Will you disappoint them?

david hollander:

guys will make something called “the ultimate treat” and it’s just a meatball sub. it’s just a meatball sub made on toasted garlic bread with cheese, homemade sauce, and all the love in their heart— their heart so filled to bursting with love you can taste it in the sandwich (x)

For Shane, bisexuality is his last ditch effort to deny his queerness and desire for Ilya. For Ilya, flaunting his bisexuality in front of Shane—who is struggling so hard with the desire to be ‘straight passing’—is both a taunt and a plea.

Both of them using bisexual exploration and expression in deeply flawed and destructive ways for a scene that is lit with bisexual colors is so interesting.

The bisexual flag colors are meant to represent authenticity, visibility, and pride but both Shane and Ilya are so deeply buried in fear, hurt and shame that they are branded by the bisexual colors instead of embraced by them.

The bisexual colored lighting is as atmospheric and inescapable as identity itself, further contrasting and coloring everything that is keeping them apart.

myilya for those who believe

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shane and ilya as tumblr text posts part 1 of probably many

honestly i think it's quite a complex topic, and i'm not trying to say that people can't have fun with how they interpret shane.

but it is noticeable to me how often people will fixate on a specific part of his identity and extrapolate from there – even when that contradicts canon. like yes, he's canonically autistic, but it does not make sense to me to portray him being bothered by the bright lights and loud noises of a hockey rink. that's clearly an environment he thrives in to me.

of course it's fun to exaggerate and build upon canon traits, but i think the way people talk about shane's internalized homophobia can be quite strange. it tends to be either turned into outward homophobia (i.e. towards fabian, when that scene in the book actually is quite emotionally complex imo), or a thing he overcomes pretty much immediately after they get outed.

this is a very specific thing, but to me shane never seemed as socially unaware as fanon often depicts him as. yes, he likes to ask clarifying questions, but it's not like he doesn't understand the conversation he's having.