Thought I'd be happy but I'm barely breathing

It also has a lot of different kinds of stitches you can do that make different densities of fabric.

I was surprised that I’d never heard of it though. It’s older than knitting and crocheting and even though it’s been done all over the world it’s super relevant to Nordic culture and my grandmother and I are both into keeping in touch with our roots a bit so I’m surprised I’ve never heard of it.

It’s also a lot easier to freehand and adjust as you go than crochet or knitting and you mostly go by inches instead of rows and number of stitches so a large number of accessories like stitch markers or whatever isn’t really necessary.

He maketh me to lie down in green pastures; he leadeth me beside the still waters.

Let’s play the biggest game of kick the can on the internet.

I think I've been reading fanfiction for too many years considering I even noticed this. But. A few years ago (I started like? 2016ish? 2014ish? My nose is scrunching up at even the thought of that being a decade ago) smut 🍋 fics were focused on the g-spot when it comes to hetero penetrative sex. A nice spot, truly. And then I think 2023 ? Came around and there was a rather sudden shift from the g-spot, to cervix fucking. (Or cervix touching ?? Cervix thrusting? I shouldn't be writing this at 4am but here we are, vocabulary-less and kinda lost.) I'm assuming it's because kinks have changed and more are being explored especially with the rise of hentai and the ever vast porn sites. But I am still confused! Cervix is painful. Like ugh, ew, not-sexy painful. The kind of painful that makes you squeal, shut your legs, and possibly cry. And sure, it can be pleasurable if you're like super extremely aroused (allegedly) but generally? It hurts so bad. Even the gentle thrusts = pain. It can also cause intense cramping, nausea, bleeding, and even fainting!! It's very serious! The vagina is NOT never ending, it stops, there's a wall, and the cervix is a STOPPING POINT. Not a goal!!

So, the shift? Very concerning to me. From focusing on the pleasure spot to the pain-except-in-rare-circumstances spot? Umm?

It definitely points to the fact that most schools do not provide proper education for our anatomy and how our bodies work. But, the thing that concerns me is the underlying, screaming-so-loud-you-learn-to-live-with-it misogyny of society. In general.

I think I've been reading fanfiction for too many years considering I even noticed this. But. A few years ago (I started like? 2016ish? 2014ish? My nose is scrunching up at even the thought of that being a decade ago) smut 🍋 fics were focused on the g-spot when it comes to hetero penetrative sex. A nice spot, truly. And then I think 2023 ? Came around and there was a rather sudden shift from the g-spot, to cervix fucking. (Or cervix touching ?? Cervix thrusting? I shouldn't be writing this at 4am but here we are, vocabulary-less and kinda lost.) I'm assuming it's because kinks have changed and more are being explored especially with the rise of hentai and the ever vast porn sites. But I am still confused! Cervix is painful. Like ugh, ew, not-sexy painful. The kind of painful that makes you squeal, shut your legs, and possibly cry. And sure, it can be pleasurable if you're like super extremely aroused (allegedly) but generally? It hurts so bad. Even the gentle thrusts = pain. It can also cause intense cramping, nausea, bleeding, and even fainting!! It's very serious! The vagina is NOT never ending, it stops, there's a wall, and the cervix is a STOPPING POINT. Not a goal!!

So, the shift? Very concerning to me. From focusing on the pleasure spot to the pain-except-in-rare-circumstances spot? Umm?

It definitely points to the fact that most schools do not provide proper education for our anatomy and how our bodies work. But, the thing that concerns me is the underlying, screaming-so-loud-you-learn-to-live-with-it misogyny of society. In general.

Authors Note:

I saw Fantastic Four: First Steps yesterday and oh my god Johnny has me in a chokehold. I mean all of them do but I really needed to write for Johnny.

Dry humping

Over underwear play

kissing

orgasms

Summery:

You've been dating Johnny Storm for a few months now and haven't gone that far physically yet, you're too shy. But one day whilst kissing on the couch Johnny helps you be brave.

You and Johnny hadn’t been dating long. A couple of months and you still hadn’t done much together physically, which was your fault more than his. You were just so fucking shy. So shy to tell him what you want and so shy to take off any clothes, it had been a long while since you’d been intimate with anyone and even then you had only gone all the way once, with someone who you didn’t have strong feelings for. 

The human torch had stopped by the bakery you worked at to pick up some cookies and he kept coming back every week. You developed such a crush on him and he on you which was surprising considering he was known as such a womaniser, always going from one woman to the next. But you had captured his heart with your sweetness, lush curves and kind eyes. You kept him grounded and he helped you have more fun, it was a balance. Not to mention you were someone who was always cold and he was always available to be your personal heater.

You liked Johnny, a lot ... .maybe even loved him, so you felt terrible whenever you distracted him from doing anything more. Like now for instance. You had both been making out on the couch when he started to softly rub the skin just under your top. It felt so good having his hands on you. You truly wanted more….but you just couldn’t get past your shyness, it made you feel pathetic.

You start  to move out of his grasp, exhaling nervously. “Do you want some tea? I’m gonna make some tea I-mph!” Johnny holds your hips firmly and plants your butt back on the couch, making no other moves to touch you.

He smiles at you softly raising a blonde eyebrow.

“What?”

“Am I doing something wrong?” He asks.

Your heart twinged with guilt and your smile softens.

“No Johnny”

“I don’t have bad breath? Am I making you uncomfortable? You have to tell me or I don’t know” he was fairly patient but with some irritation present in his voice.

Blushing and looking away from him you answer.

“I’m shy okay” You blurt out feeling stupid. You were almost thirty and fucking shy.

When he says nothing you turn to look at him, finding him grinning at you.

“I make you nervous?” He says grinning.

“No, I said….I’m shy… look I haven’t done much. I only had sex once and I didn’t even like that guy and-mph!” Johnny kisses you to cut off your rambling. His warm hand cups your cheek gently, thumb stroking it softly with care.

“Hey. It’s okay, we don’t have to do anything you don’t want to…..but I gotta say….I really want to baby” his eyes darken as he looks at you intently and heat curls low in your belly and you know he sees the blush on your cheeks.

“Can you keep kissing me Johnny?” You whisper.

He nods before speaking again.

“Yes but will you sit on my lap baby? you always sit next to me” you feel bad for a moment, knowing he desires to be close with you. But you’re nervous about feeling him, excited but nervous. You haven’t felt or touched a man’s cock in years and you feel silly for feeling like you’ll make a mistake or……no you’re just overthinking.

You nod your head shyly and place a knee over the other side of his lap on the couch, your skirt rides up a little and your panty covered pussy sits pressed on his half hard erection. Johnny smiles but keeps his hands on your waist and makes no further movements. You lean in and press your lips against his once more. He opens his mouth and slides his tongue into your mouth softly, you moan as he deepens the kiss. He moves a hand up to cup the back of your neck and you sigh as his other hand strokes your thigh. He’s warmed his hands slightly, knowing you feel cold often. One of the many perks of dating the human torch. 

After a couple of minutes you feel it again, need swirling low between your legs, especially sitting on top of him like this, you can literally feel him throbbing only your underwear and his sweat pants separating you. You want release, this is normally the part where you end the make out session and go take care of yourself when you get home. But you want him. You keep kissing him, trying to keep your hips still, feeling turned on and frustrated. You let out breathy little whimpers that go straight to Johnny's cock and he pulls away from you.

“Baby?” He smiles.

“Johnny” you breath out, not meaning to sound so horny.

His nostrils flair at the sound and he grips your hips. He loves how excited you are. 

“Are you wet for me baby?” He asks. You whine softly, embarrassed but so excited, looking away from him. He grips your chin in between his thumb and fingers and forces your gaze on his. 

“Answer me” he says.

“Yes Johnny”

He groans at your answer and experimentally juts his hips up into yours and you gasp. You hide your face in his shoulder whimpering and he strokes your hair.

“Baby….can I move…like this?” He rolls his hips softly upwards again, holding your waist firmly down and you moan out. “Yes Johnny” you whisper, face red as a tomato but your pussy is soaked and you need to cum. You can’t remember the last time a man made you cum and you’ve wanted Johnny too for so long. You trust him.

“Tell me if you wanna stop, okay? Any time, and I won’t mind.” He strokes your back and kisses your hair. He feels you nod against his neck. He lets you hide your face from him, for now.

He plants his feet on the floor and holds your ass over your skirt pressing you down over his erection through his pants. He begins to thrust up into you and groans at the feeling. Even through all the clothes you feel warm and soft. He can’t wait until one day you let him touch you, lick you….fuck you. But he needs to help you get there.

You start letting out little sounds of pleasure and he speeds up his thrusts grunting each time the two of you meet. In his passion he turns your head and begins to kiss you again.

You moan into his mouth and he nibbles on your lower lip, smiling. “Yeah baby? Does that feel good?” He thrusts particularly hard and you cry out gripping his shoulders.

“Yes Johnny, it feels good” he’s proud of you for voicing your desire for him. 

“Look at me baby, come on be a brave girl and look at me when I make you feel good” you whine and sit up on his lap, moving your hands to his shoulder as he pistons his hips up into you. Your arousal is getting stronger, you pussy weeping. You’ve never come like this before but you think you might, you feel so fucking good. But it’s not enough, you need more, or different.

“Johnny I can’t I don’t-” You moan in frustration, it’s not enough.

“What do you need baby?” He says, voice desperate as he grinds his hips, desire to make you fall apart motivating his actions.

You say nothing apart from whimpering and pressing your hips down again but he holds your face in one hand and turns you toward him again.

“You wanna cum?” He asks, desire lacing his voice. Fuck you’d never heard him like this, he was always so sweet with you. He still was but you loved hearing him so desperate, so hungry for you. His blue eyes nearly taken over by the black of his pupils.

You nod still, moving your hips. He stops. You whine again.

He moves a stray piece of hair out of your face, smiling. You whimper in frustration.

“I know baby, but you need to be brave and tell me what you want…..or just, how can I make you come right now? You can share more with me another time but right now I need to see you cum please baby” you moan at his words and grind on his lap. You still aren’t ready to show yourself to him, but you’re so aroused and ready to release you don’t care as much about your embarrassment. 

“Can you….” You trail off not sure. He nods enthusiastically and humps up into you. You whimper his name and he holds you close.

“Tell me.” He whispers “I want you please you”

Shyly, you lift your skirt and his eyes widen, pupils filling them up as he sees your pink Lacey panties.

“Please Johnny…..touch me”

He swallows, breathing heavy. You’ve never let him touch your pussy, but he’s dreamt of it many times.

“How honey?” He wants to be sure it’s what you want, as much as he wants it, it means nothing if it’s not exactly how you want.

You take a breath.

“Touch me over my underwear…please make me cum Johnny I need you just….I can’t show you everything right now I’m sorry, I will I promise just-“ he kisses you passionately before pulling away with a pop.

“Don’t be sorry, I want to touch you, all of you, wherever you’re ready. Don’t apologise, we can do whatever you want. But just to be clear….- he trails off and you look into his eyes as they darken once more.

“As long as it’s over your underwear, I can make you cum, however I want?” You moan and hump his lap again. He groans.

“Yes! Yes please please Johnny- he moves out from under you, laying you on the soft couch and lifting your legs up, you squeal and cover your eyes but don’t protest. His fingers trail the soft skin of your thighs before lifting up your skirt all the way. Fuck. You’re fucking soaking right through your panties. Some of it even drips down your thighs and he can even see your pussy pulsing a bit, you must be so hot for him. Where should he start? Fingers first to get you used to the sensation.

He places two fingers on top of your mound and you whine loudly for him. Fuck this wouldn’t take long. He wonders how long it had been since someone had made you cum. 

He lays down in a comfortable position on his stomach and places one arm around one of your thighs, resting on your stomach, soothing you. His other hand begins firmly massaging your clit through your underwear. You smell so good and you feel good too, so soft and wet. You moan his name and let out little pants, wriggling your hips up into him. His other hand holds your stomach down firmly. He continues to feel and explore you like this, finding what helps you feel good, letting your movements and sounds guide him. More of your wetness seeps through the pink fabric and makes his mouth water.

He chuckles.

“Feel good baby?” 

“Johnny…..fuck please” you were moaning louder and he knew you were close. He had to see you cum.

“Can I lick you baby?” He said desperately.

You nodded from underneath the arm covering your eyes, not caring anymore.

“Please please!”  

He happily licks an experimental stripe up your cunt and you moan his name again.

You taste so good. He licks and licks, using his fingers to squish parts of you around and see what makes you louder. And then he zeros in on what would be your undoing, your clit. He uses both his hands to hold your legs apart and plants his face right on your pussy, using the tip of his tongue to lick back and forth over the nub as fast as he can. You start to moan louder and louder. 

“Yes baby please I…..fuck I….oh my god Johnny I”

Continuing to lick, he usea two fingers on his right hand to prod at your pulsating hole. You stiffened for a moment and he waits for your consent. “Yes Johnny please please!” He decided to mostly keep your word even though you were so far gone you might not care and he thrusts his fingers inside as much as your underwear would allow…which was a lot considering how wet it was. Your arousal coats the fabric allowing his two fingers to slide into your pussy, he begins to pump them in and out, pulling his mouth away just for a moment.

“Cum for me baby, soak my face please I need you baby I need it so bad you look so fucking hot please please please” the words came tumbling out of him he was in complete awe of you. His beautiful girlfriend was so close to orgasm, he has never given you one and you look and sound so gorgeous. He plants his mouth back on your clit and licks fast as he continues pumping his fingers in and out. He locks eyes with you seeing you looking down, body slack, cheeks and chest becoming red more and more. His cock feels like it will burst. He felt you cum before he heard you. It was quiet for a moment, you stare at him with wide eyes, eyebrows drawn in pleasure and mouth open wide, drool falling from the corner of your mouth. Then he feels your pussy flutter around his fingers and your arousal hits his tongue and you scream his name.

“Johnny! Oh fuck baby! Yes! Yes! Yes! Ahh!” 

His eyes roll to the back of his head as he humps the couch, moaning as he comes in his pants, the sight of you too much for him to take. He continues licking your clit and moving his fingers, drawing out your orgasm for you as long as he could, your moans becoming softer and softer before you move his hands away from the over stimulation.

He lays down, head resting on your stomach, feeling your breath return to normal before he joins you at the top of the couch.

“Baby, that was so hot you beautiful thing fuck” he breathed out kissing you.

“‘Mmm Johnny….was so good my god” you sighed, in complete bliss and he smiled holding you.

“You pussy tastes so good….”he said cheekily.

You blush pulling away but he holds you closer to him.

“No baby next time….I am going to fuck your pussy with my tongue, no underwear you understand?”

Your eyes widened and you were very glad you decided to be brave today.

Authors Note: