arabella

but i just don't want to.

life is to miserable when I am alone

the thoughts

the feelings

the deafening echo of silence

in the long journey of healing it pierces my heart all the more

some days I can hold it in,

i can hide away

hide under warm blankets and oversized jumpers

embraced in warm showers and musky scents

but other days

when the sun is shining

and the sky is blue

and you can no longer hide in earthy warmth

that is when the feeling strikes

it is a striking feeling that of loneliness

it can break the strongest of spirits

it makes you wander if its worth it

because the more you heal the lonelier you are

the more you stand firm on your beliefs

but then you ask yourself

"is it me?

was I always the only one to blame?

is my aching soul a result of my mistakes?

am i taking it too far?

people around are not like me

they don't want to see that there is love out there

that the world does not revolve around them.

is it me?

am I exaggerating the trauma?

am i taking it too far with the boundaries?

am I too stuck up?

is it me?"

the answer is no.

but when pain runs liquid through my veins

that answer seems impossible

you're not wrong for feeling angry.

you're not wrong for feeling sad.

you're not wrong for feeling worried.

you're not wrong for feeling depressed.

bottling up your feelings may sound appealing, but that will only worsen it. write down your feelings and thoughts in a notebook, type it out in a notes app, talk about it to someone you trust, or talk to yourself about it. you don't have to bury your feelings deep inside.

Måns Zelmerlöw:

Me and the squad dancing to France 2022

Me and the squad dancing to Moldova 2023

Just a reminder that Poland (the country) doesn't want you to vote for Poland during Eurovision 2023.

The whole fuckery that happened can be summarized shortly as:

The "jury" way of voting in our country has been introduced three days before the competition.

The song chosen by the jury was not what people chose in popular vote (the difference was staggering and supposedly as high as 35k : 8k votes)

The mother of Blanka's supposed "boyfriend" was the head of the jury

Her dance choreographer was also on the jury

She won only by the jury vote as you can imagine

Her song was promoted left and right

We wanted the song disqualified but nobody listened to us

What we wanted to go through is here: