GOLDEN.

Chronic Illness is not always visible

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I want to be average. No, hear me out. Don’t tell me average is overrated. Don’t tell me normality is a paved road, but no flowers grow there. Healthy people take normality for granted. When I say I want to be average, I’m saying I wish I were healthy. I’m telling you that my ups and downs don’t make my life exciting. Not knowing what tomorrow will bring isn’t a goddamn adventure where things never get boring. Being chronically ill is bullshit. Aspirations and goals from when I was a kid, thrown out the window. There are things I will probably NEVER be able to experience because my own body fails me all the time, and you know what? Bad days feel like a straight jacket, being trapped in a body that’s defective while I lose weeks of my life to this illness. I’ve grown to hate inspirational quotes because they feel like a slap in the face. What doesn’t kill me leaves me unable to function for days on end. Trying my hardest is still nowhere near keeping up with everyone around me. So don’t tell me that I wouldn’t be who I am today without my suffering, or that going through challenges is supposed to give me a greater appreciation for the small things in life. Don’t tell me to be happy with the body I have because someone else has it worse. And most of all, don’t you dare say that having an average life is overrated. You don’t know what I’d give.

Anyone that uses it (migraines, seizures, bipolar disorder, etc) and experienced major hair loss, how did you deal with it? Any vitamins or treatments you tried that worked???

You all are going to do the best you can and that’s enough! Now go out there and kick those finals’ butts!

When you meet someone with the same chronic illness and they had almost the same experience. Looking at the person: Me: we connect in a spiritual level