Ayup

1) the 4th loki episode really just ripped my heart out

2) Im so happy about Ranboo being in the Uk and being woth Tommy and Tubbo and they went out (people are saying they were in Brighton but honestly idk) and Ranboo said it was the best day of his life and thats so sweet and i love it

3) for the amount of emotions im feeling right now im also feeling so incredibly numb to anything and everything. Part of me is sobbing because of Loki, part of me is screaming because the benchtrio and UK meetup, part of me is just nothing, part of me is anxious waiting for whatevers gonna happen next, and a large part of my brain feels so overwhelmed and emotional

like

is that normal?

when i start feeling like this i ignore it and watch Tommys streams but Im all caught up and i was watching wilburs from today and honestly i just feel like crying.

Something I've learned is your emotions are like a soda bottle. Everytime something happens (positive, negative, or other) its shaking the bottle and eventually you have to open it. Its going to explode.

Im not quite sure how to help with that, but i would say its better to let it explode then wait for it to explode itself. When you let it explode then the cleanups easier and better prepared for versus it exploding when you dont want it to, at an unexpected point, and it makes everything harder because the bottle never fully empties and when you wait for it explode by itself that can end up shaking the bottle more while you try to clean it up and it creates this loop of constant explosions and it really isnt good for you.

Having people to talk to is like slighty twisting the soda bottle cap to let some of the pressure out so it wont explode all at once.

Does this metaphor/rant thing make sense?

BENCH TRIO IS TOGETHERRRR!!!!!!

um...

im half alseep *awkward thumbs up*

yall find stuff i post about certain things but when it comes to posting a memory or a mental health pit stop-no one sees those.

its weird

I would like to go to my own type of people parry where everyones on their phone and doesnt look at me and go "what is she doing? thats guys weird" ya know?