losing the idgaf war

so tired i need to get married to the love of my life and deactivate everywhere

cant stand time zones. i want to experience time together 

i want a mysterious source of income

i'm excited to live the rest of my life like it belongs to me

all i think about is love. why does this consume me

“I don’t want to be a burden” you’re more like a relief, a gift, a blessing actually

“i dont want to be a burden” dude i found the point of it all thanks to you. i realised the joy of existing is doing so with you bro

"i don't want to be a burden" you're worth carrying. i don't care if you'd be worth it to you; you're worth it to me. i smile every time i think of you. and buddy you're just gonna have to figure out how to cope w that <3

"I don't want to be a burden" I could lift you easily. I've been hitting the gym, I'm benching a new PB every week, my sets are so tight and you are like holding a small bag of grapes. Your sins have no weight in my arms.

"I don't want to be a burden" we have a whole community for us all to carry each other, if it's ever too heavy for me, our friends will carry us together

getting unzipped has to feel so good for the compressed file

im so so so so tired.. i can barely keep even just one eye open. I'm so comfy in my bed I'm all snug and cozy. I'm also girl

i like to think that my permanent eye bags and general worn-down look give me a certain cuteness

im like if you made a girl but forgot to give it any of the skills it needs to survive under capitalism

forced to say “it’s ok” instead of throwing a chair at them

Wearing warm clothes because it's cold out and then sweating under them is one of the most bullshit sensations to be subjected to

that comment about how you should not borrow grief from the future has saved me multiple times from spiraling into an inescapable state of anxiety. like every time i find myself thinking about how something in the future could go wrong i remember that comment and i think to myself: well i never know, it might get better. it might not even happen the way i think it will and if it does happen and it is sad and bad ill be sad about it then, when it happens. and it’s somehow soo freeing

i gotta romanticize this silly little life so i don’t romanticize killing my silly little self

it’s cause you always on that borrowing grief from the future