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♥️ ℕ𝕖𝕨 ℍ𝕠𝕝𝕠𝕘𝕣𝕒𝕞 ▲ he/she/they Hi, I'm 𝓝𝓮𝔀 ! 🎀 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ Sparkly ultra-terrestrial entity at your service Welcome to my personal blog. 📷Face Model: Petra Forgewoman - Horizon Zero Dawn 🎀kawaii 🤖robot 🦋fairy ⭐️model 🌸creator 🎮gamer 🏳️‍⚧️queer 🥄spoonie ENG/日本語 ♿Disability/chronic illness awareness 🎬vlogs/gaming 🔮 tarot ✨J-pop translations 🔅My goal is to create a platform for awareness, visibility, and acceptance for topics like chronic illness, disability, neurodivergence, mental illness, childhood trauma, C-PTSD, LGBTQIA+ pride. I also do vlogs, Let's Plays, J-Pop translations, and more. 💗 Check my pinned post to find links as well as ways to support. Thank you to my Patrons and donators for every day off I'm able to take to rest and keep working on content. 🙏🏻

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Hi, new followers from the Horizon Zero Dawn fandom! 🙏🏻✨ I appreciate your love. GoFundMe: Help New get relief from chronic pain & illness Ko-Fi: Make a micro-donation (name in YouTube endscreen!) Patreon: Monthly support and access to Hologram Discord server (name in YouTube endscreen!) YouTube: Chronic illness videos, Let's Plays, edits, and more Floor Desk FAQ: Master post of floor desk stuff chronic illness guidance sideblog Instagram Fancam Instagram Bluesky My J-Pop translations T skincare recs

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Oh, a 𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕤𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕤 𝕆𝕟𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕤𝕒𝕟𝕕 embraces 𝒲𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝒸𝓇𝒶𝒹𝓁𝑒 𝓎𝑜𝓊 Making all of your 𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘺 𝘥𝘢𝘺𝘴 seem 𝔣𝔞𝔯 𝔞𝔴𝔞𝔶 They'll 𝒽𝑜𝓁𝒹 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇

#final fantasy x2 #ffx2 #1000 words #lenne #final fantasy #my gifs

She’s baaaaack🍎🔔

#seruka #recent snaps #satan in a jingly bell necklace

'Cause a 𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕤𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕤 𝘊𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘶𝘵 through 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔞𝔤𝔢𝔰 They'll 𝒻𝓁𝓎 𝓉𝑜 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝘌𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘴𝘦𝘦 I know they're 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶, suspended on 𝓈𝒾𝓁𝓋𝑒𝓇 𝓌𝒾𝓃𝑔𝓈

#1000 words #ffx2 #final fantasy x2 #lenne #final fantasy #my gifs

𝕊𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 might have been the 𝕒𝕟𝕤𝕨𝕖𝕣 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘧 𝘐 𝘤𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘺 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘦𝘨𝘨𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘦𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 But now ℑ'𝔪 𝔫𝔬𝔱 𝔞𝔣𝔯𝔞𝔦𝔡 to say 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉'𝓈 𝒾𝓃 𝓂𝓎 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓉

#ffx2 #final fantasy x2 #1000 words #yuna #final fantasy #my gifs #rikku #paine

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Happy 2 year adoption anniversary, Cooper! Thank you for being my orange baby. 🐱🧡

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Disability rights version.

#the sims 4 #chronic illness #ableism #disability rights #disability pride month

Being disabled sometimes puts you in a weird spot because people will use your strength and resilience AGAINST you.

#ableism #disability #chronic illness #invisible disability #spoonie #teku

"𝙎𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙩𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 '𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙄'𝙡𝙡 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠" I could hear that you 𝓌𝒽𝒾𝓈𝓅𝑒𝓇𝑒𝒹 as you 𝚠𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚎𝚍 through that 𝐝𝐨𝐨𝐫 𝐵𝓊𝓉 𝓈𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁, 𝐼 𝓈𝓌𝑜𝓇𝑒 To 𝚑𝚒𝚍𝚎 the 𝕡𝕒𝕚𝕟, 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘨𝘦𝘴

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Keep fighting, babes.

#bully #canis canem edit #my last two braincells #new’s memes

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I acted so ｄｉｓｔａｎｔ then Didn't say 𝕘𝕠𝕠𝕕𝕓𝕪𝕖 before 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵 But I was 𝓁𝒾𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓃𝒾𝓃𝑔 You'll fight your 𝔟𝔞𝔱𝔱𝔩𝔢𝔰 𝘧𝘢𝘳 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘦 𝘍𝘢𝘳 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘭𝘺

#final fantasy x2 #ffx2 #yuna #1000 words #final fantasy #my gifs

I know that you're 𝚑𝚒𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 Using 𝑔𝑒𝓃𝓉𝓁𝑒 𝓌𝑜𝓇𝒹𝓈 to 𝕤𝕙𝕖𝕝𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕞𝕖 𝒴𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓌𝑜𝓇𝒹𝓈 were like a 𝒹𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓂 But 𝒹𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓂𝓈 could never 𝕗𝕠𝕠𝕝 𝕞𝕖 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘭𝘺

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My plumbob is always red, bro.

#the sims #sims 4 #chronic illness #spoonie #ableism

PTSD has regressed so much that I'm fully dependent on beta blockers and sedatives. Therapist is worried and increased sessions after my psych hold in the ER. I've worked so hard. Survived so much. But my sense of self has been nuked. I feel like Lightning Returns level lobotomized. Is my faith stronger than Bhunivelze's agonies? Time will tell. Khonshu questions: Who am I? When did I arrive in this body? Whose memories are these? What does this life want from me? Or am I being kept alive so that the entities never go hungry? PTSD is an unending monster factory.

It’s okay to put a LOT into your trauma work but please remember the breaks, the being, the video game binges are also an important part of that process. You can stop doing and just chill the fuck out sometimes. ASMR, red light, body butter. Whatever senses need tending.

okay but what do i do when the trauma manifests as not being able to enjoy literally anything :))))))) im not even super sad or anything i just feel. Nothing . towards everything

I am in one of those periods rn and tbh, I just kind of give myself permission to rot and prioritize essential survival stuff BUT IT IS SO FUCKING BORING. It is agony for me. At least sadness or anger would be actionable, but not feeling anything is just a weird kind of numb static torture.

I have lost my sense of joy in the past 8 months and can barely create my art anymore so I feel like Idk who I even am. Who tf is this blob of consciousness

Please be gentle with yourself. Take care of your body first. I try to force myself to watch my fav music videos or video game cutscenes even if I don’t really feel anything. It’s the familiarity of it that gives me something to anchor to, if that makes sense.

I hope it eases up for you soon. I’m sorry you’re going through it. May the spoons be with you.

#ptsd #trauma work #trauma recovery #dissociation #cptsd

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Some of my music video work over the years. Work - Iggy Azalea This Is How We Do - Katy Perry No Matter Where you are (Official Book of Life video) - Us the Duo 27 - Passenger Invisible - Hunter Hayes Esa No Soy Yo - Chiquis Rivera Two Minds - Nero Kiss All the Bullies Goodbye - Sir Ivan

Wow, 10 years ago I was so active! You can’t tell by looking at me, but I was very very ill, in the ER often for flare ups, and also having multiple suicidal episodes a year. I was working multiple jobs, running my blog and YouTube, studying Japanese, and often throwing up in secret at work. I am very good at hiding how I feel like I’m about to drop dead at any moment. ✨acting✨

I’m going through something super traumatic right now that has regressed me back to being on such thin ice with my health that I just. Don’t really know if I’m gonna make it to my next birthday. I’m trying but it isn’t realistic to make promises, statistically speaking.

I’m the same age as Marilyn Monroe was when she died. Struggling with PTSD, chronic illness, corporate ableism, surviving ongoing harm. I’m glad I at least tried to make my dreams come true even if I’ve been so sick that I had to eventually stop auditioning all together.

I’m glad I can leave something even small like this behind if I don’t make it.

#hollywood #disabled in hollywood #ableism #ptsd #abuse survivor #chronically ill #spoonie #corporate ableism #discrimination #tw suicide mention #trauma survivor #disabled model #disabled actor

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