who are you to me? who am i supposed to be?

I'm THe Little White and Blue one ->

this is me again encase you forgot what I look Like ->

Most normal people aren’t even aware that this is a thing. There was a bad instance of it at one of my jobs. I had a delusion that my coworkers thought was comical. So much so that they felt the need to coerce me into talking about it in front of other coworkers (I didn’t have any reason to bring it up without being led in that direction). A select few decided to make a game out of how many times they could coerce me into bringing it up in a day. It reached a point where it was literally all I talked about. It wound me up in the hospital.

You may have heard of this game called “wake up”. It’s when assholes work as a team to spontaneously say “wake up!” to you throughout the day in an attempt to make you believe you’re in some sort of coma. A good friend of mine with schizophrenia was driven into an episode over “wake up”. If any schizos reading this ever hears people say “wake up” to you, ignore it and never talk to who said it to you.

Similarly, there’s this thing people do online and irl where they pretend to be a person trying to reach you while you are in a coma kind of like the movie Total Recall. This too has hospitalized schizophrenic people.

Everyone knows “I’m in your walls” by now or should. It gets people banned from mental health forums, but society won’t look down on people for doing it that way they would if another marginalized group was targeted.

Shit happens at the very facilities psychotic people go to be treated. One tech lady, upon being asked not to touch me, would reach out and touch me each time she said, " I'm not going to touch you". She wasn't checking vitals or anything. Just a sadistic head game she wanted to play.

Sokoto state, a majority Muslim state in north-west Nigeria was bombed on Christmas day. It is still unclear how many bombs were dropped and where. Confirmed is a bomb dropped on a Mosque in Jabo, killing 5 people.

Trump has claimed that this is in retaliation of the "Christian genocide" happening in Nigeria, committed by "radical Islamists" of the ISIL (ISIS), and the specific choosing of Christmas day was to reify that this is a religious based retaliation.

This Christmas, I am in Nigeria. My family is majority Christian. We are without fear of being persecuted on the basis of our religion. So, what is going on?

There is no Christian genocide in Nigeria. Nigeria is a complex country that faces a lot of violence, exploitation and subsequent neglect from our government. But it is not Christians being targeted in our country. This insidious piece of misinformation has been dutifully organised by US officials for months and gained steam on platforms like X and Truth Social.

I do not believe though, that this action was done to fight Islamic terrorists or protect Nigerian Christians. The reason being:

Sokoto state is not a state with ISIL activity.

This is another display of US throwing its weight around, conveniently, onto the most oil-rich country in Africa.

Do not believe everything the US tells you about its foreign affairs. The US will gladly spill blood on the flimsiest of justifications just to continue gorging its empire.

If you post a piece of art and immediately get a comment like this:

this evening my batterer - whose DV i was escaping - was my doordash driver.

my new address and phone number was exposed to him. he deadnamed me upon greeting and asked where i had been. he was doordashing under a false identity because he is a violent felon with a record for DV and other weapons charge.

i am now no longer safe at my place of residence and need to relocate much more quickly than i had previously expected.

Written three days after Pearl Harbor.

No, dyscalculia is not "dyslexia but with numbers". They're very different, with few similarities. I really wish dyscalculia were talked about more often, so people would understand me just a little better.

Because I'm dyscalculic, I intensely struggle with multi-step tasks, get lost very easily and frequently (not just in new places, but EVERYWHERE), can't remember important numbers, can't remember anyone's birthday besides my own, take a very long time to do most math equations, can't read an analog clock, can't do any oral math, can't manage my time, can't tell what time it as at any point without a digital clock, can't understand maps or navigation, can't recognize some "simple" math terms or symbols, and I can't reliably count backwards.

About 10 years ago a person named Devon Marie Machuca (aka Ender Darling) was arrested for stealing (and selling) human remains from a Black majority cemetery in New Orleans. They would end up serving 2 months.

Holt Cemetery is what's called a potter's field. It is a cemetery that caters to the poorest of the poor, people whose families are unable to pay for the burial of their loved ones. This cemetery is in use today, and the majority of people buried there are impoverished Black people.

Desecrating Black corpses is not funny. Selling pieces of deceased human beings is not funny. I understand that this story is a piece of tumblr lore, but this is not a hee ha silly story. Those were real human beings. People with family and friends who mourned their deaths. People who were too poor to be buried anywhere else, and were instead brought to Holt Cemetery.

Have some respect for the way you talk about the deceased. You and I both know that if this person stole remains from some frufru white cemetery that the reaction would be very different.