groove’s dusty main

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imagine, if you will, innocent, overly-trusting me listening to the mario galaxy ost and getting to the honeyhive galaxy theme, and thinking “wow! this song would go great with a pokemon walking gif!”

a brilliant idea! i immediately search up the song, and oh, how naive i was.

the third result is very official-looking!! a perfect candidate for a quick youtube rip–it’s just a meme, it won’t hurt anybody.

the first few second autoplay, and it seems legit! i quickly copy the url and download the file, then make the post

at this point, i haven’t seen the gif along with the song i’d intended to put with it, so i have a listen!!

and with your help it can rack up 700k notes on tumblr in 2024

like I've had chronic insomnia for most of my life. I cannot sleep at night without drugging myself. is this great? no, it sucks. but this was the case before I got access to the drugs, too! and yes I tried everything anyone recommended about sleep, trust me.

people warned me like, "if you take those, you won't be able to sleep without them." ...I literally already could not sleep. I couldn't sleep without them before I had them. I can't sleep without them now. nothing has changed except now I have access to drugs that allow me to sleep.

"You know how schizophrenics have a much lower life expectancy than the general population?" she said. We do. For a combination of various reasons that I won't get into here - that's not what this post is about - people diagnosed with schizophrenia die earlier than people without schizophrenia, statistically speaking. Apparently my mom knows this too. And she has read up on it. Why do we die. What can be done.

Most of the contributing factors are not something my mom has any shot at affecting or controlling. But one of them stood out to her. Not a major one admittedly, but still it was mentioned. A lot of us don't eat enough or don't eat varied enough. We generally don't get enough fruits and vegetables, because when you're severely mentally ill and also likely to be poor, that's just not a realistic priority for a lot of people.

give them a variety of exes. give them relationships that shaped who they are but did not last. give them people they tried very hard to love but it didn't work out. give them situationships that taught them things. give them something deep that was real but could not endure. things that hurt. things that ended amicably. people with whom hot passion cooled to warm affection and became undying friendship.