one day i will write my pidw ning yingying meta, and then you'll all see,,,, i have. so many thoughts about her, but I've yet to come across any fic or meta that really characterized her the way i see her,,, important topics will be her relationships with shen jiu and luo binghe, how she really comes to feel about both throughout the story, and the facade of naivety she puts up, which is not a lie per say but still a mask she feels forced to wear, a willful blindness that makes her repress everything she does in fact notice. it would also feature qiu haitang because i'm always thinking about them interacting,,, their parallels make me sick, and yet qht is only aware in svsss of what nyy only parallels in pidw,,, so they can never actually see it,,, i think nyy would be the only one to glimpse the truth of qht's story, but would she say anything about it? even acknowledge it to herself? probably not! ughhhh
