do not perceive me

i hate how often my personal posts get reblogged with #harry du bois. that is so scary

.oughouhhughuouhuoghhh forgotten how to draw again.

media trope that makes me want to throw up and cry is when a character realises there's no way they're making it out of a situation in one piece. and in a single moment they accept it and turn to their distraught loved ones with The Smile. you know The Smile. sickening

“never kill yourself” is such a funny phrase to me that i think it’s accidently started working. its like an affrimation. say ‘never kill yourself’ enough times as a joke and maybe you won’t try to kill yourself over minor inconviences anymore

stoicism won’t save you. pick up a hobby where you make something with your hands

"what a relief, to care for someone again" what if i lit this house on fire

“No one is coming to save you.” I disagree ! I believe many people made up of many small moments come to save pieces of you , even if just briefly. The mentor who believed in you . The friend who said they’re proud of you. The family member that makes you laugh . The random person who held the door for you out of nothing but kindness. The teacher who took extra time to help you understand. The person who smiled at you when you walked into a store. The little kid who looks up to you. The person who randomly complimented you. Being “saved” isn’t about being whisked away and all your hardships gone, it’s about the people and things that remind you life is not all hardships, it is kindness, love, gentleness, softness, care, thoughtfulness. It is many moments made up of your lifetime that keeps you going and showing you the world is still beautiful, and will always be. Despite.

why did i do all that

ohhh it was inevitable. right

Personal space? Nope - never heard of it.

I want to [remembers that suicide jokes only further damage my mental health] fuck you like an animal

Nothing says good mental health like Nine Inch Nails 1994 album The Downward Spiral!