Just Random

I’m gonna start off by saying, me finding out about my gender identity was something that when I finally admitted myself, something inside my brain clicked. Everything made sense. All those times I had done anything I could to hide my breast... me always feeling so uncomfortable in my body... it was like my whole life had finally been understood. And I actually have to give thanks to this amazing trans male. I had put myself into a mental hospital for mental health reasons and I meet him in the outpatient program. And for some reason I opened up to him about how I had actually always questioned my gender. And such a small comment lead me such a long way. I slowly started my journey. It started out with me actually thinking I was a Demi girl. Because at that time, I didn’t want to admit I had used to day dream about becong a male. And as time went on, I opened up to my now ex-girlfriend about my gender. But by this time, I realized that I actually wasn’t Demi girl. No, I liked being a male a lot more than I was letting on. I decided I would come out as Genderfluid... which was great in a way because It got me used to not being a female, but not I could be male or female and I could choose what I wanted to be at any moment. Buttt.... that wasn’t it. I actually found that the more open I was to the world, the more I realized I wasn’t a female at all, and I had stuck to the idea of being the ideal female for so long because I didn’t want to admit I was different. My whole life I had dealt with being an outside and in my attempts to fit in, I ignored who I was.

Having said all this, I decided I would make the transition to male. It was thing I decided to do and since then I’ve actually been really happy. And the best part is that I came out to my dad. Of course it was hard to do, but knowing he still loved me made it all worth the while.