it's a birdcage

i legiterately always feel like that person on reddit who posted "is it weird if i go on a walk like is everyone gonna be freaked out". i feel like that every minute of every day

Since this has been posted $115 has been recieved. We have a social worker trying to help, but any meaningful aid is likely to come after the 1st, and we are supposed to be out by then. So we may be needing to cover the full deposit, and 1st months rent. And we still have surgical costs coming up shortly after.

We have recieved $215 since this was first posted. We are applying for housing, and still waiting to hear back from a social worker. I have a surgical consult is on the 21st. I will need to get some supplies for surgery, hygine stuff especially since I won't be able to shower for a while after but am prone to infection. I will also have to bring a large amount of food because hospitals struggle to feed me due to allergies and it'll be a 2 week hospital stay.

its actually so terrifying messaging someone directly that you normally interact with in posts and stuff. its like wow okay im barging into your home and making you speak to me. you can kill me btw

people who don't use or spend time on tumblr don't really understand how solid this place is for creatives and how we could be living in artist utopia if they fully undid the nsfw ban. the tag system? the dashboard? the silly anons who will send you the most insane sentences known to mankind? having your very old, shitty art make the rounds again because somebody finds value from it and wants to show their friends? no other place even comes close

can you imagine how good shows would be if writers thought of women as human beings

“but if i communicate it perfectly then they will understand me” WRONG 10,000 years of suffering

god it would be awesome if the human brain could just ignore an upsetting thing instead of constantly wandering back to it for no fucking reason

it's fine i don't even need to be part of social groups or friend groups anyway (giant hole appears in my chest spontaneously) ? what's that

No updates aside from the fact that my surgeon didn't wanna do the biopsy now that I have a PET scan scheduled. She said the PET scan will be more definitive than the biopsy, as biopsies are often negative with lymphoma anyways. This is all still urgent and progress has stopped.