How to be Perfect

I tried to use my will power and the harsh voice of my inner critic to get me back on track. But my to do list couldn’t provide the motivation I needed to get out of my slump. 94. #beperfect #100daysproject #perfect100 #inktober

If felt like It took all my willpower just to get out of bed in the morning and eat chocolate ice cream for breakfast. I felt willful and spiteful towards my personal risk aversion department—even though they were just trying to help. ⠀ ⠀ 93. #beperfect #100daysproject #perfect100 #inktober ⠀ ⠀ #anxious #worrying #overwhelm #failingmiserably #failingatlife #failures #mistakesweremade #workhard #anxietysucks #anxietysucks #keepitreal #womenentrepreneurs #womenatwork #realtalk #perfectionist #perfectionism #perfectionistproblems #perfectionistproblems

I tried to use my will power and the whole staff from my personal risk aversion department to keep me on track.⠀ ⠀ "Do not eat that! ⠀ Do not eat that! ⠀ No no no!"⠀ ⠀ My inner voice would shout at me.⠀ ⠀ "I want to." I would say back. ⠀ ⠀ And I'd eat it.⠀ ⠀ I didn't understand why it was so hard. I had been so gung ho when I first started, but now I felt like all of my motivation was slipping away.⠀ ⠀ 92. #beperfect #100daysproject #perfect100 #inktober ⠀ ⠀ #motivation #motivationfail #failingmiserably #failingatlife #failures #mistakesweremade #workhard #dietfail #dietfailure #innercritic #anxietysucks #anxietysucks #keepitreal #perfectionistproblems #perfecionistproblems #perfectionism #perfectionists #perfectionist👌 #perfectionisamyth

There's no way I ever could have guessed that it would get even worse.⠀ ⠀ 90. #beperfect #100daysproject #perfect100 #inktober ⠀ ⠀ #anxious #worrying #overwhelm #failingmiserably #failingatlife #failures #mistakesweremade #workhard #fempreneur #fempreneurs #fempreneurship #girlboss #bossbabe #bosslady #anxietysucks #anxietysucks #keepitreal #womenentrepreneurs #womenatwork #realtalk #goaldigger #womenwhohustle ⠀ ⠀ #houseplantsofinstagram #houseplantsrock

I couldn't avoid mistakes, so I started pruning back my goals.⠀ ⠀ 88. #beperfect #100daysproject #perfect100 #inktober

I was exhausted.⠀ ⠀ I would be “good” and follow all my plans, schedules, and checklists for a week or two. Then I would get blue, make more lists, feel overwhelmed, and I would lose all my motivation. ⠀ ⠀ 86. #beperfect #100daysproject #perfect100 #inktober⠀ ⠀

My constant list making was not helping me finish tasks or accomplish my goals.⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ However there was a bigger more troublesome problem that kept popping up.⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ 85. #beperfect #100daysproject #perfect100 #inktober⠀⠀

⠀ But there was something that kept nagging at me—a yearning, a discomfort.⠀ ⠀ I couldn't figure out what it was.⠀ ⠀ Some days, life felt almost perfect. But other days, I felt—I'm not quite sure—empty, blue, disconnected?⠀ ⠀ Whenever I felt that, I would push away from it and turn to my calendar instead. I’d force myself to keep moving and to check the next thing off on my to do list.⠀ ⠀ If that discomfort continued, I pull out a fresh, clean sheet of paper, and I’d make a new list. ⠀ ⠀ More goals.⠀ ⠀ More “someday” ideas.⠀ ⠀ A list of future projects.⠀ ⠀ A list of possible vacation spots.⠀ ⠀ Friends I should call.⠀ ⠀ Thoughtful gifts I should send.⠀ ⠀ I had notebooks full of these lists.⠀ ⠀ 84. #beperfect #100daysproject #perfect100 #inktober⠀ ⠀ ⠀ #workhard #fempreneur #fempreneurs #fempreneurship #girlboss #bossbabe #bosslady #successfulwomen #keepitreal #bossmoves #levelup #entrepreneurlife #supportsmallbusiness #womenentrepreneurs #womenatwork #realtalk #goaldigger #womenwhohustle

#newyearsday #newyearsresolution #newyearsresolutions #goals #goalsetting #goaldigger 82. #100daysproject #perfect100

#newyearseve #newyearsresolution #newyearsresolution #goals #goalsetting #goalsetting #goaldigger #girlboss #bossbabe #bosslady #hardworker ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ 81. How to be Perfect. #perfect100 #100daysproject #beperfect #inktober ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ #coping #copingmechanism #perfectionist👌 #perfectionist #perfectionistproblems #peoplepleasingisexhausting #peoplepleasingproblems

#newyearseve #newyearsresolution #newyearsresolution #goals #goalsetting #goalsetting #goaldigger #girlboss #bossbabe #bosslady #hardworker ⠀ ⠀ 80. How to be Perfect. #perfect100 #100daysproject #beperfect #inktober ⠀ ⠀ #coping #copingmechanism #perfectionist👌 #perfectionist #perfectionistproblems #peoplepleasingisexhausting #peoplepleasingproblems

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I felt like I spent all my time planning, worrying, and rushing to check things off my to-do list.⠀ ⠀ I hardly had time or energy for anything else.⠀ ⠀ 78. How to be Perfect. #perfect100 #100daysproject #beperfect #inktober ⠀ ⠀ #coping #copingmechanism #perfectionist👌 #perfectionist #perfectionistproblems #peoplepleasingisexhausting #peoplepleasingproblems

I was juggling all of my roles pretty well.⠀ ⠀ I had designed my life and calendar to keep them all separate to minimize crossovers—my work self, my new friend self, my old friend self, my romantic self, my family self, my meeting strangers self.⠀ ⠀ I’d put on my situation appropriate suit of armor/personality before stepping out into the world.⠀ ⠀ 77. How to be Perfect. #perfect100 #100daysproject #beperfect #inktober ⠀ ⠀ #coping #copingmechanism #perfectionist👌 #perfectionist #perfectionistproblems #goalsetting #goals #mindthegap