Currently Away

It was only recently did we learn that my father has a chronic kidney disease. Basically, his kidneys are struggling to filter the waste in his body. It was also yesterday did we learn that his one of his kidney has stopped functioning and his only remaining one functions at only 7%.  

That means he is slowly getting poisoned by his blood. His other organs are slowly degrading and this will eventually lead to death.

Now we only have two options: Dialysis (the waste that his body cannot filter will be pumped out by a machine) or a kidney transplant. We would have done ANY of the two but the problem is money. We barely have any. Health card discounts won’t get processed until 2 weeks later.

And I’m scared that it might be to late.

So this brings us to my main point. Spend as much time with them as you can. It hurts to think that one day my father won’t be with us anymore. He brought joy to our family and the thought that he will be gone one day is just devastating.

I don’t think I’ll survive if he goes away. 

Just thinking about it makes me cry. All the memories I have with him just hurts. I’m bawling right now. 

Our lives did a whole 180 degree. I KNOW it will never be the same again especially when he is really gone. 

I wish instead of taking pictures and videos of scenery, I took pics and videos of the family. 

I still have so many things to say but fuck... I can’t stop crying. I still have work to do. 

I wish I didn’t take things for granted. 

That’s it for now. 

TREASURE THE MOMENTS.