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in the beginning november 2nd was associated with dreaming of what his mother would be like, the smell of booze was heavy on dean and john's breath, and he'd usually stay awake after both john and dean passed out looking at photos of his mother but after jessica it wasn't about mary anymore, she was a dead woman he didn't remember but jessica, he remembered jessica. he loved her for at least two years and was going to marry her, and he thought of her still even fifteen years after she passed. every november 2nd while dean thought of mary he thought of jessica and her smile and her laugh and everything that made jessica jessica <33

just went on a plane for the first time my ears popped like 50 times

samjess had picnic dates and they went to art classes together and went to that one pottery place where they paint it and bookstore dates

in the documentary au after it they totally go do the space equivalent of the WIRED interviews and the buzzfeed videos and this is how the galaxy is saved

"My whole life, you take the wheel. You call the shots, and I trust you because you are my brother. Now, I am asking you, for once.. trust me." "No." Doesn't that just fucking hurt? A few seconds later Dean calls you a monster. Your whole life you've followed what your big brother has said , your whole life you've tried to listen, you did, despite sometimes your gut telling you not to. You would follow your brother to the end of the world. You would let him beat him down (and you have. you've let him punch you until your nose is bleeding, until your face is sunken in), and yet you're still a eight year old kid that can't be trusted. You're dirty and unclean and you're trying to do the right thing but everyone says it isn't. Everyone says that you're an abomination, a monster. Now so does your brother - the person that was supposed to protect you. So you respond in the way that you've grown up around, the way that your brother and father does. You slam your fist against his face.

john x azazel, enemies to lovers, slow burn, fuck buddies who hate each, mafia au, forbidden love, soulmate au, a/b/o dynamics, 500K words

hunter jess au where she punches john in the face as soon as she meets him bc she's appalled at the way sam 'n dean grew up and were trained and were used as bait