Maddy

This weeks program! Here’s to having fun with some long runs!

Yesterday I doubled up! I played both ones and twos, and I’m hoping that I can keep this up! To make sure this happens, and that I’m ready for my half-marathon in August, I’m going to commit to all of my running sessions this week! I haven’t been to the gym since I’ve gotten home from the UK, but I’m going to try and get in there at least once this week- I’ve never loved the gym so this will be hard enough for me…

Really working hard at doing my diary and crossing things off of my to-do list, and so for this next month I’m really going to put myself first and not be too sidetracked by other things- within reason ;) haha

The rest of the week I will 100% be doing, I’ll be down on the farm Friday-Sunday with the family so much easier to get that done as they’ll bully me into it.

Gotta look forward to next year and work my butt off in the three weeks to go before the regular season starts!

Okay so here’s this weeks program. Monday is 100% unrealistic and I basically don’t plan on doing the run... But thought I’d put it in in case I was feeling super sadistic tomorrow hah. I’ve had a really bad week with training, it’s not been good and I haven’t been able to contain my emotions. It also doesn’t help that I took the last couple of weeks super easy and so feel super fat and have lost some fitness. But hopefully I’ll be able to turn that around. Only two weeks till I head home for my season at home, and I have to be fighting fit if I’m going to get good minutes each week.

Here's this weeks terribly written sessions! The internet here doesn't work so had to do it on my phone instead of my laptop... My goals this week, following some awful down times in my depression, are to just make it to the gym everyday and do my best. No more pity parties and sleeping all day, I at least have to make it out of the house and up to the gym!

Okay so this week is a pretty big week on the ol legs! I’m going to do my best to get it all done, but if there’s something to cut (which I’ll decide on based on where my legs are at each day) it’ll be from the running on Thursday and likely a modified version of everything on Friday... I felt super fit in my game on Saturday, so here’s hoping this week will keep pushing me towards a 7km game!

Let’s home the rest of the week goes to plan!

Fingers crossed I complete the rest of the weeks sessions!

So it's been a very long time since I was last on here, but so much has changed in the last year that I need an outlet.. Basically I've had the best hockey season of my life, but the worst emotional year of my life. I got screwed around by way too many people, and long story short I'm not on antidepressants.. The main reason I'm posting today is because I almost feel like I'm losing my mind... Whenever I'm asleep or waking from a sleep I basically hallucinate.. it's not dreaming because my meds don't let you drop into REM properly, so I know it's not real.. But the problem is it's so real I genuinely have to check the next morning if what I saw happened or not.. The most reoccurring thing is I've gotten a message from someone and checked it and responded and then when I bring it up with them they're completely confused- like I'm 100% convinced these messages exist until I go through them... Help!!!