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The people of the kingdom always said the holy knight was not born from a woman, but carved directly from the light of the sun. He was their ultimate savior, a perfect hero built of silver and gold who never tired, never bled, and never made a mistake. When he rode his great white horse through the capital city, the busy streets would instantly go dead silent. Regular citizens, wealthy merchants, and even noble lords would drop to their knees in the dirt just to touch the hem of his long white cape, begging for a scrap of his divine attention. They did not speak to him like a human being. They spoke to him like a god who belonged to everyone and belonged to no one.
But you were just a regular, low-ranking scribe working in the deepest, darkest corner of the Church’s royal archives. To you, he wasn't a god at all. He was just a severely tired man who desperately needed a glass of water and a warm bed.
The first time he ever stumbled into your library wing, he looked like he was about to collapse. The high priests had spent the entire morning parading him through the upper cathedral, demanding miracles and blessings from him while completely ignoring the fact that his knees were shaking under the weight of his armor. When he finally escaped the crowds, he wandered aimlessly down the stairs, ending up in your quiet room. His silver armor was covered in dust, his golden hair was messy and damp with sweat, and his shoulders were drooping.
You didn't fall to your knees when he entered. Instead, you stood up from your desk, bowing your head slightly in a gesture of quiet respect, and pointed to a sturdy wooden chair nearby.
"Welcome to the archives, sir," you said softly, keeping your voice gentle so as not to startle him. "You look incredibly faint. If it pleases you, would you care to sit down and rest for a moment?"
He froze, his wide golden eyes completely shocked. For his entire life, everyone had either looked away from him in fear or ordered him to perform tasks. No one had ever asked for his permission just to offer him comfort. No one had ever treated his comfort as something that required consent. Slowly, with a quiet hesitation, he walked over and sat down. The heavy metal of his armor groaned as he sank into the wood.
You didn't say much else. You walked over to your small stove in the corner, brewed a cup of cheap chamomile tea, and brought it back to him along with a small plate of sweet crackers you had been saving for your lunch. As you set the tray down, you noticed how raw and red his skin was beneath the edges of his metal gloves.
Instead of just grabbing his hands, you knelt right beside his chair, keeping a respectful distance, and looked up at him.
"Your wrists look terribly chafed from the gauntlets, sir," you murmured gently. "May I have your permission to unbuckle the straps and clean the skin for you? I have some soothing ointments here."
He stared down at you, his chest moving up and down with shaky, shallow breaths. His hands trembled slightly on his lap. He had faced monsters and armies without blinking, but your quiet request for consent made his breath catch in his throat. Slowly, he nodded, offering his heavy wrists to you.
You worked with absolute care. You gently unbuckled the leather straps of his massive silver gauntlets and used a wet cloth to clean the chafed, bleeding skin on his wrists. You wrapped them in soft, clean bandages, your fingers brushing against his skin with the utmost tenderness.
"They treat you like a weapon," you muttered softly, frowning as you tied a neat knot on his left wrist, ensuring it wasn't too tight. "But weapons don't get tired. People do. You carry the weight of the whole kingdom, sir, but you are allowed to rest."
He didn't answer you. When he finally looked up at your face, his eyes were incredibly bright, almost glowing in the dim candlelight of the archive. He looked like a traveler who had spent years walking through a freezing, lonely wasteland and had suddenly stumbled into a warm, roaring fire.
From that day on, your quiet archive became his secret sanctuary.
Every single time he had a free hour between his training and his prayers, he would slip away from the grand halls and hide in your room. The moment the heavy wooden door clicked shut behind him, his perfect hero persona completely fell apart. He would take off his heavy helmet, let his massive sword clatter uselessly to the floor, and sink down onto the rug right next to your desk.
He didn't want to talk about his battles, the monsters he killed, or his divine duties. He just wanted to watch you work. He would rest his chin on the edge of your desk, his large golden eyes following every single movement of your feather pen as you copied old history books.
Sometimes, if you worked too late into the evening, he would get restless. "Are you tired?" he would whisper softly, reaching out a hesitant, trembling hand. He would gently take the pen from your fingers, placing it safely on the table so he could rub your sore wrist. His hands were always incredibly warm, radiating a soft, comforting heat that instantly made your fatigue melt away. "Let me do it. Let me carry your heavy books. Let me copy the pages for you. You shouldn't have to strain yourself like this."
"I'm fine," you would laugh softly, reaching over to pat his soft golden hair. Every single time your fingers touched his head, his face would turn completely red, and he would let out a small, happy sigh, leaning his head deeply into your palm like a pet begging for affection. "This is my job. Unlike you, I actually get to rest when the sun goes down."
"Then let me stay here until it does," he pleaded, his voice small, desperate, and entirely pathetic for someone who could slay monsters. He gripped the edge of your shirt sleeve with two fingers, holding on tightly as if he was terrified you would disappear into thin air if he let go. "Just a little longer. It's so loud outside. Everyone wants something from me. But here, with you, it's the only place where my head stops hurting."
You smiled and let him stay every time, thinking he was just a sweet, lonely man who desperately needed a real friend. You had no idea that to him, you weren't just a friend. You were his entire world, his only source of sanity, and his new religion.
While the holy knight fought dangerous monsters at the kingdom's borders, you were fighting your own quiet battle inside the castle walls. For months, you had been secretly digging through the Church’s old financial records. You had uncovered something terrible: the High Priests were stealing massive amounts of money meant for the poor villages and using it to buy luxury goods, gold jewelry, and expensive wines for themselves. It was an incredibly dangerous secret to hold, and you knew that if they caught you, they would lock you away in the darkest dungeon forever.
But lately, strange things had been happening around you.
Every time a corrupt official started getting suspicious of your research or asked too many questions about why you were looking through old vault ledgers, they would suddenly vanish from the castle. There was a cruel bishop who had caught you in the hallway and threatened to have you fired and thrown into prison because you asked for his department's budget sheets. You had spent a whole night panicking in your room, unable to sleep, terrified of what the morning would bring.
But the very next morning, the bishop was gone. The Head Priest announced to the castle that the man had suddenly decided to retire to a silent, lonely monastery deep in the freezing mountains, vowing never to look at or speak to another human being again.
A few weeks later, a rude royal guard shoved you hard in the stone courtyard because you were walking too slow, making you drop all your heavy library files into the dirt. He had laughed at you, calling you a useless library rat. You hadn't told anyone about it, not wanting to cause trouble.
But the next day, that guard went missing. He had been stripped of his rank and forced into a lifetime of hard labor in the deep, pitch-black salt mines, never allowed to see the light of day again.
Then there was the corrupt merchant who had tried to corner you in the lower halls, threatening to tell the priests about your suspicious archive research if you didn't give him your files. Within twenty-four hours, his entire business empire collapsed due to a sudden, unexplainable audit by the crown, leaving him completely bankrupt and thrown into the city's worst common debtor's prison.
You thought the system was somehow fixing itself. You thought your anonymous letters to the king were finally working. You had absolutely no idea what the holy knight was actually doing during the dead of night.
He never used a physical weapon on those men, nor did he let them stay in those prisons or mines for long. Before their official sentences or relocations were carried out by the kingdom, the holy knight would step into their locked quarters or holding cells while they slept, his silver armor casting a bright, beautiful glow against the dark walls.
When the corrupt men woke up in terror, trying to scream for help, they would find that they couldn't move a single muscle. The air in the room would become incredibly thick and heavy, filled with the faint, sweet smell of church incense. The holy knight would stand over them, his face completely calm and peaceful, looking down at them with soft, genuine pity.
"Why did you make her cry?" he would ask in a gentle, polite whisper, his golden eyes wide and completely empty of any human emotion. "She was so stressed today because of you. She couldn't even smile at me when I visited because she was worried about your threats. She didn't even touch my hair today."
The men would try to beg for their lives, crying and shaking under the weight of his presence. But the holy knight would only tilt his head, a soft, saintly smile appearing on his lips as a beautiful, blinding white light began to grow from his palms.
"Don't worry," he would murmur softly, his voice sounding like a sweet lullaby. "I am not an evil monster. I am a hero. I am just purifying the world so she can live in peace. Anyone who hurts my precious person doesn't deserve to breathe the same air as her."
With a silent flash of immaculate white light, the men would simply melt away. There was no blood, no pain, and no sound. A faint, beautiful sound of angels singing would echo in the empty room for a few seconds, leaving nothing behind but a neat pile of clean, white ash on the floor. To the rest of the kingdom, it looked like they had simply run away to escape their punishments, but the holy knight knew the truth.
The next afternoon, he would walk into your library wing, looking as innocent and sweet as can be. He would drop to his knees beside your chair, wrapping his arms tightly around your waist and burying his face in your lap, breathing in your scent to calm his racing heart.
"I made sure your day would be peaceful today," he would whisper, his voice muffled by your clothes as he squeezed you closer, his fingers digging into your shirt. "No one will ever hurt you again. I promise. I will clear away anyone who stands in your path, so just stay here with me forever. Don't look at anyone else."
You would laugh softly, running your fingers through his golden hair to comfort him, completely blind to the terrifying, unhinged power of his love.
The High Priests were greedy, but they were not stupid. They quickly realized that their political allies were disappearing one by one. More importantly, they noticed that their perfect weapon was changing. The holy knight was no longer listening to their orders with blank, mindless obedience. He was skipping mandatory prayers, refusing to attend royal banquets, and spending every single night locked inside the dusty archive rooms with a low-ranking scribe.
They realized he had a weakness. They realized you were the one controlling his heart.
"The Vanguard is compromised," the Head Priest whispered to his council during a secret meeting in the dead of night. "He no longer belongs to the Church. He belongs to that pathetic scribe. If we do not cut this cord immediately, he will turn his divine light against us."
They didn't want to just kill you in secret. They knew that if the holy knight found out they had murdered you, his grief would cause him to lose his mind and destroy the entire kingdom. They needed to make him hate you. They needed to force him to destroy you himself, proving to the world that he was still nothing more than their loyal, brainwashed tool.
They waited until the holy knight was sent away on a three-day mission to clear monsters from a faraway valley. The moment his white horse left the city gates, the trap snapped shut.
A dozen heavily armed guards stormed into your quiet library wing. They smashed your wooden desk, tore your favorite books to pieces, and dragged you out of the room in heavy iron chains. They took all the evidence you had compiled against the priests and threw it into a roaring fire, burning your months of hard work into nothing but smoke.
They locked you in a cold, dark dungeon beneath the cathedral, leaving you without food or water. They beat you until your body was covered in bruises, demanding that you sign a fake confession stating that you were a dark witch who had used evil curses to brainwash and control the holy knight.
But you refused. Even when you were bleeding, cold, and terrified, you held onto your pride. You knew you had done nothing wrong, and your respect for the truth kept you silent.
By the third day, the grand cathedral doors were opened wide. The entire royal court, the wealthy nobles, and thousands of regular citizens filled the long rows of stone benches. They had been told a lie that a dangerous heretic had been caught trying to poison the kingdom’s savior.
You were dragged up the long center aisle, the heavy iron chains dragging loudly against the marble floor. They forced you onto your knees at the top of the sacred altar, right in front of the massive golden statues of the gods. Your clothes were torn, your face was bruised, and your hands were bound tightly in heavy iron cuffs that cut into your skin.
The High Priests stood behind you on the elevated platform, looking down at you with smug, evil satisfaction. They had won.
Suddenly, the heavy doors at the back of the cathedral burst open with a loud bang.
The holy knight had returned. He strode down the center aisle, his silver armor gleaming brilliantly under the colorful stained-glass windows. He carried his sacred sword in his right hand, the blade radiating a soft, comforting warmth. To the cheering crowd, he looked like the ultimate picture of divine justice.
He marched straight up the stone stairs of the altar, his face completely blank and emotionless. The Head Priest stepped forward, a cruel smile on his face as he raised his golden staff into the air.
"Vanguard of Light!" the Head Priest shouted, his voice echoing through the massive, high-ceilinged room. "This filthy heretic has confessed to using dark magic to corrupt your pure soul. In the name of the heavens, we command you to raise your sacred blade and purge this evil from our kingdom!"
The crowd cheered wildly, screaming for your blood and waving their fists in the air. You looked up at the holy knight through your messy, blood-matted hair, your heart breaking into pieces. You didn't care about dying, but the thought of him being the one to do it made you want to sob.
"I'm sorry," you whispered softly to him, your voice trembling as fresh tears finally spilled down your bruised cheeks, dripping onto the cold marble floor. "I tried to fix the church... I tried to help the people. I'm sorry I ruined everything for you."
The holy knight stopped a few inches away from you. He didn't look at the screaming crowd, and he didn't look at the proud priests. He only looked at you. He saw the dark bruises on your face, the blood dried on your split lip, and the heavy iron chains cutting into your small, delicate wrists. He saw the tears in your eyes, the very same eyes that used to look at him with so much gentle warmth.
The blank, empty look in his golden eyes suddenly cracked, shattering entirely.
Slowly, deliberately, he lowered his sword. The heavy silver blade dropped from his fingers, hitting the marble floor with a loud, ringing clink that instantly silenced the entire cathedral. The cheering stopped. The nobles blinked in confusion, murmuring frantically to each other.
"What are you doing?" the Head Priest hissed, his face twisting in sudden anger and confusion. "Pick up your weapon and strike the heretic down!"
The holy knight didn't listen to him. Instead, he stepped past you, turning his back to your shaking body. He placed his large, broad frame directly in front of you, completely shielding you from the view of the crowd and the priests. He became an unbreachable wall between you and the rest of the world. No one could see you anymore; they could only see him.
When he looked up at the High Priests, his expression was completely serene. He didn't look angry or vengeful. He looked deeply, beautifully at peace, as if he had just figured out a flawless plan. But his golden eyes were wide, completely dilated, and glowing with an absolute, terrifyingly blinding white light.
The air pressure in the massive cathedral dropped so fast that everyone in the room suddenly gasped for breath, clutching desperately at their throats. The heavy stone pillars began to shake, and a faint, hauntingly beautiful sound of an angelic choir began to echo through the high ceilings. It wasn't a comforting sound; it was heavy, suffocating, and terrifyingly cold.
"You told me that heresy is the act of defying the divine," the holy knight whispered. His voice was soft and gentle, yet it carried flawlessly to every single corner of the silent, terrified room, vibrating in the bones of everyone who heard it. "You told me that anything which threatens the light must be completely purified. But you fools made a terrible mistake."
He slowly turned his body back around to face you. The stoic, unshakeable hero of the empire dropped to his knees right in front of you, his heavy silver armor clattering loudly against the stone altar.
He didn't care that thousands of people were watching him ruin his perfect reputation. He reached out his hands and gently cradled your bruised cheeks. His touch was incredibly soft, but his grip was unyielding. He wouldn't let you turn your face away.
Leaning in closer, his lips brushed against your ear as the choir outside reached a deafening, terrifying crescendo. His golden eyes locked onto yours, wide, unblinking, and swirling with a dizzying, manic light.
"Look only at me," he whispered, his voice dripping with a dark, suffocating possessiveness that made your blood run completely cold. "Don't look at them. Don't listen to their screams. They touched you, so they don't deserve to exist anymore. I am going to erase all of them. I will build a new world where there is no one else left to hurt you. A world where you will never have a reason to look at anyone but me."
He slid his hands down from your face, his fingers glowing with a soft, divine warmth. He gently touched the heavy iron cuffs on your wrists. With a bright, silent flash of heat, the iron simply turned to mist, freeing you completely. He didn't want you in chains. He wanted you to willingly stay by his side because there was simply no one else left in his universe.
"You don't need these filthy things," he murmured, his voice shaking with a manic, obsessive adoration as he took your newly freed hands and pressed them against his cheeks, leaning heavily into your touch. "I will be your shield. I will be your weapon. I will do absolutely anything you ask of me, slay anyone you point your finger at, and burn every kingdom that fails to bow to you. You are my only god now."
He leaned closer, his fingers tightening around your wrists with a desperate, crushing intensity that directly contradicted his sweet tone. The manic smile on his face widened, his dilated golden eyes fixing on yours with a dark, terrifying clarity.
"I want to give you everything," he whispered against your skin, his breath hitching. "I want to let you walk wherever you please in a world I cleared just for you. But if you ever try to walk away from me... if you ever try to leave my side, I will break your legs myself. I will forge new chains out of my own light and bind you to my chest so deeply that we will never be separated again. Please don't force me to do that to you. Just stay with me willingly."
You shivered against his touch, realizing that his warmth was no longer a sanctuary. It was an absolute, blinding force of nature, and the freedom he was offering you was contingent on your total submission to his presence.
"Vanguard! Stop this madness!" the Head Priest screamed, his voice cracking as he began to step backward in absolute terror, his golden staff shaking in his hands. "You are God's chosen weapon! You cannot do this!"
The holy knight stood back up, slowly turning his glowing golden eyes toward the council of priests.
"She is my light," he breathed into your skin, his voice cracking with an intense, desperate reverence that made your blood run cold. "Every single prayer I have uttered for the last three years has been whispered to her name, not your silent, useless gods. If you declare her a heretic, then you have declared the heavens themselves a sin.”
A blinding, immaculate white glare began to bleed from his armor, so incredibly bright that it looked like the sun itself had just forced its way into the room. The intense light began to slowly spread across the marble floor like water, and the moment it touched the edges of the wooden altar and the grand banners of the church, the material simply dissolved into silent, pristine white ash.
He gave the screaming, scrambling priests a gentle, beautiful, saintly smile.
"And as the Vanguard of Light…," he murmured softly, raising his hand into the air as the blinding white glow completely consumed the entire cathedral, erasing every single shadow and turning the world to pure, silent white. "I have no choice but to purge this temple."
A/N: this was requested by @somerandomdere! i accidentally deleted your ask, so i couldn’t reply to it directly 😭. but i want you to know that I truly appreciate your kind words so much 🥹. i was so excited for my first-ever request that i spent the whole night writing this lol. i hope i delivered your idea well. 🫶
The people of the kingdom always said the holy knight was not born from a woman, but carved directly from the light of the sun. He was their ultimate savior, a perfect hero built of silver and gold who never tired, never bled, and never made a mistake. When he rode his great white horse through the capital city, the busy streets would instantly go dead silent. Regular citizens, wealthy merchants, and even noble lords would drop to their knees in the dirt just to touch the hem of his long white cape, begging for a scrap of his divine attention. They did not speak to him like a human being. They spoke to him like a god who belonged to everyone and belonged to no one.
But you were just a regular, low-ranking scribe working in the deepest, darkest corner of the Church’s royal archives. To you, he wasn't a god at all. He was just a severely tired man who desperately needed a glass of water and a warm bed.
The first time he ever stumbled into your library wing, he looked like he was about to collapse. The high priests had spent the entire morning parading him through the upper cathedral, demanding miracles and blessings from him while completely ignoring the fact that his knees were shaking under the weight of his armor. When he finally escaped the crowds, he wandered aimlessly down the stairs, ending up in your quiet room. His silver armor was covered in dust, his golden hair was messy and damp with sweat, and his shoulders were drooping.
You didn't fall to your knees when he entered. Instead, you stood up from your desk, bowing your head slightly in a gesture of quiet respect, and pointed to a sturdy wooden chair nearby.
"Welcome to the archives, sir," you said softly, keeping your voice gentle so as not to startle him. "You look incredibly faint. If it pleases you, would you care to sit down and rest for a moment?"
He froze, his wide golden eyes completely shocked. For his entire life, everyone had either looked away from him in fear or ordered him to perform tasks. No one had ever asked for his permission just to offer him comfort. No one had ever treated his comfort as something that required consent. Slowly, with a quiet hesitation, he walked over and sat down. The heavy metal of his armor groaned as he sank into the wood.
You didn't say much else. You walked over to your small stove in the corner, brewed a cup of cheap chamomile tea, and brought it back to him along with a small plate of sweet crackers you had been saving for your lunch. As you set the tray down, you noticed how raw and red his skin was beneath the edges of his metal gloves.
Instead of just grabbing his hands, you knelt right beside his chair, keeping a respectful distance, and looked up at him.
"Your wrists look terribly chafed from the gauntlets, sir," you murmured gently. "May I have your permission to unbuckle the straps and clean the skin for you? I have some soothing ointments here."
He stared down at you, his chest moving up and down with shaky, shallow breaths. His hands trembled slightly on his lap. He had faced monsters and armies without blinking, but your quiet request for consent made his breath catch in his throat. Slowly, he nodded, offering his heavy wrists to you.
You worked with absolute care. You gently unbuckled the leather straps of his massive silver gauntlets and used a wet cloth to clean the chafed, bleeding skin on his wrists. You wrapped them in soft, clean bandages, your fingers brushing against his skin with the utmost tenderness.
"They treat you like a weapon," you muttered softly, frowning as you tied a neat knot on his left wrist, ensuring it wasn't too tight. "But weapons don't get tired. People do. You carry the weight of the whole kingdom, sir, but you are allowed to rest."
He didn't answer you. When he finally looked up at your face, his eyes were incredibly bright, almost glowing in the dim candlelight of the archive. He looked like a traveler who had spent years walking through a freezing, lonely wasteland and had suddenly stumbled into a warm, roaring fire.
From that day on, your quiet archive became his secret sanctuary.
Every single time he had a free hour between his training and his prayers, he would slip away from the grand halls and hide in your room. The moment the heavy wooden door clicked shut behind him, his perfect hero persona completely fell apart. He would take off his heavy helmet, let his massive sword clatter uselessly to the floor, and sink down onto the rug right next to your desk.
He didn't want to talk about his battles, the monsters he killed, or his divine duties. He just wanted to watch you work. He would rest his chin on the edge of your desk, his large golden eyes following every single movement of your feather pen as you copied old history books.
Sometimes, if you worked too late into the evening, he would get restless. "Are you tired?" he would whisper softly, reaching out a hesitant, trembling hand. He would gently take the pen from your fingers, placing it safely on the table so he could rub your sore wrist. His hands were always incredibly warm, radiating a soft, comforting heat that instantly made your fatigue melt away. "Let me do it. Let me carry your heavy books. Let me copy the pages for you. You shouldn't have to strain yourself like this."
"I'm fine," you would laugh softly, reaching over to pat his soft golden hair. Every single time your fingers touched his head, his face would turn completely red, and he would let out a small, happy sigh, leaning his head deeply into your palm like a pet begging for affection. "This is my job. Unlike you, I actually get to rest when the sun goes down."
"Then let me stay here until it does," he pleaded, his voice small, desperate, and entirely pathetic for someone who could slay monsters. He gripped the edge of your shirt sleeve with two fingers, holding on tightly as if he was terrified you would disappear into thin air if he let go. "Just a little longer. It's so loud outside. Everyone wants something from me. But here, with you, it's the only place where my head stops hurting."
You smiled and let him stay every time, thinking he was just a sweet, lonely man who desperately needed a real friend. You had no idea that to him, you weren't just a friend. You were his entire world, his only source of sanity, and his new religion.
While the holy knight fought dangerous monsters at the kingdom's borders, you were fighting your own quiet battle inside the castle walls. For months, you had been secretly digging through the Church’s old financial records. You had uncovered something terrible: the High Priests were stealing massive amounts of money meant for the poor villages and using it to buy luxury goods, gold jewelry, and expensive wines for themselves. It was an incredibly dangerous secret to hold, and you knew that if they caught you, they would lock you away in the darkest dungeon forever.
But lately, strange things had been happening around you.
Every time a corrupt official started getting suspicious of your research or asked too many questions about why you were looking through old vault ledgers, they would suddenly vanish from the castle. There was a cruel bishop who had caught you in the hallway and threatened to have you fired and thrown into prison because you asked for his department's budget sheets. You had spent a whole night panicking in your room, unable to sleep, terrified of what the morning would bring.
But the very next morning, the bishop was gone. The Head Priest announced to the castle that the man had suddenly decided to retire to a silent, lonely monastery deep in the freezing mountains, vowing never to look at or speak to another human being again.
A few weeks later, a rude royal guard shoved you hard in the stone courtyard because you were walking too slow, making you drop all your heavy library files into the dirt. He had laughed at you, calling you a useless library rat. You hadn't told anyone about it, not wanting to cause trouble.
But the next day, that guard went missing. He had been stripped of his rank and forced into a lifetime of hard labor in the deep, pitch-black salt mines, never allowed to see the light of day again.
Then there was the corrupt merchant who had tried to corner you in the lower halls, threatening to tell the priests about your suspicious archive research if you didn't give him your files. Within twenty-four hours, his entire business empire collapsed due to a sudden, unexplainable audit by the crown, leaving him completely bankrupt and thrown into the city's worst common debtor's prison.
You thought the system was somehow fixing itself. You thought your anonymous letters to the king were finally working. You had absolutely no idea what the holy knight was actually doing during the dead of night.
He never used a physical weapon on those men, nor did he let them stay in those prisons or mines for long. Before their official sentences or relocations were carried out by the kingdom, the holy knight would step into their locked quarters or holding cells while they slept, his silver armor casting a bright, beautiful glow against the dark walls.
When the corrupt men woke up in terror, trying to scream for help, they would find that they couldn't move a single muscle. The air in the room would become incredibly thick and heavy, filled with the faint, sweet smell of church incense. The holy knight would stand over them, his face completely calm and peaceful, looking down at them with soft, genuine pity.
"Why did you make her cry?" he would ask in a gentle, polite whisper, his golden eyes wide and completely empty of any human emotion. "She was so stressed today because of you. She couldn't even smile at me when I visited because she was worried about your threats. She didn't even touch my hair today."
The men would try to beg for their lives, crying and shaking under the weight of his presence. But the holy knight would only tilt his head, a soft, saintly smile appearing on his lips as a beautiful, blinding white light began to grow from his palms.
"Don't worry," he would murmur softly, his voice sounding like a sweet lullaby. "I am not an evil monster. I am a hero. I am just purifying the world so she can live in peace. Anyone who hurts my precious person doesn't deserve to breathe the same air as her."
With a silent flash of immaculate white light, the men would simply melt away. There was no blood, no pain, and no sound. A faint, beautiful sound of angels singing would echo in the empty room for a few seconds, leaving nothing behind but a neat pile of clean, white ash on the floor. To the rest of the kingdom, it looked like they had simply run away to escape their punishments, but the holy knight knew the truth.
The next afternoon, he would walk into your library wing, looking as innocent and sweet as can be. He would drop to his knees beside your chair, wrapping his arms tightly around your waist and burying his face in your lap, breathing in your scent to calm his racing heart.
"I made sure your day would be peaceful today," he would whisper, his voice muffled by your clothes as he squeezed you closer, his fingers digging into your shirt. "No one will ever hurt you again. I promise. I will clear away anyone who stands in your path, so just stay here with me forever. Don't look at anyone else."
You would laugh softly, running your fingers through his golden hair to comfort him, completely blind to the terrifying, unhinged power of his love.
The High Priests were greedy, but they were not stupid. They quickly realized that their political allies were disappearing one by one. More importantly, they noticed that their perfect weapon was changing. The holy knight was no longer listening to their orders with blank, mindless obedience. He was skipping mandatory prayers, refusing to attend royal banquets, and spending every single night locked inside the dusty archive rooms with a low-ranking scribe.
They realized he had a weakness. They realized you were the one controlling his heart.
"The Vanguard is compromised," the Head Priest whispered to his council during a secret meeting in the dead of night. "He no longer belongs to the Church. He belongs to that pathetic scribe. If we do not cut this cord immediately, he will turn his divine light against us."
They didn't want to just kill you in secret. They knew that if the holy knight found out they had murdered you, his grief would cause him to lose his mind and destroy the entire kingdom. They needed to make him hate you. They needed to force him to destroy you himself, proving to the world that he was still nothing more than their loyal, brainwashed tool.
They waited until the holy knight was sent away on a three-day mission to clear monsters from a faraway valley. The moment his white horse left the city gates, the trap snapped shut.
A dozen heavily armed guards stormed into your quiet library wing. They smashed your wooden desk, tore your favorite books to pieces, and dragged you out of the room in heavy iron chains. They took all the evidence you had compiled against the priests and threw it into a roaring fire, burning your months of hard work into nothing but smoke.
They locked you in a cold, dark dungeon beneath the cathedral, leaving you without food or water. They beat you until your body was covered in bruises, demanding that you sign a fake confession stating that you were a dark witch who had used evil curses to brainwash and control the holy knight.
But you refused. Even when you were bleeding, cold, and terrified, you held onto your pride. You knew you had done nothing wrong, and your respect for the truth kept you silent.
By the third day, the grand cathedral doors were opened wide. The entire royal court, the wealthy nobles, and thousands of regular citizens filled the long rows of stone benches. They had been told a lie that a dangerous heretic had been caught trying to poison the kingdom’s savior.
You were dragged up the long center aisle, the heavy iron chains dragging loudly against the marble floor. They forced you onto your knees at the top of the sacred altar, right in front of the massive golden statues of the gods. Your clothes were torn, your face was bruised, and your hands were bound tightly in heavy iron cuffs that cut into your skin.
The High Priests stood behind you on the elevated platform, looking down at you with smug, evil satisfaction. They had won.
Suddenly, the heavy doors at the back of the cathedral burst open with a loud bang.
The holy knight had returned. He strode down the center aisle, his silver armor gleaming brilliantly under the colorful stained-glass windows. He carried his sacred sword in his right hand, the blade radiating a soft, comforting warmth. To the cheering crowd, he looked like the ultimate picture of divine justice.
He marched straight up the stone stairs of the altar, his face completely blank and emotionless. The Head Priest stepped forward, a cruel smile on his face as he raised his golden staff into the air.
"Vanguard of Light!" the Head Priest shouted, his voice echoing through the massive, high-ceilinged room. "This filthy heretic has confessed to using dark magic to corrupt your pure soul. In the name of the heavens, we command you to raise your sacred blade and purge this evil from our kingdom!"
The crowd cheered wildly, screaming for your blood and waving their fists in the air. You looked up at the holy knight through your messy, blood-matted hair, your heart breaking into pieces. You didn't care about dying, but the thought of him being the one to do it made you want to sob.
"I'm sorry," you whispered softly to him, your voice trembling as fresh tears finally spilled down your bruised cheeks, dripping onto the cold marble floor. "I tried to fix the church... I tried to help the people. I'm sorry I ruined everything for you."
The holy knight stopped a few inches away from you. He didn't look at the screaming crowd, and he didn't look at the proud priests. He only looked at you. He saw the dark bruises on your face, the blood dried on your split lip, and the heavy iron chains cutting into your small, delicate wrists. He saw the tears in your eyes, the very same eyes that used to look at him with so much gentle warmth.
The blank, empty look in his golden eyes suddenly cracked, shattering entirely.
Slowly, deliberately, he lowered his sword. The heavy silver blade dropped from his fingers, hitting the marble floor with a loud, ringing clink that instantly silenced the entire cathedral. The cheering stopped. The nobles blinked in confusion, murmuring frantically to each other.
"What are you doing?" the Head Priest hissed, his face twisting in sudden anger and confusion. "Pick up your weapon and strike the heretic down!"
The holy knight didn't listen to him. Instead, he stepped past you, turning his back to your shaking body. He placed his large, broad frame directly in front of you, completely shielding you from the view of the crowd and the priests. He became an unbreachable wall between you and the rest of the world. No one could see you anymore; they could only see him.
When he looked up at the High Priests, his expression was completely serene. He didn't look angry or vengeful. He looked deeply, beautifully at peace, as if he had just figured out a flawless plan. But his golden eyes were wide, completely dilated, and glowing with an absolute, terrifyingly blinding white light.
The air pressure in the massive cathedral dropped so fast that everyone in the room suddenly gasped for breath, clutching desperately at their throats. The heavy stone pillars began to shake, and a faint, hauntingly beautiful sound of an angelic choir began to echo through the high ceilings. It wasn't a comforting sound; it was heavy, suffocating, and terrifyingly cold.
"You told me that heresy is the act of defying the divine," the holy knight whispered. His voice was soft and gentle, yet it carried flawlessly to every single corner of the silent, terrified room, vibrating in the bones of everyone who heard it. "You told me that anything which threatens the light must be completely purified. But you fools made a terrible mistake."
He slowly turned his body back around to face you. The stoic, unshakeable hero of the empire dropped to his knees right in front of you, his heavy silver armor clattering loudly against the stone altar.
He didn't care that thousands of people were watching him ruin his perfect reputation. He reached out his hands and gently cradled your bruised cheeks. His touch was incredibly soft, but his grip was unyielding. He wouldn't let you turn your face away.
Leaning in closer, his lips brushed against your ear as the choir outside reached a deafening, terrifying crescendo. His golden eyes locked onto yours, wide, unblinking, and swirling with a dizzying, manic light.
"Look only at me," he whispered, his voice dripping with a dark, suffocating possessiveness that made your blood run completely cold. "Don't look at them. Don't listen to their screams. They touched you, so they don't deserve to exist anymore. I am going to erase all of them. I will build a new world where there is no one else left to hurt you. A world where you will never have a reason to look at anyone but me."
He slid his hands down from your face, his fingers glowing with a soft, divine warmth. He gently touched the heavy iron cuffs on your wrists. With a bright, silent flash of heat, the iron simply turned to mist, freeing you completely. He didn't want you in chains. He wanted you to willingly stay by his side because there was simply no one else left in his universe.
"You don't need these filthy things," he murmured, his voice shaking with a manic, obsessive adoration as he took your newly freed hands and pressed them against his cheeks, leaning heavily into your touch. "I will be your shield. I will be your weapon. I will do absolutely anything you ask of me, slay anyone you point your finger at, and burn every kingdom that fails to bow to you. You are my only god now."
He leaned closer, his fingers tightening around your wrists with a desperate, crushing intensity that directly contradicted his sweet tone. The manic smile on his face widened, his dilated golden eyes fixing on yours with a dark, terrifying clarity.
"I want to give you everything," he whispered against your skin, his breath hitching. "I want to let you walk wherever you please in a world I cleared just for you. But if you ever try to walk away from me... if you ever try to leave my side, I will break your legs myself. I will forge new chains out of my own light and bind you to my chest so deeply that we will never be separated again. Please don't force me to do that to you. Just stay with me willingly."
You shivered against his touch, realizing that his warmth was no longer a sanctuary. It was an absolute, blinding force of nature, and the freedom he was offering you was contingent on your total submission to his presence.
"Vanguard! Stop this madness!" the Head Priest screamed, his voice cracking as he began to step backward in absolute terror, his golden staff shaking in his hands. "You are God's chosen weapon! You cannot do this!"
The holy knight stood back up, slowly turning his glowing golden eyes toward the council of priests.
"She is my light," he breathed into your skin, his voice cracking with an intense, desperate reverence that made your blood run cold. "Every single prayer I have uttered for the last three years has been whispered to her name, not your silent, useless gods. If you declare her a heretic, then you have declared the heavens themselves a sin.”
A blinding, immaculate white glare began to bleed from his armor, so incredibly bright that it looked like the sun itself had just forced its way into the room. The intense light began to slowly spread across the marble floor like water, and the moment it touched the edges of the wooden altar and the grand banners of the church, the material simply dissolved into silent, pristine white ash.
He gave the screaming, scrambling priests a gentle, beautiful, saintly smile.
"And as the Vanguard of Light…," he murmured softly, raising his hand into the air as the blinding white glow completely consumed the entire cathedral, erasing every single shadow and turning the world to pure, silent white. "I have no choice but to purge this temple."
A/N: this was requested by @somerandomdere! i accidentally deleted your ask, so i couldn’t reply to it directly 😭. but i want you to know that I truly appreciate your kind words so much 🥹. i was so excited for my first-ever request that i spent the whole night writing this lol. i hope i delivered your idea well. 🫶
⤷ TW: yandere themes, obsession, toxic attachment, threats of violence, and self-harm.
You didn’t expect the most feared delinquent in school to confess his feelings to you.
In fact, you didn’t even expect him to know you existed.
Everyone knew the rumors about Rian. He was the school’s living legend, the guy who supposedly sent three seniors from another school to the hospital without even breaking a sweat. People swore he took a broken bottle to the face during a fight behind the train station without even flinching. He was tall, with a sharp, lean build and a permanent scowl that could stop a teacher mid-sentence. His reputation was so intense that students actively cleared a path in the hallways whenever they saw his messy dark hair coming their way.
Then, there was you.
You were just a regular, average student. You went to class, hung out with your small circle of friends during lunch, and complained about the upcoming exams like everyone else. You weren't a social outcast, but you certainly weren't popular either. You were just perfectly content blending into the background of a crowded room.
Which is exactly why you were standing there in absolute disbelief, trapped against the rusty metal railing of the old rooftop stairwell where you had just gone to skip the noisy hallway crowd during break.
Your brain completely stopped working. Out of pure reflex, you reached down and aggressively pinched your own thigh through your uniform skirt, praying that you were just having a very weird, stress-induced nightmare. Ouch. No. The sharp sting proved you were wide awake. You were definitely awake, and the school's most notorious bad boy had his hand planted firmly against the concrete wall right next to your ear, breathing like he had just run a marathon.
"I like you," Rian growled. His voice was naturally a low, gravelly rasp that usually meant someone was about to get hurt. But right now, it was trembling. He thrust a slightly squished paper bag into your chest. "Date me. Please."
Through the top of the bag, you could see a hot strawberry crepe from the expensive bakery near the station, the one that always has a two-hour waiting line.
You looked at his split knuckles, then at the terrifying intensity in his dark eyes, and your survival instincts completely took over.
God, please don't make me regret this.
"Okay," you said, your voice remarkably steady despite the racing pulse in your throat. "We can try dating."
The change was instantaneous.
His jaw dropped. The scary glare in his eyes cracked, completely replaced by a wide, watery layer of pure shock. A fierce, burning red rushed up his throat, turning his face, his ears, and even the back of his neck a dark, bruised crimson.
He stumbled backward, his heavy sneakers tripping over his own feet on the concrete step. He clutched his own chest with both hands, his breathing turning shallow, frantic, and pathetic.
"Y-You said yes?" he choked out, his deep voice cracking into a high, trembling squeak. He looked like he was about to faint right onto the stairs. "You're not telling me to die? I practiced this in the mirror for three weeks because I thought you'd throw the crepe at my face."
"Rian, you need to breathe," you said, taking a cautious step forward because he genuinely looked like he was losing oxygen.
"Don't look at me!" he whined, quickly covering his flushed face with his massive, uniform-clad arms, his broad shoulders shaking violently as he hid from you. He was a tall, intimidating guy, but right now, he looked like a terrified puppy that had just been handed a treat and didn't know how to process it. "Your eyes are too close. If you look at me while I'm crying, my heart is going to burst open. I'll literally die right here."
You stared at him, the squished paper bag still heavy in your hands. He was still hiding his face behind his arms, his ears burning a violent red, occasionally peeking through his fingers to make sure you hadn't vanished. The sheer absurdity of the school’s fiercest fighter melting into a puddle of nerves over a simple "yes" was almost comical. You awkwardly cleared your throat, offered a small goodbye, and slipped down the rooftop stairs, leaving the legendary delinquent leaning against the rusty railing, clutching his chest like a Victorian maiden.
By eight o'clock the next morning, your choice to date him out of fear turned into a completely different kind of nightmare.
You couldn't even reach the school gates without his massive shadow blocking the sun. Rian was waiting by the concrete pillar, his uniform blazer unbuttoned, revealing a glimpse of his lean frame. He had a white band-aid over his cheekbone, but the moment his eyes found you in the crowd of students, the tough, scary delinquent completely vanished.
He scrambled over, his long legs moving with a clumsy, frantic eagerness. In his arms, he was carrying three separate, brightly colored insulated lunch bags.
"I made lunch," he blurted out, his deep voice dropping into a soft, nervous rumble as he fell into step right next to you. He pulled himself as close to your side as possible, his shoulder vibrating with nervous energy, though he kept a careful two-inch gap so his sleeve wouldn't disrespectfully brush against yours. "I didn't know if you liked sweet egg or pork cutlet today, so I made both. And I bought the exact milk tea you got from the vending machine last Tuesday. The one with the green cap."
You stopped walking, staring up at him. "Rian, that was a week ago. I don't even remember buying that. How do you even know that?"
Rian froze. The soft, nervous pink in his cheeks instantly drained, leaving him a terrifyingly hollow shade of pale. His wide, dark pupils dilated so much that his eyes looked almost entirely black. He looked straight at your throat, his thick eyelashes fluttering with a frantic, wet panic.
"I notice everything," he whispered, his knuckles turning a bloodless white as he gripped the lunch bags closer to his chest. "I know which classroom windows you look out of when you're bored. I know you walk exactly three paces behind your friends when you're tired. I know everything. I have to know, or my head feels like it's going to crack open."
You took a small step back, the air suddenly feeling very heavy. "Rian, that's a bit creepy."
The second the word creepy left your mouth, his entire frame fractured from the inside out. He didn't get angry. He didn't step toward you. Instead, he dropped heavily onto his knees right on the concrete sidewalk, ignoring the students who stopped to stare at the school's most feared predator begging in the dirt. He grabbed the very bottom hem of your school skirt, his fingers twisting into the pleats so tightly they were shaking.
"I'm sorry," he choked out, his voice dropping into a low, frantic, unhinged rasp. He lifted his tear-stained face, his eyes glassy and completely bloodshot. "I'm a monster, right? I'm disgusting. If you break up with me because of this, I'll take the pocket knife I keep in my locker and I'll carve your name into my chest. I'll do it right in front of your window so you can watch the blood match the strawberry crepe I bought you. If I can't belong to you, I don't need my skin to be clean. I'll peel it off, (Y/N). I'll pull my own teeth out if it makes you smile."
He choked back a sob, his grip on your skirt tightening as his dark eyes locked onto yours with a terrifyingly protective, feral intensity.
"And if anyone else looks at you... if anyone tries to take you away from me or makes you smile the way I'm supposed to, I'll break them. I'll destroy every single one of them until they're crawling in the dirt. I'll smash their faces into the concrete so they can never look at you again."
He was offering his own body up to be destroyed just to keep you from walking away.
You sighed, looking down at his shaking shoulders, realizing you couldn't shake him off even if you tried. You reached down and took the heavy insulated bag from his hand. "Get up. The bell is going to ring."
The effect was instant. Rian let out a long, shuddering sigh, his broad shoulders slumping as a wet, breathless, completely adoring smile broke through his pale face.
"Okay," he whispered, his deep voice melting back into a soft, happy purr. "Anything you want."
content. 2.2K words, 7 minutes in heaven, mild spice, alcohol consumption, splash of blood, college au
“Ugh, what is he doing here?”
Lips curling in disgust, you turn to your best friend, jabbing your thumb in the direction of the biggest fucking asshole in the world. She laughs, steering you away from him and towards the kitchen instead.
“It’s a big party, [Name],” she says lightly. “Of course he’d be invited. Hell, I’m surprised he isn’t one of the people who organized this in the first place. Let’s just avoid him.”
Avoid him? Then, you may as well be admitting defeat. Besides, he’s the one that’s always antagonizing you. You tell Iris as much for the umpteen time, harrumphing, “I swear to god, he hates my guts.”
“I know, I know,” she placates you, as if you were a whiny child.
You know that she doesn’t believe you. No, to be exact, you know that she thinks you’re only exaggerating things.
Sweet, charming Erik, darling of Ashwood College, is unknown to none and admired by all. Outwardly, he is perfect in all senses of the word. The thought of him hating someone, genuinely hating someone, is ridiculous. Utterly ridiculous.
That is why the whole school only sees the dynamic between you two as a friendly rivalry.
They don’t see the pure, unadulterated loathing in his eyes when he stares at you, the cruelty in his sneer and the venom in his words. They don’t see how tense he gets around you in a way he never does around everybody else, how his golden boy facade slips and his true colours show. They don’t see how he tries to one-up you in everything that you do, how he invades and infiltrates every club and event that you join just to steal the spotlight away from you.
You sigh, collecting yourself. You don’t actually know what you did to incur the ‘Chosen One’s’ wrath, but it’ll be a cold day in hell before you let the likes of him break your spirit. You aren’t dubbed as his ‘rival’ for nothing, after all.
“[Name]! Iris! Come, join us!”
Turning towards the sound of a familiar voice, you find a large group of people sitting in a vague shape of a circle in the living room. You catch his eyes — Erik’s eyes — immediately. Bright green, glittering with malice like a fucking Disney villain.
“What are y’all doing?” you ask, glancing away, ignoring him in favour of your grinning friend.
Enthusiastically, he raises a bottle of vodka up for you to see, shaking it slightly for good measure. “We’re starting with ‘Never Have I Ever’.”
Iris laughs. “Sure. Sounds fun.”
Slotting yourselves into the group, the games begin innocently enough. You take a few shots here and there, but it’s nothing you can’t handle. Iris takes more, surprising even you with some of her answers.
Your turn comes. You play it safe. “Never have I ever… met a celebrity.”
Both groans and cheers erupt from the group.
“That’s cheating!” “C’mon, bro…” “You have to take a shot too, [Name]!”
“Huh?” Confusion draws your brows together. “I do?”
Several stunned faces stare blankly at you, before hysterical laughter overcomes everyone in the room. Your friend, the one who first invited you to play, is laughing so hard that he’s literally rolling on the ground.
“Don’t tell me — Erik — HAHAHA…!”
Reality hits you like a shit ton of bricks. Ah, right. Erik. Supermodel, famous actor, famous parents and all that. You honestly forgot he existed for a second, with how uncharacteristically quiet he’s been tonight.
“Oh my god,” you gasp, “I completely forgot.”
You burst into laughter along with them, and the moment passes lightheartedly. Out of the corners of your eyes, you watch as Erik seethes behind his smile, and self-satisfaction warms your heart. Reminding an attention seeker that you couldn't care less about him… Though unintentional, that definitely had to hurt.
Then, comes Erik’s turn to ask a question.
Eyes piercing holes into your soul, a wicked grin splits his face wide open, and you just know he’s targeting you.
“Never have I ever kissed someone.”
Huh. That’s a lot tamer than you had expected it to be.
The majority of the group take a shot, though some don’t. Including you. After some mild teasing, just as everyone is about to move on to the next question, Erik speaks up once more.
“You’ve never kissed anyone before, [Name]?”
He frames it as an innocent, curious question, but you see it for what it truly is. He’s mocking you. How childish. Who cares whether or not you’ve kissed anyone? You have standards, okay? Unlike a certain someone…
“That’s preposterous!” one of your other friends cries, words slurred by tipsiness. “We have to fix that!”
Agreement ripples down the circle, and someone else exclaims, “Let’s play seven minutes in heaven!”
Slightly tipsy yourself, you go along with it with a laugh. There are so many people playing, what are the odds that you are chosen?
As it turns out, very fucking high.
You watch with a growing sense of horror as the glass bottle stalls, its cap pointing straight at you. Eager ‘ooh!’s and wolf whistles sound throughout the room, all of your friends apparently ecstatic that you’d finally be receiving your first kiss. Slowly, disbelievingly, and utterly painfully, you turn to look up at the one who had spun the bottle.
Erik fucking Agapov.
Cockily, he stands, directing down at you a taunting smile. “What are you waiting for?”
“I —”
“Scared, are you?” he interrupts. Roguishly, he winks. “Don’t worry, I don’t bite.”
I will, you think to yourself. You’ll bite his damned tongue off if he tries getting anywhere near you.
Iris pats your shoulder as an attempt at reassurance as you get up too, meeting his gaze boldly. Scoffing, you roll your eyes. “You wish. Come on, let’s get this over with already. What are you, a snail?”
Cheers spur you on as you enter the bedroom with him, and the alcohol in your system acts as liquid courage. Instead of kissing, though, you want to use this time you have to confront him. It’s the first time you’ve ever actually interacted with him one-on-one, and you’ll probably never get a chance like this again, so you want to make the most out of it.
The moment the door clicks shut, you round on him immediately.
“Why do you hate me so much?”
His mask shatters. His smile drops, and it is replaced by a look of unfiltered detestation. “Hah! Shouldn’t I be the one asking you that question? You — I’ve been nothing but nice to you. To everyone. But you — You act as if I’m nothing but the dirt under your shoe! You want to know why I hate you so much? It’s because you’re the most infuriating person I’ve ever met!”
“Me? Infuriating?” you parrot incredulously. “You’re the one who’s always bothering me! The staring, the mocking, joining every club I’m in just to show off in front of me — What is your problem?!”
“To put you in your place, obviously,” he retorts, scowling, crossing his arms. “You need to learn to respect your betters!”
Your eyebrows raise sky-high. “Are you hearing yourself right now? What the fuck do you mean my ‘betters’? You’re not better than me, you absolute —”
Wait.
That’s it.
He hates you because you don’t worship the ground he walks on.
Oh my god, that’s it?
The stupidity of this realisation has a laugh bubbling out of your throat, causing him to startle at the rapid shift in your emotions. You take a step forward, and he, unwittingly, takes a step back.
“Why would I respect you?” you ask, condescension dripping from your tone. “You’re vain, petty, and a two-faced bastard. It’s a wonder I’m the only one who noticed. Or maybe the others have too, but they just don’t care because you’re an oh-so-famous superstar. That’s all you’re good for, isn’t it?”
A low blow, you admit. But you couldn’t give less of a fuck.
Something darker flashes across his features, yet it flickers away before you get a good read on it. Rolling his eyes, he bites back, “It’s more than you’ll ever be.”
Fury roars in your head, searing your skin as it surges through your veins. Does he know just how hard you’ve worked to get to where you are now? Of course not. Not when he was born with a platinum spoon in his mouth. Not when the entire world knew his name before he was even born.
“If you’re soooo confident in yourself, why are you so desperate for my admiration?” You take another step forward, then another, until the both of you are nose to nose. You jab your finger into his chest sharply, provoking him with your unflinching stare. “It’s because you’re an insecure coward. Why don’t you use all that money of yours to buy yourself a backbone?”
He snaps out a quick response, but you don’t really hear it.
The sound — no, the feeling — of his heartbeat drowns out every other noise in the room. From just your one fingertip, pressed onto his clothes over where his heart would be, the hummingbird-esque thrum reverberates. With how close you are to him, you can feel the tent forming in his pants. His breaths fans out over your face, shuttered and choppy, and even in the dark, you can see how wide his pupils are blown.
Emerald green glimmers in the pale moonlight, not out of hatred but… lust?
Have you been misreading his expressions this entire time?
“You’re obsessed with me, aren’t you?” you murmur, your second realisation clicking into place. Without noticing, you’ve somehow backed him up against the bedroom door. “You can’t stop thinking about me, about the fact that I know what you’re truly like. You try to one-up me in everything I do like some fucked up mating dance. You act like you hate me, but all I’m seeing is denial.”
His face screws up with the pathetic attempt at a snarl, but the effect is lost as a violent flush blooms across his cheeks. “Listen here, you — ah!”
Grasping him by the hair, you pull him down so that he is forced to look up at you.
“No, you listen,” you hiss. “The only one who has to learn respect here is you.”
Briefly, you glance down at the watch on your wrist. Roughly four minutes left. More than enough time to teach him a lesson.
Something evil must show on your face right now, for his annoying bravado finally falters, and uncertainty takes over his features. You can’t say that you aren’t pleased to see it.
“You’re lucky that you’re good-looking,” you tell him.
Then, you kiss him.
His entire body tenses up, much more than it already has. You can feel his breath hitch, but he doesn’t kiss you back. Wickedly, you bite his lower lip, pressing yourself closer the moment he yelps.
“[Name], oh —”
You lowkey have zero idea what you’re doing, so you’re praying to all the gods above that the fanfiction you’ve read doesn’t lead you astray. Judging by how tight his pants are getting, you suppose you’re not doing too bad.
Clumsily, he begins to react. His hands wrap around you, drawing you closer, and you swallow his groan as you part his legs with your thigh. He tries to move, to grind against you, but you cut that out with a yank to his hair.
An odd sound escapes him, half a sob and half a moan. He keens into you even more. One of his legs raises, hooking around yours.
“Do you do this to everyone that doesn’t like you?” you ask derisively, words punctuated by short pants as you catch your breath. A thin string of saliva connects the two of you still. “Beg for their attention like a dog with cheap tricks? Whore yourself out?”
“No, I — I —”
Raising your knee, you watch with vindication as he’s reduced to a stammering mess. “Tell me, hm? Where’s that smart mouth of yours gone?”
You don’t think he even understands what you’re saying anymore. He whines, clinging onto you, head dipping to trail kisses down your jaw.
“[Name], [Name]...”
His hair tickles your skin, and god, even his shampoo smells fancy. It irritates you more than you’d like to admit.
Your watch beeps. One last minute.
At this, you pull away from him. He staggers, legs giving way, collapsing to the floor limply.
Glossy eyes stare up at you, filled with an emotion you cannot quite place. He looks utterly debauched — mussed hair, red lips, rumpled collar. A small streak of blood is smeared at the corner of his mouth. You must’ve bitten him a little too hard.
“You better freshen yourself up now. You’re a mess,” you comment casually. “Of course, unless you want our dear friends to see you like this, then, by all means.”
He blinks. Once, twice, eyelashes fluttering as if he were only just waking up from a dream.
“You…”
Three sharp raps against the bedroom door steal your attention away from him.
“Time’s up!” It’s Iris. “Are y’all still alive in there?”
Laughing, you step around him, reaching for the doorknob. “All’s good! Coming right out.”
(You don’t know it then, but you’ve doomed yourself right there.)
if you’ve read my previous work on erik, just ignore any discrepancies in the lore LOL. i changed a lot of the story since i first posted that villain!erik story last year, so ig this counts as a reboot?
anyway he's such an attention seeker i love him <333
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Prompt: He's your fiancé, soon to be husband, much to your intense displeasure. He's simply the worst! No tact, clingy, dumb as a sack of potatoes, not to mention all the trouble he gets himself into. You'll soon learn that there's more to him than meets the eye when he saves you from assassins.
M Yandere x F Reader, reader is cis, reader is weary, easily annoyed, adaptable, yan is unhinged, needy, melodramatic, inhuman
You hasten your steps, your heels clicking on the ground. You hurry under the balcony of the ballroom, floor to ceiling windows on your right and the pillars that hold up said balcony to your left. You wish you could magic yourself away from here. He's here again. Your fiancé. Now that the wedding is drawing closer, he's become extra clingy, following you around like a lost puppy, eyes sparkling as he talks about how much he can't wait to marry you. You can wait. You can wait for the rest of time, in fact.
Why did your father insist upon this marriage? He may be the heir to a dukedom, but he certainly doesn't act like it. You don't think you've ever seen him fulfilling his duties as heir apparent. He has a horrible reputation too, known for being frivolous, a spendthrift, and exceedingly tactless. He's always the talk of high society and never for a good reason. Thanks to him, there aren't many who will socialize with you anymore.
It was a political marriage, only suggested because it was beneficial for you to marry into the archduke's family as a daughter of one of the founding families of the empire. It was a show of strength and goodwill for the two families to join together or something like that. You were pretty sure that Archduke Rosera was only interested in your father's numerous gem mines, one of which was to be your dowry.
You duck around a corner, crashing into somebody. They grunt, setting their hands on your shoulders to steady you. A familiar scent of rose petals invades your senses. Ugh. You shove him away.
"I see you've doused yourself in perfume again, Lord Rosera."
"Darling! I've been looking for you everywhere!"
You stare flatly up at him, resisting the urge to cover your nose and mouth. He's not much taller than you, a bit soft in the middle. You doubt he actually knows how to use the sword at his side. Long, white, wavy hair falls over his shoulders, fading into a soft pink, framing his oval face. A smattering of freckles decorates the bridge of his nose and his round cheekbones. Magenta eyes gaze down at you, flanked by thick, long lashes. He purses his full lips, just now noticing that you are not happy. His long coat is extravagant, colored mostly a bright cerulean blue, an ornate belt around his waist. Honestly, he hurts your eyes. He could be elegant if he didn't insist on dressing and acting like a peacock.
"Lord Rosera, must I remind you that I told you days ago that I would not be available for at least a week?"
His slightly droopy eyes sparkle with unshed tears at your words and you wish to smack him.
"But darling! How am I supposed to last a week without my fiancée? Your visage is like the morning sun to me. I fear I should wither away like a flower left in the dark without it."
You clasp your hands in front of you, not trusting yourself to leave them at your sides.
"Perhaps you should turn such devotion to other matters, such as your duties," you say with a light lipped smile.
"I can't work when I know that my darling fiancée is all alone. Besides, there's an aide to take care of it."
"Lord Rosera, please refrain from referring to me so casually."
"We are engaged, though, and soon to be wed. How can I refer to you so callously?"
Your eye twitches, and you feel a headache forming. He never listens to you, and today is no different. In one ear and out the other. There must be nothing between them.
"It is improper."
"What does impropriety matter between two lovers?"
"It matters a lot. And we are not lovers," you grit.
"Darling, you wound my tender heart!"
He steps closer, placing his gloved hands upon yours, his expression one of great anguish. How can someone be like this? And so sincerely too? Surely the Archduke did not raise him like this.
"I am going to wound your face if you do not step away from me," you glare.
"What harsh words! How could you dare to threaten my handsome face?"
You step back, narrowing your eyes. Why must he test your patience like this?
"Lord Rosera, I am quite busy, so I would thank you to leave the estate."
"You're kicking me out?"
He seems to deflate, giving you sad puppy eyes.
"I have things to attend to," you lie.
He pouts, looking like a scolded child.
"Very well, darling," he sighs dramatically.
He turns back the way he came, his long hair swaying behind him. You sigh in relief once he disappears from view. You place a hand on your temple, trying to will away your headache. The gods must have cursed you for some sin in your past life. There was simply no other explanation for the severe bad luck you had in getting him for a fiancé. You could have dealt with it if he wasn't so obsessed with you. You would have lived quietly in his manor, not even said anything if he would just leave you alone. Alas, you are doomed to marry Lord Helegywn Rosera.
(🍝 A/N, Helegywn - hell-a-gwen)
You stand at the edge of the ballroom, delicately nibbling on a pastry. Once again, you are a social pariah, left to stand in a corner all alone, watching others dance and laugh. Strangely, your fiancé is nowhere to be seen. Usually, he's pulling you to the dance floor again and again or telling grand stories to other nobles. It's making you nervous. You know that you told him you didn't want to see him, but it's been two weeks since you last saw him. You keep expecting him to come bounding out of nowhere to lament about not seeing his lovely darling for so long.
A group of young ladies approaches the dessert table, gossiping amongst themselves. You pretend to not be eavesdropping, gazing out into the pairs of twirling people.
"Did you hear about Lord Rosera?"
You freeze.
"I heard he got punished for sneaking off so much. The Archduke was furious."
"I would be ashamed to be his father."
"I'd be ashamed to be his fiancée. Poor thing. I can't imagine having to deal with that man."
"He's so beautiful, but it's a shame about his personality."
"I heard something else interesting."
The ladies huddle closer together, hoping that this is going to be juicy gossip.
"Did you know there was an ancient dragon named Helegywn?"
"Ugh, everyone already knows about that."
"What? I didn't."
"Apparently his mother named him that because he was sickly as a child and she hoped the name would give him strength."
The ladies quiet for a moment, then burst into laughter.
"Strength? Hah! More like clumsiness. I saw him trip on a pebble and fall flat on his face once."
"Oh? I once saw him slip on ice and do the splits."
You groan internally.
"I hear he pesters his fiancée to no end, to the point where she orders the guards to throw him out."
"I saw her punch him at last year's Yule Ball."
You flush. Why does everyone still remember that? It was the only time you had ever laid hands on him, and of course, nearly every noble saw. You hadn't been able to go out into public for two months.
"Oh dear. How violent! Is she even a lady?"
"She's so scary with that glare of hers."
"What a pair they are."
The ladies giggle among themselves, moving on to other topics. You stop listening, no longer interested. You feel a bit better now that you know the reason for his absence. Honestly, the Archduke is too lenient on him. You smirk to yourself, thinking about Lord Rosera drowning in a sea of papers. He's probably crying and whining about not being able to leave. A couple of lords pass by you, giving you weird looks. You quickly school your expression.
You mill about the dessert table for a while, trying to stay long enough that there won't be gossip about you leaving early. It's dreadfully boring, though. An hour passes, and you're just about to doze off on your feet when someone is announced.
"Lor—Lord Helegywn Rosera entering."
Your eyes fly wide open, looking toward the entrance doors. You see a flash of white hair tinged with pink. Oh dear. Should you escape to a balcony? People scurry out of his way, not wanting to be caught in a conversation with him. It only takes a simple glance to be roped into an hour long conversation with him. You decide you don't want to deal with him tonight, ducking out of the ballroom. The air is cool outside and it's much quieter. You stand off to the side, behind the curtain, hoping that he didn't see you.
Your wish isn't granted of course, the balcony doors opening and Lord Rosera walking out. He smiles at you and you feel a chill down your spine. He looks as cheerful as usual, but you can tell that he's feeling very aggrieved.
"Darling! Why are you hiding from me?"
"Lord Rosera. I just happened to step out as soon as you came in," you smile.
"Is that so?"
He steps closer and you glance to the balcony door, wondering if you should make a run for it. Your reputation is already terrible; what's one more incident?
"I'm terribly sorry for not coming to see you. My father demanded that I finish my work and I couldn't get away," he whines.
He stands in front of you, too close for your taste. You end up with your back pressed against the wall, vines digging into your skin.
"Lord Rosera, I must ask that you do not stand so close."
"But darling! I've missed you."
He steps even closer, now only a foot away. He's sulking, lips in a pout, twirling the ends of his hair between his gloved fingers.
"Is that so? Well, I didn't miss you."
"Darling! You're so mean to me!" he cries.
Tears well in his magenta eyes and it becomes really hard not to roll your own. The balcony door slips open again, a tall man stepping out. A savior! He stops short when he sees the two of you, Lord Rosera almost in tears and the angry expression on your face. You realize who he is then.
"Lord Rosera. Lady L/N."
His brows draw together in annoyance. It's Count Sentara, a man who had had his sights set on you as a wife until your engagement with Lord Rosera was announced. He's rail thin, with narrow grey eyes and brown hair swept back neatly. He's also a snobbish dolt.
"Count Sentara. It's been a while," Lord Rosera says, narrowing his eyes.
They glare at each other. You start to edge toward the open balcony door.
"I heard the Archduke recently hired new guards. I wonder what for," the count says.
Lord Rosera grits his teeth in what barely qualifies as a smile and is fast becoming a snarl. Everyone knows that his father is constantly exasperated with his son's ability to charm the guards into letting him sneak out.
"How's that new business venture going for you?"
The count bristles. Every business he's ever touched has fallen to ruin within months of his investment. The two of them trade barely veiled insults, ignoring you. You slip back into the ballroom, quickly leaving. You hurry to your carriage, the driver taking one look at you and grabbing the reins. It pulls away from the manor and you finally relax.
You glare at the massive bouquet of flowers that has just been delivered to you. Much like the man himself, they are overly extravagant, brightly colored, and obnoxious. You pluck out the card, sneering at the words.
To my darling,
I hope these flowers brighten your day.
Your fiancé, Helegywn
You stare at his name for a moment, remembering the gossip you heard at the ball the other day. You snicker. He's just about the clumsiest person you've ever met, slamming into doorways, tripping over his own feet, dropping cups of tea. You'd feel sorry for the man, but you enjoy when he manages to make a fool of himself. Which is always. You glance at the card again. It seems awfully short for him. Usually, it would be an entire letter. You notice an extra line at the bottom.
P.S. Llewellyn Opera House, two o'clock
You frown. What? Is this code for something? Why would he write that? Two o'clock? You rummage through your desk, pulling out a pocket watch. It's after two o'clock. Surely he doesn't mean in the morning? You summon a maid, telling her to send a message to your fiancé. She comes back an hour later, saying that Lord Rosera is away from his manor. You fret over the letter for hours, unable to think of a good explanation as to why on earth he would write such a thing.
You head to bed, tossing and turning. Eventually, you can no longer stand it, getting up and dressing in your plainest dress. You throw a cloak over your shoulders, pulling the hood far over your face. You sneak out of your room, managing to convince one of the carriage drivers to the opera house. You have him stop a couple streets away, waving off his concern for you.
You walk to the opera house, the darkened windows seeming like the open maws of some great creature. You try the door, finding it unlocked. A sense of foreboding fills you, but you have to know what that letter was about. You're simply the type of person to never be able to let things alone when you should. You bite your lip. Perhaps you should go back and bring a guard with you. A shuffle from inside startles you from your thoughts. A hand latches onto your wrist, yanking you into the dark opera house.
You open your mouth to scream and another hand slaps it shut. More hands grab onto you, dragging you further into the darkness. You thrash, swinging with your unrestrained hand. You gasp in pain as your arm is twisted behind your back. You get shoved onto the floor, someone kicking you in the back.
"Ha! Is this woman stupid? I can't believe she fell for it," a nasally voice says.
You peer into the dark, but you can only make out vague shadows.
"Lord Rosera must be ridiculous enough that she really thought it was him."
"Well, all the better for us."
Someone yanks you up by your hair and you feel cold steel against your throat. Your eyes widen as you realize what this is.
"Wait!" you cry.
"Shut up, bitch."
"Wh—Why are you doing this?"
"Why else? Because we're getting money for it," the nasally voice says.
"Lord Rosera knows where I am!"
"Quit trying to stall."
"I have a location bracelet upon me!"
The men go quiet. You're lying, of course, but there is indeed a bracelet on your wrist. Your hand gets yanked up, someone tearing the bracelet off.
"Is there any magic on it?"
"Holy shit. What the hell?"
"What? What is it?"
"This has got so much magic sunk into it that it's practically dripping with it."
"Fuck."
"Throw it away! Quick!"
The men are panicking now, leaving you greatly confused. The bracelet had been a gift from Lord Rosera. He had insisted that you wear it, pleading with teary eyes. You had acquiesced only so that he would leave you alone. You didn't think that you would end up never taking it off. It was a plain silver, woven into an intertwining design with three small pink stones. You had to admit that it was pretty as well as durable. It never rusted when wet nor did it bend. It was an excellent gift, exactly your taste, though you told yourself you were only wearing it so that Lord Rosera wouldn't whine about it. Did it really have magic in it?
The steel drops from your neck for a second, giving you an opportunity to lunge away from the men. You crash into what appears to be a desk, vaulting yourself over it. You crawl underneath it, hoping that it's dark enough that no one saw where you went.
"Hey! Come back here!"
"Did you let go of her!?"
"No! She jumped away when I was distracted!"
"Fuck! Where did she go!?"
"I don't know! I'm not the one who can see in the dark!"
"You fucking imbecile!"
They start tearing the place apart, their footsteps crisscrossing over the floor. You breathe as lightly as you can, terrified. Your heart thuds in your chest, your hands sweaty. You don't dare to move again, scared that one of them will see. You clasp your hands, praying to the gods, to anyone. Please, please save me. I don't want to die.
A light flares in the opera house, throwing shadows in front of the desk you're hiding under. The reception desk. You're in the foyer of the opera house. If you scream, someone might hear you, but then the men will know where you are. The light grows brighter, illuminating the whole space. Several of the men shout and you hear a clash of steel. Are they fighting? You tremble, tears threatening your eyes. You won't be able to stall again if you're found. Footsteps echo near the desk and you see a pair of legs come into view. Your stomach drops. No, no, please no.
"Darling. There you are."
"Lor—Lord Rosera?"
Gloved hands reach under the desk, pulling you out from under it. He engulfs you in a hug, clutching you to his chest. You sob, collapsing in his hold.
"There, there, darling. Don't cry."
You cry into his shoulder, for once grateful for the overwhelming scent of his perfume.
"I—I thought I wa—was going to die," you wail.
His hold tightens on you.
"I'm sorry, my darling."
You sniffle and cough, fat tears rolling over your cheeks. He lets you sob into his shoulder until your tears run dry, rubbing your back soothingly. After a while, you pull away, looking up at him. His magenta eyes are soft, hair slightly mussed. What catches your eye, though, is the splatter of blood across his cheek.
"Wha—What happened?"
You turn your head to look, but he turns it back gently.
"Don't look. I'm afraid it isn't pretty."
"Lord Rosera?"
You finally notice that it is dead silent in the foyer. Nothing except for your sniffles. The coppery tang of blood is strong in the air.
"Did you—Did you kill them?" you whisper.
"Of course. They threatened my lovely darling," he smiles.
You stare at him. He looks completely unconcerned, his gaze solely on you. It doesn't bother him. Not one bit. There are men dead behind you and blood staining his skin and clothes and he seems not to notice at all. You glance to his sword. Red decorates the hilt. You swallow hard.
"I thought you hated violence," you say.
He blinks. His grin grows wider, edging into mania.
"How could I leave such villains alive when they were going to murder you?"
"I—I've never seen you even touch your sword. You're—You're—" you stop.
"A lazy fool? Clumsy? Only concerned with pretty things?"
You press your lips together. He grabs your hand, bringing it up to cup his cheek. Blood smears on your hand, cool and sticky.
"Darling, there is much you don't know about me."
He smirks at you, the expression completely at odds with his soft features. He kisses your palm, eyes alight with madness.
"I would be remiss to not know how to protect my dear fiancée."
"How did you know where I was?"
His other hand leaves your waist, holding up a familiar silver bracelet. He spins it on one finger, cheerful as he speaks.
"This bracelet of yours is very useful."
"It—It really had a tracking spell on it!?"
"Hm? How did you know?"
You gape at him. He narrows his eyes at you.
"That was just a lie to stall for time. I didn't think…" you pause. "Have you been stalking me?"
"How else am I supposed to protect my darling? I can't very well leave you on your own, now can I?"
You yank your hand away. This man is unfamiliar to you now. A completely unknown person. Just who is Lord Helegywn Rosera?
After Lord Rosera brought you back to your manor, you spend several days locked in your room, shocked at the fact that your fiancé is apparently a crazed lunatic. Word spreads like wildfire that the daughter of Marquis L/N was nearly assassinated. You read the paper, crinkling it in your hands. It reports that you were saved by a guard who happened to pass by and heard you scream. He then ran in, killed your attackers, and brought you home. There's not a single mention of Lord Rosera.
After two weeks, you're starting to feel a little stir crazy, so you decide to attend a ball. Your escort is of course, Lord Rosera, who clings closer than ever. He appears as ditzy as ever, stepping on your toes several times as you dance, but his eyes are sharp under his white lashes, scanning the ballroom. You pull him out to an empty room after he steps on your feet one too many times, whirling on him to shout.
"What are you doing!? Are you stepping on my toes on purpose!?"
"Darling, I would never!"
He pouts at you, droopy eyes wet, only now you can see the cunning glint to them. This man has fooled everyone. For years. Even when he was a child, he was the talk of the empire for being a clumsy crybaby. What drove him to act such a way?
"Why are you doing this? What's the point in fooling everybody like you have?"
"The point?"
He steps closer, pulling you toward him by your waist. He smirks.
"For fun," he chirps happily.
"Are you insane?"
"Darling, you're saying such mean things to me again," he whines.
You push him away, your hand coming up and cracking across his face. He stands there stunned for a moment, his head turned to the side. He slowly looks at you, a sick grin on his face.
"My, darling, how bold of you."
He takes your hands in his, kissing your knuckles. His cheek blooms red, his eyes filled with love. Oh. You forgot about that particular tendency of his. You had only hurt him once, when you'd punched him in the gut at the Yule Ball, learning that he didn't mind one bit, looking at you like you'd just kissed him silly or something.
"There's something wrong with you," you frown.
"Of course, darling."
"Could you refrain from stepping on my toes in the future?"
"People would be suspicious if I suddenly became good at dancing, darling."
You pull your hands away, frustrated.
"Helegywn," you hiss.
He stills, eyes widening in surprise. You haven't ever called him by his first name, not once. You don't know why it slipped out now. He leans forward, cupping your jaw and tilting your face upwards. His magenta eyes are locked on yours, intense, seeing through to your very soul it seems.
"Say it again."
"You are much too close, Lord Rosera."
"Darling, please," he begs.
He's centimeters from your face now, close enough that if you even leaned forward even the slightest amount your lips would touch. Your hands push against his chest, unable to make him budge even a little. His thumb brushes over your cheek and you swear you can feel the warmth of his lips. He leans forward, ghosting his lips over yours. You flush bright red.
"Helegywn!"
He shudders, eyes fluttering shut for a moment.
"It sounds much nicer in your mouth," he murmurs.
"Wh—What do you think you're doing!?" you shriek.
You slap your hand over his mouth, heart pounding in your chest. His tongue slowly drags over your palm, looking straight into your eyes as he does it. You yank your hand away.
"You—You—You—" you splutter.
"Yes, darling?"
You wipe your hand on your dress, pulling yourself together.
"Have you been possessed? Did you hit your your head one too many times?"
"I'm not possessed," he hums.
He sets a hand on your waist, yanking you into him. You blush again. Even through all the layers of clothes, you can feel a…development. Oh dear. He must be rather well endowed. You turn even redder. What are you thinking about!?
"Let go of me!"
"Darling, you have no idea how much I want you."
He leans down to kiss you, pecking your cheek instead when you turn your head. He pins you against a wall, sliding a hand down to your thigh and pushing a knee between your legs. Your mind has blanked, stunned into silence. Lord Rosera may be clingy, but he's never crossed the line like this. Was it because you slapped him? Or was it because he had dropped the sweet and naïve act?
"Darling, you smell so sweet," he groans, nuzzling your neck.
He licks your neck, tongue almost scorching hot. You flinch. His hands begin to pull your skirts up and it's then that you decide your fiancé must be out of his damn mind. You reach up, grabbing a handful of his hair and yank his head back. He lets out a sound that makes you flush in embarrassment.
"Mmn, darling!"
He tilts his head at you, eyes dark with lust. You let go, face burning. Damn it! Why do you keep accidentally hurting him?
"What's with you? Is saying your name really that pleasing to you?"
"You've never said my name before. Not once in three years of engagement. It is most pleasing to me, darling."
His hands continue pulling up your skirts, diving into the layers of linen and silk.
"Sto—Stop! We haven't been wed yet!"
"It's only two months until the wedding. Surely you can indulge me this one time."
Your face burns so hot you fear you're going to melt. Such words your fiancé is saying! Who knew that he was such a rogue.
"Someone could walk in here at any time," you grit.
"I find it interesting that those are the excuses you're coming up with instead of saying that you don't want me to touch you," he smirks, eyes glinting.
"I–I–I—You devil!"
You push at him. What is he saying? Of course you don't want him to touch you! You hate him. Don't you? Do you? It's true that he annoys you to no end and has destroyed your reputation. But it's also true that somewhere deep down you like the sheer amount of attention you get from him. It's more than you'd ever get from a man like Count Sentara. Marriage was for political and monetary benefit. Love was rare; the best you could hope for was an amiable relationship.
You can't possibly let him deflower you before your wedding, though! It was highly improper, not to mention you definitely did not want his hands on you. You were scared too, having heard from your governess that the first time would hurt and you would bleed. And what if he's no longer interested in you once he's had you? He's excellent at putting on a mask. What if this, too, is a farce? Tears well in your eyes from your thoughts.
"Darling?"
Lord Rosera lets go of your skirts, bringing his hands up to cup your face.
"I did not mean to pressure you, darling. I will not touch you. I can control myself until we are wed."
He gently kisses your forehead, brushing away your tears. His words make you cry harder. You feel so stupid for crying over such a thing. You've never been this emotional. What was your problem? You cry for a while, so much that Lord Rosera sneaks you out a side entrance to save you the embarrassment of people seeing your puffy face.
After that, you refuse all invitations, staying cooped up in your manor. You even refuse to see Lord Rosera, mortified that he's seen you break down twice, mortified that you had briefly considered whether you did like an insane stalker. The incident at the opera house must have caused your lapse in judgment. There was no way you could ever love such a man, much less marry him. With that in mind, you carefully bring it up to your father.
Your father's office is quiet, with only the sound of a quill scritching across parchment. He directs you to sit without a word, not even looking up at you. You sit on the edge of the chair, wringing your hands nervously. You had been determined earlier, ready to convince your father that marrying Lord Rosera was a terrible idea. Faced with it now, you were no longer as confident. It was two months until the wedding, the invitations had already been sent, the decorations chosen. Your dress was going through the last of the alterations. He'll never agree to it.
"What did you need?"
You jump at your father's voice, cold and detached.
"I wanted to talk about the wedding," you say quietly.
"Ah, about that. I've just received word that your grandparents will be able to attend."
Oh no. You definitely can't bring it up now.
"How is grandmother?"
"Well enough. She insisted that she would not be missing your wedding."
"That's…great," you say with a forced smile.
"What did you want to talk about?"
"Oh, um, I just wanted to ask how the preparations are going."
Your father tells you they're going well and you leave feeling defeated. Is there any way to get out of this marriage? You had protested and cried and thrown a fit when it was first announced, but everyone had ignored you, especially your father. He even refused to postpone the wedding after your assassination attempt. The perpetrators had been killed, you were still alive, and the royal guards had even found who had paid them. There was no reason to postpone the wedding in your father's mind and his word was law.
You decide to go riding for a bit, calling your maids to dress you. You walk to the stables flanked by two guards, something your mother had demanded. It irks you having to have a retinue. You like your privacy very much. You have the stable hands saddle your favorite horse, a delicate chestnut mare named Josie. You take her out on the forest trail, completing several circuits of it. Josie trots happily, excited to be out and about. She loves being in the capital for the social season; the sweet grass that grows near the stables is her favorite.
You groan, remembering that after the wedding, you'll be moving to the Archduke's estate in the northwest. The social season is nearly over, your wedding having been planned right at the tail end of it. You won't have the luxury of hiding in your father's capital manor anymore. You return to the stables, finding that a certain someone is there. You glare at him, dismounting your horse and refusing to speak to him. He gives you a smirk when no one's looking and then has the gall to dismiss your guards, citing that he wants to spend time with his lovely fiancée. The stable hands leave as well, cringing at his overly sugary words.
How irksome that no one has any second thoughts about leaving you with him. They all think him to be innocent and naïve, someone who would never dare to do more than hold hands before the wedding. If only they knew. You stalk to the tack room to return your riding crop, ignoring Lord Rosera tailing behind you. Your patience snaps when he mentions your flustered state the other day.
You wheel around, striking out with the riding crop. It whips across his thigh, causing him to moan. Your grip tightens on the crop, your rage heightening to a level you're rarely experienced before. You point to the floor, your voice brooking no room for argument.
"Kneel."
He immediately complies, smirking up at you, cheeks flushed. You walk around him, closing the door. If this man wishes to beaten, then he is going to be beaten. You order him to present his bottom to you.
"Oh my, darling. I didn't think you were into such a thing."
He looks back at you, hair sprawled across the floor in an erotic display. You grab a rag off a shelf, leaning down to shove it into his stupid mouth. The first hit of the riding crop cracks across his right cheek. He shivers and you hear a muffled moan. The sound enrages you further, spurring you on. You put all your strength into your swings, whipping him until you're panting heavily. He trembles on the floor, a small wet spot on his crotch. You catch your breath for a moment, suddenly wondering what would happen if you kept going.
The sight of him on the floor, bottom up, willingly taking every hit of the riding crop is causing you to realize some things. You like him like this, like the feeling of domination. You step closer, reaching around his hips to unbuckle his pants. You pull them down to reveal his reddened cheeks, grasping one in your hand. The skin is smooth, hot from the whipping. You squeeze it, eliciting a low moan. You swallow hard. Here you are, putting your hands on him when you were just crying about him doing the same to you. Something about this excites you, though, makes you feel in control.
You yank his pants down to his knees, staring at the appendage dangling between his thighs. Liquid drips from the tip of it, occasionally dropping down. Oh my. He really is quite big. And thick. You brush the tip of the riding crop against his length. He shudders, twitching, breath coming faster. You stand straight, raising the crop. You purposely aim between his buttocks. He lets out a strangled moan, thighs trembling. You hit him again. And again. And again. Until he practically screams through the gag, convulsing, thick ropes of his seed painting the floor and his thighs.
You feel a heat between your own legs, heady from the fact that you made him come from whipping him. You bite your lower lip, glad that there's no one else in the stables. You've done something taboo, something you never even thought about doing until now. Perhaps this marriage will work out if you have an outlet to express your anger. Lord Rosera took every hit of your riding crop so well, even when you hit his, ahem, crown jewels. It was obviously pleasurable for him, so you think you shouldn't feel too bad about hurting him.
You walk in front of him, using the toe of your riding boots to lift his chin. He pants, drool seeping through the rag you stuffed in his mouth. His face is flushed, eyes dark with lust and lovesickness. You lean down to remove the rag, crouching in front of him.
"This was a punishment," you scowl.
"O—Of course, darling," he pants.
"Clean yourself up," you order.
You stand, crossing your arms. He does as you say, purposely slow in his movements, looking you right in the eye as he wipes white liquid from his thighs. His pants are beyond saving, soaked through, so he pulls his thin cloak around him. He stands, legs shaking slightly and you feel a sense of pride for being the cause.
"You," you point at him. "Are a freak."
He grins at you.
"And what about you, my darling? Did you not just whip me until I came?"
You bristle.
"Get out."
"But, darling!"
He pouts at you, eyes filling with fake tears.
"No buts, get out of my sight. I am still irritated with you."
"You wound me, darling! How could you ever be upset with your fiancé?"
You glare at him and have to threaten to summon the guards before he finally takes his leave. You sit at your desk for a long while, contemplating your new discovery. While you still think that Lord Rosera is out of his mind, you feel a bit more amiable to the idea of marrying him. There's no way someone could fake liking having their privates hit like that. There was no doubt in your mind now that the man was hopelessly, completely, obsessively in love with you.
The embarrassment hits you as you're thinking, causing you to rethink your life decisions. You just whipped a man until he ejaculated. In the stables of all places. Someone could have walked by and heard his wanton moans. You press your fingers to your temple. It seems Lord Rosera is still giving you headaches, though for different reasons. Ah, well, at least this is more exciting than being engaged to somebody else. You know that no other man would be so receptive to your newly realized sadistic tendencies. Perhaps it's for the best that it's Lord Rosera you are marrying.
Helegywn sprawls on his bed, lower half still stinging pleasantly. He giggles. Ah, his lovely darling. How beautiful you looked with that fierce glare of yours as you told him to kneel. He'd gladly take any punishment from you, even if you should decide to gut him and watch his innards spill out. He rolls over onto his side, tongue tracing over the points of his teeth. He can't wait to marry you, to have you all to himself. To mark you as his. What a lovely life you'll have, together forever.
He didn't plan to reveal his true nature to you so soon, but it all worked out in the end. You weren't nearly as disgusted with him as he feared you would be. You were even still wearing the bracelet he had gifted you. He giggles again, dissolving into maniacal laughter. How cute you were, willingly giving yourself to a beast such as himself. He wonders how you would react if he told you everything. Would you still level that glare at him and raise your hand against him? Ah, perhaps he should. Fear looks good on his darling as well.
He twirls his hair between tattooed fingers, giddy from thinking about you. There was a certain thrill from tricking you these past three years, but he thinks it should be even better to drag you fully into his world. Oh, how you'll wish you had never given in to him. You have no idea the lengths Helegywn will go to keep you all for himself. He'd even go through divine punishment again. All for you. Only for you. His darling, his lovely darling, his until the end of time.
(🍝 A/N, there will be more of this in the future, don't worry. Just trying to clear out my fic ideas right now.)
Scaramouche + “I regret to inform you, my Lord, but I believe I may have fallen ill while you where away.”
The words you put so neatly to paper were done on a whim. You were bored and restless, maybe a little bitter, that someone who refused to let you access the greater wide world would feel justified in leaving you alone--not literally, though you hardly call a handmaiden and guards who won't converse with you outside of stilted repetition of their orders much better--for weeks at a time. Even if it was on some important business, something he couldn't get away from, and so on, as he told you.
So you wrote them down in a flourish,. To worry him, to bother him, maybe that was one and the same. You expected to get a vexed letter back... maybe even new orders to the guards to bring in a physician to examine you
What you didn't expect was to be woken in the dead of night by the sound of furious footsteps and snapping words, by the clang of guards' armors as they sprang to attention on what would have been an otherwise boring night watch.
What you didn't expect was your bedroom door to fling open, revealing Scaramouche, eyes wide and pupils large, breath puffing out in a furious huff.
But that is exactly what has happened, and now you're sitting up in bed, hair askew, your own eyes wide with fright. You cling to the luxurious blanket covering you in your thin night clothes.
"M-My lord!" Because what else is there to say, when your Harbringer husband storms in when he isn't supposed to return for another 4 weeks?
He's standing next to the bed before you can think or blink, face pink with exertion and perhaps anger.
"What's wrong? Have those idiots I left in charged called for a physician yet? Do you have a fever? Have you thrown up? You were the only one who bothered to write of your illness. I should have their heads."
The barrage of words leaves you at a loss. You didn't think he would be this upset.
"I... I..."
He grabs at you, clutches at your wrist, fingers pressing on your pulse, fast and frightened from your unexpected awakening.
"Spit it out," he says, but rather than pure irritation there's something woven into his words that gives you pause.
Fear?
Perhaps it's this realization that gives you the courage to push forward. You swallow and speak slowly, giving your voice some much needed hoarseness for good measure.
"I'm... feeling better now," you say, voice tiny and unsure. "I-I'm sorry, I shouldn't have worried you. I had a terrible headache and stomach pains, but it passed a few hours after I wrote my letter, and I didn't think to change it."
His lips curl into a frown. He looks you over, perhaps taking in whether or not the sweat on your forehead is from heat or nervousness or the aftermath of illness.
And then his hand goes to your forehead, and your stomach clenches--it reminds you of your mother.
He tsks.
"You're still warm," he says, after some consideration.
Are you? Or is it a lie he's telling to make you feel better? Or to make himself feel better, for having come all this way in such a state?
"Lie down. I'll have a servant bring you something cool."
There's nothing to do but ease yourself back down on your pillows, watching the Harbringer that has made yourself your husband, and wait to see what comes next.
˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ summary!! basically regressor au bc he lowkey fumbled in the past lifetime (you died) so he pulled the uno reverse card and highkey turned back the time
sfw
˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ genre: fluff, angst, suggestive?? (kissy kiss in the future chapters but that's all)
╰┈➤warning/s: yandere, obsessive content, dark content, character death
╰┈➤rating: 17+ (anyone below DO NOT INTERACT)
STATUS: ongoing
✦ CHAPTERS ✦
chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 3
chapter 4 (tbd)
✦ ADDENDUM✦
Since I may not be able to explore it in the comics, I'm giving these details to provide the narrative more context tehee
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Sanguine eyes seize yours the moment you step into the throne room.
Your breath catches at the sheer power blanketing the area, syrupy sweet, tangible enough you can taste it. A lazy smirk stretches across the Demon King’s face, and he makes no move to rise from the throne upon which he lounges. His voice is velvet smooth, and it reverberates throughout the room.
“My saintess, you’ve come at last.”
“Yes,” you say slowly, unflinchingly. “I’ve come to kill you.”
He only laughs.
It is terribly beautiful. He is terribly beautiful.
Inky hair flutters as he shifts, and it glitters in the pale moonlight, as if made of the abyss itself. His head dips to the side. “Why? Doing so would grant you nothing.”
He’s wrong. Killing him — or at the very least, sealing him away — would grant you everything. You’d be able to solidify your position as High Priestess and amass your own power, and finally, you’d be able to break away from the control of those wretched Cardinals. The Church, the holy city, the world… All of it would eventually be yours.
Yet… things are never that simple, are they?
Now, with him face to face, the vast difference in your power levels is painfully obvious. The demon lord has been toying with you from the very beginning, and the only reason you are standing before him now is because he wants you to. He has been slowly, almost tauntingly, leading you closer and closer toward him as if you were a wild rabbit to be captured and tamed. He could have killed you, at any time, if he had wanted to. He can kill you, right now, if he so wants to.
His eyes glitter with sick delight, having read the thoughts right off your face. Standing, he glides down the dais with inhumane grace.
“Join hands with me,” he purrs, closing the distance between the two of you within seconds. “We could rule the world. All you have to do is say the word.”
“You mean you could rule the world,” you counter bitingly, stepping backwards.
There is no way the Demon King, the most prideful being that could walk the earth, would allow you to rule alongside him as his equal. No, he wants you as a doll and as a pet, as some pretty little treasure that he can keep forever chained to his side.
All the riches in the world, the boundless glory and endless land… If you joined him, none of it would truly be yours no matter how much he claims it to be.
Your back hits the main doors of the throne room with a soft thud. When your hands find its handles, you realise they are locked.
Refusing to be intimidated, you meet his gaze head on, glaring up at him venomously. By now, you are close enough your noses nearly brush. His arms rise, caging you in between him and the doors.
“What do you want from me?” you demand. “Why are you doing this?”
“Must you have me voice it out loud?” he asks in a low, honeyed tone. There’s a smile on his face, neither kind nor warm, but somehow, somewhat fond. His palm grazes your cheek, and if he were not the demon king, you would have described the motion as tender. “Very well. Though only because it is you.”
His lips brush the shell of your ear. “I love you.”
You are so startled you freeze, wide-eyed, jaw slack. “What are you —”
“I loathe you,” he confesses with a murmur. “So much so that I want to kill you, and consume your power whole. Slowly, torturously, I want to inflict upon you an agony so unbearable you cry and beg for death. I want to make you scream.”
The hand he has on the door falls, ghosting down your arm to grasp your wrist instead. The other hand slips from your cheek to cup your neck. His skin is ice cold.
“And yet… I desire you,” he continues, each word punctuated with the butterfly kisses he trails down your jawline. His fang-like canines graze your skin, and you can’t help but shudder. “I want to make you mine and mine alone. To see only me, touch only me, exist for only me. Your body, your mind, your soul — I want your everything.”
Somehow, your hand finds itself flat against his chest, a useless barrier between you and him. Beneath your fingertips, you can feel a parody of a heartbeat.
Gently, he takes your hand in his, shifting it from his chest to the small of his back. He places one last kiss to the corner of your lips, gazing up at you with dark, searching eyes.
“It is to the point that I chase after you, foolishly, despite knowing you feel nothing for me. If that is not love, then what is?”
Regaining your senses after his ridiculous speech, you push him away, forcing him off of you. He stumbles, ever so slightly, but it is enough.
“Love?” you parrot, scoffing incredulously, furiously. “That’s nothing but a twisted obsession.”
Curious eyes find yours. “And what, pray tell, is the difference?”
You don’t deign to respond, instead choosing to summon your magic, flinging it at him as if it were a dagger. It cuts into his skin, leaving a thin slash on his jaw that draws golden blood.
Surprise flickers over his face, and carefully, he brings a hand to inspect the wound. At the sight of ichor tainting his fingertips, he chuckles.
The grin on his face is positively manic. “You never cease to impress me, darling saintess. You know, I’m tempted to let you have your way with me, just to see what you will do. It’s bound to be entertaining, don’t you think?”
“You’re a crazy bastard,” you snap.
He shrugs loftily. “I’m well aware, but that is neither here nor there.”
In vexation, you click your tongue. This conversation is going nowhere. You’d have to use force to get your way, and you’d have to act quickly at that. The longer you leave your post at the Church open, the harder it would be to get things under your control when you return. Heaven only knows how eager those detestable Cardinals are to replace you, now that you are no longer their obedient little dog.
A ball of energy forms in the palm of your hand. It crackles and fizzles, black as the abyssal void below, yet shines with a pearlescent radiance. In your other hand, your weapon materializes out of thin air, a giant scythe made of pure, blinding light.
Your feet lift off of the ground, and the overbearingly sweet taste of the Demon King’s magic is swallowed by the crisp freshness of yours.
“If you truly love me…”
Your eyes begin to glow. Raising your hand, you aim the crackling sphere of magic at the demon lord.
“Then die for me.”
Your power surges down towards him, but instead of hitting him, crashes onto and fizzles out against a translucent shield he conjures up at the very last second.
Moving a step backwards, the Demon King takes to the air as well, a pair of ebony black wings unfurling behind him. His sclerae deepen to the colour of ink, and incomprehensible markings paint the surface of his skin. He grins, flashing a set of unnaturally sharp teeth.
“Patience, my saintess. The fun’s only just begun.”
Chaos ensues. Spells are cast and thrown, walls crumble and pillars fall. You’re a good fighter, there’s no doubt about that — but the Demon King is even better. It’s not long before your entire body begins to ache, your magical core nearly reaching its limit. You’ve sustained a few injuries, though they are nothing major, yet the demon lord remains entirely unharmed, looking more than invigorated.
He laughs, high and cold and cruel, eyes sparkling with malicious glee. “You know you will never be able to best me.”
Perhaps not, you concede. Not in the traditional sense, in a duel of skill and strength.
But all you need is one single moment, one single second where his attention strays, for you to get to his core. Once you destroy the core that tethers his existence to the mortal realm, you’d be able to seal him away for good.
And as for the location of that core…
Hoping to catch him off guard, you charge at him head on. The scythe in your hand disappears in a shower of glittering light, leaving both of your hands free to slam the Demon King into a wall.
The walls cave in at the impact, forming a deep crater in the vague shape of a man.
He lets out a choked groan, as if all the wind had been knocked straight out of his lungs. His wings twitch uselessly at his sides. You have your hands firm on his upper arms, your magic aiding you in pinning him down.
Despite being at a disadvantage, a salacious smirk flashes across his face. “Why, if I had known you were into this sort of thing, we could’ve just started with that.”
“Shut it, demon,” you order through gritted teeth.
Grabbing him by the collar, you steal his lips in a searing kiss.
He responds eagerly, greedily, giving as good as he gets. Like his magic, he tastes irresistibly sweet. You press yourself closer to him, keening into his body, forcing one of your legs in between his. His hands fall to your waist, and his icy touch has a shiver running up your spine.
With his chest flush against yours, you can feel the way his heart pulses with a slow, steady rhythm. Pulsing, you note, with rolling waves of magic, not with the thrum of rushing blood.
Eureka.
Tangling a hand in his hair, your fingers brush against a large, scaly horn. Shuddering, he moans into your mouth, his talon-like nails digging deeper into your flesh. He’s all flushed, pupils so dilated his eyes appear wholly black, gaze trained on you intensely, deliriously. He looks utterly intoxicated, and it’s all because of you.
You can’t say you don’t enjoy it.
Parting for air, he lets out a soft noise of protest, before swiftly cutting himself off with a gasp. You’ve got a hand clenched tight around his horn, which you use as a handle to force his head back. His Adam's apple bobs, eyes rolling, eyelids fluttering.
Your knee presses mercilessly into his groin. The fabric is already damp.
“[Name],” he says. It sounds like a sin. “[Name].”
You respond by turning your attention towards his exposed neck. Sucking, biting, licking, you trace the lines drawn by the markings tattooed on his skin. He moans the loudest when you make it hurt, when your teeth break skin, and shimmering ichor blooms in its place.
Fascinated, you can’t help but have a taste, a choice which you regret immediately. It burns, a fiery, cloying sweetness that stings your eyes and sours your nose, that lingers, clinging onto your tongue, almost addictingly, daring you to take another sip. Pulling back instead, you admire your handiwork.
He is beautiful, even still.
Starlight scatters across sweat-slick skin, giving him an ethereal, otherworldly glow. Half lidded eyes, red as a raging inferno, pierce into your soul. Pleadingly. Challengingly. Waiting for release you will never give.
You could get used to this, you think. It’s a pity you have to kill him.
Alas, he is but a thorn in your side, an unpredictable variable you can’t control. The Demon King is a walking contradiction in all ways but one — that is, he adores all that you do to him, so long as your eyes are on him.
And, well, who are you to deny a dying man’s last wish?
Your free hand slips to his chest, feeling the heart of his magic pulsating beneath your fingertips. Raw, primordial, and absolutely pliant, malleable to your every whim. An odd, shuttered whine slips from his lips as you continue to knead his skin.
“You know,” you start conversationally, the casual effect slightly ruined by your heavy, ragged breaths. A touch mockingly, you echo his earlier sentiment. “If I had known you were into this sort of thing, I would’ve just started with this.”
Ruby eyes glint dangerously. A sharp, lovesick smile spreads across his face. “You will never be rid of me for good.”
You don’t reply. Magic begins to pool in the palm of your hand. Poised right above his core, you clasp onto your magic and push.
He screams. Back arching, limbs jolting, his wings flailing wildly.
His flesh and bones melt away, coating your arm with a thick, syrupy ichor. You push, deeper and deeper until your hand brushes against something solid, further and further until your fingers close tight around a gleaming black gem.
He screams and screams and screams, but nothing is as spine-chilling as the sound of his scream morphing into crazed, deranged laughter.
“You can seal me away, rip my body to shreds, but I will always come back,” he hisses, rambling delusionally, hysterically. “Do you want to know why?”
“I am Sin — and you, my dear saintess, are the worst sinner of all.”
The gemstone shatters, bursting with a dazzling, blinding light.
“Goodbye.”
it's been awhile LOL
i think i scrapped like 10 different wips before finally finishing this one bec i have a hater and that hater is Me
anyway this y/n is supposed to have lore (and 2 more yanderes, an angel and a hero) but we'll see how it goes,,,, thanks for reading!
Description: (Yandere! Ancient Chinese Empress x Concubine! Reader) You are the newest addition to His Majesty the Emperor's vast and ever-growing harem. And despite your best efforts to avoid all the drama, the palace intrigue still finds a way into your life. (6.2K words)
Warnings: overall yandere themes, power imbalance, prolonged physical punishment (kneeling), reader gets bullied and physically abused (slapped), mentions of death (not reader), depictions of body, reader has it a little rough, but she gets her lick back lowkey
Your marriage was a purely transactional affair. You came from a humble family of scholars that currently had the Emperor's favor. Your status allowed you to marry intoImperial harem with a decent title, but it wasn't grand enough to make anyone really care.
You had stepped foot in the palace in your wedding robe, the grim look on your face hidden by your opaque red veil. Honestly, with the lack of dancing and overall celebration, your wedding procession felt more like a funeral.
You were dropped off rather unceremoniously into the palace, your new home. You peaked underneath your veil to catch a glimpse of the place you'd live in for the rest of your days. With its high walls and guards patrolling every corner, the place felt more like a prison than a palace. Still, you supposed there were worse fates than being married to the most powerful man in the country.
Your veil blocking your view, you were guided by hands with faces unknown. They were most definitely servants of the palace, your new assigned attendants. While some concubines were able to bring their childhood ladies in waiting with them, you were afforded no such luxury.
Up until recently, your family had been too poor to afford servants. Which meant you did all the menial chores and housework while your brother struggled to earn a few copper coins on the street. You wondered if you'd ever get used to having people serving you after a life of grueling work. You wondered if you'd ever become accustomed to the luxury of the palace after living in abject poverty. Probably not, but who were you to complain?
The palace attendants dutifully guided you to your new courtyard and room, sitting you down on your new bed with measured care. With the veil on you could only really see your feet, but you could still catch glimpses of the room.
The servants hadn't even bothered to decorate the place. You stared at the dark blue comforter. They hadn't even bothered to switch it to a red one despite knowing it was your wedding. You guessed they knew that the Emperor wouldn't bother seeing his new bride, and so they didn't bother with any of the usual formalities.
Still, customs were customs. So you sat there waiting patiently for the groom you've never once met. You sat for hours upon hours, watching the sun gradually set through the corners of your opaque veil. Finally, your maid, Li Hua, as you've recently learned, spoke up.
“It seems His Majesty is busy tonight. I think your ladyship would not be scolded for going to bed a little early,” Li Hua said politely. That's fine. You weren't arrogant enough to expect the Emperor's attention, let alone a fairytale wedding.
With an exasperated sigh, you tore off your own wedding veil. You were breaking an age-old tradition, but who cares? It's not like your groom was there to take it off for you. You were glad to finally take it off, you felt as if you could finally breathe. Now you could take in your new room and subsequently your new life in full.
As far as palace accommodations went, you shortly didn't draw the short end of the stick. You had your own room that was fairly sizable and fully furnished. Although other consorts and concubines might have complained about its simplicity, this was far more than you ever expected. All in all, you were satisfied. No, more than that, you were happy. It looked like a quaint little place to live quietly.
That night you went to bed early, knowing you had to get up before dawn the next day to greet the Empress. You dozed off dreaming of lower walls.
---
The next morning, you woke before the crack of dawn to greet the Empress. As a newly appointed Imperial Concubine in his Majesty's harem, you dared not shirk this responsibility. The last thing you wanted was to be branded as another arrogant mistress. Or to draw undue attention to yourself.
You spent the morning scrambling through your wardrobe for something elegant but plain. You were terrified of being underdressed but at the same time feared potentially insulting the Empress if you showed up in your finest.
Dressed in the least offensive clothing you could find, you went to Her Majesty's courtyard just after the sun settled in the sky. Her courtyard was filled to the brim with white chrysanthemums. An odd choice of flower for an Empress, but you supposed no one dared to comment on it.
While entering her Majesty's palace residence, you kept your eyes down. Your head was slightly bowed as you entered, your maid in tow. You took note of the other ladies of the palace seated in the room. It looks like her Majesty was having an early morning tea party.
Without looking up, you took a few steps closer to Her Majesty. Once you were but a few feet away from her, you bowed as elegantly as you could while sitting on your knees.
“This Imperial Consort greets Your Majesty the Empress,” you said, as if reciting lines from a play. You dare meet her gaze. Your knees ached against the hardwood floor as you waited on baited breath for Her Majesty to acknowledge you.
After what felt like eternity, the Empress finally deigned to spare your knees.
“No need for formalities. Please, rise.”
You were happy not to have to kneel for much longer, but you knew better than to let your guard down so soon. Slowly, you raised your head from its bow. As you were about to rise from your knees, you paused.
You had never seen the Empress before. Sure you've seen plenty of portraits of her. Now, finally face to face with Empress Yujing, you could say that none of them have done her any justice.
All of her portraits painted her as soft and matronly. In reality, that couldn't be farther from the truth. You could only compare her to a blade glimmering in candlelight before a strike. Or perhaps a long necked heron moments before snapping the neck of its prey.
Her long, dark hair was pinned elaborately in place, adorned by fine silver and pearl ornaments. Her robes were made of the finest silk, with careful silver embroidery. Her earrings alone could have bought your brother a brand new calligraphy set. You couldn't help but stare for a moment to take in such a rare beauty draped in decadence.
At the sight of staring, the Empress’ red painted lips pulled into a smile.
A sharp cleverness lingered in her pitch black eyes, one that made the hairs on the back of your neck stand. You realized she was watching you. Waiting.
You stood, straightening your back completely. Making sure your eyes were glued to the ground, you put on the most polite smile you could muster. Empress Yujing seemed like the discerning type, one you definitely did not want to offend.
“Most bring me a gift when they first come to pay their respects.” The Empress said with a slight lilt to her voice. Every word she spoke sounded as if she were reciting some forgotten poem. “I wonder, what have you brought, Little Concubine?”
You blanched. Your family was all but inconsequential until recently, so you weren't caught up on the proper etiquette. You had no idea that you had to bring a gift for Her Majesty. Her eyes leered at you expectantly as she hid her obvious smile behind the sleeves of her formal dress.
All eyes in the room were on you. You could hear some of the other concubines and consorts poorly hide their own chuckles and smirks. In Her Majesty's serving parlor, their judgment upon you was a tangible weight upon your shoulders.
Your mouth worked quicker than your mind could process.
“I did not bring a gift for your Majesty,” you confessed honestly. The onlooking consorts either feigned offense or outright laughed at your misfortune. None extended their sympathy to you. You hid your own emotions behind a wall of polite indifference. “If your Majesty will allow it, I have something else to offer you.”
By the grace of the heavens or by sheer boredom, Her Majesty nodded, granting you permission to continue.
You extended your hands out to her in thanks, as if worshipping a deity. You supposed you were, in a sense. If The Emperor was chosen by the heavens, why couldn't his wife be as well?
“Your Majesty,” you began. “ This Concubine was born to a family of scholars, but I do not have the same gift with words as my brother. This Concubine is of humble origins, so I have nothing worthy to give you.” You inhaled deeply, readying yourself for whatever was to come for your next words. “All I can offer is my most sincere loyalty to you.”
You bowed again, this time fully prostrating yourself. Your forehead touched the ground. A beat of silence passed.
A chill crept over your exposed neck. You wondered if a blade hung there, waiting to execute you. If the Empress would accept your humble gift or would plot your death where you stood. Knowing some of the rumors that surrounded her-- perhaps both.
“Loyalty?” The Empress said aloud, as if pondering the meaning of the word. You could hear the slight surprise in her voice. Perhaps no one has ever offered her such a thing before?
“Very well.” She said plainly. You could almost cry in relief. “I accept your gift.”
“Really?!” You raised your head a little too quickly, almost beaming. The smile on your face was genuine, but this was neither the time nor the place. You corrected yourself immediately, closing your lips. “This humble servant offers her most sincere gratitude to Your Majesty.”
Your Majesty seemed to smile back at you. Maybe you had misjudged her. Maybe she was more than the cold exterior she gave off.
A slow sip of a tea cup you hadn't even realized she'd been holding.
“Of course, someone loyal would kneel in a courtyard to demonstrate their devotion. Perhaps for hours?”
Her voice shattered any illusion of her kindness. Of course it would never be that easy.
“Yes,” Her Majesty said, clearly speaking to herself. “I think kneeling for three hours is an appropriate display of loyalty. Don't you, Mei-mei?”
Biting back a nasty expression as well as an even nastier comment, you extended another curt bow. While the Empress phrased it like a suggestion, you really didn't have a choice in the matter. If the Mother of the nation wished for it, you could only comply. You willed your expression into neutrality.
“Yes, Your Majesty.”
---
Three hours later and your knees were killing you. It was bad enough that almost every person who passed you- regardless of their rank- sneered at you. The only person who stood by you solemnly was your maid Li Hua. When she tried to kneel alongside you, you insisted she shouldn't suffer from your mistake. By the time your punishment had passed, the sun was already starting to set.
You stood, your legs shaking like a newborn doe. Your knees were probably bruised like hell, but you had lost all feelings in your leg by hour two. Li Hua helped you stand, letting you use her as support as your legs trembled uncontrollably.
It was a genuine struggle to get back to your room, but what a relief it was to collapse into your bed.
“I think the Empress hates me,” you quietly confessed to your maid.
“Don't say that!” Li Hua hurried to correct you. Her eyes darted around nervously. “Someone might overhear you!”
“Let them. I think Her Majesty has made her dislike of me known to everyone in the palace already.” You groaned, burying your face into your pillow.
That quiet, unremarkable life you imagined became more and more unattainable by the hour. You've only been here a day, and yet you've already suffered such embarrassment. How on Earth could you ever show your face in the palace now?
“I think Her Majesty and you have just started off on the wrong foot, My Lady. I'm sure you can win her over.” Li Hua started dutifully taking the decorative pins out of your hair, letting the tresses fall on your back. “I'm sure once Her Majesty gets to know you, her heart will warm to you just like mine did.”
“Thank you, Li Hua.” You gave her a small smile.
She was now gently combing your hair, careful not to pull on any knots or tangles. “Think nothing of it, My Lady. Just have hope. The Empress will come around eventually.”
“I hope so.” You let loose another groan, followed by a sigh. You turned off your stomach and onto your back, staring blankly up at the ceiling. “I'm not sure how much more of this I can take.”
“Keep trying, My Lady. Why don't you get some rest? I'll go do some chores.”
Completely exhausted, you nodded. Your eyes were already lulling to sleep. You thanked her weakly as you laid your head down to rest. Not a second later your eyes closed as you drifted off into sleep. This time, you dreamed of home and of a fine horse-hair ink brush meant for your brother.
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The pain in your knees woke you up. Your eyes opened to the soft glow of the moonlight streaming through the window. You winced, throwing the covers off you. Li Hua must have tucked you in. Honestly, you weren't sure what you had done in a past life to have found such a genuine person in such an impersonal, cold place.
In the pale light of the moon you could see the ugly purple, red, and yellow bruising littering your legs. You weren’t sure if it hurt more than it looked or vice versa. Either way, you knew you weren't sleeping soundly tonight. Drifting in and out of consciousness, you waited for morning to come.
The Sun couldn't come soon enough. Naturally, Li Hua came to your chamber to attend to you. At the sight of her legs, though, she nearly fainted. She insisted you call the royal physician, a request you vehemently denied. As if any Imperial physicians would give you the time of day after her Majesty made her contempt for you so clear.
Confined to strict bed rest thanks to Li Hua, you spent the rest of your day idly reading. After a few hours of that, you were bored to tears. Thankfully, your boredom was cut short by a surprise visitor.
“My Lady,” Li Hua said with a bow. You gently flicked her brow in a teasing manner as punishment. You must have told her ten times already to forego all formalities in private.
She rubbed her forehead, sticking out her tongue at you before continuing. “Noble Consort Zhao Yanfei is here to visit you.”
At such news, you almost asked Li Hua to repeat herself. Imperial Consort Yanfei far outranked you. In fact the only person in the harem she didn't outrank was the Empress herself. Why on Earth would she dare to visit you? Especially after yesterday's turn of events?
“Let her in, Li Hua.” Regardless of your own personal astonishment, Imperial Consort Yanfei was also on the list of people you dared not offend. “And brew some tea, please.”
Not much later, you entered the receiving room. “This Imperial Concubine greets the Imperial Consort.” You moved to bow despite the pain in your knees.
“No need,” the Imperial Consort said. “Please, sit. I'm sure you're in enough pain as it is.”
You schooled your face into a passive expression, despite her biting remarks. Has Yangfei only come to proverbially rub salt in your wound?
Still, etiquette and status demanded you not to offend her. You sat at the table, and Li Hua came to place a steaming cup of tea in front of the both of you. You took the moment to steal a glance at Consort Yanfei.
She was beautiful in the traditional sense. Yanfei was all soft curves and features, paired with a voice smoother than satin. The spitting image of a wife and mother. You could easily see why His Majesty favored her. No wonder she had already given birth to a little prince and princess.
A pregnant pause filled the room as you waited for her to break the silence.
“Ah, Mei-mei? I can call you that, right?” Yangfei finally broke the awkward silence “I heard about what happened yesterday. I feel terrible about it and wanted to extend my sympathies to you.”
You took a long sip of your tea, hoping to hide your skepticism. While you might have been new here, you weren't naive. Nothing in this palace was ever that simple. If she truly felt that way, why hadn't she advocated for you?
“I promise I'm not just saying these things to you.” Consort Yanfei reached over the table to place her hands over hers. “You remind me so much of my younger sister. Whenever I look at you, I can't help but feel great affection for you.”
The Consort looked at her maid, who wordlessly sat down a jar on the table. “This is for you. It's a medicine made with ginseng. It'll help the swelling and reduce scarring.” Consort Yanfei smiled warmly at you. Something about the tenderness in her large, warm brown eyes made you yearn from your family.
“Thank you for your concern, Imperial Consort,” you said noncommittally. Last time you believed in the kindness of someone's heart, you ended up kneeling for three hours. You wouldn't make the same mistake again. So you let her speak as you took another long sip of your tea.
Zhao Yanfei squeezed your hands reassuringly. She gave care in the strange maternal way that was so unfamiliar to you. “Mei-mei, this might be too forward but… I'm sure you heard the rumors.” Yanfei leaned closer, lowering her voice as if sharing a secret. You assumed she was speaking the rumors going around that Empress Yujing was barren. “You seem smart, Mei-mei. Careful. I like that.”
Her voice was barely above a whisper. “Tell me, what do you think? Do you think the Emperor favors women who are warm and gentle? Or does he prefer those who are cold and indifferent? I wonder what kind of woman would be best at his side.”
Your eyes went wide. Although she didn't say it outright, you understood perfectly what she was implying. Consort Yanfei wanted to become the next Empress and she was asking you to pick sides.
You saw Yanfei in a new light. So she wasn't all motherly warmth after all. She had to be at least a little cold to come to you now. Any person who went through what you did would reasonably hate the Empress. You currently were at your most vulnerable. Nearly anybody with a semblance of intelligence would jump at the opportunity to make friends with a powerful ally, the only person with the means to actually be a threat to Her Majesty. Not you, though.
You pulled her hands away from her as if she were on fire. “Apologies, Imperial Consort. I fear this Concubine cannot afford your sisterhood. I am only interested in a quiet, simple life, unbothered by the world.” You stood with some difficulty, your maid coming to help you. You refused to involve yourself with palace intrigue.
“And someone as humble as I cannot accept such an expensive gift made with such precious medicine. Please use it on yourself, Imperial Consort Zhao.”
With some help from Li Hua, you managed a courteous bow. “Thank you for your kind visit. Li Hua, please see the Imperial Consort out. I'm afraid I'm not feeling well.”
Under the mask of Zhao Yanfei's kindness and care, you could see the rage that boiled just below the surface. She was clearly annoyed. Ostensibly because you, a lowly concubine, had the gall to deny her. She picked up the jar of medicine set on the table. “I see, Imperial Concubine. Farewell.”
She left without another word.
You let your shoulders sag as soon as the coast was clear. You sighed exasperatedly. It was only your second day here, how have you managed to make not one, but two powerful enemies already?
---
The next few days were relatively peaceful. You did in fact break your strict bed rest, unable to sit still for long without being bored to tears. Despite her insistence of otherwise, you and Li Hua took turns during various chores around your courtyard. Unfortunately, your moving around most definitely slowed the healing process, but it's not like you cared. It'll heal eventually.
About a week later, Li Hua rushed to you with a seemingly random invitation to the Empress’ palace. You obeyed, of course, but couldn't stop yourself from dragging your feet along the way. What was this summons even about? Did Her Majesty wish to bully you around even more?
This time you met her in her courtyard, surrounded by blooming white chrysanthemums.
You felt severe deja vu as you bowed to greet the Empress once again. “This Imperial Concubine extends her greetings to Her Majesty.”
“No need. Please, sit. Have some tea.” The Empress gestured to the padded wooden seat next to her.
You hid your disdainful expressionless behind your billowing sleeves. Your recent experience has shown you that people are only kind in the palace for two reasons. One: they want a favor. Two: they want to smile as they twist the knife in your back. But seeing as you had no right to refuse, you sat beside her.
A maid handed you a steaming cup of jasmine tea. Not wanting to be impolite, you idly sipped it.
“You must hate me.” Empress Yujing said suddenly. You almost spit out the tea you were drinking. How could her Majesty be so blunt?
Did your face give it away? That was not good. You really didn't want to be punished again. Panicked, you scrambled to think of a lie to placate her. “Your Majesty-” you started, only to be rudely cut off.
The Empress held up a delicate hand, stopping your words with just a gesture. “Your face says it plainly. You're a terrible liar.” Her Majesty only looked amused at the expression painted on her face. “Still, I find it puzzling. Why would a little concubine like yourself, who hates me, not join hands with Consort Yanfei?”
“How did you-?”
“I'm the Empress. Do you think I do not know what transpires in my own home?”
Ah, right. Empress Yujing probably had spies at every corner in the palace. No place was safe from her watchful eyes. You honestly felt stupid for even asking.
“Now, answer the question.” The Empress tapped a single painted nail against the fragile porcelain of her tea cup. You wondered if that clinking was a small sign of her impatience.
Not wanting to test her patience, any further, you answered without thinking. “Well, I swore my loyalty to you, did I not?”
Empress Yujing only smiled, and for the first time, the gesture didn't seem hollow. “Loyalty?” A light glimmered in her dark eyes in mild amusement. “What a funny word to use in this Imperial harem.”
You were getting tired of Her Majesty saying things you didn't quite understand, so your gaze wandered to the plate of pastries in front of her.
“Well, I suppose virtue must be rewarded. Tell me, what would you like? Some medicine for your knees? Jewelry? Gold? Take your pick.”
“Respectfully, Your Majesty, loyalty can't be bought.” Your eyes flickered back to the baked goods. “...But if I might be so bold, most people give treats to people they like.”
Her Majesty laughed out loud at that. Her laughter was more carefree than you imagined. Although you never imagined you'd ever hear her laughter in the first place, she seemed entirely too high strung. “Oh really? Very well. I bestow this plate of flower cakes upon you as a reward.”
She gestured to one of her ladies in waiting. Her maid handed you the plate of confectionaries before scurrying back off from whence she came.
“Thank you, Your Majesty.” you said. You stood up to bow rather clumsily thanks to your knee.
“You are dismissed.” The Empress turned her attention back to her tea, turning the cup carefully in her hands. You tried not to be offended at the fact she treated you only like you were some form of fleeting, discardable entertainment. Like she'd had her fill of you and was now tossing you aside.
You bit your tongue as Li Hua helped you leave her garden. You reminded yourself that she was Empress Yujing of the esteemed Wei clan, the wife of the emperor, and you were a simple concubine from a nearly no-name family. There was a line between you, one you would be sure never to cross.
Just as you were about to step foot out of the courtyard, the Empress called to you.
“Oh, and little concubine? Please come visit more often. I've heard that viewing flowers is best in pairs.”
Now that your back was turned and your face was out of sight, you could roll your eyes freely. Like you would ever be so bold as to just show up at the Empress’ palace uninvited.
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For the next two days, you didn't hear a word from Her Majesty. On the third day, a maid from the Empress’ palace had dropped by and delivered some medicine for your knee. The maid had said that the Empress was giving this to you because she found the look of limping puppies unsightly.
You accepted the gift, not daring to give the Empress another excuse to punish you. Still against your best interest, you told the maid to deliver a message to her Majesty: if you'd known she held such a high standard for strays, you would’ve limped with more grace.
The maid came back with a letter, presumably from the Empress.
The letter contained only a short sentence written in dignified calligraphy:
“Limping, loyal dogs still visit their Master.”
The maid then gave instructions that Her Majesty insisted you frame her message on the wall and reflect on its meaning for the next three days. In other words, you were grounded.
It took everything in you not to disobey her orders, crumpled up her letter, and threw it in the trash. You knew if you did she would only think of another way to get under your skin. If you didn’t know any better, you would say that Empress was taking some sort of sick pleasure in tormenting you.
After your brief period in isolation, you were eager to be out of your room again. Little did you know, the Empress had already made plans for you. Under her strict orders, you were to visit her courtyard for tea every day.
Every bone in your body told you not to visit the Empress for any reason. Even merely mentioning her name seemed to invite trouble on your end. Going would undoubtedly spell another punishment, but refusing the Empress’ mandate, no matter how petty the order might seem, would be treason. So, with your tail tucked between your legs, you begrudgingly went to the Empress’ palace. Alone.
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The Empress’ back was turned to you. She was currently tending to her garden. And in the golden light of the afternoon, you couldn’t help but admire her noble bearing. Begrudgingly you had to admit that she was achingly beautiful, even when doing the most mundane of tasks.
“Are you just going to stand there?” The Empress finally spoke. Her words interrupted the sound of scissors snipping away at the bush of flowers before her.
You snapped back into reality. For a moment, you had let yourself become so distracted by her good looks, you had forgotten basic etiquette. You bowed and greeted her as protocol demands.
The Empress waved her hand, acknowledging your greeting dismissively.
“Little Concubine,” she began. She cut off the head of a blooming chrysanthemum. Your heart broke a little at the sight of a flower cut down in its prime. “I have a gift for you.”
In an instant, she closed the distance between you. She was so close you could smell the incense she must burn in her room. The Empress tenderly tucked the white blossom in your hair.
She then withdrew as if nothing happened.
You blinked. Your hand absent-mindedly went to the flower now adorning your hair, as if to make sure it was really there.
“Consider it a token of my favor."
“I thought you hated me,” You blurted. You immediately bit your tongue, realizing your mistake.
“My little concubine, who could ever hate you?”
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You left the Empress’ palace that day lost in a menagerie of thoughts. No matter how hard you tried, you just couldn't seem to understand her. Every time you thought you could predict her next move, she would do something completely off the wall. It was driving you insane.
Lost in the daze of your thoughts, you didn't realize someone was walking your way until you tripped. You fell plain on your rear end onto stone. That would certainly hurt tomorrow.
“How dare you bump into my Lady, the esteemed Imperial Consort?” A servant barked at you.
You scrambled to stand and offer your apologies as quickly as possible. A knee-jerk reaction. “Imperial Consort Yanfei, please ease your anger-”
Her maid quickly cut you off. “My Lady is pregnant! Could you bear the responsibility if she or her unborn child were harmed?”
You didn’t dare raise your head or so much as look at her. All you could do was repeat the same few apologies, like an actor going over his lines.
All the while, the maid kept barking at you endlessly. She didn't stop until her mistress stepped in.
“That's enough, Shu'er.” The Imperial Consort said, placing a comforting hand on her maid's shoulder. A neutral but amicable expression was painted on her face. “I am unharmed. And I am sure the Imperial Concubine meant nothing… by…it.”
Her words trailed off as she stared at you. It took you a moment to realize where she was staring. The white chrysanthemum in your hair.
The immediate shift in her expression was tangible. Her kind voice turned unfeeling. Suddenly, she placed a hand over her stomach. “Oh, my poor baby. “
Your blood ran cold. It became apparent to you that you were in deep, deep trouble. You fell to your knees preemptively, already knowing where this was heading.
You stopped all your apologies, knowing it would only fall on deaf ears now.
“Shu'er.” Her eyes, once an inviting brown, were now devoid of all life. “Strike the Imperial Concubine.”
Yangfei's maid struck you across the face. The blow was hard enough that her nails drew blood.
“Again.”
You braced yourself for the second strike, and somehow this one was worse than the first.
“Again.”
Even in your pain, you couldn’t entirely blame her for venting her frustration out on you. You had more or less said you would remain impartial. Yet here you are, wearing an obvious sign of her sworn enemy as an accessory.
“Keep going until I say stop.”
Your lip split a bit, a thin line of crimson running down your chin. Your face was starting to swell.
Yanfei curled her nose in disgust, placing a silk handkerchief over her nose. The other concubines would only stop to stare and whisper. All the servants passing by, minded their business. Nobody did anything to stop the Imperial Consort. Nor could they. She ranked far higher than you, and therefore had the right to discipline you as she pleased.
It was your mistake. You should have watched where you were going.
“Stop.” The Consort finally said. And the slapping ceased.
Yanfei took measured steps toward you. She knelt to where she was nearly eye-level with you. “Please don't blame me, Mei-mei, I was only protecting the imperial offspring. If I didn't punish you severely, you might have been charged with conspiracy and treason.”
You kept your scoff of disbelief to yourself. As if you would believe her honeyed words anymore.
“Oh, Mei-mei, you seem to have a weed in your hair. Let me remove it for you.” She plucked the white flower clean out of your hair, letting it fall to the ground. “Such a tacky thing isn't befitting of your status.”
And then she dug her heel into the blossom, smothering it into the stone ground. You didn’t think after such abject humiliation your heart could break any further, but it did.
“Forget it.”
And she strolled away casually, taking her entourage of maids with her, leaving you to lick your wounds.
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Consort Yanfei's body was found the next morning. The entire palace was in mourning as her status demanded.
Dressed in simple cotton mourning clothes, all the women of the Imperial harem had to pay respects to the late Consort. You included.
Your face still battered and bruised, you wore a veil so as to not make the other palace ladies uncomfortable. Still it did nothing to stop the pitiful looks and hushed whispers that followed you. No one thought you’d have the guts to show your defeated face. But you had to come. You had to see Consort Yanfei with your own two eyes.
The open coffin stood amongst a sea of offerings, lit candles, and incense. You approached Consort Yanfei's body, head bowed. The official story had been that she had passed due to complications with her pregnancy.
A believable story, surely. Being pregnant and giving birth was risky and often lethal business. But one look at Consort Yanfei and you knew that it was all a lie.
It wasn't her body that gave the secret of her death away. She looked untouched, her hair and makeup meticulously done. No, not a hair on her head was disheveled or a thing out of place. Everything was pristine in her death as Consort Yanfei had been rumored to be in life.
The only thing that seemed off, that wasn’t quite as it seems was the chrysanthemum laid so delicately on her corpse. A single white flower placed right where her unborn child should be.
cw: implied yandere, volo is volo, togekiss volo, modern volo
pairing: Volo/Reader
You shivered as you clung to the man, desperate for any warmth to fight off the never-ending cold that seemed to permeate the region.
If Sinnoh had anything, it would be snow. A lot of it. Too much of it. Even dressed as appropriately as one could, the temperatures and winds could prove a terrifying foe. As lucky – and unlucky as some might view it, the person who had declared himself your love was quite capable of handling the weather. His people had lived in these lands long before any other settlers, and, well, he was not entirely human. His wing curled around your body, feathers oddly soft and warm.
The wood stove burned, but the heat was only so much. Nothing compared to the presence of another body. Especially one with a higher temperature than your own. Volo's expression was far too mocking – it would be mistaken by an outsider for something gentle, but you knew better. That glint in his eyes and the way he bared his teeth. You leaned into his warmth. His true nature was something you understood – manic and desperate for power in this world. The trauma of whatever had happened to his people clearly plagued him, alongside the isolation and cruelty shown to him as “outsider” in his own land.
Still, it was no excuse to threaten someone and attempt to kill them.
He hardly brought that up any more, however. Enough time had been set between them and the present time. Centuries. But, Volo was one to pursue a goal, be that you or Arceus. Togekiss mate for life, so even when you returned to the modern day, he was still on the search for you. Maybe some part of you felt pity for Volo; maybe another part knew he would just never give up. Ending up in a rural cabin in northern Sinnoh with him just proved inevitable. He had entirely hunted you down and made certain that his presence was known.
You had felt he had calmed down in many ways – years of life proving a rounding feature. But, he remained steadfast towards you. To him, you were united together as a single unit. Arceus could be a lost cause, but you were not negotiable. His brain would always only instinctually crave your being.
And, maybe, you found that a bit appealing in the modern culture you had been returned to.
Bringing a hand to his cheek, you cupped the flesh gently. His skin was soft – not reflecting the amount of time he had spent on this earth. He leaned down towards you as you moved up towards him. Your lips met. The affection was strange. Breaking it, he clutched you tighter to him.
“I don't think I could have even taken another day apart from you,” his voice was low, “I knew I would see you again, but the wait was painful.” His other wing bent forward to box you in. “I won't ever let you go again.”
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➤ summary : your good ol' manhwa plot, but with a dark twist.
this is the last thing yandere transmigrator expected to experience. it is getting transmigrated on the webtoon that his sister had written. and the worse thing is- he is the male lead. fuck.
he never liked that webtoon in the first place. and the last thing that he wanted to do is acting the same as that asshole- his new identity, btw.
in that damn webtoon, the male lead- being an asshole, cheating, abuser that he was. decided to use his power as the damn crown prince to dissolve his engagement with you, the villainess.
in the first place, yandere transmigrator doesn't get the reason why did the male lead (i repeat, his new identity now) flirted with the female lead when he is already engaged? and when you, the villainess got angry- they called you a villainess who got into the way of the pure love between the crown prince and the saintess. (they call it pure, he call it cheating)
he complained about it to his sister once and she called him smarty pants who didn't know what the public like. and he was close on telling her that it was the main reason why the public, her readers to be exact, hated her.
going back to the story- the first thing that yandere transmigrator did after finding himself inside this damn webtoon is to... sleep. yes, you read it right. he overslept and made sure to enjoy the fluffy bed that he got right now. it's not everyday you experience this kind of thing (like oversleeping) and he plans to enjoy all of it.
he didn't care when the servants voiced out their concern. he didn't care when his (now) mother and father visited him and asked him what was wrong. when the female lead tried to visit him and practically throw herself to him- yandere transmigrator just evaded it. saying that he is not on the mood to deal with that girl's shit.
he wasn't planning to get up at all- or do his duties as the crown prince. that was until you showed up.
yandere transmigrator found himself mesmerized when he first saw you. he remembered that you are the only good thing his sister draw and created- the only character that he liked. he didn't know if he has something for mean girls or what but..
when he saw you scowling at him, his face suddenly became red as tomato. you started complaining about how your work as his fiancee increased because his ass is being annoyingly lazy. you know that he is a womanizer but you never expected him to be a sloth.
yandere transmigrator didn't say anything, it's not like he was the original crown prince anyway. he was busy admiring you.
but then, he remembered something. how you overworked yourself in the webtoon while the male lead (again, now his new identity) and that saintess was busy flirting and doing some stork and bees. he froze.
don't tell him- he is starting to become like that dumb fuck?!
and after your visit- he decided to do his duties as the crown prince.
as a yandere- yandere transmigrator is the type who is willing to do everything you wanted. which confused you since he doesn't give any shit about you before. but yandere transmigrator didn't care.
since the you are a hundred times hotter and better than that damn saintess anyway.
he started to attend your tea parties (that the original male lead he refuses to attend before) and he also started accompanying you to every parties that you attend.
in short, he is starting to act like a proper fiance albeit a little clingy that the original male lead.
yandere transmigrator, unlike the other leads from the other manhwa or novels that he read, doesn't want to go back to his original world at all.
first, because it was annoying. second, because you are not there. third, he is poor there and might die because of overworking. fifth, he doesn't want to deal with his sister's crazy ass.
but more importantly- how could he come back when you are starting to open yourself to him? nope, nuh. he rather die than to come back.
anyway, as time passes by. thankfully- he managed to tame the black cat (you) with his face as well as his clingy ass. despite of being all sassy and grumpy everytime. yandere transmigrator without any doubt, noticed that you have a soft spot for him.
everything was going well. he is now spoiling his favorite girl, he is spending his days in peace, he doesn't have to deal with the second male leads or the female lead-
or so what he thought. that was until the female lead showed up herself to him again. saying something that he never expected.
she told him that you tried to kill him before. or atleast the original male lead. saying that you used a black magic to cursed him.
she expected yandere transmigrator to be angry, to be furious and get rid of you. she expected her spicy 18+ daily life would come back. but no. because yandere transmigrator had a twisted smile on his face.
now, he realized why this happened to him. you killed the male lead with your own hand, you gotten rid of him. and to hide that fact, you summoned a soul to possess his body.
and when you said "i love you" last time. it wasn't directed to the original male lead, but him. ahh, damn it.
his smile became more twisted as he began thinking that he doesn't need to get rid of the original male lead anymore to take his place. thank god.
as the female lead was about to say something again. she stopped as yandere transmigrator grabbed the sword nearby and unsheathed it.
she started panicking, telling some nonsense about how he cannot kill him. because it will tarnish his reputation as the crown prince. and the church would surely try to find her.
she expected him to get scared- and lowered the sword. but instead, yandere transmigrator only smiled.
as a reader of this webtoon. he fully knew well that the church wouldn't want a saintess who is not pure. and the church was already aware of the saintess' night escapades. they are only waiting for a chance to get rid of her- but couldn't find one because he- or rather the original crown prince seemed to favor her.
but he is not the original crown prince.
he is just a good fiance who is willing to do everything for his beloved. and one of those is getting rid of the woman who once destroyed your self esteem.
now, let's go back to you. you are in your estate, getting ready for the ball that you and the yandere transmigrator would attend.
it was getting late and you are getting worried. thinking that even the soul that you put inside your fiance's body ended up favoring the saintess over you again.
but then, the entrance of the estate opened. yandere transmigrator entered while holding a bouquet of 100 pieces roses. seeing you letting out a sigh of relief, he smiled. teasing you that he would rather die than forgetting you.
while he was busy rambling about the roses that he bought. you noticed some red spots on his coat. you decided to ask him about it.
yandere transmigrator sweatdropped, avoiding your gaze and saying that he accidentally spilled the juice that he was drinking over him.
you stared at him, noticing his nervousness and the fact that he was lying. then you smiled, deciding to stop asking questions. because the only important thing for you right now is the fact that he is here. he didn't abandoned you just like last time.
while you were busy looking at the flowers. yandere transmigrator looked at you with a smile and his eyes were full of madness.
he already took care of everything that got onto his way. the only thing left now is tying himself down on this world and continue living his life as your fiance- even if it means that he might end up forgetting his true identity.
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"you don't get me at all, love. Why would I ever go back to a world of overworking and my sister’s screaming when i can stay here, be your favorite 'lazy' prince, and spend my days making sure everyone who ever annoyed you conveniently stops existing?"
The girl who didn't exist | Yandere! Bully x Male! Reader [ Pt. 2 ]
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Pairing : Yandere Bully x Male Crossdresser Reader
Content Warning : dubcon, bullying (verbal and physical), general yandere behavior
Author's Note : finally finished writing. never expected to write so much since this was supposed to be a quick fic lol T-T anyways, enjoy reading, my inbox is also open for requests!
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Walking into your shared classroom felt like a death sentence. Kaino’s presence lingered, suffocating and more intimidating than usual after what happened last night. His eyes followed your form as you went to take your seat at the very back row, his gaze almost stripping you. Measuring. Calculated.
With his group, he’d still bump your shoulder whenever you passed him in the hallways, a muttered “Princess” under his breath. But instead of his usual confidence, the insult felt hesitant. Like a question he didn’t know how to ask you.
Then lunch time came. You’d usually pack your own lunch and eat in an empty classroom to hide yourself away from Kaino and his group, but trouble seemed to find you either way.
You were halfway through your hearty meal when you heard the classroom door slide open then back close. Instinctively, your head turned towards the sound. It was Kaino.
The sound of dragging reached your ears, and before you could protest, he dropped into the seat he placed across from you, the force rattling the table. His friends were elsewhere. For once, it was just him and you.
You expected him to start speaking as soon as he sat down, but the silence simply stretched on. Finding it awkward, you turn your attention back to your meal and continue chewing with feigned calmness. Like how you acted unbothered when he approached you last night.
Then he finally cleared his throat “Hey.”
You didn’t bother to look up from your meal and look at him, afraid that you might give off a hint for him to pick up on if you raised your head. “What?”
You felt him lean closer, eyes narrowed and eyebrows furrowed in suspicion. “Do you have a sister?” He asked.
You paused your chewing for a mere second, your shoulders tensing. Then you continued, not wanting to raise suspicion “No.” You answered. Kaino’s expression made it seem like you had just slam the door on his face.
“Cousin?” He asked again, teeth gritted in frustration. He wasn’t too far off, but you weren’t about to let yourself get caught.
“No.” You shot him down again, but he was persistent.
“Neighbor?” “No.”
“Friend?” “..” You raise a brow.
“Anyone who looks like you?” Finally, you raised your gaze to look at him, and for a split second, you caught his eyes lighting up. A semblance of hope.
“No. Why are you asking me all of this?” You asked flatly.
Kaino’s face flickered almost immediately, expression tight. He was unable to answer, it’s not like he could openly admit that he was currently obsessing over someone who looked like you. That would be..
Kaino shook his head at the thought. Yes, you were pretty, but he cursed himself for looking at you that way. There was no way he could like a boy, no matter how pretty you were.
“Forget about it,” he scoffed under his breath. The silence persisted, both of you silently staring at each other. His eyes watched you with the intensity of someone trying to remember a blurry dream.
Then the bell rang. You took it as an opportunity to escape the situation. Your chair scraped when you stood up, packed your things, and left the room. Kaino stayed still for a second longer, then muttered something under his breath and walked out.
That night, your phone that was usually cold from the lack of messages buzzed to life with continuous messages. It started with an unknown number.
Unknown: Do you go to bars?
Unknown: This is Kaino btw.
You simply stared at the screen until it blurred. You didn’t bother replying, telling yourself that he’d forget about the whole ordeal after a few days. Then another message came in two minutes later.
Kaino: Hello?
Kaino: I know you’re reading my texts.
You set the phone down like it was hot, turning it off and heading to sleep.
That didn’t stop Kaino from trying anyway. The next day, he followed you halfway to your locker like a duck trailing behind its mother and asked almost absent-mindedly “Have you ever tried growing your hair out?”
You blinked at him. “What?”
He furrowed his eyebrows, almost as if he was upset at himself for asking something so ridiculous. “Nevermind. You look like a princess with short hair either way.” He muttered dismissively, lost in his own thoughts.
Later, you caught him scrolling on his phone between classes, thumb flicking too fast, searching, searching, and searching. But there was nothing to find. He was obviously starting to grow frustrated. You almost laughed.
The girl didn’t exist online because she didn’t exist at all.
Kaino’s frustration turned into obsession, and obsession turned into recklessness. He started hovering, looming in your periphery, waiting for a crack in you. The intensity of his assaults grew, not only verbally but also physically.
Normally he’d only shove, push, and pull. But recently, he began to use his fist against you, leaving bruises on their wake. You were going back to your dorm with a black eye, swollen lips, and bruised abdomen daily.
As much as Kaino felt guilty for having to rely on such measures, it was his way of easing his frustrations. He thought that if you looked beaten up enough, he would stop finding you pretty and stop comparing you to the stranger he’d been obsessing over.
But that only made it worse. Who knew he could find someone so attractive even when they’re all bruised up and crying?
Kaino was starting to get restless. Nothing was working. No matter how much your face bled and swelled, he still found himself locked in a bathroom stall after each beating, face flushed and a hand tucked inside his pants. He’d moan your cousin’s name like a prayer with each stroke of his hand, yet it never felt right.
Then he tried your name once. “Y/..n,” he muttered under his breath, eyes half-lidded and mouth slightly agape as his breathing quickened. He felt a shiver run down his spine, eyes wide as he felt the familiar warmth of his climax’s aftermath staining his hand.
He stared at his hand as if he grew a sixth finger, skin sticky from his own release. “.. What the fuck?”
It was only a matter of time before desperation got the best of him. He needed to see her again.
The cornering happened on a Friday. It happened behind the gym after classes, when the sky was bruised in the late afternoon and the air smelled like rain. You were on your way home when Kaino stepped in to block your path.
Your stomach dropped at the mere sight of him. “Move,” you said, almost instinctively.
Kaino refused to budge. But he also didn’t touch you. His hands were at his sides, fists flexing like he was wrestling himself. “I know it was you,” he said.
Your blood went cold.
He took a step forward, you took one back. That reaction was enough to tell him everything he needed to confirm, a raw laugh escaping his lips. It wasn’t mocking, not deranged either, just.. cold. It was a laugh you’d hear from someone in disbelief.
“I can’t find her. I can’t find anyone matching whatever information she gave me that night. And you’re the only person who makes sense.”
You tried to step around him. He shifted with you, still not touching, but blocking. “Stop,” you snapped. “I don’t want to hear whatever conspiracy theory you have.”
“I’m not gonna hurt you.” Kaino swallowed, but it seemed like he was reassuring himself more than he was reassuring you. “I can’t stop thinking about you,” he admitted. “Not just because of that ‘girl’. But because it’s.. you.”
Your throat tightened. You wanted to spit something back. You wanted to walk away. Was this a confession? If so, then it was ridiculous.
“I’ve heard enough,” you stopped him before he could start rambling. “I don’t care about what you feel about me or that girl you speak of. I just want to go home.”
You could sense his anger rising at the blunt rejection. Maybe it wasn’t such a good idea to turn him down when he was finally vulnerable for once. You found that out the hard way.
“Kaino–” You gasped out. His weight was pressed against yours, your lips swollen and cheeks bruised by the hand tightly gripping them to keep your head in place. You feel a wave of deja vu hit you as soon as his lips meet yours for the second time into a rough, heated kiss.
You could almost feel his frustration. His desire.
His grip on your cheeks tightened, prompting you to part your lips to give way for his tongue to slide right in. A hand wandered down your waist and brushed over the bruises he had left a couple days ago. His touch so gentle spoke to you, as if asking for your forgiveness with no words.
He pulled away soon after, watching your expression with a dark look. Expecting. “Do you remember everything now, [Fake name]?” He asked. “Did you enjoy watching me piece everything together like an idiot?”
You flinched at the harshness in his tone, chest aching at the thought of being caught. Averting your gaze, you couldn’t bring it upon yourself to look at him. “.. There’s no need for all of this. Just beat me to a pulp already if you’re that mad.”
He frowned in dissatisfaction at your answer. Did you really think he was confronting you just because he was mad?
No, he wasn’t just mad. He was livid.
Not only at you, but at himself for taking this long to make his move.
“And you think that would make everything alright?” He scoffed out a laugh. “No, you’re going to do something else for me.”
That’s how you found yourself wearing an exact replica of the clothes you wore that night at the bar. You were surprised that he’d even remember what you wore. But then again, he did imagine ripping it off of you that night but never got the chance to do so.
His hands settle at your hips, thumbs slowly tracing circles against the fabric. “You’re so pretty,” he muttered under his breath, looking at you as if he was undressing you with how intensely his dark eyes stared at you.
Then he leaned in to kiss you. It was slower than you expected. Like he’s deliberately refusing to rush, even though his body wants to. His lips part, warm and insistent, the sound he makes is quiet and wrecked, like he was granted access to something sacred.
Kaino exhaled through the kiss. He lifts one hand and trails his knuckles lightly along the side of your thigh, over the hem of the skirt, testing your reaction and was satisfied when he felt you groan against him. He ate up your moans and whimpers like a starving man in the middle of a desert.
His hands eventually trailed higher until it brushed against your throbbing erection. He pulled away, eyes dragging over your face again. “You know,” his voice dropped until you could barely hear him. “I keep thinking about you leaving that night.”
Your stomach tightens. Kaino’s thumb circled around the tip of your leaking cock. A restraint disguised as touch. “What about it?” you asked quietly.
Kaino leans forward and presses a gentle kiss to your forehead. A stark contrast to the rough hand that suddenly wrapped around your shaft, making you gasp out loud. He pulled you with him until you were chest to chest. His hand slid up and down at a constant pace, using your pre-cum as a lubricant to help his hand glide more smoothly.
His touch was careful, but the need underneath it is obvious. “I won’t make the same mistake twice,” he says. "You won’t be leaving tonight." It was phrased like a fact; landed like a boundary.
You hissed at the warmth building up at your lower abdomen, eyes glazed with tears as your grip around Kaino’s shoulders tightened, trying to keep yourself steady. Your legs were trembling, his words blurring inside your head.
You muster up some of your strength to reply, voice breaking slightly. “That’s not.. your decision.”
Kaino’s jaw tightens, a flash of something possessive, and then he visibly reins it in. His hands loosen, his shoulders drop.
“Say it,” he says hoarsely, basically pleading. “Say you’ll stay because you want to.”
He kisses you again, deeper this time. As if you were going to fade away if he lets you go.
The pace of his hand quickened, learning each vein and ridges with a patience that feels deliberate and shaky. You feel his restraint slowly fading, allowing the entirety of his desire to take over.
Your breathing grew heavy, mouth brushing against his. You closed your eyes tightly, the tears resting against the brim of your eyes trailing down your cheeks as you reached your climax and painted Kaino’s hand white with your load.
You were shaking in his hold. Kaino stills. Then very quietly he muttered, “I don’t want to hurt you.”
“But you did,” you say shakily in disdain, not cruel, just true.
Kaino pulled his soiled hand away from under your skirt, using his other hand to wipe away the tears from your cheeks. “I know.” His eyes didn’t seem to show any remorse despite his acknowledgement.
Instead, his mouth finds your neck. He kisses there, slow, then pauses as if he’s about to bite, about to mark, about to make his claim final.
He stops himself.
Instead, he presses his lips there again, gentler, and murmurs against your skin, “You can go ahead and hate me for it. It won’t change the fact that you’re mine.”