the alt for the weird stuff

Hello! I'm Ghost & I'm finally carving out a space to interact with my fellow kinky weirdos on here. 18+ only !

I am a bi trans man (on T for 7+ years, post top surgery) primarily interested in other trans people, but others are welcome if they behave. I use he/him exclusively when I'm a person, but use he/it when I'm some sort of creature.

I've been exploring the kink community both irl and online for a couple years now. I play and post on the full spectrum of kink from completely nonsexual to totally explicit; I have a few different headspaces and roles I play, but they all center around not being a human being (and often using gear to obtain that). I switch a bit, but I'm primarily a sub top. My headspaces include:

The pony - dutiful, obedient, graceful. Likes being admired, adored, and working hard to please its handler. My perspective on ponyplay can be read here

The monster - blasphemous creepy creature. Likes doling out sensation, causing fear, corrupting its victims, and receiving worship.

The mutt - werewolfy dog thing. Doesn't like to admit it's a dog - prefers being degraded into one, embarrassed, and talked about like it's below the humans in the room. May brat so you’ll do worse. My perspective on pup play can be read here.

In any headspace I am a big fan of sensation play, bondage, roleplay, gear, and generally being seen as inhuman (in a good way or bad).

Asks and DMs are open, you are welcome to send me weird shit but I can't promise an answer. I reply to asks more consistently. You have permission to be horny on my posts, don't be shy.

it’s from growlngear! They make some really cool stuff.

[emerges from hibernation]

like it's the blind leading the blind because even the people roleplaying as the top in that scenario have never experienced the long-term casualness of nonstop living as a man every single day and living in a 'post'-transition body for years. and i know they're playing it up for the sake of a kink post but sometimes that lack of experience does really really show.

like obviously trans guys who do prefer to bottom absolutely deserve to sexualize their own bodies and feel good about the bodies they live in but my body has spent eight years on a hormone that makes it physically difficult to bottom vaginally and my brain is hardwired to feel immense euphoria at the idea of having a penis and sticking it in someone else. what about this screams bottom to you. neither of these things are inherent to the transmasculine experience but they do exist Because of it and they do feel like a natural conclusion that more people would maybe arrive at. like why is it impossible to escape being sexualized for the body parts we are born with, while the bodies we choose and the experiences we have by navigating sexual spaces as men are completely ignored lol

and I don't even really have genital dysphoria!! i'm fairly neutral about my body as it is!! i can hardly fucking imagine how rough this environment must be for the guys who are even more strongly repulsed by the thought of interacting with their body that way, or frankly even for the guys who do want to bottom vaginally but find it physically difficult because of the effects of long-term testosterone. and of course it's Completely alienating to every trans guy who has had (or wants) bottom surgery and doesn't/won't even Have a vagina. like the idea of a trans man with a penis is completely fucking foreign to some of you whether it's silicone or flesh

and i'm going to be a little mean here but i do think part of this, especially on this site, stems from the sexual discussion being led by and centered around trans guys who are very young and/or very early in their transition. they haven't been on testosterone long enough to experience negative sexual side effects. they don't know what it's like to navigate sexual spaces where you are assumed to be a cis man first. they don't have a lot of experience so they default to bottoming because it's easier. they don't have a lot of confidence so they default to bottoming because someone else wants them to. they have never thought about bottom surgery or even seen someone with it.

I love your posts! I just wanted to ask, where did you get your claw gloves? I’m a kitty petplayer and I’d love to have claws like that! So if you could send me a link or explain where you got them, I’d really appreciate it.

- Sincerely, literature-leather 🐱

I can’t in good conscience recommend the maker of mine, but I did find someone who does claws in a very similar style and at the same price point as mine. A friend of mine has since commissioned them so I can still vouch for their quality!