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Lestat looks disgusted and pained every time. There is not one single moment where he seemed to be experiencing enjoyment from their dynamic. It’s his mother sexually assaulting him in exchange for affection knowing she’s spent his entire childhood depriving him of it.

Narrator Lestat spends a whole episode trying to convince the listener their dynamic is okay, to the point where it’s obvious he’s just trying to convince himself. Lestat asks Gabriella to please stop coming onto him, she tries her damndest to violate and manipulate him in practically every scene afterwards. Lestat saw a video of them together, of himself being assaulted by his mother, the first person in his life he ever loved and trusted, and went into a full on panic attack, yelling at Louis that “it’s normal” while he literally falls apart at it’s acknowledgment.

This was given to me by a marquis who was beheaded by a mob 10 years after he gave it to me. Oh. I love it.

Anyways. I think befriending people who are not like you but who are in close proximity to you is important for the bonsai kitten within you. You will learn to be less scared when you know the people around you better. Idk where this is coming from ur just the bonsai kitten person and I think youd like the mental image of me taking myself to someone's yard like a cat in a harness

yesssss I love this. i am literally JUST starting to be brave and venture into this again after several years of retreating to "never interact with strangers or try to join any communities, it isn't safe" brain following significant relational trauma from the last time I tried to venture out into a community space (dogs, lol) and its taken me years! to get to this point

i feel like sometimes ppl think that bc I say this is important I'm also saying it's easy. its not easy!!!! it's really hard!!!!! you can't control other people's behavior! you're inherently giving up some control by giving other ppl the power to potentially hurt you quite badly! it is not easy! but there's ways to do it casually where intimacy is built up over time based on repeated interactions. this is often antithetical to the way some of us have gotten into communities and relationships, where we jump right in with everything we have right away. that method has not served me super well tbh bc it means stuff is inherently volatile and also that I'm putting a lot of trust in people who I objectively do not know very well and don't have that built up Information of repeated low stakes interactions.

This is the only known photo of the first trans woman to have her gender legally recognized in Switzerland.

In 1914, Adine T. sent a letter to her local police to grant her a pass to dress as she pleased. She petitioned that "I be granted permission to live as a woman, to wear female clothing and to pursue female occupations, and to be considered a woman before the world in all and every respect, since my emotional feelings are totally feminine and I feel unspeakably unhappy in male clothing."

Her gender was so clear that even the conservative Swiss government had to recognize it. Obtaining permission to live as a woman "is a matter of life and death for me," Adine added.

like oh yeah you are gonna hear every single awful thought i've ever had about you in the most hurtful possible way. i AM going to tell you the ways that i prefer lestat to you since you were just claiming to have had no role in my death. i'm gonna let that fucker know the ways that i hate him too but this is clearly YOUR operation. you are the one making this so much about you and your pity party that you'd steal a moment of my time from the grave without giving a thought to what i might want. yeah, dad, fuCK YOU! fuuuuccckkk yoouuu!!!!!