to him, if that was even possible. You pushed your hips a little more forward, to which he responded by closing his arms around your middle and pulled you as close as you could get. What were you doing? You had no idea. It all happened so fast. Was that what you wanted? It felt good, heavenly to be exact but still, you weren´t sure.

Sirius and you pulled away at the same time when you heard steps coming from the hallway downstairs. Shocked, you looked at Sirius who was still just one feet away from you. He laid his finger on your lips, motioning you to be quiet. “Filch”, he whispered almost completely silently and then quickly grabbed your arm and pulled you to the wall next to the door. Now both of you were pressed against it and you tried to be as quiet as possible. The footsteps had stopped which led you to think that he had stopped to listen where voices came from. After what felt like an eternity you heard him talk again: “Let´s go, Misses Norris. It was probably just that Black boy with some girl again, nothing worth reporting to Dumbledore – Hey, you!”

Your heart had stopped beating out of fear but you realized that he wasn´t talking to you, there had to be somebody else in the corridor. “It is way past bed time, if you do not go to your room instantly, I will tell your house teacher and I am sure McGonnagall would not be too happy about this. Go, now!”, he yelled at the unknown student who you could then hear running away. Sirius and you waited a few minutes in total silence until you were sure that Filch had disappeared. In that time, you felt weirdly awkward and tried not to make eye contact with Sirius even though you could feel his gaze on you.

“I think the air is clear now”, he whispered and stepped away from the wall.

  The next morning, you were once again waken up by a mermaid at your window who wouldn´t stop tapping the glass until everyone was awake.

“Morning”, murmured Aviana and the others joined her.

You responded so quietly that it was almost inaudible to draw as little attention to you as possible. You knew that you were going to be interrogated like a high-class criminal if you drew even the tiniest bit of attention to yourself.

“oh my god, Y/N, I completely forgot about your date”, exclaimed Elona. Seems like your plan didn´t work out.

“It´s so early, let´s please not talk about this now”, you shrugged it off as you walked towards the bathroom. In the corner of your eyes you could see the worrisome glances they exchanged.

sidenote: the scenes in which the story is told are not narrated by Remus. also, this is my first attempt at writing something sad so please tell me what you think

Walking down the stairs at Grimmauld Place, his head full of questions and a picture in his left hand. Fortunately, he could see that the lights in the kitchen were still on and he saw exactly who he wanted to see sitting at the dinner table all by himself. Entering the kitchen, Harry raised his voice:

“Remus, can we talk?”

“Of course Harry, what´s the matter?”

Harry said down across the table from him and took a deep breath.

“I – I was in Sirius room and I found something. Do you know who this is?”

He placed the photograph on the table. He had found it between Sirius´ bed and the wall as if it had been hidden. It was very old, Sirius looked so young and happier and more alive than Harry had ever seen him. His beautiful face was formed to a laugh that Harry could almost hear when the picture moved. He had his arm wrapped about someone that Harry did not know. The Y/H/C girl was laughing as well, looking at Sirius with so much love in her eyes. But who was she? She had to be important to his godfather or he wouldn´t keep a photo of her and the way they looked together showed Harry that they had loved each other. Why did he never tell him about her?

He turned his eyes to Remus who had a sad smile on his face. “That, Harry, is Y/N Y/L/N”, Remus said and sighed. “She was the love of your godfather´s live and probably one of the bravest people I´ve ever.”

“Was? What happened to her?”

   “H-Hey, Y/N, can we talk?”, he walked up to her looking unusually nervous.

“Of course Pads, what´s the matter?”, she smiled at him.

“I was wondering if you would like to go to Hogsmeade with me this weekend”, he asked with a lot less confidence than he usually had.

“Of course, but I thought it was already clear that we would go. I already talked to James and Remus.”, she responded. Why was he being so weird? They had been friends for years and they went there with the other marauders many times.

“Yes I know, but..well” he sighed and it took all of his courage to finally say: “I was wondering if you would like to go with me alone.”

Oh, she realized. She looked into his eyes and saw that he tried to seem as confident as always but he wasn´t. She gave him a big smile: “Of course, I would love that Sirius”. On his face she could see how relieved he was.

“Are you sure?”

“Yes, I wouldn´t love anything more”

After he walked away and turned right at a corner, she could still hear him saying something along the lines of “Guys, she said yes!” and three very familiar male voices cheering.

 The sun had already left the sky for a few hours and the street lights were the only source of light. They were already past curfew but neither of the two cared. A light breeze hit her face as she heard their footsteps in the snow, walking next to him.

“Did you have fun?”, he asked her. Sirius wasn´t nervous anymore because he knew he could be himself around her.

“Are you kidding?”, she laughed “Today was amazing, Sirius”

“Good, because it would be awkward if only I thought that way”, he joked. But it was true, he had felt so free and safe with her

He looked over to her, the moonlight shining in her face and it looked like her Y/E/C eyes had captured some of it.

He stopped walking and she copied. “Why are we stopping”, she asked quietly.

“You have a lot of snowflakes in your hair, do you know that?”

“No”, she laughed “Do I look stupid?”

“Stupid? I think you look beautiful” he smiled and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.

The compliment made her blush and she hoped he wouldn´t see it in the darkness so she looked at her feet.

He couldn´t hesitate anymore. He placed his hand on her cheek and pulled her closer to him until their lips finally locked gently.

It was magical and she never wanted it to end. She wanted to be here forever, kissing Sirius in the darkness of a winter night as snowflakes slowly hit the ground.

 Pacing up and down in the hallway, she waited for him to finally come out of there. Originally, she wanted to be by his side during these moments, but she wasn´t allowed to.

“You´re a disgrace, do you know that? I don´t want to imagine how many people have already heard of your charades. Do you ever take into consideration what the others will think?”, she heard screaming from behind the door. She stood in the hallway for what felt like an eternity and heard angry voices every few moments. Finally, the door opened and a black-haired witch dressed in old, expensive looking gowns exited the room alongside a wizard who was dressed similarly. Both looked distressed and irritated and almost didn´t notice her standing close to the door until they passed her.

“And what are you doing here? “, you asked and looked up and down on her with a look on her face as if she was about to vomit.

“I´m here to see Sirius”, she answered blunt and she tried to stand as straight as possible.

“Oh, so you´re the mudblood he is currently seeing. Well, I have to inform you that it is better for both parties involved if scum like you stays as far away as possible from members of my family.”, she threatened her calmy.

Y/N took a step forward, closer to Walburga Black who was about her height, looked her directly in the eyes and said: “Look, I know that you are telling yourself you are better than other witches and wizards because your blood is ´pure´ but keep it to yourself next time because I don´t need to hear about it and I don´t care what you think about me. So step out of my way right now because I want go see Sirius. Unlike you or anyone in your family I actually care about him and his well-being.”

“Don´t you dare talk to me like that”, Mrs Black said enraged.

Y/N didn´t listen to her anymore and made her way past her as if she wasn´t even there. She still noticed how she was spat at.

 Sirius was leaning against a table in the front part of the room, looking at his feet making his hair fall in front of his face. “Hey”, she greeted him calmly with a soft voice.

He looked up to her with red eyes and a red mark on his cheek.

“Oh god, did she do that to you?”, Y/N asked even though she already knew the answer. She now quickened her pace to reach him faster. Once she was standing right in front of him she gently cupped his cheek with the red mark with her hand and looked into his eyes. He looked so sad and hopeless and she was the only one who ever saw him like that.

“Are you okay?”, she asked and tucked the hair that fell into his face behind his ear. Sirius couldn´t open his mouth because he knew he would break down if he did. He shook his head slightly and she pulled him close to her into a hug. He laid his head on her shoulder and wrapped his arms around her waist.

“Don´t worry, you´re going to be fine. I´m here for you”, she said with her head pressed against his chest as he started crying.

 It was a quiet night, almost ironic considering what was about to come. The lights in the flat where turned off and silent breathing could be heard. Everybody was asleep and they normally wouldn´t wake up for at least a few hours.

Suddenly, the sound of wood breaking cut the silence and was so loud that everyone had immediately been waken up.

“Good morning, I´m sorry to disturb”, a highly amused female voice sad “I´m looking for my dearest nephew” followed by hysterical laughter that gave him goosebumps.

Bellatrix

“Y/N, baby, I´m begging you; stay hidden in here, ok? I´ll handle the situation”

“No, Sirius, you can´t fight her alone”

“Please, you´re safe on here if you´re quiet. I love you”

“I love you, too”

He kissed her what would be the last time and ran through the door.

“Oh there you are, I almost didn´t find you but your spell wasn´t as good as you thought. Thought you´d be safe here didn´t you?”, she started laughing  again.

As he looked through the room, he saw his two best friends lying on the ground close to the doors of their bedrooms.

“Oh, them? Don´t worry they´re not dead yet, they just can´t move”, she said and placed her foot on James´ face to move it.

“Don´t you dare touch them!”, he yelled and casted a spell that she quickly rejected.

“Did you just attack me?”, she asked quietly but then raised her voice

“Did you just attack your own aunt?”

“CRUCIO”, she yelled and he instantly fell to the ground, screaming in pain.

That´s it, Y/N thought. She could no longer listen to this horrible women torture her boyfriend and her friends. She drew her wand and exited the room.

“Stupor!”, she screamed but Bellatrix protected herself from the spell.

“Well, well, well. Look who we have here, the mudblood my nephew calls his ´girlfriend´, ha! I didn´t think I´d be lucky enough to meet you tonight.”

She took a step closer and casted a curse that Y/N rejected as well.

She laughed like a maniac while casting a few more spells that were also unsuccessful, until she managed to let Y/N fly into a nearby wall, knocking her unconscious.

She turned to Sirius again and released him from his torture, then disarmed everyone in the room.

Sirius stood up, his legs shaking: “You will not hurt her!”, he yelled, angry at first but then his voice started sounding desperate “Please, take me instead.”

 “Oh, my sweet nephew, I was going to kill you bloodtraiting disgrace of a relative anyways. AVADA-“

“NO!”, Y/N screamed out in fear and jumped in front of Sirius as fast as she could. He tried stopping her but he couldn´t, it was too late. The love of his life fell to the ground like a doll and his aunt disapparated in a cloud of smoke.

He sank to his knees where she was lying. “Y/N? Y/N please answer me”, he cried out and shook her body even though he knew it was hopeless. He refused to believe it. She had just stood there, she couldn´t have died.

At the same time, James´ and Remus´ spells had lifted off and they ran over to him.

James´ held her hand that was still warm and Remus was standing above them in disbelieve.

“Y/N, baby, wake up”, he whispered but she didn´t answer.

“She- she can´t be”, Remus said with tears rolling down his cheeks.

But she was, and she would be forever.

  Harry looked at Remus who had tears in his eyes.

“Bellatrix killed her?”, Harry asked shocked, Remus just nodded.

“I´m sorry, I didn´t know she was so important to you, I shouldn´t have asked”

“No, Harry. It´s okay, you should know about Y/N. Talking about it isn´t easy, but that´s alright, she shouldn´t be forgotten.

(side note: I know this is kinda short but I´ll try to upload the third part today as well, hope you like it)

 That day in class, you couldn´t focus no matter how hard you tried. You were mad of course because your attempt at a Patronus was miserable and also because Sirius was the one who had to help you, out of all people, why did he have to be the one? On the other hand, you were nervous but you didn´t know why. You tried ignoring your feelings but it didn´t work. Later, you were sitting in the Great Hall with your friends for Lunch when an owl flew over to you from somewhere across the room.

“Woah, you didn´t tell me you had a secret admirer, Y/N”, your friend said.

“Trust me, I don´t”, you laughed.

The owl had a letter between her claws that she dropped next to your plate. The paper was rolled up and when you opened it you saw the neat black handwriting the letter was written in. You started to read what whoever send the owl wanted from you:

“You still haven´t told me when you have time.”, the letter started and you knew who it was from.

“Even though you don´t want to, we have to meet today. Don´t worry it´ll be quick, I can be a good teacher.

Sirius”.

You rolled your eyes when reading the last sentence. He really thinks he is so funny, doesn´t he?  But he was right, you did have to meet today. You took a feather out of your bag and wrote underneath his writing:

Fine. 8pm in the classroom.

That was enough. You didn´t want to write much and you didn´t want to ask him if that time was okay with him. You gave the letter back to the owl who then flew back to its owner.

“who was that?”, you were asked.

“Nobody, it´s about school”, you responded in a way that your friend could tell the subject was over now.

 It was 7:30 and you were pacing up and down in your room. Why the hell were you so nervous? In your head, you were going through everything you needed to know about patroni. Why was it that you had failed in class? To perform a Patronus, you had to think of your happiest memory and that wasn´t as easy as it seemed. You walked over to the mirror and looked yourself in the face and sighed. “You can do this”, you whispered to your reflection.

At the same time, Sirius Black was sitting on his bed nervously as well. “Excited for your date?”, James teased him.

“Shut up, it´s everything but a date”, Sirius murmured back at him.

“If you say so”, James laughed “But why are you doing this, I thought you two had some sort of unspoken rivalry”.

“I have to, for my mark. And trust me, I´m not too keen on doing this and neither is she”

“It kind of seems like you´re nervous, Pads. Any chance you like her?”

“No, Prongs, not a chance”.

Plot: you and Sirius Black wer never very fond of each other. The fact that you were a Slytherin was enough for him to not like you but you two were forced to spend time together when he was told to help you learn to perform the patronus charm.

 “I´m giving up”, you sighed.

“Don´t worry, I´m sure you´ll be able to do it if you relax more”, your friend comforted you.

Half an hour had passed since your teacher gave your class the task to perform a patronus after teaching ypu everything about it. Unfortunately, you soon had to realize that is was a lot harder than it sounded. Lily Evans was the first one to successfully cast one. She was a really kind girl and even though you wouldn´t call her a close friend, you had talked often. After just a few minutes, a silver figure that turned out to be a beautiful doe jumped out of her wand and made it´s way through the classroom. A few moments later, Sirius Black had success as well. The dark-haired boy despised you and everyone in your house and he made no secret of it. His problem with you though, was that in all of the classes you had together, you were better than him. At least in almost all of them, in Defence Against Dark Arts, you two were toe to toe. Even though you thought he was too cocky and childish, you had to admit that he was ridiculously attractive.

While your wand had only produced a silver shimmer that lasted about two seconds,  Sirius had mastered the spell that resulted into a big and majestic dog running around between the students. “Very good, Mr. Black. You and Miss Evans can go around the class and help the others if you want.”, your teacher told him. The compliment made him smile arrogantly and he glanced at you to see how you were doing. You tried to act like you didn´t notice him strutting towards you and focused on you patronus that hadn´t made any progress.

“Looks like you´re struggling, Y/L/N”, he said with a cocky grin on his face, “Need some help?”

“you wish, Black. Piss off, will you?”, you answeredwith your teeth closed, not even looking at him.

“Alright then, just tell me when you change your mind”, he said and wandered off.

The heat had gotten to your face. What a show-off. You wanted to punch him in the face for his remarks but you had to keep your cool, you couldn´t show that he bothered you. Your parents had tought you that the smarter one stays quiet.

“I thought you two didn´t like each other?”, your friend whispered to you “did that change?”

“God no, he was just showing off. I hate to admit it, but he knows how to make me angry.”

“if you say so, it just seemed like he was teasing you in a, you know, flirty way”

You scoffed. No way he was flirting with you.

 The class was almost over when your teacher raised his voice: “Thank you class, today was successful for most of you. You have made me very proud and I think I will let you leave a few minutes earlier today.”

You got up, packed your bag and were almost out of the door when you heard his voice again.

“Actually, Miss Y/L/N, would you mind staying here? Not for long. Oh, and you too Mr. Black”

Amazing, you thought ironically. Also, why on earth you and Sirius? You didn´t have anything in common that would be interesting for your teacher. Sirius seemed to be confused too, at least he looked like he was. The two of you slowly walked towards the teachers desk.

“Well, as you know, you two belong to my best students. Therefore, I was very surprised to see you, Miss Y/L/N, struggling with your patronus today. I know that is not very common for you and I don´t need to hear a reason for your distraction. Of course, this is not a problem  but I know that you are able to perform better.”

While your teacher was speaking, you could feel Sirius´ smile without looking at him. You kept your eyes on your teacher to not give him the satisfaction of eye contact.

“Thank you, but why did you ask me to come here? And him, too?”, you aksed.

“Not so fast, I was just going to tell you. I think it would be a good idea if Mr. Black gave you some tutoring, I would do it myself but I unfortunately don´t have the time.”

Did he really just say that?! Sirius Black giving you tutoring? Only over your dead body.

“Thank you Sir, but I don´t think that will be necessary”, you said as kind as possible, trying to hide your hatred towards the boy next to you.

“I´m afraid you don´t have a choice. You don´t want this escapade affect your grade, do you?”, he said to both of you smiling. “Great, I´ll see you two next lesson, then. You may leave now.”

You left the room as fast as possible to be in your next class on time, not realizing that Sirius was following you until he suddenly jumped in front of you.

“So when do you want to do it?”, he asked slightly annoyed. You saw the two girls passing you raising their eyebrows and giggling.

“You don´t really think I´ll let you be my tutor, do you?”, you asked.

“Listen”, he sighed, “I would rather spent my time doing something else, too but I also want to get a good mark and I´m sure you want to as well. So when do you have time?”

You knew he was right but you really didn´t want to talk to him right now, especially since you were already irritated from the past lesson.

The next day hadn´t been very special for Y/N, since it was a Saturday she spent the day with Lily in their room and on the castle grounds. The closer the night got though, the more nervous she got. Around 7pm Lily and Y/N headed to their dorm to get changed for the party when they met the marauders in the common room as they were already moving the furniture and placing all of the alcohol on a table. “Hey, we´ll see you two soon right?”, Peter asked while Sirius was glancing at her in a weird way. Normally he would smile at Y/N but this time she felt like he didn´t want their eyes to meet. Again, she started worrying. Had she done something wrong? Did he find something out and now he felt awkward? Luckily, Lily answered and the two girls went into their dorm.

After spending quite some time getting ready the two girls headed downstairs where the party was already fully in progress. The lights were dim and students from all houses where dancing an laughing. They reached the end of the staircase when suddenly James walked up to them. “Hey Lils, care to dance?”, he asked. Lily tried to act like she was annoyed by the curly haired boy but Y/N knew how much she liked him. She turned around as if to ask her for her okay. She smiled at Lily to say she could go but when she left her smile quickly faded.  Of course she wanted them to be happy but now she was alone. It was selfish, Y/N knew that. Her gaze followed them as they were dancing and having what looked like to be the time of their lives. Y/N sighed, it seemed like everyone was able to be happy except for her. Why did she have to fall for her best friend?

Before she could get too sad, Moony showed up besides her and invited her to come and sit down on the couches with him. When they arrived, Y/N saw Sirius and Peter sitting on the couch facing the one her and Remus were about to sit on. They both greeted her and the four of them started talking. Every few moments, she looked over to Sirius who had obviously consumed a few drinks. His hair was more messy than usual and his pupils were small but he seemed carefree and happy.

“Why don´t we play truth or dare?”, Peter interrupted.

“oh, great idea”, Sirius said loudly and sat up straight.

Just as you were about to start, Y/N saw someone walking up to them; it was Marlene McKinnon. She hated that girl, her whole attitude was negative and she obviously had a crush on Sirius, she didn´t make that a secret. “Truth or dare? That sound cool, I´ll join.”, she exclaimed and sat down next to Sirius. A little too close. As the game was going on, she moved even closer to him and started touching him subtly like laying her hand on this thing and putting her head on his shoulder when she laughed. Y/N was furious internally but she kept calm. That was at least until she started touching his hair and he put his arm around her. She felt her muscles getting tense and heat moving to her head. Luckily, it was her turn.

“Moony, truth or dare?”, she asked loudly. He looked slightly confused by her mischievous smile but calmly answered: “dare”.

“Great, I dare you to kiss me”.

The four people around her got silent and Remus had a baffled look on his face. Then, he got hesitatingly closer to her face and their lips locked for a few moments. It wasn´t special, their mouths stayed closed and there was no tongue but Sirius suddenly stood up angrily and quickly stormed away. Shit, she thought. Y/N followed him as he was leaving the common room through th eportrait hole.

“Sirius wait!”, she shouted which resulted in people turning to her but she didn´t care. “Wait please”.

Outside in the corridor, she finally got hold of his arm and grabbed it to stop him from walking. He turned around and his face looked angry.

“what´s wrong?” she asked in a caring way.

“What´s wrong?! Are you fucking serious?”, he shouted furiously.

He had never been mad at her, he had never screamed at her. The fact that she had caused his anger was overwhelming to her and out of nowhere she started crying. Hot tears were pouring down her face. It wasn´t just guilt, it was all the pain from hiding her feelings and from feeling so empty all the time. She never wanted to kiss Remus, she just wanted to make him jealous even though he didn´t feel the same way.

Once he closed the door of his dorm room the smile on his face faded and he dropped onto his bed. He was exhausted. Still, whenever he wasn´t alone he had to keep his facade. He was Sirius Black after all, people knew him as someone who was always down to party and constantly pranking everyone.  Except for his few close friends, nobody really knew him. He had told them about his family and they were always there for him but this was different. Nobody could know what he was going through right now, nobody.

Usually, when he had problems he could tell Y/N but not this time. He could never tell her. Why was he so stupid to let this happen? Having feelings for your best friend is more than off limits. Telling her would destroy everything they had and he wasn´t willing to risk that for some stupid feelings. How could he even be sure he loved her? He had never loved anyone before so maybe he was feeling something completely different that he just misinterpreted, right?

Lately, they had been more different. He was wondering if Y/N knew something was up, she was behaving a little bit weird. He had to do something in order for her to not notice anything. Everything he tried before didn´t seem to work but maybe the party tomorrow would be an opportunity. He fell asleep shortly after, dreaming about her. The last thing he saw before waking up were her gorgeous Y/E/C eyes staring directly into his.

disclaimer: i didn´t have much time to write this part, so it´s very short but i hope you´ll enjoy it anyways :)

It had now been two weeks since you told Remus about your feelings for Sirius. A part of you was relieved that you told someone, the other part though was scared even though you didn´t know what you were scared of. Scared that Moony would tell Sirius or somebody? No, you trusted him and he would never do that. Deep down, you had a feeling that you were scared because you had finally said it out loud. You loved Sirius. Luckily, Remus didn´t behave weirdly when you and Sirius were together, but something was still bothering you: his response.

When you had told him, he was quiet for about a minute which had made you so nervous. Then, all he had to say was “how long?”. When he told him, he just nodded and hugged you when he saw you starting to cry again. Maybe it was good that he didn´t say much, but maybe he didn´t because he knew how hopeless the situation was.

 You were sitting on a couch in the common room when you heard male voices coming from behind the portrait hole. You instantly knew who it was, you could recognize their voices from miles away. The marauders entered the common room laughing. Sirius saw you and walked over to your spot. Everything about him was perfect; the way his hair fell a little into his face, the way he moved so elegantly , especially the way he smiled at you when he sat down besides you.

“How´s my favourite person doing today?”, the blackhaired boy asked.

“Besides from homework, pretty good”, you lied smiling at him.

“You seem stressed, want to cuddle?”, he asked while moving closer to you and putting his arms around your waist to pull you into a hug.

This was all you wanted, forever but still, it hurt so much. It hurt because you knew that all of this was completely platonic and he would never feel the butterflies you felt right now. Remus quickly glanced at you with a look that conveyed both a grin and pity. How can his looks say so much more than words?

“What are you doing tomorrow? – no, you know what? I already know, you are coming to the party in the common room. That sounds cool, i´ll see you there.”, Sirius said. He always made plans for you without asking because he thought that meant you couldn´t say no. You loved that about him but he was right, you could never say no to him.

plot: Y/N is in love with her best friend Sirius but is too scared to admit it. (new small series, will have longer other parts)

Why did it have to be him?

That was the question she asked herself every day. Why him, him of all people?

Y/N and Sirius Black had been best friends from the moment they met. As a marauder, she was close with all of them but Sirius and her always had a special connection. That connection had unfortunately turned into more than just love between friends, at least for her. She could still remember the exact moment she knew she was in love with him; it was a breezy autumn night and the two friends were walking next to the great lake, talking about what had recently happened with his family. It wasn´t an unusual scenario, not at all.  She was always there for him and he told her everything but when they sat down tears started rolling off his cheeks. That was when she took his hand in hers to comfort him. Suddenly, she felt what she had never felt before; every muscle in her body tightened and it felt like everything was cold and hot at the same time. That was when she knew.

She didn´t want to love him, she just wanted to be his best friend as they had been before. Y/N did her best to stay as normal as possible but it was just so fucking hard. Why did he have to be so perfect? Every day, she became more and more devastated, but she tried to not let it show. It was obvious that he saw her as a friend, after all, he was known as the biggest playboy at Hogwarts. Only she knew though that all of that was just a facade to distract him from what was happening at home. Deep down, all he wanted was to be loved.

 Y/N was drifting away into her thoughts again instead of focussing on what her teacher had to say. Only now she realized that a small tear had built up in her eye. Looking around the classroom, she checked if anyone had seen her but the answer was no. Almost no at least.

“Hey, Y/N are you okay?”, Remus who sat beside you whispered.

“sure, why?”, you answered, trying to sound normal.

“I know that there is something going on with you lately, can we talk tonight?”, he asked to which you responded with a short “okay why not”.

 After sitting silently in the grass for a few minutes, your friend finally said something to break the silence:  “So what is up with you lately? I know you are not alright so don´t try to lie to me. You know you can tell me anything right?”

“yes, I know”, you sighed “I just don´t know if talking about it will make it worse”

“It won´t, it will help you, ok? Just spit it out and we´ll figure out something together”, he comforted you.

You chuckled because of his choice of words, very dramatic. Your eyelids slowly parted and your eyes examined everything you saw carefully as you didn´t know what to expect. You found yourself in a round room, or platform rather. In the middle, there was what looked like a model of the solar system placed half inside the floor. The room almost consisted of wall-arches that looked like ceiling-high windows, just without the glass. Through them, you were able to see the night sky and more stars then you had ever laid eyes on. Another soft summer breeze graced your face and lightly blew your hair out of your face and you took a step forward to look around you.

“Wow”, that was everything you were able to say. “Do you like it?”, you heard Sirius´ voice from behind you, coming closer. “Do I like it? Sirius this is... just beautiful”, you said dreamingly as you turned around to look at the boy you were talking to. You looked up to face him and he was a lot closer than you expected, only a few inches between the two of you. His stormy yet calm eyes gazed down at you and he placed his hand on your arm, sending ecstasy through every part of your body. You were now staring at his perfect shaped lips that were starting to move: “I want to show you something”.

He walked over to one of the telescopes which you were thankful for, one more moment filled with that much tension and you would have completely lost the ability to create a clear thought. He placed the telescope on his eye and seemed to look for something he quickly found: “Here it is”. He gently put one arm around your waist to pull you to the telescope, resulting in you stopping to breathe for a split second. Making sure it didn´t move, you looked through it and saw the night sky like you had never seen it before. The centre of your view was a star, brighter and bigger than all those around him.

“What is this? It´s breathtaking”

“This is the star I was named after. The star Sirius is part of the ´Great Dog´ constellation and the brightest star in the earth´s night sky”

“Yeah, I can definitely see that”

You were now not looking at the star anymore at all.

“You know, I´ve been really enjoying this night so far”, he took a step closer to you. “Me too, this is amazing”, you stuttered and looked away for a second, nervous about the silence. Sirius took another step towards you and there was now so little space between you that you could feel his body heat on your chest. “Don´t be so nervous, love”, he laughed “you look so beautiful in this light, do you know that?”, he whispered as his hand graced your cheek. Right then, everything around you stopped. Every thought you just had had left your mind. The world around you became almost blurry. Your heart was racing faster ever before and just as you were about to say something-