You know what?
I am annoying sometimes.
And that’s okay. It’s not the death sentence I was led to believe. People will love me even if I can’t read their signals sometimes. Not understanding is forgivable. I don’t have to hold myself back so I don’t annoy anyone ever.
The people who love me know I get excited. And I am still loved.
I have spent so much of my life trying to be quieter, trying to be stiller, trying to not be so odd, trying not to laugh so loud or be so twitchy, to not get so excited. To be more normal. So much of what any doctor cares about with ADHD is the way we annoy other people, and how to get us to stop.
But I’ve come to find, in my old age, that although not everyone can like me, and for some people, I will always talk too much, or laugh too loud, or my joyful bounciness will be too bouncy, there are plenty of people who WILL like me. Who think I am funny and like that I am full of energy and love that my laugh fills a room. Who like me BECAUSE I am filled with excitement and show it in my whole body. Who don’t want me to be different. Who don’t need me to stop.
Everything I was led to believe in school as a child was wrong. I wasn’t doomed to be friendless because I’m a little weirdo. I have friends now who love my spontaneity and who like when I decide to tap-dance like a penguin in the kitchen, just for something to do. People who love when I make up little songs or bark out a laugh or that I am cheerful with strangers.
It’s okay to be a little annoying sometimes. You just have to find the right people to be annoying with.
That response though 💕💕
